Part 4
This wasn't exactly how I wanted to spend my night, sitting on the hospital and feeling like a piece of trash. As I look around and remember past events I think I feel much more than just a piece of trash. The look from Hinata with complete tears flowing down her face, eyes filled with hatred and distrust towards me, wasn't helping me out at this moment either. I looked back only for 5 seconds then just turned my face not being able to stand the look she was giving me. We stayed as such for a good five minutes then suddenly I heard movement and quickly turned my head towards her again, not knowing what to expect. She was now slowly walking towards the door right in front of me. She suddenly stopped at the handle, hearing it rattle I could tell that she was simply holding back her feelings for me right then. She turned only her upper half so I saw her face but still saw her back.
"Good-bye Sakura-sama" my name sounded like it was the vilest thing she could think of. She then walked out simply leaving the door open after her departure. Then a few seconds later I saw Tsunade coming in front of the door, arms crossed face looking as though I was filth. She shook her head and walked into the direction Hinata disappeared in. I sighed, out of simple relieve, happy that I wasn't going to have to get beat up tonight. At least, not by them. What could have lead to such depressing day well starting from the beginning would help you more.
Coming back from my honeymoon with Sasuke, my husband, I realized that I was meant to be happy and that I deserve it. That I had gained more than Hinata had and ever will have. That Sasuke was nothing like Naruto and that I was simply paranoid. Being away for so long gave me much to expect from other people in the Village. Lee and Akita took to teaching children how to be "youthful" and had even gained a little follower. Temari ended up moving to Konaha to be with her husband, Skikamaru. Kiba was now with Ino for the long hale, with Ino running a small flower shop. Neji decided to start rebuilding the second Huyga clan with his strong wife, Tenten. Kakashi and Anko already had a bun in the oven coming very soon. A clan was coming back from extinction. Naruto Uzumaki had started rebuilding his clan with his "wife" Hinata. He also was going through the devastating process of becoming Hokage. Not that it was a big accomplishment or something. Anyway a more important clan was coming back from the brink of extinction. The Uchiha was coming back with MY help. SO really what had led to me being scared for my life because two very powerful people are unhappy with me? Well it was small events that had lead to such a scary and downright miserable moment in my life.
It may have been how even though Naruto was Hokage and Hinata was a Shinobi teacher they were still able to have lunch together and just be laughing at a local restaurant. Yet to have lunch, or dinner with Sasuke I had to actually make an appointment to be with him.
OR how he always sent lilies, mostly blue being her favorite color, to her everyday with cute little notes on them. They have even continued even after so many years of being married.
Or how he always had such a loving look whenever they happen to be anywhere near each other, his eyes focused on her and her face the reddest blush possibly known to man.
How whenever you saw him holding her you could see that she treated her as a treasured item, as though she was a vase so fragile that if he held on any tighter she would break.
Or how whenever they were in a room together the intense look on their face made it almost seem like no one else was there.
How whenever she got intensely upset at the fact that men continuously started at her in such a demeaning way, he would always come in for the rescue by wrapping his arms around her as though to state his claim on her. Yet whenever a man would say a derogatory comment, even while in front of Sasuke he would simply say "That was a complement you should feel honored."
How if ever a little nervous or worried the minute she smiles or does a little gesture in his direction he would immediately smile and gain a great amount of courage.
How when women practically threw themselves at him as thought they were so much better then her. He didn't even seem to see them because he was only looking at her.
Or how whenever she felt as though she wasn't go enough for him he always found a way to reassure her in the sweetest way imaginable.
END FLASHBACK
I had to get some hospital papers signed by the Hokage, being Naruto, I stumbled upon an argument.
"Hinata..."
"Naruto I'm fine, I should be going." She said the door being slightly open I could see her shoulders shaking her face straight down.
"Wait…Hinata." He slowly moved towards her and the minute he came in contact with her I could visibly she her flinch away from his touch as thought toxic. I saw him wince, his face suddenly becoming broken.
"Would you ever… I mean I could understand really I could, I mean… " I saw her trail off looking off to the side so she wouldn't have to look in him direction.
