AN: Hey all! Thank you ThoseEvilDucks for favouriting, another Thank you to DJ1992 for putting this story on alert and yet another Thank you to Erin Primette for reviewing(I know right? It's just stupid…). And I'm almost done with the alternative ending. Just not sure about the final bit yet :)
Warnings for this chapter include talking/thinking about past rape and the start of a lemon at the end of this chapter, but it's not that bad.
Now, on with the chapter!
AN = No flames pls, theres no point! I already told you, there IS if u dnt like my story dnt read it, its as simple as that! btw atlantiana She actually spelled it RIGHT for once! is NOT marisue She ISN'T? It's gonna take a hell of a lot of GOOD reasons to convince me of that… be cause look she is NOT perfect Not perfect? Yeah, right and not everyone in the stiry likes her! True, but all the IMPORTANT people do… she has problems and she has flaws Donkey has flaws? Where? and shes UNHAPPY would u like her life? I'd have a "beautiful" boyfriend, nice looks, nice parents who don't seem to care about me ignoring them and all the important people would like me… Yeah, I would very much like to have her life, thank you i no i wouldnt, its totally tragic and horible. No it isn't u flamers arent even makin sense1 You're the one that isn't making sense…
Chapter 4 – la push
I sat quitely on the la push beech apart form the party that was going on beside me. Mike Nooton was following me round like a pulpy A what? and he was so borin! And here I thought you might actually get to like someone that ISN'T gothic. I should know better by now… None of the things he had to say were interesting but I was nice to him because he wasnt a bad guy. So you're leading him on… That's not nice, Donkey My thoughts were elsewhere - i could'nt stop thinking about the events of last night, when uncle larry had raped me If you hate it so much, why haven't you gone to the police yet? and I had had my scary vision in the forest and a tall p[ale guy in my mind had cale me his daughter. That's not scary, that's just weird I didnt understand any of I felt so so awful that I had been rapped by that hideous pervy SICKO GO TO THE POLICE! when I had bin saving myself for the right guy and for marriage and my virginity So that's what you're concerned about? Your VIRGINITY? Dear GOD was torn from my grasp by that twisted guy, it was so crule and unfair, it made me want to cry POLICE *hint hint*
"omg MIKE watt are you doing talkin to HER?" Ooooh, boy. Here we go I turned round and saw four nasty faces learing at us. Popcorn, anyone? It was the chearleaders I had seen in the cafetearia, and one of them was the girl dateing Ewdard Cullen, 1)No no no, I think you got it all messed up. Bella's dating EDWARD and not EWDARD… and 2) Yup. DATING! Which means you should stop helping him cheat on his relationship… the brown hare girl who was standing at the back looking moody but not saying anything Yeah. Bella's good at looking moody…
"Stop being mean Jessica" mike said angerly "tiaas' DONKEY! awesome and if you can't see that its just you bein blind and shallow and stupid like your all ways are" I'm not sure if you're one to talk, Mike Nooton
"yah I mean look at her clothes, she looks like a stupid goth biaach with her slutty top and short skirt and fithnet tights is she a RAT HOOKER YES YES YES YES! I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE! or what?" Jessica THANK YOU JESSICA! screamed. She was realy ugly when she shouted even though she was technology a hot chick and was dressed in skimpy pink clothes. Of course she wears pink. Next you're gonna tell me she's a prep too or something like that…
"you no what Jess, you and YOur frends are SO shallow and YOU are the real slut! you and bella and angela and laruen may were short skirts and low cut tops an stuff So does Donkey. I don't see your point… but that doesnt maek u beautiful! Its watt underneath that counts!" But… Donkey's got a really rotten character too. Where's the attractive bit in her? mike shouted
"yah, speakin of witch" Speaking of what? said a sly blond girl in the gang who was called lauren, pointing at me "watts with her breasts, they are huge, I bet they are fake!- Where did THAT come from? she laughed and her friends all laughed too even bella and angela who had been quiet until then. And where did THAT come from?
