Author's Note 1: Thank you for your patience. About the story, well, it was supposed to be longer, but I had to cut it a bit to put stronger emphasis on the main scene in Chapter 4. The supposed next scenes will be on Chapter 5, which will be processed much faster, I promise. Please enjoy! :3
Author's Note 2: Hello friends! So this is my very first fanfic, a Kogan fanfic called "One Night in Bali"... And as a little gift for my beloved friends who are reading this, I made a post on my Tumblr showing the photos of the stuff being described from Chapters 1 to 4, to make visualizing stuff more fun :)
If you wanna check out the photos, the link is here: (just replace the dashes between btrandkittens and tumblr and com with a period)
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I hope you'll enjoy the story! :)
One Night in Bali
Chapter 4 – Smoke, Wine and Sunrise
As Kendall and Logan continue smoking and drinking on the balcony, in the cool darkness of Singapore before dawn, both boys convince themselves to just savour the moment, instead of ruining it about their worries of rejection.
As their bodies finally sense the humidity of Singapore's tropical climate, even at 4 in the morning, Kendall and Logan decide to remove their jackets and throw them back in the bedroom, closing the door once again so as not to let the humidity enter the airconditioned apartment.
Kendall then secretly glances at Logan, who was wearing a dark blue polo shirt underneath the brown leather jacket that he just shed. The glow from the light in the bedroom shone upon the brunette, and Kendall sees how beautiful Logan's body is. Sure, he "may have gained" a little during their tapings of Season 4 of their Big Time Rush TV show, but Logan has been working out this year, and it shows. Kendall couldn't resist appreciating how very visible his triceps are when his arms are not curled, and when the brunette inadvertently has to flex his left arm to put the cigarette in his mouth, Kendall suddenly stops breathing as he sees Logan's biceps form quite a huge bump. As Kendall continues his glance, he sees how Logan's chest and waist have definitely improved. Definitely, he has seen Logan's recent shirtless hunk pics on the internet, but he wonders what Logan looks like totally naked. A naughty smile suddenly forms on the blonde's lips.
Suddenly, Logan glances back at Kendall. The blonde got startled and looked behind himself at the bedroom door, pretending to look for something on the bed. Unfortunately for Kendall, Logan had actually caught him staring at his chest and hips. Logan suddenly becomes confused. "Is he checking me out?" the brunette asks to himself. Logan's heartbeat suddenly starts pounding loudly and quickly at the thought. However, he had to think hard to concentrate that he's just misinterpreting Kendall's stare. Maybe Kendall, his best friend, is just proud that he exerted a lot of effort to prove his critics wrong that he was "fat" and other hurtful words hurled about him across the internet. He also feels happy with the progress that he has made working out. And, most importantly, Logan told himself, he decided to work out for the love of his life. If Kendall would actually love him, just in case, he knows that the blonde would love him for whatever state he is, but he knows he has to do his part as well. Love is not just about compromises about "flaws", he knows. And so he decides to return to tip top shape for Kendall, since Kendall is a very athletic guy. He knows that Kendall doesn't want to be too muscular, so he decides to keep himself stay skinny. However, he is very athletic, often playing racquetball when the gym has one, especially when they are on tour. It's not about superficiality, but he feels he still needed to look good for Kendall.
As Logan continues to stare at Kendall, he appreciates how Kendall looks. "Damn, Kendall's hot!" The warm glow of the bedroom light also casts a seductive ray of light on the blonde's face and body. As Kendall continues to pretend to look for something through the bedroom window, Logan stares at how adorably slim his potential boyfriend was. And his waist… it's so slim… Logan likes Kendall's slim waistline. He finds it very very sexy. He then thought of what they would do when they make love, and he imagined Kendall's naked body, because of which his jaw drops a bit.
And at that exactly ridiculously fortuitous moment, Kendall stops pretending to look at the bedroom and looks again at Logan, hoping to steal another glance at his brunette hottie. His head suddenly moves back as he sees Logan looking at him, and then Logan looks again towards the sleeping Singapore skyline. "Is he staring at my body?" Kendall wonders. But, just like the brunette, the blonde just dismisses it as just accidental, concentrating hard on playing safe and avoiding a ruined vacation by daring to kiss Logan and ended up being punched in the face because Logan was actually straight all along.
To avoid the awkwardness of catching each other's silent glances, Kendall clears his throat and decides to start another topic so that they could talk and maybe get his mind off his desire to hug and kiss Logan at that moment.
As they discuss their plans on what to do as sunrise comes and Singapore wakes up, Kendall and Logan find it as a perfect excuse to look at each other. As they continue chatting, Kendall is turned on about how Logan takes a puff with his cigarette. Other people usually just let their two fingers that clamp the cigarette together stay upright, and the three other fingers curled back. But in Logan's case, all his five fingers are all up, with his pointer and middle finger clamped on the cigarette. It reminds Kendall of the way police detectives in movies hold their cigarettes. As Logan inhales, Kendall loves the way the brunette's now-sculpted chest heaves up as his lungs take air and part of the cigarette smoke, and as Logan exhales, Kendall loves how Logan sort of puckers up a bit with his sweet pinkish lips, with the smoke billowing gently and forming rounded shapes as they leave the brunette's mouth. Kendall then swallows hard and tries to concentrate hard to stop being turned on by how Logan smokes.
