I shot up straight in bed breathing heavy. My body is aching, what a dream. I was in my bedroom at my dads house.
Then I stood up and opened the curtains as I walk past the mirror I see red. I go back to the mirror and see I'm covered head to toe in blood. My throat has a faint red line on it where it was cut. I stumble back. I'm drenched in blood. It's everywhere.
I feel different too, angry. How can my parents do this to me? What has been done to me? I feel like crying and breaking down but I don't, I can't let them see me cry, my friends and family just stood by and watched. Who do I trust now? Simon.
Where the fuck is Simon. Suddenly as if my head had answered the question I was zapped to Simon, he was laying in a bed he looked pale and cold. Whatever they are-or whatever I am, its safe to say poor Simon is too.
I hope he didn't have to do what I did. I looked at his throat and there was no line. No blood anywhere on him actually.
I heard shouting from the hall way.
"SHE ISN'T FUCKING IN THERE!" it was Jace's voice. Oh boy am I pissed. These fuckers are really going to get it when they find me.
"Simon" I heard my brother call. I head the footsteps get louder till the bedroom door shoots open. I remember now I'm still covered in blood and a giant mess.
I kept my gaze on Simon as I slowly rose from the bed. Then I moved my gaze around the room. Looking from each one of my make believe friends to the other. I gave each of them at least a good three second stare before moving onto the other. Lastly I reached Jace. I could see in his eye's he was worried. He flinched when I looked at him coldly.
"Get. The. Fuck. Out." I said it slowly and surely so they each knew I wasn't joking.
"Clare bear can we please talk about this" John pleaded. I was having non of this.
"You stood there while I was sliced and diced, while some weird fucking creature slit my throat and dragged me into the river and before you say it was necessary and you had too, You shall be surprised to know I'm just not feeling that fucking way at the moment, and I would like for every single one of you to leave this fucking room, before I really loose it."
Non of them moved just stood shocked.
"NOW!" I shouted. Just then my hand went up and they all just fell through the wall, like it was invisible and the door slammed shut.
"Wow" I heard Simon say from the bed looking towards the door.
"Simon" I cried and hugged him tightly
"Clary are you alright, Im so sorry they got us, I should have listened when you told me you didn't feel comfortable. I had to watch you go through hell. Then Maia made me drink some of her blood and then everything went dark" He stopped realising I was covered in blood.
"Oh clary"
"I don't know who to trust anymore Si, what do I do? I'm doing all these new weird things and I don't want to! I want to be normal! I don't even feel human anymore" I could feel the tears sting my eyes. Simon hugged me for ages.
"I'm Hungry" He sighed.
"You better go get some explanations from your girlfriend while I take a shower" I closed my eyes and tried doing what I did before, with a rush of air I was standing in my room again.
I took a shower and changed into dark blue jeans and a fluffy blue jumper. I left my bedroom nobody was there. That's when the voices in my head came.
'what if she hates me forever and I can't get her back?' I could tell this was Jaces head, it was full of self loathing.
'Simon won't speak to me, I just wanted him to stay with me forever' Maia she's the only one who thinks about Simon that way
'Poor Clary, I wish I could have done more to help her' My best friend Simon
'I hate this, I knew we should have given her the option' Alec
'We didn't have a choice, but she was my best friend? I let her go through that alone' Izzy
'If only we had given her the option, she would have probably thought we were crazy, poor clary' Magnus
'The first time was hard enough but to watch her cry out the second time was even worse' John.
I tried shutting them out by shaking my head. It was starting to hurt my brain, I walked into the kitchen where everyone stopped what they were doing to look at me.
"You would have thought I was still covered in my own blood the way your all looking at me, Do you have another sacrifice planned tonight or am I good to go to bed?" I spit sourly. Simon smiles while the rest of them look terrified.
"I should say I always thought I was cold hearted but you guys make me look like a fucking saint!"
"watch your mouth Clarissa" I looked over to where I saw my mother was standing.
"Oh did you hear that? You didn't seem to hear me yesterday when I was screaming your name and begging for you to help me, tell me MOTHER what kind of mum watches her child get slaughtered because she wants her daughter to stay forever by her side? That's selfish don't you think? Even more so if I died in a pervious life? I suppose you watched then didn't you? Sick bitch" I turned away smiling and winking at Simon
"HOW DARE YOU!" Luke screamed. I started laughing darkly and looked at Luke all the laughter gone from my face.
"Listen here Luke if I wanted you to stick your choppers in every time I speak to my mother I would ask you, now be quiet and play nice before I chop your fucking tongue out and feed it to someone's dog" His shocked expression had me pulling of a wicked smirk.
