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Rowling. So don't sue me!
A/N: I was going to wait a while to post this chapter, until I got more reviews, but alas, they never came! I did get ONE though, so thank you to:
Allie kat: (I decided not to put the 5 since I know a lot of people aren't fond of the new found numbers after their names) Thank you for the short but sweet review! You couldn't wait for more chapters, so wait no more!
This isn't the best chapter I've ever written, but it's okay. Hopefully you guys will like it. Lily and Petunia clear the air a bit. Hope you all enjoy!
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Chapter 4: Sisterly Confessions
Lily stood there for a moment shocked at her sister's abrupt departure. Everyone knew that Lily was the more emotional of the two sisters. She was known to go from screaming, to crying, to laughing all in a matter of minutes. But Petunia, she was the calm one. She knew how to control her emotions better than most adults did. She rarely yelled and almost never cried. But just now she had done both. Lily knew something was very wrong with her. She wanted to go after her, but she had to take care of something first.
She slowly stepped off her stool, crossed the few feet between her stool and Lucius', stepped up onto his, and slapped him. Up until this point, Lucius had watched Lily walk towards him with a look of curiosity on his face. But as soon as her hand had met his face it quickly changed from curiosity, to shock, to anger. He moved as if to grab his wand, but Lily had already turned on her heel and was quickly walking out the door, not in fear, because Lily was not in the least bit afraid of Lucius, but in determination. She was determined to find her sister and talk to her.
As Lily searched the street for her sister she began to feel very guilty. The sisters' bond was an unbreakable one. They usually could tell what the other was feeling, sometimes before they themselves knew what they were feeling. Lily started thinking about it and realized Petunia had been miserable for weeks, but she had been too wrapped up in her own excitement about Hogwarts.
"Damn it!" Lily declared uncharacteristically. The fact that she was swearing was not to be taken lightly. Lily despised foul language like that, explaining that people only swore when they had nothing intelligent to say. But right now, Lily was so disgusted with herself she didn't really care.
Lily looked around frantically, feeling tears springing to her eyes as she wondered where Petunia had gone. She was upset and all alone and all Lily could do was think about getting to her. She ran up and down the alley and was getting so frustrated she was on the verge of screaming when she finally just closed her eyes in aggravation and thought 'Just let me find her. PLEASE let me find her before something bad happens to her.'
"What the hell?!" Petunia shrieked, standing up quickly and looking for something to protect herself with.
Lily turned around and saw a stunned Petunia standing in front of her. Lily looked around and realized that she wasn't in Diagon Alley anymore, but in a little field located nearby.
"Um.how did I get here?" Lily said, clearly confused and a little bit frightened.
Petunia still holding the rock she had grabbed, with the intent on hurling it at her intruder answered very quietly, "I think you just apparated here."
Lily looked at Petunia like she was insane.
"But, but I can't possibly have apparated here.I don't know how."
"Well just a second ago, you weren't there. Then I heard a loud CRACK and there you were. If that's not apparation, then you must have just invented some new way to appear out of nowhere," Petunia said, finally calming down enough to drop her rock.
Lily fell to the ground, clearly freaked out and looked like she was about to start crying again.
"But, but," Lily tried to say, but was unable to form words.
Petunia sat down next to Lily and took her sister into her arms. She knew why Lily was so frightened. Apparation was a very advanced type of magic. You had to take a test to be able to apparate and those who had tried to apparate without a license in the past had almost always hurt themselves. For Lily to be able to apparate, without leaving half her body behind, was quite a task, and considering the fact that up until a few weeks ago Lily had thought she had no magical abilities whatsoever, she was warranted to be a little scared.
Petunia finally broke the silence and said, "It seems that you're going to be a pretty powerful witch Lily."
Lily looked up at her sister and tried to smile, but only ended up crying more, managing to sputter out, "And you.you hate me for that."
Petunia grabbed Lily by the shoulders and forced her to sit up and look at her.
"How? No! No Lily! I could never, NEVER hate you. I love you more than anything else in this world. You're my little sister and you mean the world to me. I do NOT hate you," Petunia said with a hurt expression on her face.
"But, I've been so mean. I've been walking around talking about Hogwarts and I never even stopped to think that this whole thing might hurt you. And you.you said that you thought that I think I'm better than you, and I don't! I SWEAR I don't Petunia! I would never think that I'm better than you. You have to believe me," Lily pleaded while trying to see her sister's face, which had become blurred from the tears.
"Oh Lily. I didn't mean that! I was just angry. If you want to know the truth, I'm not MAD at you, I'm just jealous. You know how it feels to wish that you could do magic. We both used to wish for it every night, and I feel like you got your wish granted while I just got passed by. You have to understand how it feels. At least before I had you to be non-magical with, but now.now you're just like the rest of them. You're special, while I'm just me. Stupid, muggle, me."
