I would like to acknowledge and thank jfreakinf for helping me correct some mistakes in this chapter and for encouraging me to continue this story. You could also visit his profile, he also wrote Jake/Seth story. He published a new story called "Agape" and I recommend you to read it :)

Chapter 4

Seth's POV

I felt guilty all of the sudden. Did I really cause Jacob to think like he was a helpless friend? I never really cared about other people's feeling. But yet again, I'm talking about Jacob, my best friend. Since yesterday's incident, he never showed up this morning and I'm here standing outside the house marveling if he'll come. If we analyze the situation, it wasn't my damn fault he'll get offended by my simple act. It's ideal to seek the prices before purchasing an item. It's what normal people do nowadays. He's just too rich that he can buy everything he wanted and wouldn't find a problem about it. We have different views and lifestyle. We should respect each other's differences. I guess the rumors are true He's just after all an arrogant and selfish bastard.

I too began to get angry. So, he probably decided not to be my friend anymore. I felt conflicted if I should still go to Jacob's party tomorrow. To be honest, I am troubled big time as I still don't know his address and that I'm a little bit short of money for transportation. If I were not to attend his birthday, he would get even more angry because I only just wasted his time and money for picking out some useless clothes. I haven't worn a single clothing Jake bought. I plan to return it whether he accepts it or not. I still prioritize what's left of my dignity.

If we weigh the problem, it's not a heavy problem to deal with. It's just a simple misunderstanding but I guess he's greatly affected by it. He's just too prideful. Guh! Would it be right to leave me with the clothes grudgingly given to me, then took off without thinking if I would be troubled to go to his birthday or not?

I wasted my day waiting for nothing. It's already starting to get dark and I went inside to pick my backpack that contains some of the things I needed when I reach the hospital. I then locked my door and headed off.

Jacob POV

I must admit, I'm starting to act like a brat again. I'm here locked in my room shuffling in the bed covers, wanting to see Seth badly. But the stubborn side of me wouldn't allow it. I stayed in my room for the rest of the day. I so badly wanted to see Seth or hear his voice. Damn it, if only he had a phone. An idea clicked inside my mind.

"That's it! A phone! That's what he really needs, I could give it to him for his and my benefit!" I gleamed at the idea. Suddenly, the speakers in my room alarmed me.

"Master Jacob, dinner is served. Your father wants to see you in the dining room." Then it shut off.

I stood up forcefully and went to the bathroom first. I was a mess both physically and mentally. I didn't take a shower nor brush my teeth. My hair is greasy and I smell like a primitive human. I quickly took a shower, brush my teeth, add a deodorant and wear decent clothes. The speakers went on again but this time it was my father on the other side.

"Jacob, hurry up we have a guest. Please be punctual" he said

As I slid the shirt on, I walked out to my room and headed to the dining area. I wonder who could be that person that father allowed staying in late at night. The servants lined up and they bowed as I passed them. It was what they always do so seeing them is not new to me. I peeked at the small space between the doors. I saw a woman of my age with brunette hair the looks familiar. She and dad noticed my presence and dad gestured the free chair across the woman. The woman smiled sweetly at me.

"Hi Jacob, It's been a long time since I saw you. I've heard you're quite famous now and I wonder if you still remember me?" she said as she stirred the tea and slowly took a sip.

"Do I know you?" I asked. I didn't intend to sound rude but then it came up that way.

"Jacob!" my father shouted. I only glared at him and crossed my legs.

"Apologize to Miss. Bella Swan this instant!" he ordered me. Then the name hit me like tons of brick.

"B..Bella Swan?" I questioned as my voice became softer as I said her name.

"Yes, Jacob it's me" she smiled at me again.

Memories flood rapidly in my mind. I remembered a sweet brunette girl that I once had a crush on. I confessed my love to her when I was still 16 and she turned me down quite harshly. She chose the weird kid Edward over me and to be honest, I'm still pissed at the rejection.

