Chapter Four

Zoey

"What are you thinking?" Stark whispered after a few minutes. We had removed our shoes and laid on the bed. The covers were pulled down a bit and we weren't in them. It was a bit warm in the room as it was.

I rolled over onto my side so that I could look him in the eyes. I'll never forget those minutes before his body rejected the change and he died back in the House of Night stables. I'd kissed him and told him he would come back. I'd given him a piece of hope to hang on to when I hadn't even known him for a couple days. I watched as his blood came pooling out of him and then as the light left his brown eyes. I watched him die.

Looking at him now I see the same guy I held in my arms as he died. His cute messy hair that was a sandy color in between blonde and brown looks the same. He still has the strong chin, straight nose, and amazing lips. His eyes were still brown and warm, and right now filled with complete love towards me.

"Zoey, what are you thinking about?" He repeated still keeping his voice as a whisper. I smiled at him and put my hand on his chest. He wears his shirt but I know underneath my hand would be the broken arrow burn I had given him.

"You," I said simply. It was the most basic honest answer I could give him. I was thinking about him. He had to know that, didn't he? I mean he could feel my emotions and probably know my thoughts mostly as well.

"I try to not listen in all the time Z," he smiles at me. "I know you like some privacy."

"I'll try not to intrude on your thoughts too," I giggle, I can't help it.

"Oh please, most of my thoughts are about you anyways," Stark put his hand over my hand that was resting on his chest. "They've always been centered around you."

I didn't know how to respond to him. I wasn't an expert at words, and most of my choices turnd out to suck. I mean just a while ago I had been juggling three boyfriends, all of which had gone wrong. And now two are dead. I can't help but feel they're dead because of me, and that is a thought that just brings me pain.

Stark pulled me closer to him. "Hey, calm down now Z. I can feel your sudden change of thought. Nothing is your fault Z. Things happen for a reason and we get stronger after everything that happens," I could feel his lips in my hair for a moment before his voice continues, "You and I are together and well Z, we've made it through everything that's been thrown at us. We just need to think towards the future and not the past. Z, our eyes were put in the front of our heads for a reason, that reason being that we look forward not back."

I pulled back to look him in the eyes. Even in the most serious times Stark was still able to make me smile. "Where did that come from?"

Stark smiled and held my hand tighter over his heart. "From in here Z."

I could feel his heart beat underneath my hand. "Thank you for everything Stark. For risking your life for me again and for never giving up on me." My words come tumbling out and I fear that I have broken the moment between us.

Stark smiles and kisses my first mark, my filled-in Saphire colored cresent on my forehead. Then he says, "I'm never going to give up Z. You never turned your back on me when I died and came back as a monster-" I opened my mouth to interrupt him but he put his finger over my lips and I let it go. "-you always believed in me Zoey, the me that no one could see. You showed me what it means to really love and to feel like you've lost the world.

"I'm never going to give up on you or leave you for a stupid reason like jealousy again," he pauses as a look of pain flashes in his eyes but then disappears as quick as it came. "Because with you, by your side, my queen, is where I belong. It's where I know I want to stay. "

Then he kissed me. A soft, sweet kiss that made my heart ache for more of him.

And he gave me more of him that night. A night of pure love and passion. A night that I wished I could replace my first time with. For this night was real, and our love was not a game. Everything we felt was ours.

There was absolutely no problems running through my mind as Stark held me later on. His arms around me gentle, and his lips brushing against my neck under my ear and jaw. The heat of his breath and body mixed with my own. My hand still held by his over his heart, but this time there was no clothing in the way.

Authors note: Okay thats then end for chapter four. I hope you like it! Please review thanks!(: I needa know what you think so that I can make it even betteR(: Haha didn't wanna go GRAPHIC in detail :P R&R ! (:

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