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-Chapter 4- Breathe
Being in a loving mans arms is like heaven to someone that is lonely and hurting. Adrian's warm embrace reached down to my toes. I hang onto this warmth and love as tight as I can; not knowing how long it is going to last and I want to keep the feeling as long as I possibly can. I feel like this embrace is my life preserver, I can't let go, my life depends on it.
I feel like I am drained, like I'm out of my life energy and I need Adrian in order to hold on to myself and sanity. I didn't think I was this depressed or lonely but once you have something like this, you are finally able to find out what your missing. Adrian waited patiently as I cried, screamed, moaned, and then finally fell asleep, into a deep slumber.
~Breathe by Superchick~
Please tell me you'll fight this fight
I can't see without your light
I need you to breathe into my life
Don't tell me this is goodbye
I won't grieve - it's not yet time
Each breath breathed is keeping hope alive
So keep breathing
Go on breathe in
Keep on breathing
Go on breathe in
Just breathe
Each breath breathed means we're alive
And life means that we can find
The reasons to keep on getting by
And if reasons we can't find
We'll make up some to get by
'Til breath by breath we'll leave this behind
So keep breathing
Go on breathe in
Keep on breathing
Go on breathe in
Just breathe
All you have to do is breathe
I awake a few hours later to the smell of Adrian and the light touch of his lips that touch my forehead. I keep my eye closed as I just breathe him in and I feel my whole body continue to relax. Adrian must still think I'm sleeping because I notice that he is talking.
"I wish I could take your pain away. You keep everything so bottled up all the time. No wonder you needed to have a good long cry. Rose you are so strong, but I'm here to help take away some of that burden. You can't handle it all by yourself. You need some help and support and that is what I am going to be. If you aren't able to love me like I love you, then I guess I'll just have to get over it. Rose, just know that I love you with all my heart and I am never going to leave your side." He sounds so loving, it makes me want to just open my eyes and kiss him right now, but I wait and listen for more.
After a few moments, Adrian doesn't continue but I feel him moving the hair away from my face and caress my cheek lovingly. I feel him inch closer towards my face. I feel him move for my cheek but I intercept and move so he kisses my lips. When our lips make contact it's like something inside me explodes. Adrian notices that I'm awake and takes the kiss into a more passionate urgency.
I feel myself moan into him "Adrian." I breathe in between kisses. He seems to take that as an initiative to pull me even closer to him. The kisses turn hungry and true. This moment is more than I ever expected. Maybe I can get over Dimitri. Adrian makes everything seem like there is a chance that everything can turn for the better, and not worse.
I move my hands into Adrian's hair and I grown at how soft it is. Adrian moves his hands to my lower back and pulls me closer to him. I love the feeling of his hands on my skin. Dimitri's hands we like fire on my skin, Adrian's are deeper than that. It's like a need, like for food or water. Desperate, almost like a drug but again it's deeper than that. It's like our souls touch with every finger tip or skin on skin contact.
I slide my right leg up to circle around his waist. Adrian pulls my ass up and over so that I'm straddling him. I continue to kiss him, moving my hands to unbutton his shirt so I can touch his chest. It's so smooth and warm that it makes me moan once I make contact with it.
Adrian moves his hand up the back of my shirt, I can tell that he's feeling the same feelings I did once our skin met contact. But before we get too far ahead of ourselves Adrian pushes me back slightly. We just look into each other's eyes; it's like a mutual understanding that we both need to stop before we do someone we'll regret later.
I sit up and Adrian does the same but doesn't release the hold that he has on me. So I'm sitting on his lap facing him and I feel like I just might melt into his gorgeous green eyes. He moves one hand up to cradle my face and I move closer to give him a chaste kiss. I wrap my arms around him and hug him close to me, not wanting to let go.
After a little while, I have to get up to go to the bathroom to figure myself out and to go, you know 'potty' being pregnant can do that to you I guess. After I'm done going potty I wash my hands and look at myself in the mirror.
What am I doing? Am I falling for Adrian? Or are these pregnancy hormones? I've been so reckless fighting my way to find Dimitri, what if I've hurt the baby? I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Abe, my father! What am I supposed to do about that and everything else going on in my life?
