A/N
So I see the last chap didn't get as many likes...so I hope this one makes everything a bit better. I apologize in advance I thought this chapter would be longer.

Kendall's POV

I sighed and glanced back at Logan. He was still asleep, but I couldn't. I had laid there all night and not slept a wink.
Prostate cancer? Of all things in the world, I was cursed with cancer. I rubbed my face and stood, going to the bathroom. I splashed cold water on my face and sighed, looking at myself in the mirror. I had bags under my eyes from crying and not sleeping, worrying myself to oblivion. I had stubble on my chin, which I didn't care about at the moment. My eyes were red, and my hair was crazy.
I sighed and then gasped as warm arms embraced my waist.
"Why are you up so early?" Logan mumbled into my shoulder. I sighed and patted his hands on my stomach.
"Just...can't sleep."
"Me neither." I turn around and picked him up, letting him wrap his legs around my waist. He buried his head in my shoulder and sighed.
"Your mom gets home today. We're gonna have to tell her."
Oh, man I completely forgot about my mom. I sighed and shifted Logan in my arms a little, trying to get comfortable. I squeezed him and walked out of the bathroom, into our bedroom where I could see it was still dark out. I lay down, Logan still embracing me. I felt a warm wetness on my bare shoulder and I realized he was crying again. All night long, my poor baby cried.
I felt so guilty, because all I could do was hold him and wait until his tears subsided. I couldn't whisper encouraging words to him, tell him I'll be okay, because I couldn't even do that for myself. I gripped Logan a little harder and pressed my face to the crook of his neck. Logan sniffed and sat up, wiping his eyes.
"w-we should, we should probably try and get some sleep."
"yeah." Logan lay down next to me and I put an arm around him, but I knew we both weren't going to sleep. I laid there and watched the light go from light blue, to pink, to orange and finally yellow. I looked over at Logan around eight in the morning. He was sound asleep. Logan looked sort of like me, his hair askew and his eyes puffy. He had stubble on his chin, too.
I sighed and gently pulled my arm from around him, watching his nose twitch in his sleep. I stood silently and yanked on a pair of jeans from the cold floor. I decided to let Logan sleep longer as I wandered out into the apartment. I sat down at the dining table, nibbling on a thumbnail as I thought. I didn't know what to do. Who would I tell? When?
Would this ruin the band? I mean yeah we still sang songs and produced albums; we went on tour once or twice since Carlos had his kids, but the band was still going strong. We performed concerts here in L.A every now and then. I groaned and gripped my head in my hands.
I didn't know what to do.
The front door opened suddenly and my head went up. I watched as my mom and Katie walked in, dragging their bags. Katie didn't notice me as she yawned and went to her bed. My mom stretched and sighed, before she turned and saw me.
"Oh, good morning Kendall. What are you doing up so early?"
I smiled at my mom, suddenly glad she was home. The apartment felt warmer and more filled when she was around.
"Hi, mom. Have a nice trip?"
"Ugh the plane ride was horrible." she walked over to me and bent down to give me a hug. She stopped, though and stood. She frowned and then cupped my cheek.
"Baby, are you okay?"
Now or never. I sighed and gripped my mom's hand, standing up and leading her to the couch.
"Mom I think you should sit down."
She nodded and we both sat next to each other.
"Mom I-"
"you didn't get a girl pregnant did you? Wait, Logan doesn't have the same disease as Carlos, does he? Oh my gosh, Logan is having a baby!"
"No! Mom, just listen." she stopped and I held my mom's hand. I opened my mouth to say something but then stopped and put my head in my hand.
"Logan and I...I wasn't...feeling well. So, Logan took me to the hospital..."
"Yes, go on." she looked worried and I felt a horrible pang of guilt in my chest.
"Mom...I might, most probably have prostate cancer." my mom's look was blank for a second and then she gripped the area over her heart. I watched her eyes fill with water and then she turned away, slowly. She looked at me after a few seconds of silence.
"C-cancer?" I nodded and my mom put her head in hands. She was quiet for a moment and then a small sob escaped her lips. My heart hurt as I reached over and hugged my mom. She threw her arms around me and for once I wasn't embarrassed to be wrapped up in my mom's arms. She sobbed into my shoulder and I did the same to her.
"Oh gosh, Kenny, this can't be happening!" I sobbed into my mom's shoulder harder.
"w-we get the results next week." my mom ran her fingers through my hair and started crying again. She backed away a little and rubbed at her eyes.
"I-I'm sorry honey I know you hate being squished by me." I looked at my mom and I could see how torn she was.
"Mom?"
"Yes, bab-I mean Kendall?" I realized how broken hearted my mom was, because she used to call me baby and hug me all the time. When I was thirteen, I begged her to stop. She did, but occasionally she would slip up.
"I just want you to hold me. Please? Please mommy?" I watched my mom's tears spill harder as she pulled me close. I buried my head in my mom's shoulder and I sobbed until I fell asleep.