" Hinata I would never do that to you." He said grabbing her chin and slowly turning her to him.
"Right." I could practically see the sarcasm dripping from the words that came out of her mouth.
"Hinata, look, they will never amount to what you have become in my life and I would never ruin a good thing. I would never allow myself to do anything like that."
"Right because you too much honor right?" she questioned stepping back.
"No that's not true my honor is not what's stopping me from ever cheating on you." he said bluntly.
"It is much more than that. It's my love for you that keeps me from ever being that much of an idiot." He smiled and stepped closer embracing her in his arms. He kissed her forehead. I saw her face look up and could tell she had also just smiled because his smile, strangely enough, grew bigger. I left not getting the papers signed and that night I asked Sasuke if he would ever cheat on me. He looked up from his work.
"Sakura I have too much honor to disgrace the clan like that." Sadly the truth surfaced soon after that comment, proving that maybe honor isn't strong enough.
End Flashback
As the years did roll by I slowly started cracking. I couldn't stand the sight of them being together eating, kissing, and even sitting together seemed to overwhelm me. What had finally crushed my willpower was the simplest action.
Flashback
We were once again having lunch together because Sasuke had, once again, blown me off. They had sat down with me because they simply felt as though it would be a horrible sin to leave me by myself. It really is their fault that this happened. He just kept looking at her as she was trying with me to make conversation. I obviously just wanted her gone; really Naruto could have stayed but her, nah, I wanted her to disappear. I wanted his look directed to me but it wasn't. I looked at him watching her and she looked to her side and smiled at him.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" She asked her brow rose but the smile still intact. He reached over to her, there were sitting right by each other. He brushed her cheek with his hand.
"God it's like you get more beautiful every day." He smiled back. Hinata's face suddenly brightened. She pulled him close and gave him a kiss which lasted much too long in my opinion, and not just because I didn't want her there. It's because everyone turned to them. She let go, him with a grin on his face. They both turned in my direction and smiled
"sorry" Hinata mumbled looking down, her face putting the color red to shame. Naruto simply looked up at me. I started in his eyes and saw so much contentment that I felt myself ready to cry. A tear fell.
"Are you ok?" He asked alert, I gave him a smile I knew looked convincing enough
"Yea it was just so cute I've never heard anything like that come out of a man's mouth." He smiled
"I'm sure Sasuke's always telling you stuff like that." He said. I looked at him and wished those words were true but knew that they would never be. At that moment I cracked, I wanted that I realized that I deserved that. He was in love with me first, not that meek little weakling, and I was going to get him.
End Flashback
So with that one thought I was determined to get him back no matter what the cost, and no matter how long it took.
Even when I saw Naruto spin Hinata around in the hospital when they were told she was pregnant, and remembered how Sasuke said simply that it better not be a girl.
When he practically treated her like she was even more fragile than a vase and always made sure she was ok even with his responsibilities as Hokage. Yet Sasuke expected me to be exactly as I was before the pregnancy.
Even after they had a little girl and he ran around for hours telling everyone in the hospital that he finally had a girl and Sasuke was disappointed because I didn't have twin boys.
The moment that I acted was when Hinata and Naruto had come to the hospital with Kuname. Their little girl was slightly sick and would have to stay at the hospital. I know what you're thinking how I would possibly have the chance, or even think to do such a horrible thing. Well it was pretty simply, I mean really if you look at my situation he was practically asking for it.
Flashback
"I'll be right back I'm going to check on the baby guys." Tsunade said to me, her right hand nurse, and Naruto and Hinata.
"I'll go with you Tsunade." Hinata said ,letting go of Naruto's hand which she had been holding the entire time, and following Tsunade. Naruto smiled in her direction and looked at me.
"So how come you're here so late, won't Sasuke be worried?" he asked slight concern in his voice.
I scoffed "I doubt he even knows I'm gone." In fact I doubt he was even home yet, our maid watched our little boy when neither one of us were home.
"So Naruto" I smiled "How have things been going with Hinata and such?"
"Oh well it's been great, wonderful in fact." I his eyes shined with happiness as he continued.
