A/N: Here's the fourth chapter. There will be some important things happening in the coming chapters, so stay tuned! Enjoy!

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Chapter 4

-Jessica-

My mom and I walked through the mall. We were shopping together. There was a small ice cream bar and we decided to go there to take a little break. We walked over to the bar and I noticed someone standing right next to me. He looked down at me and smiled. I looked at him in shock. I knew him. I had seen him somewhere before. But where? He saw my confused look and gave me a wink and then he just walked away. Not telling me his name. Not saying anything. ''What is it sweetheart?'' My mom asked. I realized she had been asking me a couple of times which flavour of ice cream I wanted. ''Nothing. There's nothing wrong…'' I repeated. Still staring at the place where the strange, yet familiar man had disappeared in the crowd.

''I need to speak to the Doctor immediately.'' I stood up, I had been sitting in the room I had been given for a couple of hours to think, and set off to search of the Doctor. Where could he be?

I found the Doctor in the Room of a Thousand Fountains. I had only heard of the room in the TV series and was very curious to see what it actually looked like. I walked in and I was absolutely amazed by what I saw. It was even more beautiful than I imagined it would be. There were all kinds of different plants and small waterfalls. A few Jedi Masters were meditating and I thought it best not to disturb them. The Doctor wandered through the room with his thinking-face on. His brow was furrowed and he looked concerned for some reason. I needed to speak to the Doctor about the things I had seen. I knew he could give me an explanation. I walked up to him and tapped him on the shoulder.

''Doctor, we need to talk.'' I said to him.

He turned around to face me. ''Yes, we do.'' He only said. Since when was he so serious? This was not the Doctor I had come to know. Normally he would say something witty in return. Always trying to brighten everyone's spirit.

''What do you need to tell me, Doctor?'' I asked him, since he already said that he needed to talk to me and he couldn't know what I was going to tell him.

''You first.'' He answered. I sighed, I had already suspected this and I decided to just go with it. Protesting wouldn't help this time, I could see in his eyes that he was dead-set on hearing my story first. However, I was a little thrown off by the little spark of sadness in his eyes. Why would he be sad? I guessed I would find out very soon, at least I hoped I would.

''Doctor. I have been having dreams, visions, flashbacks, I don't know, for the last couple of days. Since we came here actually. At first I thought nothing of it, but they kept coming. At first they weren't clear at all, just feelings. When I was in the medical bay I woke up screaming from a dream. You remember right?'' I asked him and he nodded so I continued. ''You said it was just a nightmare, but I'm not so sure about that anymore. I think it actually happened, but I don't know what it means. In the second dream I saw a familiar face disappear behind the walls of my school. It disappeared too fast to really get a good look at it, but one thing I know for sure. He was looking directly at me.'' I gave him a quick glance; to see what his reaction was. His face was just blank. ''The next time something happened, it was very intense. I screamed to someone that he had to stay, but he said he couldn't. He just walked away from me.'' The Doctor's expression changed into one of sorrow. I decided I had to keep talking. I needed to know the truth. ''I just had another dream. I saw that man again. I was shopping with my mom and we were just taking a break. He smiled upon me, gave me a wink and then walked away.'' His face didn't betray much. ''Doctor. You were that man. You were there all those times. I saw you when I walked out of school; when I was shopping; and you were the one that just walked away from me!'' I was shouting now. How could he be so impassive? He left me alone. He had known all along who I was, where I lived, who my friends were, and all those times he hadn't said a word to me.

''Jessica…- '' He coughed. ''I don't know how to tell you this.'' He looked pained.

''You have to tell me what? You stalked me my whole life. You have always known about me. You left me. Why? Why should I even listen to you?'' I was so angry. I began to shake. I couldn't handle all of the emotions that were raging inside of me. I dropped to the ground, crying. He walked over to me and sat beside me. He just put an arm around me. After I had gathered myself a little, I asked him, ''Why, Doctor?''

''Because I couldn't do anything else.'' He answered.

''Doctor. I need to know the whole story.''

''I know.'' He sighed. ''I knew that someday the time would come when I would have to tell you. I just didn't expect that it would be so soon. And that it would be here…''

''What? Why are you saying 'here' like that? You knew that we would come here?''

