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Story: Sora "This is my story, the story how I lost the love of my life and found him again. See what I had to go through". /Warning: abuse and yaoi and self harm in later chapters.

A/N: A few yaoi scenes in this chapter. Yeah I suck at writing them out so sorry ahead of time xD. Thanks for the favorites and follows =)

Chapter 4

"Will he wake up anytime soon?" my dad asked the doctor in my room

Doctor looked at my chart "His vitals are the same. Nothing wrong with him. His wounds are healing. Just keep talking to him".

Riku holding my hand "That's it? We have been here a month-" Cloud move hand over Riku mouth.

"What my brother is trying to say is thank you for the update" Cloud watch the doctor leave as he looked at Riku "Calm down, it's only so much the doctor can do".

Riku move Cloud hand away "He doesn't care what happens Cloud. He is my boyfriend I feel so useless".

Don't say that.

My dad sigh about to say something when my mother came in out of breath "Tifa what happen?".

"They...found Roxas and Axel." Tifa said as she grabbed leon "Lets go" she looked at Riku "You want to come?".

Riku shook his head to sit down on the bed to continue holding my hand "I want to see if talking to Sora will wake him up".

Tifa nodded to leave with Leon.

Cloud went to the door "Going to get something to eat. Don't beat up any nurses or doctors while I am away".

Riku rolled eyes to watch Cloud leave than look at me "Sora did you hear? They found Roxas and Axel".

I heard.

Riku moved my hand up to kiss it gently "Please wake up I need you Sora".

I can't yet I have to figure out my feelings.

It was Riku birthday and thank goodness it was on a Saturday because I was able to distract Riku from what his brother was planning. We working at the library but we weren't actually working per say.

On the third floor of the library where no one seemed to go was our secret make out spot.

Riku rubbed my waist to kiss me in soft pecks "Thank you again for the heart pancakes. I should sleep over more often".

I blush cutely to grab Riku shirt a little "You really should I love your cute snores".

"Mmm what else you have plan for me" Riku move his head to kiss my neck.

Moan softly to move hands to Riku shoulders to push him back gently against the other bookcase to blush softly "This" I move down to go on my knees to move hands on Riku jeans to open them up and move them down enough to see Riku hard dick. Moving hand to stroke his length and than move mouth around the head to suck making Riku moan softly as he moved hand in my hair to grip.

How did we not get caught?

"Sora" Riku after a few minutes exploded in my mouth as he panted softly.

I move head back to swallow and lick lips to blush "How was that?".

"The best present" Riku looked down at me and was about to say something when we heard our names being called over the speaker by liberian.

"Riku. Sora. You can go home. I don't have anymore work for you guys" the librarian said.

Riku got his pants back on to take my hand "You want to go home?".

"Not yet. I have a place in mind" I said to wave at liberian and head outside.

"Your so secretive Sora what are you up to hua" Riku raise his brow curious.

"You will see" I smirk cutely to kiss his cheek as we made our way to Cloud place. I had to cover Riku eyes so he couldn't see where we were going "Almost there".

Cloud was at the door to wave hand to indicate for us to follow.

Once we got inside I removed my hands and Cloud and his bandmates yelled surprise at the decorative house.

Riku jump back a little "What the heck?".

"It's surprise party for you" I said "Your brother wanted to throw you one be happy".

Cloud came over "Your early not many people here yet" he looked at Riku to put hand out "Truce?".

Riku rubbed the back of his head to look at me and than at Cloud "Fine" he shook Cloud hand.

A hour or so later a lot of people were there and were drinking. I was dancing with Riku on the dance floor when I notice a few of Axel friends were at this party and it bug me a lot. Felt like we were being watched.

Cloud sprayed beer on every one, he was so drunk.

Riku took me to the bathroom "Brother is a jerk when he is drunk. All sticky" he looked up at me "Thank you though for this Sora".

"At least we aren't drunk that's a plus" I chuckle softly to sit on the sink "Your welcome I just wanted you to have the best day possible with everything going on".

Riku moved to go between my legs to rub my waist to kiss me "Well it worked" he kissed me deeper.

I move arms around his neck to move my tongue into Riku to slide it against his.

Pulling back slowly to have our spit combine, Riku pant softly to look at me "You want to go back to my place".

Biting my lower lip to grip some of Riku hair a bit "Yes...gah" blushing softly.

Riku pick me over his shoulder to head out of the bathroom to head out the back and head a few blocks to Riku home while I complained.

"I can walk Riku" I complained cutely gripping the back of Riku shirt.

"We are almost at my place" Riku made sure parents car wasn't there as he went inside still carrying up the stairs to his bedroom. He put me on the bed to go back to the door to make sure it was locked.

I removed my shoes and socks looking at Riku coming back to go on my knees to move hands to Riku shirt to grip and kiss him in gentle pecks "I want all of you" I whisper cutely.

"Are you sure?" Riku said kissing back to get on bed on his knees too rubbing my waist.

"I am sure" I whisper to remove my shirt to toss it aside.

Riku did the same as he kissed me deeply to move me back against the bed.

It was our first time. For some reason that moment felt so right. We knew we didn't want to be with anyone else.

I couldn't risk Riku parents seeing in me in the morning though so I snuck out later when Riku was sleeping to head back to my house as I lean against my bedroom door to touch my lips to smile softly remembering every touch. It was amazing. I went over to bed to go under the covers and fall asleep.

After that night we felt more connected, I want to feel that again. Why can't we go back to that time.

My hand twitch and Riku felt it as he raise his head from sleeping to look at me "Sora?" he looked at my hand to see it twitch again as he got up to look at me "Sora can you hear me? It's Riku I am here".

I know.

Riku laid next to me to move hand in my hair to rest head against mine "Can you feel my touch?".