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After a good warm shower and grooming, I walked out of the bathroom and slipped on some boxers. I yanked on a tee shirt and some skinny jeans, instantly regretting a little as pain erupted through my hips. I groaned and combed my hair down, trying to ignore it.
I sighed and watched Logan strip behind me in the mirror, tossing his dirty clothes into our hamper. He eyed my hungry look in the mirror and chuckled.
"Forget about it." he walked into our shower and shut the door. I groaned, because now I felt aroused and usually the only thing that could get rid of it was my precious Logie. I flopped down on my bed and sighed, suddenly feeling sleepy.
I was surprised, because I had slept in my mom's arms earlier but, I guess it wasn't enough. The ringing of my cellphone disturbed me, though, and I sat up, grabbing my cellphone. I slide my finger over the lock and then answered the call.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Kendall."
It was Carlos. I smiled at the sound of the Latinos voice.
"Hey Carlos, what's up?"
"U-umm...Kendall could...could you run down to the store and possibly get a...a pregnancy test? I can't, because the baby is sleeping. And James isn't here."
I sighed and stood, pulling on some Vans.
"Yeah I'll be over soon."
"thanks a lot Kendall."
"Welcome." I ended the call and turned to knock on the bathroom door.
"What?" Logan called from inside. I opened the door and stuck my head in real quick.
"Hey baby, I'm going to go run an errand for Carlos, he can't leave the apartment and James is out."
"Oh, okay. Kendall?"
I stuck my head back in.
"yeah baby?"
"Be...be careful Kendall "I knew what he meant and I sighed.
"I will." I shut the door behind me and continued out, grabbing my car keys and wallet.