"Clarissa that's enough" My dad's voice behind me. I must have pulled an amazing face because it had Luke back tracking to the other side of the kitchen. I turned slowly to face my dad.
"Hello Daddy, How are you, you fucking wanker!" I spit at him.
"We had our reason's for doing what we did Clarissa and I will stick by them" I started laughing
"Of course you do, because your a power hungry bastard who wants to use what I have as a weapon, you see everybody in here has a reason for doing what they did, but did any of you both to ask what I thought? No. Listen up Dad you made your fucking bed and your going to lie in it, if you think I'm going to follow every order you give me then your a bigger fucking fool then you look! Every single one of you in this room, apart from poor Simon who now also has to adapt to a new life put me through hell for selfish reasons and I can only pray that when you all do eventually die that you are all going to be spending a terrible time in agony and pain but you know what, you deserve it and I swear to god ill be there to see it!"
My dad comes storming at me. Anger took over and he ended on the floor clutching at his throat trying to stop the choking.
"Its not nice to be choked is it? Imagine a giant big ass snake coming out of that mouth right now. Poor bastard" I roll my eye's and watched him fall to the floor gasping for breath.
"Si, fancy going somewhere" I asked beaming at him
Simon stood up and smiled back
"I'm up for that, where we off" He said
"Clary can we please talk about this like adults" Izzy said and stood up. I looked at her like she was an alien
"You sacrificed me less then 12 hours ago and you want what? a hug? Maybe a kiss? How about we sit at home and paint our nails and watch friends on the telly all day! Or maybe you can go fuck yourself you heartless cow! YOU TOOK MY LIFE AWAY! I'm sorry if this isn't what you expected but this is the way it is!" Izzy looked shocked and upset. Fuck her
"Come on Si, I don't particularly like the people in this room and I don't fancy saying here for much longer" Simon moved away from Maia with a face of disgust.
I smiled and we made our way out to my car.
"Maybe I can drive the car with my mind like I did choking my dad"
"That Clary was fucking hilarious" I started laughing with him
"I know right, poor bastard" We laughed driving off.
"Where are we going?" Simon asked
"Were running away I think" Simon looked at me shocked
"What?!"
"I'm joking Si, I don't want to be with a bunch of murder's!" I tensed up and took big breaths to calm down.
"You do realise, that you were a witch at least 200 years ago and murdered an entire village"
"SIMON! that was past me, apparently! this is new me, they should have told me or asked me! I can't get that out of my head and im forever going to see the people who truly took my life away from me"
"I know, Maia turned me into I don't know what!" I looked at him
"Its a good question, what are we? what am I? what are you?"
"Its safe to say your a bad ass witch" I laughed.
"You though? have they told you"
"Yeah, they said something about been a 'Protector' to the witch you get strength and something like that. Its only you, Magnus and Jace which are all special" This was news
"Magnus and Jace are Special?"
"Yeah they're both 'worlocks'" Simon said in a deep voice.
"How are we go to the Library and read up about me?"
"Sounds good let's do it!"
Me and Simon pulled up at the library and walked in.
After half an hour of searching and finding I was ready to give up.
"I've found something, but it wasn't under Clary Morgenstern it was under Clary Herondale" I froze.
"I was married to that bastard before then" Simon nodded
"Yeah, You were sacrificed at the age of 16 then, That was you, you refused to use your power and your family and friends were changed to protect you"
"they didn't do a good fucking job obviously" Simon chuckled
"Then it say's you met a mysterious man who you soon married and had kids with" Me and Simon stopped breathing for a minute " Well that can't be fucking right" I said disgusted!
"Holy shit, it might be wrong, I don't see Jace harbouring two kids around do you?" I shook my head. Fuck.
"This is complete mind fuck" Simon says
"What else?" I nudge him to carry on
"It say's to put her family and friends out of danger she sacrificed herself and swore to the only alive townspeople she would be back to burn down their world-It also says here you killed at least three villages" Simon looked at her smirking
"Fuck sake man, So that's why I'm so angry. I would love to kill my dad- I think I will" Me and Simon burst out laughing.
I brought the book so I could read it when I got back.
When I did get back they were having a meeting with each other. Simon and I walked in the room. Everyone stared at us yet again. I tutted and rolled my eye's leaving the room, Simon didn't follow which I was glad off, I needed some time.
I opened the book and as soon as I touched the pages they lit up. The next thing I knew it was like the pages were dragging me in.