Hello Beautiful Readers!! Thank you again for all your amazing reviews. I love them all. A lot of you asked me to make the chapters longer. I'm here to say...that I' can't. I'm sorry, I know. Like I've stated previously...I'm not a writer. Not at all. It takes so much out of me just to get these chapters out. I wish I could write longer chapter for all you wonderful people, but I get emotionally exhausted when I'm writing. Hopefully I'll get more stamina as I go on. Until then, I hope you enjoy this chapter.
Btw...I don't own anything Twilight.
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EPOV
I stood in the doorway, still stunned to see my Bella so close, so….real.
For years, I had come to rely on my memories to be near her, and here she was so within my reach.
A sense of pride welled up in me as I saw her standing there writing on the board. My beautiful Bella a teacher.
I wanted so much to hold her in my arms. To kiss her. To tell her how proud I was.
She stopped writing when I spoke, but kept her back to the class.
Did she know it was me who entered her classroom? Did she know my voice as well as I knew hers?
She took a long moment, before finally turning around to look at me. I couldn't help but smile when her deep brown eyes met mine.
She was the most gorgeous creature I had every seen. It actually hurt to not be touching her in that instant. She had always been beautiful, but she had developed into this sensuous woman over the years. I was at a loss for words as I marveled at her curves.
Her rich, mahogany hair was longer, and fell in big curls around her heart shaped face. Her lips were fuller. I wanted them so much to be against mine. She wore a fitted shirt, in my favorite color. Blue.
My god, she was so beautiful.
Her cheeks flushed a delicious pink. I wondered if she was as nervous as I was. I could hear her heart racing, but she looked calm and collected.
I would have given anything to be able to read her mind in that moment.
Was she happy to see me? Was she angry that I had broken my promise to never interfere in her life again? What was she thinking?
Nothing had changed since high school. I still longed to know her every thought.
I was so mesmerized by her beauty and the anxiety of her shielded mind that I had forgotten that we had an audience.
It wasn't until a boy, very much like our "friend" Mike Newton, made me realize where I was. His fantasies about Bella awakened me from my entrancement.
I couldn't blame him. Boys had always been drawn to her, and now she was even more alluring. Still, a twinge of resentment coursed through my body. His carnal thoughts were wrapped around my Bella.
Other voices then began penetrating my head.
Wow, he is gorgeous.
I hope he sits by me.
Does he know Ms. Swan?
Why are they just standing there looking at each other?
The students were perceptive to the fact that I couldn't stop starring and smiling at their teacher. I needed to speak to Bella alone. I needed to be closer to her now. But she spoke before I got the chance to ask her to step outside with me.
"Are you the new student?" she said casually.
I stopped smiling at her. I was confused.
Was she pretending not to know me? Or was she genuinely asking me if I was her new student? I couldn't tell by the tone. It seemed like she didn't recognize me.
I obviously hadn't changed in appearance, but I always knew my attachment to her was stronger.
My love for her had changed me in an eternal way that never faded.
She was beautiful, smart, selfless, and wonderfully clumsy.
I knew I was never good enough for her.
It wouldn't surprise me if I was just some old, forgotten, high school boyfriend.
I was sure some other man held her heart. She was beyond our past by now.
I began to feel uncomfortable. Empty. I needed her to acknowledge me.
"I'm Edward Cullen." I said my name in a manner that sounded both as a statement and as a question.
Her answer gave me no clarity.
"Hello Edward," she said lightly.
Was she greeting me as some stranger or as her Edward?
A wave of sadness and anger overcame me.
It was infuriating that the trivial thoughts of her students were so clear to me, yet her mind was completely closed off.
"Take any open seat. You've come on a great day. We've just started to study Romeo and Juliet. I'll get you a copy of the play on Monday."
Confusion and hurt set in as I took an open seat up front. I just wanted to be near her. To read her.
Her face, once an open book to me, now was impossible to understand.
"Amber, would you please share your copy of Romeo and Juliet with Edward?"
Gladly, Amber ecstatically thought.
Bella was never much of an actress, but if she was pretending not to know me, she was doing an exceptional job. I sighed, as Amber scooter her desk closer to mine to share her book with me.
My anxiety became secondary when Bella began to lecture. She was an extraordinary teacher. Passion radiated from her words. It was obvious she loved her job. Her students admired her too. They listened intently for most of the hour.
I on the other hand found contentment in watching her. It was far better than any daydream. An hour observing her wasn't nearly long enough. I was reminiscent to the many nights I watched her sleep.
I loved watching her beautiful mouth move whenever she turned to speak to the class. Mostly I watched her thick, silky hair sway as she glided across the room. She moved with such elegance.
I smiled when I noticed she was wearing heels, and wondered how many times she tripped before being able to walk as gracefully as she did now.
I wish I could have been there to catch every fall.
But she didn't need me to catch her.....
The bell rang, signaling the end of the school day. The end of my hour with her.
Kids quickly grabbed their bags, and filtered out of the classroom, anxious to start their weekends.
I didn't move from my desk. I continued to watch Bella as she put her things away.
I was beaming with pride as I looked at the woman she had become. My happiness for her success however, was soon overshadowed with sorrow as I realized that my instincts had been correct five years ago.
Bella was a better person without me in her life.
Guilt followed my sorrow, as I secretly wished that she had needed me.
But looking at this confident woman at the head of the classroom, I knew that I had done right by leaving her.
A new layer of heartache emerged as I realized that my presence had only been a hindrance to her.
I wouldn't interfere with the life that my beautiful Bella had made for herself. Plus, Amber desperately wanted me to leave so she could talk to Ms. Swan about a grade.
I swiftly rose from my chair and quickly walked away from Bella, as I had that first day in Biology. I walked away for her protection. I walked away to save her life.
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So...tell me what you thought. I already know how the Bella/Edward relationship is going to play out, but I was wondering...do you guys want me to bring in other characters? Obviously the Cullens are going to be invovled, but do you want Jacob, Victoria, etc to be a part of the plot? Let me know : ) Love you all! Thanks for reading!
