ALL HAIL S.E.HINTON I DONT OWN TGE OUTSIDERS
Steves P.O.V.
Pony and Johnny have finally come back from the...bathroom? The fuck were they doing? Ponyboy...I think of his name and smile inwardly. I have liked Pony since fucking grade school!!! I never show it, because no way am I gonna be a fucking fag, but I can't help it. Something about him...but I don't think he's gay. I hate myself for being gay. Anyway, Ponyboy comes into the living room along with Johnny. They look hella anxious. I roll my eyes when Pony says "So guys…"
Gotta keep the charade going.
"Alright, so we need to tell y'all somethin." Johnny says, wrapping his arm around Pony. I furrow my brow and tilt my head. Are they...no. No. NO. PONYS FUCKING GAY!!!!!! AND I FUCKING MISSED OUT! I quickly collect myself and look at Johnny and Pony like I don't understand.
"Me and Johnny are...together. Like gay together." Ponyboy says nervously, and kisses Johnny, like he's trying to prove it. And just like that, my world comes crashing down.
However, I still need to pretend not to fucking care. Plus, even if I do "hate" Ponyboy, I do NOT want to see him sad. So, I sarcastically clap my hands slowly.
"Ok Ponyboy, good fir youuuuu." I say slowly. Then I drop my hands and say nervously, "But seriously, Pony. Im happy fir you and Johnny, glad yall are happy." Ponyboy stares at me in surprise. I stare back and widen my eyes a little. Was I too obvious there? Does he know? I make a feeble excuse about going to the bathroom, then turn the corner and leave the room in a daze. I stand around the corner and watch the gang. Theyre all smiling at Pony and Johnny and saying things like "Im cool with that, dont sweat," and "Glad you came out, weve been shipping yall." All they are is supportive. I turn my back to the gang. I cant deal with this right now. I push my head against the wall, leaning on it for a minute. Then, suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder. Its Ponyboy. I turn my face away. Ponyboy turns it back to him.
"Steve..." he says carefully.
"Can we talk?" I blurt out.
"Uhhh...yeah."