"But, you're not a muggle Petunia! Don't you get it? I know exactly how you feel. I've felt it for years now, ever since the day you learned to ride a broomstick. You've always been more magical than me, and I was always jealous, but I was also happy for you, because at least one of us could belong in the magical world. And as long as one of us was there, both of us would belong. That's how I felt every time you took me flying, like you were letting me peek into the magical world. That's why I haven't given much thought to you feeling sad about my becoming a witch, because I felt like you were one too. Who cares if everyone else sees you as a squib, as far as I'm concerned you're as much a witch as I am."
Petunia thought this over and felt a little better. She realized that she had never given it a second thought that Lily couldn't fly on her own, because she could take her flying and it was the same thing. And Petunia realized that maybe SHE couldn't do spells, but of course Lily would do spells for her. Petunia suddenly felt very silly.
"All these years you've been going through what I just started going through?"
Lily nodded and smiled.
"And even though you were jealous, you were still happy for me. And even though it sucked that you couldn't do it yourself, you were grateful that you had a sister who could do it for you?"
"Yup," Lily said her smile growing wider.
"And I've been being a complete and total idiot," Petunia finished.
"No! Of course you haven't. It's similar to the flying thing, but it's not the same. I'm sure I would have acted the exact same way if things had been reversed. And I'm sure you would have been a bit more perceptive and wouldn't have gone around like and idiot all 'Hogwarts this and Hogwarts that'"
Petunia smiled and said, "Yeah maybe, but then again, maybe not. Of course you were excited. But, let's just both say sorry for being stupid and forget all this nonsense ever happened."
"Deal," Lily said smiling. "I'm sorry for being so inconsiderate and just generally annoying."
"And I'm sorry I didn't just TELL you how I was feeling and realize that I was just being silly and jealous."
Lily smiled and hugged Petunia. They were friends again and it felt great, but Petunia knew that there was one more thing she needed to say.
"There is one more thing Lily. Well two really. One thing is, that it wasn't just jealousy. I was also scared that with you being gone for most of the year for the next seven years that we wouldn't be close anymore."
Lily shook her head and laughed, "Don't be silly Petunia. You will ALWAYS be my best friend. You're my big sis! And now that we both have owls we can write to each other all the time. We will always be close! Flower twins forever, right?"
Petunia smiled and said, "Right! So there's just one more thing. Why didn't you say anything when that Malfoy jerk treated me so badly?"
Lily looked down, a little bit ashamed, "Well I guess I didn't know what to say, but you certainly took care of that didn't you?"
Petunia blushed a little but did feel a little proud about the way she told Malfoy off.
"Yeah, I guess I was able to take care of myself that time. Though I doubt he cared much if some squib called him dirt. All well, at least it made me feel good!"
Lily beamed at her sister and said, "Yeah, you should have tried slapping him. That felt great!"
"You didn't!" Petunia cried out in shock and admiration.
"I did," Lily said glowing with pride.
"And I thought you didn't care that he insulted me!" Petunia laughed.
By now the two of them had started walking back towards Madam Malkin's. Malfoy should have left by now, and they still needed to get their robes. They just hoped that their parents hadn't gone looking for them there yet. The last thing this day needed was for the two of them to get in trouble for disappearing. The thought of disappearing brought another question into Petunia's mind.
"So Lily, how'd you do it?" Petunia asked looking at Lily with curiosity.
Lily knew exactly what she was talking about and answered truthfully, "I really don't know. I just closed my eyes and I was thinking really hard about how much I wanted to find you, and the next thing I knew there you were, or there I was I guess I should say. I really didn't mean to do it though."
"I guess it was one of those times Dad is always talking about. You know when a witch or wizard is really scared or angry, and they do magic without meaning to."
"I guess so," Lily said pausing, "It was pretty cool though!"
And the two sisters walked into Madam Malkin's talking about the other spells that Lily would soon be learning and the different ones that she'd be able to perform for Petunia. They both felt like a huge weight had been lifted, and even though Petunia knew she would miss Lily when she left, she was actually almost as excited about Lily learning magic as Lily was.
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A/N: Well? What did you guys think? Pretty crazy about Lily apparating, huh? It shows just how much she wanted to find her sister! There isn't a whole lot to say about this chapter, but I promise the next one will be better. There will even be an appearance by a certain dark haired male, I'll leave you guys to wonder who it may be. Of course if you review, the chapter will get put up a lot faster and you won't have to wonder! So click review and send those in! : )
A/N: I was going to wait a while to post this chapter, until I got more reviews, but alas, they never came! I did get ONE though, so thank you to:
Allie kat: (I decided not to put the 5 since I know a lot of people aren't fond of the new found numbers after their names) Thank you for the short but sweet review! You couldn't wait for more chapters, so wait no more!