Then I remembered Seth, he was very different from Bella. He was too kind and strong to handle the burden of the world at a very young age. I wonder what he's doing now. Is he still mad at me? Did he think that we're over? Vivid images starts appearing from his cute and sweet smile to his bitter and hateful eyes. I shook my head mentally then focused on the conversation I just had.

"Hello, Jacob?" dad waved his hand in front of me

"What?!" I snapped. Dad's nose flared and I know he got pissed. He inhaled a large quantity of air and slowly exhaled the waste gas.

"I'm sorry" I apologize to both dad and Bella. I stood off, wiped my mouth with the towel and took off back to my room.

Billy's POV

"Do you think he's still mad at the rejection?" she asked me, worry etched on her face.

"I think so, but don't worry dear, he'll get over it now that you're here again." I said while I gave her a reassuring soft pat on her shoulder.

"I was young and I didn't know it would hurt him so much" she said with teary eyes.

"I think it has something to do with the recent activities this week." I said, closing my eyes, hoping that I was wrong for the first time.

"What? What happened? Did he already see someone?" she said panicked in her voice as her eyes snapped wide open.

"Yes, and I think it wasn't just a normal someone. As much as I hate to think the possibility, I think he had gone gay to someone" I said as I watched her expression changed from a helpless little girl to an enraged scary woman.

"THAT MOTHERFUCKIN' FAGGOT POISONED MY JAKE'S MIND!" her voice boomed inside the room

"Who! Who is it?!" she rushed me. It was a kind of tone where you would regret if ever you would risk saying a lie.

"I still don't know dear, but I heard he'll be coming on Jacob's birthday tomorrow." I said in a relaxed tone, even I, know I was trembling inside from the girl's scary aura surrounding her.

"Uncle, how did you know he's seeing that faggot?" she asked not worried at her choice of words.

" A father has its own ways, I once saw him on the internet in the hospital. And that didn't stop as I heard more rumors from outside on what's Jake been doing lately with his new so called friend". I said as I observed her face scrunched up even more.

Then her face suddenly relaxed and she gave me one of her wicked smile like on the tv as if she's constructing an evil plan on her mind.

"Oh, you already saw him uncle?, Well that wouldn't be hard for us to find him." She said as she took a sip on her cold tea.

Seth's POV

I just got home from the hospital. Today is Jake's big day and I don't know if I should be happy or not. I don't have any clue of what I'm going to do. The clothes are already piled up. It's up to me if I were to wear it to his birthday or not attend at all. The birthday would start at 6 pm so I have a lot of time to kill. I start my day in the restaurant. I wore my uniform and mopped the floor carefully. Customers usually comes at 9 am and knowing it's still 7 am, I still have enough time to do cleaning. Carefully, ever so diligently, I cleaned the glass, table and chair dust-free. The manager arrived early and he kindly gave me a free coffee. I was thankful for the treat and when I was sure the cup was empty, I continued my work.

When I was done cleaning. I went outside and took some fresh air. I went to my new found favorite spot and took a seat. My mind was running wild since I woke up. I have this internal debate whether or not I should go to the party. I then realized Jacob didn't see me yesterday so I assume he's already done with our friendship. I recalled all the fun time I had with Jacob. I absentmindedly smiled at the memories. Since the fun has finally reached the peak, life will return back to normal again. Or so I thought.

From a far, I saw a black Mercedes going to the direction of the restaurant. It has to be one of the early customers of the restaurant. I took notice as two doors opened at the same time. I smiled happily as I saw Jacob took off his seat and walked out. The smile however didn't last as I saw a woman of Jake's age also walked out of the door. She was beautiful. Her brunette silky hair swayed in the wind making it looks luminous as the ray of sunlight made contact to her shiny hair. Her lips red as blood, as she put a large effort on putting lipstick on her supple lips. She's tall and slender like of the model's body. All in all she's the dream girl a man could ever have.

