Hello everyone!

Thanks very much for all your feedback, I think in the majority of cases I've PMed you back. with my own private thought on this.

Jane is very different to the rest of the Shirley's isn't she? She's even more hot headed then the original Anne, and I think that's okay. What I didn't want was for me to set up a premise of her being different and then in the next chapter she's all changed all is well. It's not going to happen like that. Her family and her real friends are really going to be there and see the difference in her.

But as well, though it, I want people to see a very vulnerable side to Jane which she protects, but she does it by not being her in some ways and hiding who she is under a facade, (Which Anne actually suspects in this chapter)

One or two of you know what I have planned for her, where I'm going in some respects.

I'm so glad you all care enough to come back and check on Anne's 'siblings', all of whom I made up. I think I've said it before they are all so alive inside my head. I know each one. Some I know more then others, but they are all there.

love

Carrots x

Jane sat on the veranda, books in hand studying the work which had been sent up from Charlottetown just that day. Anne had insisted on her starting right away she didn't want to fall behind! She watched as her sister entertained the three small children round her. The had gone into the garden to pick flowers she smiled as Joyce stilled her mother to slide flowers into Anne's hair clumsily, while Anne made a daisy chain fit for a queen she placed it nimbly on her head as if Joyce were a queen. Jane laughed as she saw Joyce curtsy to Anne as if she were royalty. The boys came to Anne with cardboard swords and dubbed to be knighted by their Queen-Anne.

Jane grinned at the sight.

"Aunty Jane!" Joyce called. "come play with us!"

"I can't." Jane said with a kind smile to her niece. "I must finish this school work." She told her. With that Joyce ran into the garden as Anne came up and looked at her schoolwork from behind.

"Well…" She said kindly. "At least in all this you've not fallen behind in your studies."

"Papa wouldn't allow it." She simply said.

"Would you?" Anne asked her still on the chair opposite and putting her feet on a free chair.

Jane shrugged and looked down at her school work. "What does it feel like Anne?" She asked her sister. "Being a grown up? Making all your own decisions without someone looking over your shoulder."

Anne smiled widely and looked to Jane. "Exactly as I would have felt at 15 and making the decisions I have to." She said to her truthfully. Anne took a sigh and continued. "Being a grown-up, isn't all its made out to be. Sometimes I wish I had mama over my shoulder telling me which choice to make."

"Isn't that the beauty of being a grown-up!" Jane exclaimed. "I mean look at you, you have Gilbert and Joyce, Gil Jr and Walter-John…." She trailed.

"But think on it." Anne counter-argued. "What if, Gilbert and I get into a disagreement? What if we fought?" she said. "Wouldn't it be grand to have someone there telling you how to resolve things peacefully?"

"You and Gilbert never argue!?" Jane looked in shock towards her sister. "Do you?"

"And what about my babies?" She asked Jane, "What if I'm raising them wrong?!" She exclaimed. "Oh what I wouldn't do for some motherly advice, Ma knows better than me she's had eight of us!"

"She only messed up on one of us at least." Jane muttered quietly.

Anne looked to her sister quite seriously, "I don't think she's messed up on any of us Jane." Anne told her honestly. Jane looked up at Anne with more hope in her eyes then Anne had seen in her little sister since she arrived. "Come now Jane, are you really beyond hope?" Anne asked.

"You don't think I'm a delinquent?" Jane asked Anne.

Anne laughed. "Well, I hope you are not." Anne said. "But then, its always up to you to control your own destiny." Anne brought her feet down and clasped her hands in front of us. "We've been brought up with unusual freedoms Jane, ones which other girls, our peers don't get from their parents, never mind society." Anne paused a moment as she saw the thought sink into Jane's mind it seemed to affect her somehow, before she continued. "Do you really think Mama and Papa brought us into this world to overpopulate it?"

Jane looked to Anne in shock. "She told you." Jane blushed.

"Do… do you think we are overpopulating the world Jane?" Anne said looking towards her own children. "That they are a waste of space and resources?"

"No!" Jane objected quickly. "No, not ever… not Joyce nor Gil Jr. or Walter-John!" Anne looked at her sister with wide eyes, Jane knew so well. "I…" her heart raced.

"Have you been taking some secret delight in expressing opinions which are not your own to try and hurt or get a rise out of mamma?" Anne asked her. Jane looked down to her lap, shamefully. "You know, I was there, when you were born." She said quietly.

Jane looked up at her sister. "Really?" she asked with a happy glimmer in her eye.

Anne smiled and nodded. "I got to hold you while Mamma was pushing with Walt." She sighed. "I remember looking at you and just thinking how much mamma really would have wanted you, to go through what she went through and how much she really must love us all."

Jane went silent. "but twins…" She said quietly. "Don't you wonder Anne, if she had a choice would she really of had twins, one of us was an accident?" She said self-defeated.

Anne looked at Jane with a tear in her own eye. "Who put that thought into your head?" Anne asked her.