Unbeknownst to Kendall, Logan is also being turned on by the way Kendall smokes. Although Kendall does the typical way of holding a cigarette (pointer and finger, with the three fingers curled), Logan still finds something sexy about how Kendall smokes. He finds it very manly and erotic for some reason. Could it be because Kendall is sporting some stubble and his hair is all tousled, making him look like a bad boy? Is it the way Kendall's eyes squint as he inhales on the cigarette in his mouth? Is it the way Kendall's lower jaw and lower lip jut out a bit to open his mouth with a little hole and exhale with force, making the smoke coming from his mouth look like smoke from a steam locomotive? Is Logan having a smoking fetish with Kendall? Or maybe he just appreciates everything that Kendall does, even smoking? Logan also swallows hard at the sight of a sexy smoking Kendall, and takes a huge gulp of his wine, to which he coughs up a bit as one swallow nearly went the wrong way inside his throat. Kendall then puts his glass down on the airconditioner exhaust box on the balcony and, with his now-free hand, gently taps and massages Logan's back as Logan continues to cough. "Logie, are you alright?" asks a very worried Kendall. "Oh, *cough cough cough*, haha! I'm sorry, Kindle, the wine nearly went the wrong way when I swallowed *cough*. I'm *cough* okay though," Logan answers. But, Kendall, still worried, continues to massage Logan's back deeply, so that he could continue coughing until the irritation in his throat subsides. When Logan's cough reflexes finally weaken, he realizes how good Kendall's palms feel on his back. He wants to moan, but he knows he shouldn't. As Logan finally regains his composure, they stare at each other and laugh. Kendall then goes back to the bedroom to refill their glasses with more wine, a merlot, and to get the pack of cigarettes because it doesn't make sense to keep coming back into the bedroom just to get another couple of sticks. And they continue chatting, smoking and drinking until the sun rises.
As dawn finally blankets Singapore with a soft glow of light blue, yellow and purple, the two best friends are in awe at the beauty of the tropical sunrise. Both lean toward each other, shoulders touching gently, and the sides of their heads also leaning against each other. This has been one of their supposed "bromance actions" since they became best friends. Part of their minds think this is just a bromance thing, and part of their minds imagine it as a kind of boyfriend touch. The poor boys are oblivious to the fact that they are actually both madly in love with each other, being held back by their fears for their friendship, since both of them immediately assumed the worst-case scenario to happen. They continue to lean at each other and appreciate the dawn until it becomes a true sunrise by 7 in the morning. As the morning sunlight kisses the buildings, the river and the two, Kendall and Logan, deep inside their hearts, are absorbed in the beauty of their experience of seeing their very first sunrise in Singapore, with them side by side, leaning at each other, enjoying both the beauty of the sight and the beauty of the sensation of feeling the other boy's body making close contact with his own body.
And as the sunlight warms the tropical air, the temperatures eventually increase back to tropical range… From the milder 24 degrees Celsius of dawn, the sunrise easily made the temperature climb to 30 degrees Celsius. Add to that the typical humidity of Singapore hovering between 70% to 80%, Kendall and Logan eventually realize they're starting to sweat and feel sticky.
"I think we need to shower before we explore Singapore," Kendall suggests. Logan, upon hearing "we" and "shower" in the same sentence, suddenly blushed. Kendall noticed, but due to both their naïveté, simply assumed it was just the heat finally getting to Logan, although he found Logan's reddening cheeks and ears absolutely adorable… So adorable he wants to kiss the brunette right there right now… But his mind is able to think "rationally" and stop the urge. And he was also fantasizing that both of them will take the shower together.
Logan also finally gets back to his senses, remembering that what Kendall said doesn't actually mean they will both take a shower together.
"Uh, you go ahead, Kindle. I'll just smoke just one more stick and then I'll take a shower too," Logan finally answers. Logan is smoking quite too aggressively today, Kendall thought to himself. He has never seen Logan smoke like this unless he was nervous about something. Could it be that Logan REALLY likes him? Can he make his move and admit to the brunette that he loves him? No. No, Kendall. Don't think that way. It's our first day in Singapore, on our vacation. Don't do anything reckless that will ruin our connection forever. But I really love him… Should I keep it a secret forever? God it really hurts to feel this pressure… Maybe not now… Someday… Someday I can be brave enough to tell you Logan without being afraid of the consequences… Kendall manages to erase his curiosity about Logan and fakes a cheery answer that he'll be finished in 15 minutes.
After a few minutes, Logan looks at the bedroom sliding door and sees that Kendall closes their bathroom door to take his shower. And as he takes one more puff, he finally tears up. "I love you, Kindle. I wanted to tell you right now, but I'm scared that you won't love me back…" Logan says while crying. During the flight, he decided to be brave and be honest, but now he's worried once again about the consequences.
And inside the bathroom, as Kendall begins his shower, as the warm water hits his face, tears start to trickle down his eyes and mix with the water. "I love you, Logan… I wish you knew that…"