Blink of an Eye: Chapter Four- Not Just About Me

Another week passed by, yes a week. Every time Juliet planned to tell Shawn about him impending fatherhood she would clam up or Shawn would make her forget if you know what I mean. It was getting ridiculous, at this rate the baby would be born before she grew the nerves to tell him. Over the past week more and more people began to find out Juliet's news; about almost every officer in the police station caught wind however they all tried their best to keep mum, considering Lassiter and Shawn were out of the loop.

Everyone was starting to get back in the groove of things. In the morning Shawn and Gus would check on Mr. Spencer before going to the Psych office to work on the cases the Chief had given them. Shawn was finally starting to feel that everything was back in it's correct spot, he finally felt okay joking around and participating in his usual crazy shenanigans. However he did feel that something was tad bit off with Gus but he just thought that he was being the same ole Gus.

After stopping off for their favorite L-inner snack of Jerk Chicken the dynamic duo made their way to the police department. Meanwhile Juliet was working diligently on her first armed robbery case since being back to work while Lassiter had gone to a hearing for Marlowe. Her eyes were following along with computer screen when Buzz came up to her desk with his hands behind his back, wearing a giant smile. Juliet looked up at him and waited for him to say something, "I told my Franny about your new bundle of news and she knitted you these," he said pulling from behind his back a pair of small green booties and a green hat, "we thought it would be great for the baby since you don't know the gender yet," he stopped dead in his tracks. The whole police department grew completely silent. Juliet gave everyone a questioning look, "What," she heard from behind her. She closed her eyes as she turned to face the voice from behind, hoping that she didn't actually recognize the voice.

Once she opened her eyes she saw what she was fearing. There stood Gus and Shawn, Chinese food containers in their hands, now Juliet understood why everyone was so shocked.

"How long have you been standing there," she spoke.

He didn't respond, he just stood there staring off into space. Juliet too froze for a moment then got up and walked over to the conference room, she stood there waiting a moment before Shawn shook the shock from his mind and followed her, putting down his food on Juliet's desk. The second the door clicked close Shawn spoke up, "What the hell?"

Juliet didn't know what to say, she took a deep breath, bowed her head and crossed her arms over her chest, "Is it true," he asked.

She looked up at him slightly and then nodded her head. Shawn didn't know how to feel, actually he sort of did, he felt as though he was having a heart attack. He leaned against the table to keep himself steady, his life started to flash before his eyes; he had to pinch himself just to make sure he wasn't dreaming, "Why didn't you tell me, you told Buzz, why not me," his voice cracked, his eyes starting to fill with water.

"I didn't, they all figured it out," she answered.

Shawn perked up, "all? Who's all?"

"Um well the majority of the officers, the chief, your dad," she paused, "Gus."

His eyes grew wide and turned to shoot his best friend a death glare and Gus squirmed back into his own little hole.

"I wanted to tell you, I've tried for the past couple of weeks to tell you but it never seemed like the right time, this is huge news and I wanted to ease you into it. You've never been really good at handling life changing news."

Shawn felt like he had been punched in the stomach and throat at the same time, never before had de thought that this would ever happen to him. He never ever ran the scenario through his head before this moment, he's never even held a baby before. He ran his hands over his face before saying, "I, uh, I need to go for a walk," then without pause he turned and walked out of the conference room and out of the police station.

Juliet could no longer hold back the tears, she turned her back to the station full of people staring at her and let the tears fall. In that moment all she could see was her father. She realized in that moment why she was so hesitant to tell Shawn about the baby, it was because she feared Shawn would be the same type of father her dad was to her. This was a fear that haunted her for most of her life, she made it a point to find someone not like her father but she couldn't be sure, all of her past commitment issues began to flood back. If Shawn was going to be her father cloned she didn't know what to do; maybe she could transfer as to not face Shawn, she could raise their baby or, GULP, give him or her to a family who wants one so badly. Juliet sunk down into one of the chairs as she ran through every different scenario in her head.

Shawn on the other hand had a blank mind as he walked through the streets of Santa Barbra. He could've taken the Blueberry, he knew where Gus kept the spare key but the air seemed to calm him down more. This news was something he was not prepared for. He smacked himself for not seeing this coming, after all he was mister observant, lead psychic detective for the S.B.P.D. Oh my, it occurred to him five minutes into his walk, he was actually going to be someone's father; he and Jules created it. He stopped walking and rested his head in his hands. His head was starting to clear, he realized that he left his most beloved girl after she shared the news that not only changed his life but her as well; god he was such a horrible person. He began walking again and then stopped again a minute later and realized that he was walking subconsciously because he ended up at a baby store. He took a deep breath before walking inside.

The whole place was foreign to him, never before had he ever stepped foot in a place like that. He cleared his throat and shook the confused look off her face, then started at the beginning. He passed through bottles, pacifiers, bath supplies, diaper bags, strollers, cribs, bouncers and swings. He stopped when he saw books for babies and adults, his eyes ran over the selection and came across a how to for daddies. He picked it up and read the back, that was a most need book for him. He clutched it tightly in his hands and then moved onto the racks and racks of clothes. He searched through the racks, finding nothing that stood out for him; it was much harder to find anything that wasn't strictly girl or boy. His luck changed when he found the rack full of iconic film, TV and music references; his favorite section. It was as if all the store lights shone on one onesie, like a beacon of light. A onesie with Tears for Fears on it, he felt like this was the ultimate sign, he was meant to be a dad. Hr grabbed it in every size they had. Then rushed to the checkout; he need to get to Juliet as soon as possible.

*So sorry guys for the break in my story, I finally have gotten done with my school semester. Finals were being a pain in my butt. But now I am back!*

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