This Is Music Not Chemistry Chapter 4: The Concert, a misc. plays/musicals fanfic

"Mother dearest what can I do for you?" I asked through clenched teeth.

My mother, she is the worst woman on this earth, She is the reason I'm still doing these stupid copy write albums. She signed that stupid three album contract. She is also the reason for most of my habits. Those dirty little secrets that no one should know about. Thankfully Chris is her favorite and hopefully nothing I went through will happen to him.

"Well dear I was wondering-" She started but I cut her off.

Cut the bull-sht. What do you want?" I asked venom in every word.

"I want you to send me more money so I can care for your brother." she said.

I laughed "Maybe if you got a job you wouldn't have to beg me for money for you to use to buy clothes not Chris,"

"I would learn to watch your mouth. You wouldn't want anything bad to happen to Chris now would we?" She asked.

I growled "Don't go there."

"I thought that's what you would say" She laughed "Chris wants to talk to you."

I sighed. I swear I was going to have a melt down if I was on the phone for one more second.

"Hey emo," Came Chris's voice.

I rolled my eyes but smiled all the same. Chris is my little brother and one of the coolest people on earth. He knows practically everything about me whether that's good or bad I'll never know.

"How are you?" I asked.

"Pretty good, hey I called Erwin and guess who's going to be front row at your concert!" he said.

"Nice you should come to the building right now. I have a surprise." I said.

"Ok on my way," he said and hanged up.

I turned around and saw that everyone was looking at me. I rolled my eyes.

"Chris should be here in 5," I said.

Moon had the biggest smile on her face, "yay the little dude is coming!!"

I laughed a little.

"I hate it when you guys talk in English to each other!!" Curt yelled.

"Yeah it does get kinda confusing." Dominick mumbled.

Me and Moon looked at each other and grinned.

"Lyke OMG TTYL G2G BRB MYOB," Moon said dead serious to me.

I laughed so hard it wasn't even funny. Moon and I fell on the floor laughing.

"Ok ok we'll stop," I said.

"Thank you!!" Curt yelled again.

I shook my head.

"Hey Bill, Tom where is Gustav and Georg?" I asked.

"Oh there in an interview should be here soon," Bill said.

"I hate interviews" I said.

"We all know you're self-conscious," Curt said while putting his arm around me.

I gave him a look and took his arm off me, "personal space." I said.

"Like you know the meaning of it," a very familiar voice said.

I turned around and saw none other then my little brother Chris; with his dark brown hair and baggy skater pants. Yeah right my brother a skater. Actually he's pretty good.

I ran up to him and gave him a bone crushing hug.

"I missed you!! You little twerp why don't you call? I haven't seen you since September." I scolded.

"Sorry I do have a life," he said.

"That makes one of us," I said.

"Chrissy!!" Moon yelled while giving him a bone crushing hug only this time he was turning purple.

All the guys gave him their welcome. That's when he finally noticed something.

"Emo!" He hissed. "Your favorite band is here."

"Yeah I know," I laughed.

I grabbed him and dragged him over to Bill and Tom.

"Bill, Tom this is my little brother Chris," I introduced,

They did this weird hand shake and like I thought he and Tom hit it off.

"Oh! Oxy!" Chris yelled.

I gave him a look that said "what do you want?" cuz he never calls me by my real name unless he wants something.

"Well I was listening to Evanescence last night and found this really cool song. Can you sing it?" he asked sweetly.

"Can I of course. Will I matters on the song." I relied,

"Anything for you," he said.

Moon and I smiled at the same time. That is our all time favorite song by Evanescence.

"Ok" I said and walked on stage. "Curt you mind playing?"

He sighed and grabbed his guitar; yep this is one of the few English songs I taught him.

"I'd give anything to give me to you
Can you forget the world that you thought you knew
If you want me,
Come and find me
Nothing's stopping you so please release me

I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you

Nothing left to make me feel anymore
There's only you and everyday I need more
If you want me
Come and find me
I'll do anything you say just tell me

I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you

Anything for you
I'll become your earth and sky
Forever never die
I'll be everything you need

I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you"

I finished with a sigh.

I jumped off the stage, "maybe I should use that as my English song," I mumbled.

"OMG Oxy you never cease to amaze me, but the weird thing is you speak English in a German accent," she laughed.

"And I speak German in an English accent," I replied.

"Wow you have issues," she laughed.

I rolled my eyes and walked away.

"You were really good even though I'm not too sure of what you said," Bill told me.

I shook my head with a small smile, "you need to learn English." I told him.

"I'm learning," he told me in my native tongue.

I laughed, "your accent it cute."

