Shakia's POV

I have this pain in the pit of my stomach. "What happened?" But for some reason I already know she's gone. But I need someone to say it; because right now it's not real. Right now it feels like a nightmare that I am trying my hardest to wake up from. Maybe if I wake up I will still be on the bus from New York coming back home. But the look on Jerry's face tells me it isn't a nightmare.

Jerry sighed "Maybe we shouldn't' talk-" Dam it will he cut the crap. Now is not the time to play the fatherly role with me.

I cut him off "What happened?!" I don't care what he thought I had to know what happened.

Bobby sighed "Ma went to the grocery story for thanksgiving shopping and a couple of thugs came in and shot the place up."

I felt my heart stop. Pain shot through my chest and I felt a lump in my throat. Tears were rolling down my face; Jes had tears in her eyes as well. I couldn't take them looking at me like that; I picked my bag off the floor and went up the stairs to my room ignoring the calls from my brothers and Jessica.

I lay on my bed and cried my eyes out. Before I came here I never thought I would have a mother, a family and she gave that to me, and now the only woman who ever gave a dam was gone….

Jessica's POV

Dam it I new she would take it like this. She is gonna shut her self off from everyone. The one difference about Shakia and I is she hates showing her emotions, if it is anger thing except anger. I guess she gets it from Bobby.

I huffed angrily and looked around the room "She shouldn't have found out like this with the cards and shit."

Angel nodded "She is not going to talk until she is ready. " He sat on the recliner. Bobby went and put his hockey stuff away before sitting in front of the couch and put a hockey game on.

I sat on the couch and Jack sat next to me, I rested my head on his lap and he stroked my hair. He used to do it when I was little. After about five minutes I fell asleep on Jack's lap. This has been a very tiring day.

Shakia's POV

I can't believe she is gone, I get up and go to the bathroom and wash my face. It's like I can still feel her presence around the house, her smell. Everything that happened is my fault. Oh My God I am the reason why my mother is dead. I can't take it anymore. I throw on my jacket and grab my keys.

Everyone is in the living room when I walk down the stairs. Angel looks at me as I put my hat on and he sits up. Everyone notices this but Jessica who is asleep on Jackie's lap.

Angel got up out of his seat "Shakia where you going?" I don't feel like explaining.

I shake my head and head out to my car and slam the door on my way out. I open my car door and I am about to get in when and hand stops me by grabbing my wrist. I turn and see Angel with Bobby, Jess, and Jack.

Jack looks at me with concern in his eyes and voice "Where are you going?"

I put my head down "I can't stay here…"

Angel says "What do you mean you cant stay here? This is your home" he puts his hands on my shoulders and forces me to look him in the eyes.

I pull away from him "not anymore."

Jes looks at me with sad eyes "Kia I know what you're feeling and…."

I said "You guys don't get it, this whole thing…." I stop my self. I move past them and get in my car and drive away.

I pull up at the bar and order a beer. Joe the bartender says "Hey Shakia I am sorry about your mom." I nodded. I stayed at the bar for a while. But I couldn't stay any longer. I was getting sick of guys hitting on me and having Joe tell them to back off.

I have been driving around for hours and when I pull up at home it is three am. I walk in a noticed that Bobby and Angel are up watching TV.

Angel said "Kia we need to talk." That's one thing I can't handle. Not right now.

I shake my head and looked at my shoes "There is nothing to talk about. I get it it's my fault."

Bobby looks up and my and raises his voice "What the hell are you talking about?" I shake my head and head towards the stairs "Get over here!"

I was pissed now why can't everyone just leave me alone. "Screw you Bobby!" and I head towards my room. I shut the door to have it swung open by Bobby and Angel "What the hell?! Get out!"

Bobby says "No what's going on with you, you just leave here?! And say that the whole thing was your fault?!" Jackie and Jess heard the yelling and come into the room.

That's it I am finally breaking "You want to know what's wrong with me I come home and find out my mother is dead and it is my fault! I was supposed to go to the store but I got caught up with shit in New York so she went instead…. If I was here she would have never went and she would still fucking be here!!" I yell with tears rolling down my cheeks.

Everyone just looked at me and Angel took a step towards me pulled me into one of his famous hugs, the one that I have been missing since he left. I buried my head into his chest and Bobby comes behind me and rubs my back and kisses the back of my head whispering that it wasn't my fault.

He kept telling me that it wasn't my fault. I cried the most I cried in my entire life.

Jessica's POV

I woke up and realizing that I was in Shakia's room after she cried last night we laid down in her bead and talked.

I walked downstairs Bobby was in the living room with Angel watching TV, Jack was in the dinning room playing his guitar and Shakia was in the kitchen making everyone's breakfast.

I walked in and automatically starting helping her "Kia are you okay?"

She smiled at me "I'm okay." As long as she and I stick together we will be fine.

I heard Sophia in the living room arguing with Bobby and I looked at Shakia she wore a face of confusion and anger. The shit was about to hit he fan……