This isn't the best chapter I've ever written, but it's okay. Hopefully you guys will like it. Lily and Petunia clear the air a bit. Hope you all enjoy!
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Chapter 4: Sisterly Confessions
Lily stood there for a moment shocked at her sister's abrupt departure. Everyone knew that Lily was the more emotional of the two sisters. She was known to go from screaming, to crying, to laughing all in a matter of minutes. But Petunia, she was the calm one. She knew how to control her emotions better than most adults did. She rarely yelled and almost never cried. But just now she had done both. Lily knew something was very wrong with her. She wanted to go after her, but she had to take care of something first.
She slowly stepped off her stool, crossed the few feet between her stool and Lucius', stepped up onto his, and slapped him. Up until this point, Lucius had watched Lily walk towards him with a look of curiosity on his face. But as soon as her hand had met his face it quickly changed from curiosity, to shock, to anger. He moved as if to grab his wand, but Lily had already turned on her heel and was quickly walking out the door, not in fear, because Lily was not in the least bit afraid of Lucius, but in determination. She was determined to find her sister and talk to her.
As Lily searched the street for her sister she began to feel very guilty. The sisters' bond was an unbreakable one. They usually could tell what the other was feeling, sometimes before they themselves knew what they were feeling. Lily started thinking about it and realized Petunia had been miserable for weeks, but she had been too wrapped up in her own excitement about Hogwarts.
"Damn it!" Lily declared uncharacteristically. The fact that she was swearing was not to be taken lightly. Lily despised foul language like that, explaining that people only swore when they had nothing intelligent to say. But right now, Lily was so disgusted with herself she didn't really care.
Lily looked around frantically, feeling tears springing to her eyes as she wondered where Petunia had gone. She was upset and all alone and all Lily could do was think about getting to her. She ran up and down the alley and was getting so frustrated she was on the verge of screaming when she finally just closed her eyes in aggravation and thought 'Just let me find her. PLEASE let me find her before something bad happens to her.'
"What the hell?!" Petunia shrieked, standing up quickly and looking for something to protect herself with.
Lily turned around and saw a stunned Petunia standing in front of her. Lily looked around and realized that she wasn't in Diagon Alley anymore, but in a little field located nearby.
"Um.how did I get here?" Lily said, clearly confused and a little bit frightened.
Petunia still holding the rock she had grabbed, with the intent on hurling it at her intruder answered very quietly, "I think you just apparated here."
Lily looked at Petunia like she was insane.
"But, but I can't possibly have apparated here.I don't know how."
"Well just a second ago, you weren't there. Then I heard a loud CRACK and there you were. If that's not apparation, then you must have just invented some new way to appear out of nowhere," Petunia said, finally calming down enough to drop her rock.
Lily fell to the ground, clearly freaked out and looked like she was about to start crying again.
"But, but," Lily tried to say, but was unable to form words.
Petunia sat down next to Lily and took her sister into her arms. She knew why Lily was so frightened. Apparation was a very advanced type of magic. You had to take a test to be able to apparate and those who had tried to apparate without a license in the past had almost always hurt themselves. For Lily to be able to apparate, without leaving half her body behind, was quite a task, and considering the fact that up until a few weeks ago Lily had thought she had no magical abilities whatsoever, she was warranted to be a little scared.
Petunia finally broke the silence and said, "It seems that you're going to be a pretty powerful witch Lily."
Lily looked up at her sister and tried to smile, but only ended up crying more, managing to sputter out, "And you.you hate me for that."
Petunia grabbed Lily by the shoulders and forced her to sit up and look at her.
"How? No! No Lily! I could never, NEVER hate you. I love you more than anything else in this world. You're my little sister and you mean the world to me. I do NOT hate you," Petunia said with a hurt expression on her face.
"But, I've been so mean. I've been walking around talking about Hogwarts and I never even stopped to think that this whole thing might hurt you. And you.you said that you thought that I think I'm better than you, and I don't! I SWEAR I don't Petunia! I would never think that I'm better than you. You have to believe me," Lily pleaded while trying to see her sister's face, which had become blurred from the tears.
"Oh Lily. I didn't mean that! I was just angry. If you want to know the truth, I'm not MAD at you, I'm just jealous. You know how it feels to wish that you could do magic. We both used to wish for it every night, and I feel like you got your wish granted while I just got passed by. You have to understand how it feels. At least before I had you to be non-magical with, but now.now you're just like the rest of them. You're special, while I'm just me. Stupid, muggle, me."