"I mean really if you look back to when I was younger I never really thought I could ever be this happy. Everything has been exactly how I wanted it of better than I ever imagined."
"How so… I mean other than having such a cute little girl?" and really she was cute with her big blue eyes and Naruto's nose and mouth the little girl looked darling. Yet every time I saw her I always imagined some pink hair instead of lavender and my cheekbones and ears on her face. Isn't that weird?
"Well other than becoming Hokage I gained someone perfect." His gazed dreamily. I scowled "I mean remember when I had that stupid crush on you and I use to chase you around."
He spoke facing me "I mean always trying to ask you out to go somewhere. Appearing out of nowhere with the same stupid question 'wanna go out with me?' I'm very glad that you turned me down. If you didn't you won't have gotten the guy you always wanted and I wouldn't have ended up with Hinata." When he said that I realized that I had really caused my pain by myself by constantly turning him down because I view Sasuke as the better choice. Simply because I wanted to go out with the quiet and mysteriously reserved guy, the guy that was a loner cause I thought that I could change him. Because I thought that he would love me. I felt a tear fall down my cheek.
"Hey what's wrong?" I felt his hand graze my cheek removing the tear. "Are you ok Sakura?" Never once have I cried in front of Sasuke for him to whip away my tears or for his touch to ever feel so healing. I turned myself so that my whole body was facing him.
"I will be" I said and smiled.
"no better time than the present." I placed my hands one on each side, and before he could register what was going on, pulled him towards me crashing his lips towards mine. The minute his lips touched mine I swear that there were so many sparks. I felt so happy and content that is until I suddenly felt us disconnect and me on the floor. I looked at Naruto, now standing right in front of me, shock on his face.
"What the hell Sakura?" he yelled his face showed both anger and another emotion that was unreadable. I suddenly felt the impact of my obviously undeveloped plan at that exact moment.
"I…I…" All I could do at the moment was blink.
"Why would you do something like that?" Well already went this far Sakura might as well finish it.
"Because I wanted for you to realize the mistake you made. I was giving you a chance to fix your decision?" I finished questioning my own words from the image that his face was giving me. His face was filled with pure anger.
"What mistake? I haven't made any mistakes to be regretful for. Sakura I think you're a little off ok." His voice was strained trying not to lose control or yell but they way he was talking it was not working out. His voice began escalate in volume.
"Look ok I did have a crush on you…WHEN I WAS 12. But that time has passed and I am very happy and content where I am. Yea when we were 12 I thought you were very much so one that I was amazed by but I mean I've grown out of that allusion."
"Excuse me." My voice sounded shrill, maybe It was because he was destroying all my dreams or simply because he was about to destroy how I thought he saw me.
"YOU LOVED ME, in fact Naruto you were obsessed and you're telling me that it was just an allusion. No buddy" I stood up standing in front of him my finger poking him in the chest, which probably wasn't a good idea.
"Sakura I WAS 12. Look I'm not insulting you but it was over with a long time ago and I'm happier than I've ever been in my entire life. Look when we were younger I thought that you were everything. Yes I did but as I grew up I realized that while you were very pretty she was beautiful, while you were smart she was incredible intelligent, while you were cool she amazed me. I have no regrets for getting over you in fact I praise everyday of it. Nothing was ever really there but infatuation Sakura. Even if I did end up with you somehow I would have fallen out of love with you and in love with Hinata just as fast. I'm sorry." He finished then turned and walked out leaving me slumped on the floor. As I sat there I slowly felt the little pieces, which were left of my heart, turn into weapons inside of me. Because I knew that Naruto would be telling the LOVE OF HIS LIFE exactly what had happened tonight. Looking around I noticed something that maybe should have been noticed a long time ago. There were two people sitting on the other side of the wall to my left I turned and looked at it. That was where both Tsunade and Hinata just passed and I was well aware that they would be the only two people that would be on the other side.
END FLASHBACK
So as I look outside of the window and I see Naruto talking to Hinata I feel each piece of my heart become the sharpest kunai and stab me continuously. I wanted to just die at the exact moment because now I realize that I will never truly be loved.