I can

"Come back to me" Riku whisper.

Not yet.

The door open and Tifa came in "Roxas is here..".

Riku moves off the bed to see Roxas come in the room. He looked a mess.

Roxas looked at Riku as he was quiet as Tifa sigh "I will leave you guys alone" she would leave as Roxas walk over to the bed "Hey...Sora..".

Roxas what took you so long?

"He has been twitching his hand...so he can hear us" Riku sat in the chair "Where is Axel?".

Roxas grip the edge of the bed "In jail.. they wont let him out until he confesses what he did... ".

"So you told them the truth than?" Riku asked.

Roxas looked away "I told them it wasn't Axel fault. It was his stupid friend fault".

"Tch" Riku was annoyed "Your a asshole. Why are you protecting him?".

"Because he is my husband.. " Roxas glared at Riku "You would protect Sora if it was the same situation".

Riku got up "My lover isnt a loon like yours. He belongs in the mental hospital!".

"Shut up!" Roxas was crying "I get it okay. Axel isn't perfect. I love him though..." he moves to the other side of my bed to touch my hand "I am going to be begging for forgiveness forever Sora so you have to wake up" he moves head on my chest.

Not yet.

Riku couldn't stay in the room as he left to go out in the hall to rest back against the wall and hit it with his fist a little to slide down to sit to move hands into his hair.

After Riku birthday, school continue and we hung out with Cloud a lot to get to know Zack. Apparently Zack wasn't a morning person it was funny to see Cloud try to drag him out the room.

"So Sora hear it's your birthday tomorrow" Cloud said as he push Zack gently in the kitchen.

"Yeah the big 15" I smiled to eat some waffles Cloud made.

"What do you say we have a party here?" Cloud said giving Zack his coffee.

"Yeah no thanks I have already planned something psycho" Riku said as he drank some coffee.

Zack sipped his coffee "I think we need a break from parties don't you think. After all we have to prepare-" Cloud put hand over Zack mouth.

"Shh go back to drinking your coffee" Cloud had sweat drop hiding something obviously.

Riku raise his brow to see Cloud hand "Is that a wedding ring".

"Um" Cloud move hand in back of him "What? No this is uhh..." he looked at Zack "Really? Your no help".

Zack smirk to drink his coffee "That's for waking me up early".

"Cloud are you getting married?" I asked curious.

Cloud sulk head to sigh "Yes. When we go on tour in couple weeks one of our stops is Las Vegas and we were just getting hitch there. It really was no big deal".

Riku got up "So your leaving again" he knew when Cloud went he would never hear from him.

Cloud looked at Riku "Your more than welcome to come...".

"Unlike you dumbass I have school to finish and I have a boyfriend" Riku grab his bag "Lets go Sora." he was heading to the door.

"Come on Riku don't be mad" Cloud complain to hear door slam to sigh to look at me "Look after him for me Sora".

"I will" I smiled to get up and hug Cloud and Zack "Welcome to the crazy family".

"Thanks" Zack got up to kiss Cloud lips "someone has to handle this kid".

"What does that mean!" Cloud complain.

I chuckle softly to head out of the house to catch up with Riku "Don't worry Riku I will be here for you".

Riku held my hand "Thanks" he kissed my hand.

"So are you really planning something for me or were you joking?" I asked curious.

"Its more I planned something with Roxas so don't worry about it " Riku smirk.

After that crazy morning the rest of the day went smoothly and than it was Friday and it was birthday. I woke up seeing balloons in my room and trail of roses going out the door to raise brow. The roses lead to the kitchen where Riku had eggs and bacon made in the number 15 and rose next to it "Happy birthday Sora" Riku smiled.

"Thank you" I walk over to kiss Riku lips "What else do you have planned hua?".

"Don't say anything Riku" Roxas came in to cover Riku mouth "It's a secret".

Eating my bacon first "Uh hua" I was trying to figure out what they were up to "When did you two get so close".

"Only for today weirdo" Roxas grab some juice to look at Riku "Don't get use to it".

Riku rolled eyes as my parents came in to hug me and wish me happy birthday to give me presents "Thank you". I share my breakfast with Riku and than we headed to school. At school I had that bad feeling when I saw Axel friends looking at me as they passed. Am I being paranoid?

I wasn't

That bad feeling continue as school ended and Roxas put a blindfold on me when I got home to have our parents drive us to the secret party. Which was Axel mansion I came to find out when I removed the blindfold. "Axel parents let me use there place for your party. There is a pool in back with huge slide. Inside has game room" he lead me into the house to everyone yelling surprise to see Riku on stage "Happy birthday Sora!".

I blushed as I was overwhelmed and speechless "This is nuts".

"I know. Go enjoy" Roxas chuckle to push me forward.

What was more crazy was when I got to riku he was acting so strange "Are you drunk!?' I said over the music.

"No!" Riku said as he was drinking whatever was in his cup as I grab it to smell fruit punch so he was telling the truth "Come Sora it's your party have some fun. Lets go to the pool!".

"Okay!" I went through the crowd to head in back to see everyone jumping in pool. There was a lot of people here that I lost Riku. I thought he was following me. When I made my way back I looked around.

"You okay Sora!" Kairi said coming over dancing with Rikku and Xion.

"Trying to find Riku!" I said over music.

"Oh I saw him go upstairs!" Kairi said.

What was seriously going on? I walk up the stairs to see Axel friend Demyx looking at me as I gave a strange look to look at the door behind me to open it to see it was the bathroom and two people making out "Sor-" i stopped myself to see the new kid Tidus making out with Riku. Riku looked at me to all sudden have wide eyes "Sora!?".

My heart was beating so fast as I gripped the door knob "Screw you!" I all sudden ran back home.

A/N: Leaving it here for you guys to guess what happen ~ Until next time!