Jane dare not admit it was her new group of friends which put it there. She had been with Trev when a few of his friends came over and one of them knew her family.

"So, you're a twin right?" one had asked.

"Oh." Jane said confused. "Yes, that's right." She confirmed.

"So, which one of you were the accident?" he had said.

Trev had said nothing to defend her, and, on reflection Jane thought, had actually encouraged the idea of her not being wanted by the end of the conversation had said

"Come away with me," he had told her.

"where?" she asked.

"Somewhere, where you are wanted." He said with a wry smile.

"I think a twin is a miracle." Anne said softly to her. "You get to hold and love two babies at once." Anne smiled "and then of course there's that twin bond thing, of all the people, in all the world, Walt couldn't be away from you." Anne said. "And mamma…" Anne sighed softly "If you had seen the way she looked at you both when you were born, you would know what a miracle you are." She sighed and kissed her sister in her hair. "Especially to a mamma." Anne looked at her sisters work again.

Jane's eyes met her sisters, tears forming in them, "Anne," She whispered. "Did you always want babies? I mean isn't that why you and Gilbert used birth control?" she asked.

Anne laughed, "he told you that, hm?" Anne remarked. "we didn't think it was the best time yet." Anne emphasized.

"But did you want babies?" Jane asked, "Always? Or did that change?" she asked.

Anne shuddered. "I didn't think about it before Gilbert, but I was 16 when I met him and I never thought about babies before that." She sighed "I didn't want a boys attention like that before…" she trailed.

"Your first love." Jane said.

Anne smiled and nodded "My first love." Anne looked to her sister. "And yours? Who is your first love?"

Jane shook her head and laughed. "I don't think love is the best word for it." She acknowledged. "For a while it was dangerous and fun, but then, I don't know, it was like I was doing it because that's what I did."

"Habit forming behavior." Anne said.

"Yeah." Jane answered. "I suppose that's exactly what it was."

"It's a shame." Anne replied to her. "It's a shame you didn't get to share your first kiss with your first love." Anne said, "its very powerful, those kisses, those promises…"

"I haven't you know." Jane said feeling like she had to defend herself again. "I mean kissing yes but not…"

"You've said." Anne said in return. "Do you think I don't believe you?" Anne asked her.

"Mamma doesn't, she keeps asking."

"I believe you." Anne confirmed. "But Jane it's a dangerous game you are playing. Toying with those emotions."

"What do you know?" Jane said again trying to defend her position, "it was always Gil with you, it was never anyone else, he was always going to be the one who took your virginity away."

"I might not have toyed with those emotions but someone else did try Jane." Anne proclaimed to her.

Jane looked at her confused. "Someone tried…" Jane looked to her in amazement, "someone tried without your permission?"

Anne's breathing had momentarily stopped, her eyes filling slowly with tears. "Gilbert stopped him before it happened." Anne sighed, "But, this, man, tried to force himself on me yes." She admitted.

Jane looked wide eyed at her. "Anne…" She breathed. "I'm so sorry." She gasped. "I… I didn't know." She said.

"Of course you didn't." Anne admitted, "You were too young to say anything about it to." She sighed. "You see…" She sighed. "I didn't take part in playing those sort of games, but, I certainly know the consequences." She sighed, "If I could prevent you from feeling that pain Jane, I would. If I could shield you from it…" she bit her bottom lip. "But then that would be useless if you deliberately put yourself in harms way, and going to Far Point, being with those kind of people…" she trailed. "Is just that."

Jane's arms went around her sister as hot tears streamed down their faces. "I didn't know." Jane kept whispering.

Anne pulled back and looked at her sister. "Please I beg of you Jane." She started. "please, change your behavior before you are in harms way. Don't make decisions either way about babies at 15, we've both seen what that does to people!" Anne exclaimed with a playful raised brow the sight of which Jane giggled. "Make that decision when you are with your Gilbert, the man you'll marry, because he will see into your soul like no one else can." She said. She looked to Jane. "Is Trev your Gilbert?" Anne asked her seriously.

"I.." Jane swallowed "I don't, think so. No, he isn't, he's no Gilbert." She sighed. "Do you think there is a Gilbert out there for everyone?"

Anne smiled "Oh yes Jane. Diana found her Fred, Mary found her Alex, I found my Gilbert and you find yours. You'll know, one day everything will click into place and you'll know. He understands like no one else does, possibly even Walt." Anne said with a laugh to Jane. She looked at her sisters work again "You know, you are further along then I thought you were, take a well deserved break, Why don't you go and play with your niece and nephew?" Anne asked her.

Jane looked at Anne with a full smile. "Really?" She asked to which Anne smiled and nodded.

"I think they need a woodland princess to reign over them!" Anne confirmed. Jane smiled and ran to her niece and nephew.

Anne smiled fondly. She couldn't believe it had been fifteen years ago that Jane was just that baby she had held in her arms. And Anne didn't know for sure although she suspected, despite this façade Jane had been playing, she was still the sweet little girl she always had been.