Disclaimer : If Gakuen alice was mine, then Natsume hyuuga will be Mine Unfortunately, It isn't...

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Summary : When her illness eat her little by little, she can only hope for happiness.

A beating heart

By : Miimàh-chan

~Chapter Four~

ENJOY

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"Life is a torment; death is just the same. I came to understand this.

Love is stronger than both combined, more cruel.

For me, nothing has ever been as painful as love."

-Miimàh-chan~

Natsume and I were running away, from what? I don't know... All I know is that currently the only thing I need to do is to run away. Far away from here. Before us stood a magnificent sunset. A sunset so beautiful... So beautiful and unreal. Just like this nightmare.

I felt your hand gently let go of my own, but I didn't let you do that, didn't I say that I'll never let go of this hand? I can't live without your warmth, without your little smiles and simply without you. It is hard to imagine. My life would be unbearable, inconceivable. I was looking around when I felt your stare, I turned around and I stared at you unconsciously, you have such beautiful eyes. Red. It's the first time I see someone with eyes like this, they hold so much feeling, so much hurt... Yet, so deep and so mesmerizing. Short raven hair, red lips and a pale skin. At our first encounter, I really did thought that you were a vampire and I was scared of you but now, it's different because I love you. Luckily, you can't read my mind or else, you'll certainly be like always; arrogant and you'd make fun of me.

"Hey little girl, stop staring at me it's irritating. I know that I'm handsome but you have to stop."

I blushed, a deep shade of red and gently slapped his arm.

"Idiot!"

"Polka-dots."

"You Pervert!"

"Pi-"

You suddenly stopped, startling me in the process, but I discovered with horror that we were in a dead-end. I decided to look closer and now I can see the bottom of the ravine. The sea was banging ferociously against the sharp rocks. A good thirty meters gap between me and the sea. You are not far behind me, but do not move more than that, you're just looking at me. Why do you look so frightened? You come to me slowly, and then catch me by my arm. You pushed me away from the edge. I turned around and saw you, you move your lips but no sound comes out. What is it? I came closer to you and then looked at the ground, it was shaking and it seemed to come off. Horrified, I realized too late that you left with this piece of stone. I screamed your name and held my hand to you but it wasn't enough, you fall deep down in the sea. I went down as quickly as possible to join you. My heart seemed to bleed, but I don't mind, you're the only thing that matters to me. And only you.

I finally see you, your face showed pain and your body was bleeding. This vision of horror tore my heart apart. Your eyes are still open and I sobbed in front of you, but you don't react. You don't seem to worry, you put your hand on my cheek, I catch it and held it right in front of my heart, and you looked at me and tried to utter something.

"Mikan... Save yourself... Do not let them... Have you..."

"NO! I WON'T LET YOU DIE HERE! YOU HAVE TO COME WITH ME!"

"No... You... You have to go! Idiot...! Don't... Don't you understand?"

"I'd rather die than let you alone here."

"They'll... Kill you!... Don't... Be stupid!"

"THEY'RE HERE!" screamed one of the men that were running after us, saying to the other where we are.

"Mika-"

"I love you, Natsume."

"Go!... MIKAN!"

BANG

I slowly opened my eyes and was greeted by the usual white ceiling. A sigh of relief escaped my lips, it was indeed a dream... But it looked so real... I really felt like losing someone dear to me. Silent tears dropped, as I keep thinking of this weird dream, one question seems not to get out of my head.

"Who was this boy?" I whispered.

"...Who?"

"Jii-chan! You surprised me!" I cried as I rubbed my eyes.

"Hm, so who were you talking about?" he again asked.

"Ah, just a dream," I said, looking at him.

"...Ok."

"Ne, jii-chan,"

"Yes little girl?"

"Thank you!"

"For what?" Asked Yamaka as he opened the window.

"For letting me stay here." I replied, smiling at him and for the first, from the bottom of my heart.

"Mikan-chan, like I said, I'll treat you like my own daughter."

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Flash back

"Jii-chan!"

"How are you doing?" He asked, handing her the bowl fool of soup.

"Thank you, I'm fine...," I replied, somehow I don't remember how I come to this house. "How did you find me?"