Inside, I felt something. Jealousy perhaps? I didn't know but the feelings were all too familiar. I used to feel this same feeling whenever I see kids play happily with their parents. That was long time ago though..

I guess she's the very reason why Jacob didn't visit me yesterday. He must be busy dating her and stuff. I went inside and slumped down on my locker. He didn't saw me as I hurriedly entered the staff room. I stayed inside hoping I could avoid him throughout their meal.

I looked myself in the mirror. The boy infront of me wears heavy bags on his eyes, messy hair and dull lips. I watched my body through the mirror and noticed the visible bones that bulge out in my skin. I looked at myself again in the mirror and I felt my confidence dropping.

Jacob's POV

I can't believe I'm saying this but I missed Bella's company. Last night, she went in my room and apologized. I knew it was wrong to dwell in the past so I gave her a chance but this time only for a friend. She said she loves me and that she wants to be with me forever. Nonetheless, she accepted my offer of just being my friend for the mean time. I told her that I was sorry and that I was young before and naïve to confuse the feelings I have with her for "love". We both laughed at that thought. However, I sensed the forced laugh she just cover up. She said she wants to make-up for the times she had hurt me. I want to reject her request but I remembered how hurt I was when she did it to me one time, so the gentle being side of me just accepts it.

It was my birthday today turning 22 years old. I want my birthday to be extra special so I went to the restaurant hoping to start my day seeing Seth. Bella insisted to join me and I agreed. It would be a good idea to introduce Seth to new people so he wouldn't be lonely without me. We hopped to my black Mercedes and took off.

She kept asking me what we were doing and who we are seeing. I told her we will see my new friend that works on the restaurant. She raised her left brow and said "really". I shrugged her off and focused on the road ahead. When we arrived we hopped off the car and started our way to the restaurant door.

"I'm so excited about this new friend of yours. I want to know him!" she said excitedly. I smiled at her eagerness to meet Seth. We cozy ourselves in the couch and wait for the waiter to pick up our orders.

I roamed my eyes around hoping to see Seth. I was disappointed when I didn't see him. I asked the waiter where Seth's been. He said a courteous "I'll try to find him Sir" then took off. Bella's eyes were in me the whole time. She smiled sweetly like most of the time when we were since kids. This time, there is something on the smile I couldn't point my finger on. The waiter returned with a tray of food. He courteously told us Seth's not feeling well and that he'll be coming over soon.

The response was immediate. I felt alert when I heard Seth's endangered health. She too gave me a worried expression. I told her how Seth could be stubborn sometimes when it comes to his own well-being. I talked and talked about Seth's health that I began to notice Bella's discomfort. I stopped and let her talk this time.

I then heard a loud coughing sound and there stand my beautiful Seth. Immediately, I stood up and touched his forehead. I didn't pick up any abnormal temperature, but I wanted to be sure. I told him we will be seeing a doctor but he turned down my offer as he slapped my hand away from his forehead. I stood there in shock. I guess he was still mad at me and I wasn't forgiven yet.

Bella's POV

I am very excited to meet this fag boy Jake kept on talking about. I felt jealous at how he praised the boy. It should have been me not him. Why on earth does he have to stoop so low and prefer this boy than me. And it's just not any boy, a peasant fag boy. I already planned this, everything is in order and I will make sure I will not fail.

"I'm so excited about this new friend of yours. I want to know him!" I said excitedly yet bitterly. He didn't discern the other tone I just let out. He grinned brightly at me and I was literally falling for him hard. I can't let the fag boy have him, he's mine and I'll do my best to fight for my love. Even if it means, I have to murder someone then I'm not planning on backing off. I'm just really that desperate and in love.