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After going through a very awkward moment buying the pregnancy test, I hurried back to the Palm Woods and upstairs to 4H, where Carlos and James lived. I knocked on the door and instantly it opened. Carlos pulled me inside and grabbed the bag from me.
"Whoa, calm down, Carlos."
"n-no I have to do this before I chicken out." I watched as he opened the packet and hurried to the bathroom. I stood there, alone. I sighed and looked around the apartment. It wasn't like ours downstairs, but James and Carlos managed to make it nice. There was the kitchen, with a bar and an island, and then the living room was kind of big. They had cherry wood floors, which must've taken a while to get put in. The walls were painted a light green in the kitchen and the living room was orange. They had posters hanging on the walls, along with art posters and picture frames filled with James and Carlos and the babies. They were a few of Carlos with Drake and Dak, I noticed, but they were separated from the ones with James.
The couches were something that looked like they belonged in our apartment, fun colors and big and wide enough. They had a TV hanging on the wall and a purple coffee table. I laughed a little. Then there were baby toys scattered all over the floor. In one corner on the living room sat a little toddler playground, with a mini slide and tiny fort underneath it, one built for inside play. I thought it was cute.
The house looked great. I thought they did pretty well. They had movies for adults and kids separated and a computer on a desk by the playground, where I found games like "Jumpstart to Kindergarten!" I chuckled. I guess they must have Veronica and Drake playing these games.
I heard a door open and I turned to expect Carlos, but I found Veronica toddling out of her room, dressed in dark denim shorts and a white panda shirt on. Her hair was hanging down and she clutched her blanket in hand. I could see Drake behind her in his bed, wrapped up in his blue blanket. I knew Drake to be less energetic than she was.
Her hazel eyes opened wide when she saw me and she toddled over to me.
"Ken-doll?" she hugged my leg and I smiled, picking the child up. I hugged her and watched as she put her head in my neck. I guess she had woken up but was so sleepy. I chuckled when I heard her slumbering. I turned to go put her back in bed when the bathroom door opened an Carlos came out. He held the test in one hand and he was biting his lip.
"Well what does it say?"
"It takes a minute- hey what are you doing with her?" he looked at Veronica and frowned. I smiled sheepishly as I rubbed the toddlers back.
"She um walked out of her bedroom."
"Oh." Carlos sighed and continued pacing back and forth, before finally sitting down.
"I-I can't look." I swallowed hard and saw how nervous he was. I walked over and patted his shoulder.
"It's okay. Whatever the outcome is, it'll be fine."
"I-I hope so..." Carlos stood and then opened his fist. He examined the test up close and then let out a giant sigh of happiness.
"Oh thank god! It's negative!"
"What's negative?"
My eyebrows went up and I turned slowly to see James behind me. Carlos was shocked, too, because his whole face was red. James took off his sunglasses and set down his grocery bag.
"Carlos, what are you talking about?" he walked over to him and grabbed the test out of the shocked Latinos hand.
"A pregnancy test?" he looked from me to Carlos. I tried raising a hand but Veronica started to slip out of my grasp.
"J-James it's now what you-" Carlos started to say, but James grabbed him by the front of his shirt.
"Are you cheating on me? With Kendall?"
"N-No! James let me-"
"Tell me the truth! Why did you hide this from me? Huh?"
"I swear I-I'm not c-cheating!"
"Dude he's telling the truth!" I stepped forward, then remembered the child in my arms and stepped back. James turned back to me and pointed a finger in my face.
"Don't get into this, Knight! Trust me you'll have your turn!" my eyes widened and I watched Carlos as he began to cry.
"J-Jamie I s-swear! I didn't do anything!"
"Then why hide a pregnancy test from me! That only raises my suspicions!" he gripped Carlos's shirt harder, which caused me to grip Veronica. She mumbled something about "Ken-doll and jelly beans" before yawning and slumbering on.
"James, I-I was scared!"
"Of what? Me finding out?"
"n-no...I-I was scared-b-because I c-can't have another k-kid!"
"What are you talking about?" James narrowed his eyes at Carlos and I watched helplessly as Carlos gripped his hands.
"b-because I was afraid you'd g-get mad that I was pregnant again! I didn't want you to leave me! I was scared because-because I don't want to lose you! I don't want you to hate m-me and t-three kids is already hard!" by now Carlos was in hysterics, crying his eyes out and I could see James soften. He gasped when he saw what he had done and dropped Carlos. He yanked the Latino into a hug and peppered his face with kisses.
"I'm so sorry! I-I wasn't thinking! I was scared I was gonna lose you too! Oh, Carlos if you thought you were pregnant again I wouldn't have been mad!"
"y-you wouldn't?" Carlos sniffed. James smiled at him and pecked his lips.
"No of course not. I mean, we would have to get a bigger house and maybe someone to help us with all the kids during the day, but god no! I mean a baby; I-it's us combined Carlitos!" Carlos sniffed and James wiped his cheeks. They hugged and I "awed" at the sight. James ran a hand down Carlos's face.
"I love you."
"I love you, too."
James turned to me and rubbed the back of his neck.
"Sorry dude...I just-"
"no apologies I understand." James smiled and gently lifted his daughter off of me. I sighed at the lost but then gave then a grim smile as I realized I might have to ruin their moment.
"Guys? Actually I need to tell you something..."

Carlos cried, James hugged him and was the brave husband he was to hold back his tears. They hugged me close and I promised to tell them when I got the results from my biopsy back. I left, and feeling a bit lonely I went down to get a smoothie. I chugged on the pink smoothie as I sat at a table by the pool. People were heading back up to their apartments and it was late, around 7 when I got down there. I sighed and glanced around, suddenly taking in the warm and beautiful, yet humid night.
I sighed again when I realized I missed a great night to propose to Logan again. I've been trying to find ways and days to propose to him, but then I kept forgetting to go out a buy a ring.
Would he accept it anyway? I mean we WERE a little young, but still...I felt a plop on my head and realized it had started to sprinkle water a bit. I stood, hanging my head as I walked back up to 2J. I opened the door and walked past my mom and Katie, going to my room where Logan sat at our desk.
"Hey Kendall, you okay?"
I shook my head and flopped down on the bed. I felt a hand on my back and the bed sunk in. Logan rubbed my back and I sighed.
"Things will get better, I promise."
I nodded and held out my hand for Logan to take. I gripped his hand and pressed my face to the pillow.
"Hopefully."
"They will. Hopefully they will."

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