''Yes, I knew it from the start.'' I became more and more confused. ''It's time for me to tell you, Jessica. It will be difficult; you understand me?''

''I think so.'' I answered him. Although I didn't quite get why it would be difficult. But he was looking so serious, I knew this was something very big. Very important. And it had to do with me.

''It started when you were very young. You were just four years old. There was a war going on here.'' Why was he talking about this place? There were already questions swirling through my head, but I decided to just let him talk and not interrupt him. ''The war destroyed everything. It broke families. I was there. On your home planet Onderon. It was attacked by a grand army. Your parents were planning to take you to Coruscant, but they were too late. They did everything they could to protect you, and they died trying to save you. I saw it all happen. I made the promise to your father that I would protect you and watch out for you.'' By the time he told me this, I was already crying again. ''You were so young at the time. I couldn't keep you with me. It would have been too dangerous. I decided to give you a new home. Earth. I still have good friends there and you were adopted by one of my best friends. Your father and mother on Earth promised to raise you as if you were their own child. I knew you were in good hands with them. During your whole life I have been there, watching you. That time at school, when you were shopping with your mother, and many more times. I knew that I would someday take you with me in the Tardis.'' He finished his story and looked at me.

''So it's all true.'' I said in shock. ''The screaming. The dying people. You leaving me. All of it is true.''

''Yes. I'm so sorry.'' He said with tears in his eyes.

''You'd better be sorry. Doctor, how could you?'' My anger boiled up again.

''I didn't have a choice, Jessica. I couldn't do anything more. I only ask you to forgive me. I don't ask you to understand everything I did.'' I stayed silent for a while.

'' You cared for me my whole life.'' I mumbled. I slowly realized that he really didn't have a choice. ''Thank you Doctor.'' I said to him.

''Thank you, Jessica. For forgiving me.'' He said and gave me a hug.

''But, Doctor… There's still one thing I wonder about.'' I pushed him back to look him in the eyes. ''Why did you bring me here? You knew, yet you still brought me here.''

''Yes. I did it because I thought you had to be here even if it was just this one time. You had to see your true home, even though you wouldn't know. I knew that there was a risk you would have flashbacks. But I had to take that risk.''

''I understand.'' There was still something not right. ''I feel there's something else you need to tell me, Doctor. You're holding something back. Tell me.''

''Why are you so smart?'' He said with a slight smile and then he sighed. ''There's indeed something I haven't told you. It's hard for me to tell you this…''

''Doctor.'' I said softly. ''You need to tell me.''

''Yes I do. Jessica, there's a reason you have been having these flashbacks. They're actually not flashbacks. Well not entirely. They're visions. You can see visions… and that's because you are Force-sensitive. Your parents knew this and were planning to take you to the Jedi Temple, but that didn't happen, as you know. I also knew that you were Force-sensitive. I never told you, because it would complicate things. You needed to live a normal, safe life. That's also why I didn't tell you about my existence. Now you're here… When you were in the med-bay they took blood samples, not to test for diseases as they told you, but for a midi-chlorian count. The Force speaks through the midi-chlorians. They found out you have a very large amount of them in your body, so that means you're very strong with the Force.''

''What?!'' I screamed. I saw some Jedi looking up, disturbed by my screaming. ''Sorry.'' I mumbled.

''I expect the Council will want to talk to you about this tomorrow.'' He said.

''What do I have to say? My life is on Earth, not here.'' I said to him in despair.

''You need to trust your heart, Jessica. You need to decide who you want to be.''

''I don't understand…''

''Jessica, we all change. You need to make the best of your life. Sometimes life is hard, sometimes life is fun and sometimes you have to make decisions, but you know… You need to be the person you would love to be. I don't know what you're going to choose, but let me promise one thing,'' he looked very deep into my eyes. ''There's a lot of things you need to get across this universe. Warp drive… Wormhole refractors… You know the thing you need most of all?''

''What?''

''A hand to hold. I'll be that hand to hold. No matter what you choose.'' He hugged me one last time. ''Now you need to rest Jessica. You need to think. You need to recover. And most of all you need to decide.'' He walked away and I was left in confusion. I shook my head and walked to my room. What was he talking about? What did I have to do? What was waiting for me tomorrow when I would go to the Council? So many questions, so few answers. The Doctor almost seemed like Yoda. He also spoke in riddles. Was there even one person in the galaxy that could understand the two of them? I didn't think so.