I have so many thoughts running through my head, I don't know what to think or do. I take a few deep breathes and try to clear my head. Looking at myself in the mirror I can see a very tired and stressed looking Rose. I don't know whether to scream or cry anymore. I pull myself together with a few more deep breathes and decide to just go with the flow. I will take everything as it comes and how I feel about it, at the moment that it happens, so I will just take each moment as it comes and go with me heart.
When I get back into the bedroom, Adrian is sitting on the bed with his back against the head board, twirling his cell phone in his hands. He looks deep in thought when I walk in the room; he looks up but still looks like he's thinking about something.
"What are you thinking about?" I ask as I sit in front of him, cradling my right leg to my chest.
"Let's go out tonight! I think it would help you, liven up your spirit?" He says with a slight smile.
I think about it for a minute and it sounds like a really good idea. "Sure, but where?" I ask him but he just shakes his head.
"That's for me to know and you to find out! I will be back in an hour or so okay. Get ready. I will have a dress sent over for you soon, Okay?" I smile widely and nod.
He stands up and kisses me lightly on the lips and heads towards the door. I follow behind him and just as he is about to leave the room, he turns back around to face me and asks, "What color?" I smile again and say "Surprise me!" He nods, smiling and turns to leave, this time succeeding.
I close the door behind him and I can't stop the smile that is plastered on my face.
I walk over to my bed and sit thinking about what I am going to do with my hair and everything. Before I can make any decision, Karolina comes in smiling happily.
"Well…Well! What do we have here, finally a happy Rose?" She asks as she sits in front of me. I nod, smiling widely and answer. "Yes very happy. I'm so happy Adrian came to visit me. He wants to take me out in an hour or so."
She smiles wider and pulls me up, toward the bathroom. "What are you waiting for then? Go get ready!"
I shake my head. Normally I would have Lissa for stuff like this. But she probably won't be here until tomorrow afternoon sometime.
"I don't know how to do my hair or makeup. I normally don't dress up like this."
She nods in understanding but pushes me toward the shower.
"Go take a shower and I will take care of everything else! GO!"
I listen and close the door, stripping off all my clothes and step into the shower. The warm water cascading down my back, relaxes me instantly. I feel my muscles loosen and the knots in my back and neck uncoil. I shampoo my hair and condition. I scrub my body as well as shave. The shower feels like I've taken up all the time I have to get ready but it's only about twenty minutes.
After I get out of the shower, I see that Karolina has set a super soft robe out for me to step into. I wrap my head in the towel and dry off, slipping on the robe immediately afterwards. I walk out of the bathroom to a waiting Karolina and see that she has brought over lots of stuff to beautify me. I smile and sit on the bed, listening to all of her instructions on what to do.
While I was showering Adrian kept to his word and my dress arrived as well as shoes and a shawl. (Dress and Shoes on Profile) He has excellent style and knows my size and everything perfectly. After Karolina perfected my whole body from my head to my toes, I step into the dark purple dress. It is so soft to the touch and fits like a glove. It looks so beautiful that it really doesn't need jewelry to liven it up.
The shoes are my size and very beautiful. They are open black high heels. They are extremely comfortable too. I look at myself in the mirror after I'm perfected 'words from Karolina'. Karolina curled my hair and pulled it back into a very fun, stylish updo. (Picture on profile) Leaving some curls out to add some spice to it. She applied my makeup semi-heavy. She chose a very natural look with my skin and lips but she designed my eyes with an intriguing Smokey black and purple combination.
I looked better than I have in weeks, maybe months. I couldn't stop looking at myself in the mirror, but I had to once the door bell rang. I could hear Olena answer and offer him to come in. He agrees and the move into the living room. Karolina and I look at each other and I hold back a squeal.
"Do you love him?" She asks softly. "Your eyes sparkle when I know your thinking about him. It's not the same when you talk about Dimitri but it's a start Rose. You deserve a chance to be happy, even if it's not with Dimitri."
I hold back the tears as I pull her into a warm sisterly hug.
"I really don't know how I feel yet. I just know that I want to be happy, I know I deserve it. Thank you Karolina, for everything." She nods and leads the way down stairs. When we are just at the wall next to the living room she says "So… What do you guys think of my masterpiece?"
I take that as my queue to enter. When I do I find almost the whole family in there and Adrian stands quickly but can't stop his jaw from dropping. Everyone else is smiling and can't take their eyes off me. "You look so beautiful Rose!" Olena says and hugs me tightly.
