A/N: Summer has started and I finally find myself filled with an immeasurable amount of time. So...hopefully I will be updating a little more frequently than I originally did.

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It is official, I am going insane! Where on earth could she be!?

Mia said that she was going out for a walk...that was three hours ago. I know she said not to wait up for her, but I can't help but worry. She looked so...tired when I came in. But what I noticed was that she did not just look physically tired but like the weight of the world had taken it's toll on her. Had I done that to her? Have I misinterpreted her affections towards me from the start? Could it be that I am that man from her fourth year?

I have so many questions running through my mind at once and only so much information in which to answer them. I pulled on my cloak and apparated from our new home into Hogsmead. I made may way up to the Headmistress' office hoping Mia would be there.

'Merlin please let her be there,' I thought to myself.

I told the gargoyle the password and took the steps two at a time until I reached the door. I waited for a moment to steady my breaths then threw caution to the wind and knocked on the door.

"Come in," answered Minerva.

I walked in to a stunned Minerva.

"Evening Minerva," I said as evenly as I could manage.

"Good evening Severus. What brings you here at this time of night?" She asked as she got up.

I took a deep breath and said, "I am looking for Hermione, do you know where she could be?"

When I looked up it was to meet the very displeased and...looking like the strict teacher everyone (including me) me knows to fearfully respect. But then her face softened and nodded, I do not know whether it is an answer to my question or something else.

"Come and sit down Severus, I can see that you have finally discovered your feelings for Hermione. Drink?" She said as she offered me the tumbler with firewhiskey.

I nodded my thanks and sat down knowing that if she was giving me a drink that this was going to be bad.

Minerva sat down with her own glass of firewhiskey and said, "Severus, what I am certain that you don't know is that since the very beginning has been in love with you. And not just a school girl crush either but she has been in love with you. She told me once that if the only thing to blossom between you is friendship then she would gladly take that as all she would get from you."

She had been in love with me from the very beginning? Why did she not tell me?

I must have been thinking out loud because Minerva answered, "Hermione has been falling in love with you since the beginning and blossoming friendship between you. Don't give me that look Severus Tobias Snape, she did not want you to know. She–"

"Why!? If Hermione really loves me and has loved me since the beginning then why not tell me!?" I asked throwing the glass still filled whiskey into the fire.

Minerva fell back into her chair and quietly said, "Lily Potter née Evans."

Then everything clicked. She believes I am still infatuated with Lily.

"Hermione still believes I am still in love...well it was more infatuation than anything else, she believes I am still in "love" with Lily?" I asked as I slumped in the chair.

Minerva nodded sadly.

"I am not," I said feeling defeated. Is this what has Mia looking so...sad and tired all the time?

"She thinks you are," she said and took a deep sigh and continued, "Hermione came in here a month ago and told me that every now and then, when you clearly went over your hard alcohol intake, you subconsciously still call to Lily."

I sat there and stared at the armrest. I had been unconsciously calling to Lily?

"You were not aware of this were you?" Minerva asked as she sat on the chair next to mine.

I shook my head and lowered it.

"Where could she be Minerva? I need to find her and bring her home. Lily has not meant anything to me during the three years that Hermione and I have been married. She has meant more to me than Lily ever had due to the fact that Hermione I alive and is here to love me instead of using me for her own volition like Lily did. A unlike her Hermione is warm and open and kind. She is not afraid to fight for what she believes in and looks for the good in people. She is a true lion, and I can see why she is the daughter you never had. I truly love Mia, I want her home with me. And if I have to spend the rest of my life proving to her that I love her so be it," I said getting up from my seat and running out of the room without a back glance.

I apparated to back to our house and nearly broke the house in half looking for any sign that she had discovered the house but there is nothing to here that gives her away. I made quick transfiguration of my wizarding clothes to muggle clothes and cast a tracking spell, hopefully this will work.

I apparated to where my wand was pointing and found myself in a forest. My wand gave another point and found Hermione on a cot under a tree. What is she doing out in the cold?

"Hermione?" I said as I came to stand in front of the cot and gently shook her awake.

"Yes," she said.

Oh, my dear what have I done to you?

I didn't say anything as I gently picked her up and sat down setting her on my lap.

We sat quietly for a few moments...me thinking about how I am going to fix and and at the moment wondering what she is thinking about so intently.

"I won't ask if anything is wrong because I know that something clearly is wrong. Please Hermione tell me what's wrong whatever it is maybe I could help?" I said desperately and hoping that there is still hope for me to fix this.

I heard her sighed and felt her turn to looking at the stars; "It's nothing that is in your control," she answered blankly.

"Would you at least help me understand what is wrong?" I asked.

She looked at me and gave me a small smile.

"I don't think I should. If I did you would not take it well most likely," she said turning to look at the sky again.

I heard her sigh as if she were fighting an unwinnable war.

"But, I will tell you," she said before shifting on my lap so she was facing me. I do not think Mia noticed that she is straddling my lap. And I am not complaining about this new position just hoping that it gives me the advantage of holding on to her if she decides to break a run for it.

I wrapped my arms around her middle pulling her to me as her arms wound themselves around my neck on their own accord(hopefully). I could sense her internal turmoil to do something but knew that if it involved me that she would refuse. As much as she wanted to do anything to me the thought of me loving Lily was holding her back.

"Before the marriage law came to effect I had a crush on someone," Mia began carefully.

I felt myself stiffen subconsciously damn it can't I do anything right by her!?

"And do notsay its Ron because its not," she said hurriedly like she wanted to be over this as fast and as painless as she could muster, "Lets just say it was never a student or someone remotely close to my age. He is older, he is intelligent and even though most would have my eyes disinfected I find me quite attractive," she said looking at me with so much love I thought she would burst.

Out of nowhere she kissed me.

Dear Merlin she feels amazing and apparently must have mistaken my shock for disgust because next thing I know she was flying out of my grasp.

A/N: There it is don't forget to review!