Disclaimer: I don't own Fruits Basket or any of the bands that may show up in here. That is not yet my privilege…
A/N: This chapter's from Kana's point of view. I think I made her too poetic.
I was falling in love. I had always heard people talk about how wonderful it was. Life seemed to revolve around love. And now I knew why. It was wonderful; it was the best feeling I have ever experienced. I had liked people. But I have never felt this way about anyone but him.
Those blue-green eyes…I can't help but drown in them. When he looks at me, I see it burning in his eyes too. Love; we're both filled to the brim with it. I can only imagine when it might spill over. I know that every day we both come closer and closer to it…and I hope it is soon. I think I might go mad if he doesn't embrace me, or even kiss my cheek.
Hatori Sohma is so perfect. Every word, every deed, every hair on his head is just right. And he's doing everything he can to make himself more perfect for me. The way he and Momiji-kun laugh and work, the way we sit on the floor and eat lunch together is bliss for the both of us.
After the Friday we went out to lunch, I felt myself become overly careful. Careful not to touch him, or watch him. We were cautious around each other. After a week it faded back to normal. It's even more wonderful than before; I now come in early to help with work, and he to help Akito. Before he sits at his desk, he places his hand on my shoulder. And I place my hand on his. Sometimes it comes with a "good morning" and sometimes a squeeze. But the fact that we're touching just makes my head spin.
I think about 'us' all the time. It almost doesn't have a chance. Hatori is so indifferent at times it seems that no emotion reaches him. Others, he is ever so slightly showing off every emotion that touches him. Those days I am hopeful. The others, I feel empty, lonely. Once, he walked out as Momiji came in, without a word to either of us. The stony silence scared me. But then Momiji-kun began to talk. I remember it well.
"Hari's in a bad mood today. It's probably Akito. He's always enjoyed crushing people between his fingers, throwing out insults just to see their face fall. It's worse for Hari. He's always been more aloof than Aya-kun or Gure-san. Everything that happens, good or bad, he takes in and clings to it. It's like an ice storm in his mind. He never lets anything out. It just blows around and around, depressing him.
"You are special, Kana. You have the kind of personality that people love. You can get them to open up and share. To Hatori, who is frozen and alone, you're spring. You are melting away everything surrounding him. You're able to touch him and help him. Not many people can do that. Not many people are bold enough. He is slow to anger, and just as slow to trust. But I can tell he trusts you. I can see it in his eyes."
Momiji-kun is such a strange boy. He is related to Hatori, them both being Sohmas. I am too, though extremely distantly. But they have a brother to brother relationship; almost father-son. I mean to ask about it, but I am afraid it might hurt them. I am glad to help them. I really am. But I wish there was something more. Maybe love will appear soon? I hope so. I am getting desperate.
A/N: Ah, it's over. I don't really like writing in first person… unless it's Mayu. You'll meet her later, inevitably. Review!