I'm sorry I haven't been updating, I am always busy doing something and don't have much time to myself, but I promise I will finish this story. I promise I will post at least 2 chapters a week. I have another story I'm writing at the same time. I love reading the comments, I always check them out everyday so please keep them coming.

Wow, I couldn't believe he was here, standing in front of me. He looked just like his dad.

"May I come in?"

"Yes, of course." I said as I stepped to the side to let him in.

"I'm sorry to be coming this late, but I couldn't wait any longer."

"Oh, don't worry about it, I'm glad you're here. May I ask how you found me?"

We both sat down onto the couch.

"Well, for the longest time my father wouldn't tell me anything about you, I kept asking him for years, even threatened to never talk to him if he didn't' tell me, but he never did. And as I'm sure you know, todays my eighteenth birthday. After the party we had, I asked my father again. Whenever I brought you up he would get angry, and try and change the subject or leave the room, but today I wouldn't let him. He finally told me your name, and that the last thing he knew was you were living in Houston with your husband and your kids. I spent the rest of the day looking you up, and I was able to find your address. I drove here, and I have spent a lot of the time in my car, I was too afraid to knock at your door."

"Your dad?"

"Yeah, my dad, Narvel Blackstock."

I froze when he said that name.

"He told me he met you at a bar one night. He also said you were a mistake….."

"Oh he did did he? Well he's not mr perfect."

"I know" he said with a laugh. "He didn't say much about you, I had to practically twist his arm to get your name out of him."

"Did he raise you?"

"Yeah, he did. After his wife found out about me, he made him make a choice, it was either me or her. He said he wouldn't turn away his kid, so he told her he wasn't going to give up his son. So she packed her bags and left and took their three kids with her. They got a divorce not too long after that, and my dad fought for years to see his kids. He would only see them when the courts allowed him too. Eventually he won full custody when they determined she wasn't fit to raise kids on her own."

I can't believe what he's telling me. Narvel never wanted Shelby.

"My dad never remarried, I never really had someone in my life that was like a mother, its one of the reasons why I wanted to find you so bad. But I do have one question for you that I really want to know the truth to. Why did you abandon me?"

I was scared, how was I to tell my son the truth, but as he looked me into the eye, I knew I couldn't lie to him. I was stuck.

"Well, as your dad said we met in a bar. I was married and had two young children, and my husband and I weren't exactly getting along at the time and I needed to get away for the night, and that's when I met your dad. One thing led to another, and a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I was scared to be honest, I didn't know who your father was, whether it was Narvel or Brocks."

"Brock is your husband?"

"Ex-husband now, but yes. I told Brock I was pregnant and he was very thrilled. A few months into my pregnancy, I made the decision to find out the truth. So I had a DNA test done, and come to find out Narvel was your dad. I didn't know how I was going to tell my family that I had an affair and this baby wasn't Brocks."

"So what did you do?" I could tell he was getting a little angry as the truth was revealed.

"Well I made a hard choice. I told Brock that I miscarried. He was extremely upset and I hated doing it to him, but I was afraid to tell him the truth, so I hid the rest of the pregnancy from him, which wasn't easy."

"Okay, so obviously you gave birth to me, but I don't know what happened after that, dad won't tell me anything."

At this point I was looking at my hands in my lap, I couldn't bare to look into his face as I told him the truth.

"Well, when I went into labor, I went to a hospital a ways away from Houston, and gave birth to you. I made the hardest choice I have ever made in my life and I left you there and came home."

He stood up obviously upset. "So, you're telling me that you left me at the hospital?"

"I'm really sorry Shelby."

"Sorry! You're sorry? Sorry about what, the fact that I grew up my whole life without a mother? The fact that I didn't know a single thing about you? How I would imagine how things would have been had you been in my life? How apparently I wasn't good enough to be a part of your life? How you don't love me?" he was almost in tears as he was saying this. I started to cry.

"Shelby, it's nothing like that, I love you so much."

"You love me so much that you don't even care what happened to me when you left?"

"I can't do this, I'm leaving" he said as he walked to the door. I got up and ran to him and grabbed his arm to stop him.

"Shelby you have to listen, I never wanted to leave you, I was scared, and I didn't know what to do. You have to believe me. I love you so much, and I regret it more then I regret anything else in this world!"

He refused to make eye contact with me, and I could see the tears in his eyes, it absolutely broke my heart.

"I wish I never came." he said as he started for the door. "Please, leave me alone, don't bother looking for me. I did fine so far on my own, and I will do just fine without you from now on."

He left me standing there in tears, shaking. 'I can't believe this.' I thought.

I was still standing there looking at the door when I heard someone come down the stairs. I look to my right to see a very angry looking Kyra walking down the steps.

"Is this true mom?" she asked.

"What are you talking about?"

"I heard everything mom. I woke up when the doorbell rang, and I stopped at the top of the stairs, I heard everything."

I froze, scared out of my mind. I couldn't believe Kyra heard our conversation.

"So I'm going to ask again mom, is it true?"

I look down to the floor and just nodded my head.

"I can't believe this! How many other families do you have?"

"Kyra let me explain."

"Explain what, how you cheated on dad, how you had a secret child, or how much of a slut you are?"

"Kyra! You will not speak to me like that, I am still your mother."

"I can't do this. I'm leaving." she said as she walked out the door, slamming it on her way out.

I sat myself on the couch and just cried. I knew things from this day forward would not be the same.