"...I saw you faint in the street," said jii-chan, hesitating a little.

"Ah..."

"Mikan-chan... Do you... Do you live in the street?"

His question surprised me, but, what to do? Lie or say the truth? Surely, if I said that I escaped from the hospital, he'll kick me out or he would call the police. I don't want that, no... I don't want to return to her.

"I... Yes..." I said, tasting the bitterness of my lie.

"But, where is your family?"

"I... I don't have one,"

"...I'm sorry" he sounded so sincere, so human. Like he was saying the truth, and it felt like someone was stabbing my heart. How can I lie to someone so gentle and innocent?

"No, it's ok," No, I can't lie anymore. I have, no, I must say the truth. "I-"

"If you really have no where to go, you can live here," he suddenly blurted out, grasping my hands in his calused ones."I have an empty room, a bit old but, it will surely be better after some work!"

"But I can't, I'll surely be a burden to you..." I started, feeling really guilty for lying to someone so kind. "And I-"

"No, you won't, and I'll certainly don't want to let you go live again in the street, it's too dangerous for a young girl like you,"

"But-"

"No but! You'll leave her, At least until you can get a proper apartment."

"...Ok." Does this lie while live in my heart any longer?

End of flash back.

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"Thank you... So much!"

"It's me who should thank you" He thoughts, skipping toward the closet taking out from it a little dress.

She smiled at him, a true one that showed how much she was happy.

"I guess, life is not as cruel as I thought, maybe, just maybe, it'll be better than I imagined," She uttered to no one, she then looked at the sun, a little smile on her lips, "Yes, I hope for the better."

"Here," he said, handing her the dress he picked from the closet,"Now prepare yourself, we'll go out."

"Huh? Where? Now?"

"To buy some clothes and your uniform!" he said happily and proudly.

"U- Uniform?" she said, stuttering a little

"I enrolled you to a high school and your first day is next week," he started, "I hope you'll like this school!"

"WHAT?" she cried out, I'll go to school? She thoughts.

"Why are you surprised? School is important, you have to study to get a good job and have a good life."

"Ye- yes but..." I've always been tutoring at my hospital. What I am going to do in this school? She thoughts as she started shaking with fear.

"Gakuen Alice high school is a school for genius, you better make me proud of you little girl!" He said as he stared at her with stars in his eyes.

"Ye- yes!" She replied as her and jii-chan got out of the house.

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Waiting for the end of the weekend was the same as waiting the end of eternity. The impatience was felt every day. The day when they searched for clothes and spend time together was one of her best days, and she have this feeling that tomorrow will be a perfect day. It can only be perfect, because tomorrow, she'll do her best... This feeling of happiness is something she never experienced, and waiting for a day that will be filled with good memories is something that she never thoughts she'd be feeling. Memories that will fill her mind and her heart. She can't wait. She just can't.

"I'll meet peoples, and perhaps if I'm lucky, very lucky, I'll even make friends." she whispered to the stars in the deep black sky in the middle of the night.

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The sun had risen and was now above the horizon, warm and enveloping Tokyo with a soft veil of gold. The birds were singing and the flower began to bloom. What a beautiful day it is. After sleeping until the sun reaches its zenith in the endless blue sky. Not even a cloud could be seen.

A girl with long brown hair was sleeping peacefully, not earring her alarm clock shouting since already ten good minutes to wake her up.

BIIIP- BIIIP- BIIIII-

"Hm~"

"MIKAN! YOU'LL BE LATE IF YOU DON'T WAKE UP!" Cried the astonished grandfather.

"HUH!"

"What an idiot," Whispered Jii-chan as he gently slapped her head. "Wake up!"

"I'm sorry!" I said, rubbing my head, feeling embarrassed.

"Get up and go before you get late!"

"Hai!"

And now began my first day as a student. What will come of it?

Chapter four up~!

I hope you liked it! I made it a little longer but, I'll make the next one even longer if you want.

Anyway, did you liked this chapter? What do you think will happen?

This dream was strange, don't you think? What are those dreams? Why does she keeps dreaming about a boy named Natsume? Well~ You'll find out soon but not now. :P

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