"But, you're not a muggle Petunia! Don't you get it? I know exactly how you feel. I've felt it for years now, ever since the day you learned to ride a broomstick. You've always been more magical than me, and I was always jealous, but I was also happy for you, because at least one of us could belong in the magical world. And as long as one of us was there, both of us would belong. That's how I felt every time you took me flying, like you were letting me peek into the magical world. That's why I haven't given much thought to you feeling sad about my becoming a witch, because I felt like you were one too. Who cares if everyone else sees you as a squib, as far as I'm concerned you're as much a witch as I am."
Petunia thought this over and felt a little better. She realized that she had never given it a second thought that Lily couldn't fly on her own, because she could take her flying and it was the same thing. And Petunia realized that maybe SHE couldn't do spells, but of course Lily would do spells for her. Petunia suddenly felt very silly.
"All these years you've been going through what I just started going through?"
Lily nodded and smiled.
"And even though you were jealous, you were still happy for me. And even though it sucked that you couldn't do it yourself, you were grateful that you had a sister who could do it for you?"
"Yup," Lily said her smile growing wider.
"And I've been being a complete and total idiot," Petunia finished.
"No! Of course you haven't. It's similar to the flying thing, but it's not the same. I'm sure I would have acted the exact same way if things had been reversed. And I'm sure you would have been a bit more perceptive and wouldn't have gone around like and idiot all 'Hogwarts this and Hogwarts that'"
Petunia smiled and said, "Yeah maybe, but then again, maybe not. Of course you were excited. But, let's just both say sorry for being stupid and forget all this nonsense ever happened."
"Deal," Lily said smiling. "I'm sorry for being so inconsiderate and just generally annoying."
"And I'm sorry I didn't just TELL you how I was feeling and realize that I was just being silly and jealous."
Lily smiled and hugged Petunia. They were friends again and it felt great, but Petunia knew that there was one more thing she needed to say.
"There is one more thing Lily. Well two really. One thing is, that it wasn't just jealousy. I was also scared that with you being gone for most of the year for the next seven years that we wouldn't be close anymore."
Lily shook her head and laughed, "Don't be silly Petunia. You will ALWAYS be my best friend. You're my big sis! And now that we both have owls we can write to each other all the time. We will always be close! Flower twins forever, right?"
Petunia smiled and said, "Right! So there's just one more thing. Why didn't you say anything when that Malfoy jerk treated me so badly?"
Lily looked down, a little bit ashamed, "Well I guess I didn't know what to say, but you certainly took care of that didn't you?"
Petunia blushed a little but did feel a little proud about the way she told Malfoy off.
"Yeah, I guess I was able to take care of myself that time. Though I doubt he cared much if some squib called him dirt. All well, at least it made me feel good!"
Lily beamed at her sister and said, "Yeah, you should have tried slapping him. That felt great!"
"You didn't!" Petunia cried out in shock and admiration.
"I did," Lily said glowing with pride.
"And I thought you didn't care that he insulted me!" Petunia laughed.
By now the two of them had started walking back towards Madam Malkin's. Malfoy should have left by now, and they still needed to get their robes. They just hoped that their parents hadn't gone looking for them there yet. The last thing this day needed was for the two of them to get in trouble for disappearing. The thought of disappearing brought another question into Petunia's mind.
"So Lily, how'd you do it?" Petunia asked looking at Lily with curiosity.
Lily knew exactly what she was talking about and answered truthfully, "I really don't know. I just closed my eyes and I was thinking really hard about how much I wanted to find you, and the next thing I knew there you were, or there I was I guess I should say. I really didn't mean to do it though."
"I guess it was one of those times Dad is always talking about. You know when a witch or wizard is really scared or angry, and they do magic without meaning to."
"I guess so," Lily said pausing, "It was pretty cool though!"
And the two sisters walked into Madam Malkin's talking about the other spells that Lily would soon be learning and the different ones that she'd be able to perform for Petunia. They both felt like a huge weight had been lifted, and even though Petunia knew she would miss Lily when she left, she was actually almost as excited about Lily learning magic as Lily was.
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A/N: Well? What did you guys think? Pretty crazy about Lily apparating, huh? It shows just how much she wanted to find her sister! There isn't a whole lot to say about this chapter, but I promise the next one will be better. There will even be an appearance by a certain dark haired male, I'll leave you guys to wonder who it may be. Of course if you review, the chapter will get put up a lot faster and you won't have to wonder! So click review and send those in! : )