The first thing that went through my head the next morning was that I was terrified to go to the Council. I was going to the Jedi Council. I needed a couple of minutes to get myself ready for this. Right. Okay. Need to look nice. I washed myself and put the clothes on, that were laying on top of a chair. They were almost a perfect fit. It was a dark blue shirt and a dark blue skirt, red leggings underneath it and black boots. They looked a little like Ahsoka's clothes. I kinda liked it, but it was very different from what I was used to. Just after I had put the clothes on, I heard knocking on the door. Who would it be? I tried to guess the identity of the one standing on the other side of the door. I believed it was Ahsoka. She had probably come to take me to the Council.

''Come in.'' I said.

''Good to see you awake, Jessica. You look a lot better with clean clothes on. You almost look like one of us.'' It was indeed Ahsoka.

''Thanks, I guess.'' I smiled and she smiled back.

''Do you need any help with anything?''

''I think I can manage.''

''Alright then.'' She said, then she continued, ''Jessica, it seems like you feel at home here. Are you really at ease here or is it just pretending?''

''Hmmm… I don't know. Now that you mention it, I do feel at home here, for some strange reason. Maybe it has something to do with comfort zones?''

''Maybe. That would partially explain it.'' She didn't sound like she truly believed my explanation. There was a frown on her face. I was also puzzled; I couldn't explain why I felt at home here. ''Well, sometimes you have to do something out of your comfort zone.''

''Just give me some clankers to destroy, then I'm happy. I think I'm in my comfort zone in battle, on the front line, destroying some clankers.'' She said with a grin.

''Aah. I see. Weird.''

''Weird. Or perfectly normal. Depends on your point of view.'' She countered. I now finally fully understood why Anakin called her Snips. She had a good sense of humour. And sarcasm.

''Come on, the Council has already requested you. We shouldn't keep them waiting for too long.'' She said suddenly. She gestured for me to follow her and she led me to the Council Chambers.

''Aren't you coming with me?''

''You have to do this on your own. Besides, my Master needs me in the strategy room. Good luck.'' And she walked away. Great. Now I had to do this on my own.

''Welcome, Jessica Elzinga.'' Mace Windu said to me. He had pronounced my last name totally wrong, but I couldn't blame him. It was a typical Dutch surname and every English person I had met, had trouble pronouncing it. I nodded to all the Jedi Masters. They had such serious expressions on their faces, didn't these guys ever have a laugh or anything?

''Need to tell you something important we do.'' Yoda said. ''And then make a decision you must.'' There it was again. Now Yoda and the Doctor had both said I needed to make a decision. I was very confused and also worried. What would the effect of this decision be?

''Worried, you should not be young one.'' Yoda said reassuringly. He said like it was so easy to not be worried. How would I be able to not be worried, when they were all acting so mysterious?

''You came to us a few weeks ago in that machine, with the Doctor.'' Master Mundi began. ''At that time we all felt a sudden disturbance in the Force.''

''We all immediately knew there was something going on around you two.'' Master Ti continued. ''We didn't know for sure, of course, if you were a threat or not, so we had to investigate. The Doctor stood out from the beginning. It became clear to us that he is something weird, and maybe even dangerous.''

''But then there was you. The young girl, companion of the Doctor. There was something else about you.'' Mundi said.

''Are you guys coming to the point anytime soon? My legs are beginning to hurt. If you aren't planning to say anything I didn't know yet very soon, I would appreciate the opportunity to spare my legs and sit on a chair.'' I interrupted their talking. They were sitting on comfortable chairs, but I had to stand the entire time. It was unfair, and my legs were already beginning to hurt.

''Patience you must have young one. Important you listen first it is.'' Yoda said, shushing me. Easy for you to say, you are sitting. But I didn't voice my thoughts, it would be rude. Very rude.

''The disturbance in the Force didn't come from the Doctor as we all assumed at first. It came from you. Ahsoka and Anakin tested you, to see if you had midi-chlorians in your blood.'' Windu joined the conversation. I already knew this, but I had to act like I didn't know, so I decided to overreact a little bit.

