So we needed a plan and unfortunately that included Lissa and Sydney, we couldn't really bring victor so Sydney rang for some alcamists who tipped off the royal court, we told him to stay at Roberts, really like that was going to work but that's okay, Sydney hid a tracker device on him...

Don't ask me what she was doing with a tracker device- apparently it was just one of those handy things alchemists carry around, but hey, I never said alchemists are normal.

It was true I was becoming less and less rose and more no fun guardian, loosing Dimitri I guess I slowly lost the fun and loving side of my soul. I no longer answered things with witty responses but just pretended to hear, what if he kills me? What if he turns me Strigori? What if he hurts Lissa? That was my main question both of my first two worries couldn't come close to the 3rd. It was the nightmare that I had recurring every night… what if he kills Lissa. The night before we decide to find Dimitri I call Sydney and Lissa over too me.

I looked them in the eyes, one after the other.

"Tomorrow you have to listen to me and be ready, if anything doesn't go to plan ANYTHING at weather it be big, small, fixable or not I want you too listen to me. If I tell you too run, RUN! you have to promise me that if at any moment you are further putting yourself in danger than I already am, that you will run, promise"

I looked at Liss first, her lips quivering in anger, "that's not fair! You could be Killed, im not just going to run-"

My eyes silenced her, "please Liss, Please you have to promise me or nothing is going to happen please Liss, promise"

"I…" she sighed in defeat slumping down onto the floor "yes fine, I promise"

"Sydney, do you promise?"

"Yes Rose I promise, and I promise that I will keep Vassilla safe". There was so much sincerity in her eyes, I had never seen this kind of person- this trip was discovering more sides too Sydney then I thought possible, the way she looked at me I thought of Adrian. Adrian I missed him so much, he honestly cared for me, more than I like to think about but I could never return such devotion… right now he would be writing his dating proposal... GOD I hated this new rose all she did was hurt others I wanted my old self back, the flirty and fun me. I thought how he would have knocked on my door being the usual damn annoying self that I loved- in a friend sort of way.

Walking into my room without knocking as per usual, "Adrian! Don't just come into my room without knocking I could be naked" again as soon as I said that I instantly regretted it.

I was expecting a "oh wouldn't that be a shame" or an "I don't really think you would mind, would you" but instead he turned around with a smile and walked out the door. I jump up instantly calling his name and running after him, I then hear 2 quick knocks before he opened the door and stepped in front of my moving figure wrapping his arms around me he said "I know you don't really give a dam if I knock or not" before I move out of his embrace.

As the walls around me materialized, I realize all the harm I have caused him, he knew it I could see he knew it- it would always be Dimitri. I realized that this attempt to once again free Dimitri's soul would hurt Adrian once again, but I couldn't bring myself to regret it. Tomorrow I could be heading home with Dimitri, my Dimitri.