We sat on the couch and the waiter courteously greeted us. I was ready to make my orders when Jacob beats me to it. He asked the waiter where the fag boy is and I can't help but grit my teeth. I was glaring at him but when he's eyes locked with mine, I turned to my sweet side. We talked and talked and I gave him occasional flirts. He's too thick-skinned to not notice it. The waiter arrived with our orders and then he informed us. The change in Jacob's face makes me want to hurdle the food out of my stomach. It makes me want to puke. I also masked a worried face so he wouldn't get suspicious. He continued to chant about Seth's current condition. I did what's best on my mind and try to change the subject.

It was when I was about to ask him something, then the fag boy decided to show up. He left me and stormed to the direction of the boy. I sat alone looking like a fool while he pathetically mend the fag boy. I stood up and walked to them. I work as an actress so it wouldn't be hard to build up a façade. I faked myself and looked worried. The fag boy dared to slap Jacob's hand away. I told Jacob that I want to have a private friendly conversation with Seth. He agreed as he sat on the couch looking hurt.

"Hey, you're Seth right?" I asked and smiled sweetly at him.

"Yes ma'am, and you are?" He returned the question back to me

"That, I'm going to answer later, as for now, Can we talk privately ?" I asked while giving him my face that reads "DO IT!"

"Of.. Of course.. umm… this way ma'am" he said not knowing exactly where we should head to. He led me to a small room. I didn't waste any time as I closed the door and shove him off hard on the cold floor. He didn't expect the blow and wasn't prepared for it. He was knocked down hard on the cold tiled floor.

"Listen fag boy, I don't know how or what you did to Jacob to make him feel about you, but I'm warning you this, if you're not planning on breaking your friendship with him, I'm going to break everything you have and that includes you're life and so with your parents. By the way, I bet you didn't know anything about your father's life now, he's happy to live without him knowing his son was a big faggot. A disgrace that will only bring shame to his name. And as for your mom, she could say her last goodbyes" I said as fear featured in his face.

"Remember this, know your place. If you want to be a fag go find someone whom you could shove your ass into but not Jacob. I can't control your life but I sure can make it a nightmare. People like you don't deserve to live, you're a trash on this world. No wonder why you live in that pathetic life of yours. You deserve to live to be a peasant. I'm giving you a choice, run, run away from Jacob and you could live a safe and fag life but I'm telling you this, if you insist on staying with him, don't expect to have a brighter future ahead because I will be part of that future tormenting you… and I will" I didn't finished as I heard someone coming inside the room. I tugged him up and hugged him tight.

"and I will be your new bestfriend from now on besides Jake. I'm so happy to meet you. My name is Bella Swan and I have this feeling that we're going to be the best-est friend!" I smiled and hugged him. I looked at the corner of my eyes and saw Jacob adorning the little display infront of him.

I elbowed Seth gently on the ribs. He shuffled uncomfortably.

"Ye…Yeah HAHA," he said and laughed nervously. The boy was a bad actor. I played along and asked him.

"Are you sure you're not sick? Look at you, you're sweating up and you look pale" I asked him and wiped away the beads of sweat in his forehead. Fully aware of the reasons behind it.

"Yeah, you know what, let's get you to the hospital. And no but's. I'm telling the manager we'll take you out. I'll be back shortly" Jacob said as he walked out. Once he was far from hearing range, I turned myself back at Seth's trembling form.

"And don't you ever talk to anyone especially Jacob about our little chat. If he knew about this, he'll avoid me. And if that happens, I know you know what will happen to you and your family for that matter. He already declared his love for me, but I sense problem emanating from you. So stay away from us!" I said while giving him my death glare. The last word was intended to intimidate him. I smirked internally at myself. He didn't speak. He just gave me a nervous nod. Jacob soon returned and he happily called us outside.

Jacob's POV

I'm so happy the two get along each other easily. I was worried what takes them to talk so long inside the room. I ordered the waiter to pack up our meals as we already spent a lot of time. I followed and check every room to find them. I felt relief when I found out they were just getting to know each other. I was excited to have a day with Seth even if we were just going to the hospital. Bella also wanted to join us as she said she was also worried about Seth's health. I just grinned like a Cheshire cat at how things ended brighter than I expected.