''So that's why they used that strange device! They said it was to test for diseases. Why wouldn't Anakin and Ahsoka tell me immediately what this was about?'' I called out.

''Calm down. We didn't want you to be concerned.'' Windu said.

''Concerned? Why would I be concerned?'' I asked him.

''Your feelings betray you, they do.'' Yoda said with a slight smile. I sighed. I forgot that they could sense all the feelings going through me.

''So as we were saying,'' Windu continued, ''We had it tested and we found out that there's a very large amount of midi-chlorians in your blood. Higher than most of the Jedi.''

''So you're saying that I'm Force-sensitive?'' Well, no spoiler in that anymore.

''Very strong with the Force you are.'' Yoda confirmed it. ''But know this already, you did, yes?'' Yoda said with a mischievous smile. Crap. I forgot Yoda could sense this too.

''Maybe.'' I muttered.

''Already told her, the Doctor has. Spoiled the surprise, he has.'' His grin was even bigger now. Then he became serious again. ''Now a decision you must make. A Padawan learner you may become. Discussed this, we have. The right thing to do this is, we think. Think about this you have to.''

''You may leave.'' Windu only said. I quickly nodded and exited the room. The second I shut the door, I ran through the halls to my room. In my room I fell onto my bed and started crying. This was too much. How could I ever make a decision? I belonged on Earth.

''Jessica?'' The Doctor knocked on my door. ''May I come in?'' He took my silence as a yes and came in. I tried to rid my face of the tears, but he had already noticed. ''I see they told you.''

''Yes. They did.'' I said. ''How can they think that I would become a Padawan? They know I don't belong here. I have a family, friends, school. I can't just leave all of that behind.''

''I know you're upset Jessica, and I understand that you have these feelings. But if I may say so, you do belong here. This is your real home. Whether you like it or not.''

I sighed and looked him in the eyes. ''I don't like it. I have lived on Earth almost my entire life…''

''I know. And I understand. I wouldn't like to see you stay either.''

''Why?'' I asked him curiously.

''If you become a Padawan learner here… well, then I can't see you anymore. At least not as often.''

''Why not?''

''We're in a different galaxy. It is very hard to come here. That's why we crash-landed. The Tardis doesn't like it. I could come here maybe, but not as often. I also would need to do it in secret, since the Jedi don't allow attachments, or contact with family. And I think and hope I belong to the category 'family'.'' He looked at me with sad eyes. ''I don't want to lose you again.''

''Whatever I choose, you won't lose me. I know you won't. I just know.'' I said, determined to let him know that he wouldn't lose me again. I wouldn't let that happen.

''Maybe you won't. But what of your family on Earth?''

''I don't know what to do Doctor. I have a life there. But this… This is my real home.''

''Maybe we should stay a little longer, so you can really think about this and then make your decision. That way you can really consider both options.''

''Maybe that is the best way to go now, indeed.'' I sighed, how would I be able to make this decision? ''I think we should report to the Council.''

''Yes, we should. Let's go.'' He said and we walked to the Council Chambers once again.

''Come in, you may.'' Yoda answered our knocking. We walked in and stood in front of the Council.

''A decision you have made, yes?'' Yoda asked.

''Well, sort of, Master Yoda.'' I answered him. I quickly looked to the Doctor for comfort and he gave me an encouraging smile. ''Masters, I'm not ready to make this decision in this short amount of time. You must understand that I have built a life on Earth. I have a family there. This is my real home, but I can't just leave my life behind. I need more time to think about this.''

''Understand this, I do.'' Yoda said to me. ''Knew this would happen, I did. Meditated on this subject, I have. To a conclusion I have come.'' The other Council members looked in surprise at Master Yoda. They clearly didn't know of this.

''What do you mean, Master?'' Mace Windu asked.

''Very hard this decision is for you, Jessica.'' Yoda said, speaking my name for the first time. ''Decided I have, that possible it is for you and the Doctor to stay here. Think about this you must. Meditate on this you must. And know the answer you will.''

''With all due respect, but I'm afraid it won't be that simple, Master Yoda.'' I said to him. Just meditating didn't seem like the right solution. I had never meditated, because I didn't really see the point of doing it. You were supposed to sit still the whole time, and I had never been able to do that. I was too impatient. And yet, if I wanted to stay here and if I wanted to become a Jedi, I would have to learn to be patient.