"Oxy no flirting!" Moon thankfully said in English.

"Then no flirting with him," I said nodding toward Tom.

"No fair," she said turning pink.

I noticed Bill was looking at me weird, "don't ask." I told him.

He nodded with a smile.

"Why didn't I take English in school?" Curt asked.

"Because your stupid and dropped out for the band," I answered.

"Oh yeah!" he laughed.

I shook my head.

The concert is in 15 minutes the arena is backed full of fans so why you may be asking am I in a bathroom stall? Simple when my band, Tokio Hotel, Chris, and Moon went out to eat I am now seeing again. And trust me it is not a happy reunion, STUPID NERVES!!

"Hey you ok?" asked Dominick as he sat down next to me.

"No not really but then again when am I ever?" I asked.

"Good point," he said.

I slightly laughed.

"Oxy come on you have 10 minutes," Curt said.

I nodded and got up. I was very dizzy.

"Come on," Curt said as helped me walk.

I was getting set up for my "rising of life." I could tell I was deathly pale. I don't need make up for that. I saw the lights turn off so I knew my band was getting into place. I heard the opening to Tourniquet.

I took a deep breath and I went through the trap door and landed on the balcony. I heard the crowd go wild as I was seen with my black wings.

I started sing: "I tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
so much more
I lay dying
and I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

I want to die!!

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will I be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide."

I took a deep breath and smiled at the crowd taking it all in. The noise, the new faces, the familiar faces. It all seemed too surreal. I can't believe I'm one of the few people that is able to do what they love.

"Hello Berlin!" I said as the crowd erupted. "It's great to be back! I know you haven't seen us in a very long time. And let me be the one to appologize for that. But here we are back with a vengance!"

8 songs later of head banging and jumping around I was in the zone. And somewhere along the way I took my wings off.

"How are you all doing?" I asked as the crowd went nuts. "What I didn't hear you," I said and the crowd got even louder. I laughed. "Well this next song," I said as I sat at my piano, "is a song we all like very much and we hope you like it too," I started playing.

The crowd went wild and I smiled again. No matter where I am Berlin is my favorite place to perform at. Maybe it's because this was where my first concert was. I don't know but I just love it here.

"Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you are gone, now you are gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that I found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you," I sang.

I got off my song as the next song stared.

"I wanna here everyone singing to this one," I yelled as Coming Undone started.

"Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come Again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect meI sang.

That's right
Deliverance of my heart
Be straight
Be deliberate

Wait
I'm coming undone
Unlaced
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate

Choke choke again
I thought my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet chugga gun
Does not protect me

That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now

I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like I'm not getting better
Not getting better

Finally I was here the best part of the evening in my opinion.

"Well I don't know if any of you have noticed but we have a few special guests in the audience. Come on up you guys," I said as Bill and Tom came on stage and wow did the fans go crazy, "well I guess there's no need for introductions," I laughed.

Just seeing these guys and they freak. I wanna be like that one day.

"Well I have a surprise," I said.

I was wearing a long baggy shirt the whole time and I took it off revealing my crop top. Two big bandages were on both sides of my hips.

"These guys are here to help unveil my two new tattoos!" I laughed as everyone screamed and while that was happening I whispered to Bill "be gentle."

He smirked. He and Tom both took the bandages off. It didn't hurt at all compares to when the tattoos went on the bone. On my left hip is a red heart with the word love on it. And on my right side is a black heart with blue flames with the word death.

The crowd went screamed even louder. I don't know why though most likely only the first few rows could see them. Oh wait a minute that's right I have mega screen behind me and the camera men probably zoomed in on them. I can't wait tell the press eats this up.

"Thanks you guys," I said as I gave Tom a hug and kiss on the cheek the same with Bill. They went back stage cuz god knows they can't go back in to the crowd.

"Well this is the last song of the night and do you know how I always end the show?" I asked.

They screamed as loud as they did when Bill and Tom came on stage.

"I thought so this is Anything For You by Evanescence." I said.

(A/N you should know the lyrics by now.)

"Thank you Berlin I hope to see you again real soon!" I yelled and me and my band took a bow then went backstage.

"Woo!" I laughed as I sat down on the couch.

"No party tonight huh Oxy?" asked Curt.

I laughed "nope."

Moon and Chris came over.

"You rocked!" they both said at the same time.

Everyone laughed.

"Now we have to stay here for like an hour," I sighed.

Everyone sighed too. I laid down which made me head rest on Bill's lap.

"Oxy?" he questioned.

"Deal with it," I said which is the last thing I remember before the world blacked out and I fell asleep.