When we hopped on the car. I offered the side seat to Seth, wanted to be near him as much as possible. He insisted and said he's comfortable in the back seat while looking his eyes to Bella. I looked at Bella and she only smiled.

"I guess I'll be seating here" she said as she sat beside me. I was disappointed for the second time. I wanted Seth beside me. I looked at the mirror and I noticed he was looking back. Then suddenly, he turned his head immediately and focused on the window. Bella seems to also notice and she looked at me and smiled. I shifted my head back on the road.

Seth's POV

There's nothing else I really wanted than to be away from them. I can't seem to freely do what I want as a pair of eyes kept me from doing anything. I looked at the mirror to see Jacob's face. I really missed him. Even if it provides only half of his image, I felt contented. I didn't know I was looking in the mirror long enough for him to notice me looking at him. He too stares back at me in the mirror. I felt uncomfortable again at Bella's eyes constant supervision. I panicked and turned my head away in the mirror and focused on the window. I could still feel Jake's eyes prying me on the mirror. I felt relief when he shifted his head and focused on the drive way.

Bella's POV

I watched everything carefully. Jacob seems annoyed and Seth seems to look like he's about to piss himself. That boy is such a fag that he's even afraid of a woman. That would be my advantage. I could keep him intimidated to the point where he will run away from Jacob forever. I looked at Jake whose hands gripped so tightly on the steering wheel. I tried to reach his hand and caress it but he jerks it away from me. I felt a pang in my heart. I couldn't satisfy Jacob and make him love me. I was now determined than ever to win his love.

Jacob's POV

The drive to the hospital was awkwardly quiet. The air was so thick that you need a knife to cut it. I didn't know what causes the sudden shift of mood. Earlier, the two seems to be joyous with each other's company then minutes after, they look like they were avoiding each other. Seth's act was however suspicious. He tried to distance himself from us. I called him to be near us, but he only ignored me as he walked in a faster pace. Bella didn't mind. She was too busy clinging onto my arms. We walked to the entrance and I instantly demand for a doctor.

The people outside were oogling at us. They probably thought we were together with Bella. She didn't help either as she displayed more public affection. She even went too far as to wrapped both of our hands and snuggled closer to my side.

I pushed her softly. She stubbornly gripped my arms and clasped our hands together. I didn't protest. I don't want to make a wild scene. Let the media do their work. They could make stories for all I care. But they can't touch nor harm my Seth.

I looked around but Seth was no longer in my sight. I tried to search for him but Bella hold me in place.

"Seth's in the comfort room, he said he wants to relief himself" she answered as if she heard my thoughts. I stop panicking and felt stupid at my actions.

Like Bella said, Seth walked out of the comfort room. He stared at me for a second then stoop his head down. I looked at him and noticed his pain expression. Is he really in too much pain? I asked myself.

Seth's POV

Why am I feeling like this? This is wrong. Why should I force myself to be with him? Seth wake up. You don't love him. He's straight and he loves Bella. You can't compete someone as beautiful as her. She's rich, pretty and intelligent. She has everything, well not everything, she has attitude problems but still, she's the typical dream girl a man dream of. I looked at them as Bella confirmed her admission. They were obviously together. I can see it. Him, not doing anything at Bella's public display of affection. It was obvious, it even takes a dumb person to know that they are together

I can't further watch them. It pains my heart. I tried to swallow the pain inside. I tried to numb myself from the torture that is the sight in front of me. Bella was right. If I could stay away from him, maybe I can move on. Maybe I'm still on the stage of confusion. Maybe I don't like him. I tried to find any excuses just to cover up the wound inside my heart. It worked however I knew it will not last long.