''It will be. Doubts you have. Fade, they will.''

''Okay. I guess I'll try.''

''Do or do not, there is no try.'' Yoda said sternly. I had never quite understood that one. No matter how many times I had heard it.

''You see; you're always talking in riddles. I never did understand that one.'' I murmured.

''What did you just say? How is it that you have heard that before? You have never met Master Yoda or any of us.'' Windu said grimly. Crap. He had heard it.

''Ahsoka used the phrase once before.'' I said, I knew it was a weak argument and I quickly looked to the Doctor for help.

''I have also used that phrase before.'' The Doctor said. ''It was written in the Tardis' records. I liked it, so I started using it.''

''Hmm… Interesting this is.'' Master Yoda said. ''Know what it means, do you?''

''Well I think it means that you first need to believe that you can do something in order to be able to do it.'' The Doctor answered, Yoda nodded slowly and the other Council members looked surprised. Windu didn't believe a word the Doctor said, but he decided to let it slide. For now. The Doctor and I were just about to leave when Yoda spoke up again.

''One last thing to say I have.''

''What is it Master Yoda?'' I asked him.

''On missions along with Masters Kenobi and Skywalker you may go. Good for you it will be.''

''Really? That's awesome!'' I exclaimed. The Doctor also looked very excited. ''Thank you, Master.''

''The next mission will be in a couple of days. Masters Kenobi and Skywalker, Padawan Tano and Captain Rex will go to the planet Onderon, to help the rebels there. You two will go with them. You will leave in five days.'' Windu informed us. Onderon? I was going to my home planet. The planet where my parents were killed. Suddenly I became really scared. The Doctor noticed my change of mood and wrapped a comforting arm around my shoulders.

''Something wrong, there is?'' Master Yoda asked me.

''No. There's nothing wrong.'' I quickly replied.

''Sense your sudden fear, I do. Fear of this mission you have.'' Yoda said.

''No. It's just the fear of a new planet, new people, new battle.''

''Hmm. Conflict I sense in you. Troubled you are. Come to my chambers you will tomorrow. Meditate on this together we will.'' I sighed. That was the last thing I needed, but I knew there was no way around it.

''Yes, Master.'' I said in resignation.

''You may leave now. Prepare yourselves for the upcoming mission. We will send Master Kenobi and Knight Skywalker to give you a full briefing on the mission.'' Windu said. We gave a quick nod and left the room. Finally, we were out of there. I couldn't bear the searching gazes anymore.

''Is everything alright, Jessica?'' The Doctor asked lowly.

''Of course it's alright, why wouldn't it be alright?'' I said sarcastically. ''No, of course it's not alright!'' I shouted angrily and I ran away.

This just keeps getting worse and worse.

I ran through the halls and rounded a corner, then I bumped into someone. We both fell. I looked up and I saw that it was Anakin.

''Uhm… Sorry, Master Skywalker… I didn't want to…- '' I stuttered. Great, this was awkward.

''It doesn't matter, Jessica.'' He said. He helped me up and I was about to walk away when he spoke. ''Is there something wrong, Jessica? You look sad.''

''No. no. There's nothing wrong.'' I quickly wiped my eyes. ''Just something in my eyes.''

''Yeah. Sure.'' He clearly didn't believe me. ''Where were you going in such a rush?''

''Ehm…'' At that moment the Doctor came running around the corner. He had followed me. He stopped immediately when he saw me and Anakin.

''Ah. Hello Master Skywalker. How is it going?'' He said with a small smile.

''Also running I see.'' Anakin said with a slight smirk.

''Running is good. Just getting in shape.'' The Doctor said. Anakin laughed but his eyes didn't laugh with him. He didn't believe us at all.

''Well, I'll leave you to it then. I suppose. But please do it outside.'' He shot one last look at me and then walked away. As soon as he was out of sight, the Doctor put a hand on my shoulder.

''Jessica. Please. We need to talk about this.''

''I don't want to.'' I said to him, I brushed his hand off my shoulder and walked away.

''Jessica! Jessica. Wait…'' I was not going to turn around. My eyes started to water again, but I was not going to turn around.

A/N: Thanks for reading! See you next time, and let me know what you think of this story!