I got up and pushed past them and ran away into the darkness. Wait. When did it get dark? I cold hear them all laughing at me and i felt so embarrased I was relay sensitive about the waste I looked You're right. You ARE a waste. And by the way, Donkey? Could you PLEASE stop complaining about your looks? We've been over this…I hated the fact that it made all girls hate me and all guys stare at me, I would have given anything to be ugly or just inviable. In- What? I assume you mean "invisible"? Or… I wasnt stuck up and didnt think I was beta than anyone else because of how I looked No, of course not… I just wanted people to treat me like a normal person! Really? START ACTING LIKE IT! I could'nt help being slim and blond with relay big boobs it wasnt my fault I hadnt done anything wrong! You did. You got born…
-are u ok?" said someone from beside me
"who arr you?" i asked. 3 realy pretty goth girls Yeah. Only goths can be pretty, ya know? All the other ones are at best "okay" and at worst "totally hideous" were standing there smilin at me and I smiled back
-we are tyffani, abigaille and rochelle" Ha! I TOLD you they'd be back! they said smiling "you seem cool, do you want to be our freinds?" Yeah, 'cuz it's perfectly normal to walk up to a random person you find crying in a dark forest and ask that…
"ya of course, i'm just a bit meloncolly "Meloncolly"? What do you and Twila have with melons? I mean, Twila thought she would be a "mellonair", whatever that may be… cause those horrible chearleaders were bein mean jerks and saying my boobs were fake" They probably are… i said
"omg, u mean jessica and bellas gang? Wait what? How would YOU know that? They hate us too because we dont care what they think" said tyfanni "they are just jealous cause youre the prettiest girl in the school now and theyre all plain next to you but we dont care about stuff like that, No, of course not… we only care about peoples personalities " Yup. All you care about is if a person is a "goth" or a "prep"…
"cool" I said, and we talked for hours
I talked to tyfanni, rochelle and abigail for hours You already said that and they were so cool. I'd never had proper freinds before who didnt care watt i looked like But you see, they DO care about that. If you'd worn pink clothes they would have avoided you like the plague… or where I came from they just liked me for me, and I liked them cause they were uber cool and we had loads of stuff in common! You're all goths and you're all dumb… But after a while they all went home and I stayed on the beech. It was getting late I thought you said it was already dark? What, a day went by without me noticing? but I didnt want to go home to uncle larry in case he raped me on his car again. Soddenly I heard a voice from behind me.
"well tiaa, thou seem to be causing quite a stir at school" his voice was smooth and sexoy and from another time. Yeah. 20th century. That's not THAT long ago… Edward.
"what do you mean!" I demanded
"basically every gay at school wants to have sex with thee, Every GAY? Somehow I doubt that… and every girl wants to eat thee alive for it, hows that for causing a stir my lady?" he smiled and kissed my neck. Kill me now please
"shut up jerk! Btw I met youre girlfriend before, bella I think her name is! I dont like her or anything, but how the hell can u cheat on her like that Yeah, play the noble one, Donkey… and kiss me how u did? Its sick ur a cheatin bastard and i should tell everyone. Then DO IT, MORON! Tyfanni told me you and bella are like the schools golden couple or something, Or something, yeah… watt would happen if I told ppl how you had acted in that corridoor with me?"
"OMG SWEET LADY! THY MUST NOT TELL ANYONE! " he screamed "it was a moment of madness thats all! Im so so sorry for watt happened,i hope thine can forgive me, There's one thing I hate more than Eddy using words like "thou" and "thee" and whatever like he's from the 16th century, and that's if he uses it WRONG. STOP IT! but ive promised myself to bella and thats just how it is, no matter how much thou intrests me"
"fine, then stay away from me " One second you want him to do whatever to you, the next you're shouting at him to get his ass away from you. What do you WANT? I don't understand anymore… I shouted as I left to go home but he followed me and grabbed me and pushed me down on the grind. And you're complaining about Larry for raping you? Eddy's just as bad… I was burning with anger and fury but I wanted him so deafly Deafly? I don't think that's the word you're looking for… i didnt even try to resist him. People against semi-graphic lemons should stop reading NOW He new how much i wanted him and it drove me mad. He put his hands inside my panties and i gasped. I was soddenly desperate to sex with him What was that phrase again? "Takes one to know one", right? Slut… and i tore my clothes off and i was in my underwear. I took off my bra and showed him my naked heaving beasts.
"have sex with me now edward " I whispered
" i cant " he said, although his body was on top of mine and his fingers touched my nipples I'm getting some REALLY mixed signals here… What on EARTH is happening?
"please, i'm begging you" I said, hating myself for being such a dirty hore but unable to control my burning desire Kill me now please, and you can start reading again…
-NOOOO!" he shouted and ran away crying. Wow, he REALLY overreacted…
I put my clothes back on slowly feeling so ashamed and embarased i could hardly move. I could'nt beleive i had begged him to do sex on me "Do sex on me" Dear GOD and even worse he had said no! With good reason… I went home and uncle larry made me cook his dinner and suck his cockwhile he ate his food and then he raped me and hit me with a shoe all night I thought it was "late" already? Did we enter another wormhole or something? and i didnt even complain cos i felt like i deserved it for being such a horrible slut Ha! Even YOU'RE admitting it now! even though it made me want to die inside. Oh, PLEASE Uncle larry finally left me alone and I thought about killing myself Stop thinking and just DO IT! as i cryed and cryed as i fell slowly into a dreamless sleep.
AN: Well guys (and girls), that's chapter 4. We're halfway! Please review and see you next time!