After everyone gives me a hug goodbye, Adrian takes me by the hand and leads me to his car. He opens the door and I slip inside. Resting my head on the head rest I turn to watch him sit in the driver's seat.
He turns to face me and smiles freely as he put the keys in the ignition but doesn't turn the car over. He looks at my again and instead of starting the car, like I thought he would of, he surprises me by reaching out and caressing my cheeks with both hands that pulling me into a romantic kiss. He licks my bottom lip and I happily open to deepen the kiss further.
After a few moments he pulls back and looks deeply into my eyes. "You look breath takingly beautiful tonight Rose. I can't wait to have you in my arms for most of the night." I smile and lean back as he finally starts the car. He reaches over and holds my hand lovingly and we are off on our way to where ever he is taking me.
He ended up picking a very beautiful club in town. It is mainly ran and used by humans which was nice since I probably wouldn't see Abe or anyone else I don't want to see.
It's called Club 22. It was huge and dark with tons of lights in every color coming at you from every direction. (Picture on Profile). We stepped into the club without being carded; Adrian had already taken care of that. We had our own VIP room in the back to talk and eat dinner. A live band was playing Salsa type of music but they also played some songs from the radio.
After eating our 3 course meal, Adrian grabs my hand to dance. I've never danced salsa but he took my hand and took control. The song was from the radio but I could feel like salsa beats within it. It was amazing how Adrian could dance and make me feel like I've done it all my life. The song was perfect for me. Who wants to be Alone?
Who wants to be alone?
By: Tiesto Feat. Nelly Furtado
I was waiting for you to notice me.
I've been hanging around for a minute.
Baby don't give me you it won't hurt me.
I don't even know if you deserve me.
But with that moon in the sky,
Who wants to be alone?
And when the stars shine so bright,
Who wants to be alone?
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Right next to me,
You wanna be,
Till the sun comes up.
I am going nowhere in a hurry.
Baby, come take away all my worries.
But with that moon in the sky,
Who wants to be alone?
And when the stars shine so bright,
Who wants to be alone?
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Right next to me,
You wanna be,
Til the sun comes up.
I'm out of my head.
I'm out of my head.
I'm out of my head.
I'm out of my head.
I'm out of my head…
But with that moon in the sky,
Who wants to be alone?
And when the stars shine so bright,
Who wants to be alone?
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Don't take me home.
Til the sun comes up, till the sun comes up.
Right next to me,
You wanna be,
Til the sun comes up.
Adrian did just that. I didn't feel alone at all. We danced and danced all night long. By the time I noticed that my feet hurt, it was almost 4 am. Adrian gently kissed my lips and grabbed my hand, leading me toward the exit. I swiftly followed him through the still crowded club.
Once we were outside, Adrian and I walked through the streets, just taking in the city. It was a gorgeous place to live and I was so very happy I came here. We looped around back to Adrian's car and he drove us back to the Belikov's house. I seemed to have a change of heart though. I gently stroked his hand and that got his attention.
"Can we go to your hotel instead?" I ask softly.
He nods and after placing the car back in drive, continues on to his hotel.
Once we get there, he opens that door for me and I follow him to his suite, which just turns out to be the penthouse, on the top floor. It was a very big suite. It had a game room, living room, dining room, kitchen, and a huge master quite with bathroom. It was amazing.
"All of this for just you?" I ask once I've recovered from the grandness of it all.
He smiles, "Yea, I guess. I said my name and this is what they set up for me." He lightly laughs.
"Oh well then remind me to do that next time. When I was staying at hotels, I just walked in and gave them the credit card, but I got something a lot smaller than this."
He laughs again and walks over to me. "Well if we were really married, the last thing on your mind would be the hotel room." I nod in agreement.
"So why did you prefer to come here, instead of staying at the Belikov's?" He asks.
I smile. "I just wanted to see where you were staying?"
"Oh really is that all?" He asks as he wraps his arms securely around my waist, my back to his chest.
"No it's not all." I whisper, as I turn around in his arms and wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him into a very naughty kiss.
SORRY THAT IT HAS TAKEN ME SO LONG TO FINISH THIS CHAPTER. I MADE IT EXTRA LONG FOR ALL OF YOU. I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT. I SHOULD BE UPDATING THIS STORY AND MY OTHER ONE SOON!