Immediately, my name was called inside the room. The doctor ushered me inside and began to ask me some questions like what I feel or how am I doing. I wanted to tell him about the nagging pain in my heart but even I knew he wasn't capable to cure love sickness. The doctor began to examine me and then stood up to us explain everything what he found out.

"I couldn't find anything wrong with you. Do you get enough sleep? Do you eat well? You must be tiring yourself lately, I recommend you should take a break" the doctor said.

Jacob stood up and repeated what the doctor asked "Are you sure you already ate?" he asked me with a worried tone.

"Yes, I do get enough of sleep and for the meals, I took them till my stomach's contentment and the job wasn't really tiring" I answered, lying a bit in the middle and last part. The question was directed to the doctor as I completely ignored Jacob's ones. He looked at me with eyes of disappointment.

"Just to make sure, you have to take these". The doctor handed me some pills. "These will help you energize, it can also relieve headaches" he added.

"Ok then, let's go out" this time it was Bella who speak. I could tell she's getting tired as she impatiently opened the door and went outside.

Jacob and followed. I thanked the doctor before I got out. Bella's already outside the door tapping her foot. When she saw Jacob, she began to lighten up and as usual, cling to his arms. I avert my eyes from watching them. Jacob also tried to grab my arm but I was distanced enough before he can make contact with my skin. We went inside his car and he drove off.

Bella began to search something on the bag. She delved her hand inside and grabbed a muffin and an ice coffee as she munched them up. The scent lingered inside the car and I felt my mouth water. I tried to control the hunger but my stomach was demanding for a fill.

A rumbling noise resonated inside the car. I felt embarrassed as I pushed my stomach with both of my hands trying to silence it. It continued until they took notice of it.

"Hahaha..What happened to the stomach's contentment now?" he laughed as he teased me

"Jacob that's rude" Bella said. I was surprised she defended me. Inside, I can't shake off the feeling that what she did now was something for her own personal benefit.

Jacob then grabbed his bag and threw it to me while his other hand grips the wheel.

"Here, take mine. Eat, I know you skipped breakfast" he said. I watched the front mirror as I saw him smirked. I so wanted to take it but the other person's presence stop me from doing it. The car suddenly stopped and I face planted myself in the driver's seat.

"Owwww" I said as I rubbed my nose.

"Seth take it or we will not be going" I looked around and noticed we were in the middle of nowhere. I looked at Bella and she gave me an annoyed nod. I took Jacob's bag and he grinned. He then ignited the engine back to life and we were once again moving.

I ate the muffin first before I drink the coffee. I enjoyably slurped the coffee when Jacob suddenly talks.

"Seth, save some for me. I'm thirsty" he said

" You could have mine if you want. I can't finish it" Bella interrupted, offering her coffee

"No, I want Seth's besides I like mine because I was the one who originally ordered the flavor". He explained. I hand him the coffee but meticulously, removed the straw I used first.

"Seth? Where's the straw? How am I going to drink this? He questioned me

"You can remove the lid. I already used the straw so.." I said but he cut me between my speech.

"Seth, give me the straw NOW!" he said in a demanding voice. I inanimately give him the straw as he plunged it back in the hole and happily sip its content. Bella was watching us the whole time. She gave me a scowl face. I pretend as if nothing happen.

We arrive back to the restaurant. Jacob dropped me off and he waved at me while loudly saying a goodbye. Bella did too, unfortunately it was an act. They drove off as I watched the car disappear.

I was about to throw the bag in the bin when I felt something inside. I stuck my hand in trying to see if the object inside can still be useful. I felt the object and I picked it up. I was surprised to see a phone inside. An Iphone5 with a small note.

"To seth: I'll call you later to pick you up. –jake". I looked at the object in my hand with awe.

"Why… Jacob?... why? You're making it hard for me to forget you…" I whispered to myself. Tears welling up my eyes.

A/N: So that's chapter 4. Please don't forget to review. It would really mean a lot to me :))