Alaska, perfect. Yeah because that will help. If Alice actually did care about me than maybe she won't tell anybody I will be up there. If I just happen to stop by... Get away from the tour and go out to find a coven of vampires.

I got up from my chair, again. I grabbed my plate and threw the ripped up piece of pizza into the garbage. I washed my plate and grabbed an ice pack. Then I headed up stairs. I stopped suddenly. "Who called before, Dad?" I asked.

"Nobody, it was a wrong number." He answered.

"Tomorrow after school I am going to go shopping, you know, so that I can have some warm clothes for Alaska." I told him as I turned back around. When I got to my room I felt a sudden cold breeze come through. I put the ice pack over my eyes and laid down. 'This is going to be a long night.' I muttered to myself. I heard the wind chimes chime from our neighbor's house.

I fell asleep, and I dreamed. I was in the dark forest behind my house, running after what I couldn't see. I kept running, but I decided to run back to the house. His car was still there and I held on to it. He came back and I was pulled off of his car. I was left alone.

I got up and got dressed in a daze. I ate some kind of pop-tart that was in the kitchen cabinet. I got in my truck and turned on the radio. Emmett, Jasper and Rosalie bought it for me on my dreaded eighteenth birthday- that no matter what I will never forget.

When I got to school I walked to trig. class and sat down next to Jessica. She didn't even look at me. I took out my binder and started taking notes. Mr. Varner passed back a test we took last week, I think. Do I even want to know? I turned the paper over and it was a big, fat D written on it. There was also a note 'Miss Swan I would like to meet with you after class'. Just my luck!, and this is only the first period of the day. When the bell finally rang I picked up my books and walked up to the teachers desk. I took a deep breath before I started. "You wanted to see me?" I asked him.

"Yes, it is about your grades."

"Listen, I have been trying my hardest. It is just really hard to concentrate, I have a lot on my mind." I told him. I haven't been trying my hardest, to be honest, but at least I am here.

"A student could tutor you, I know that Mike Newton would and he has the highest grade in the class now."

"He would love that." I muttered under my breath and rolled my eyes. "It's okay. I'll try harder." I assured him. "I have to get to my next class." I looked up at the clock and I am going to be late.

"Here." He said as he handed me a note.

"Thanks." I replied as I turned and headed towards the door at the opposite end of the room.

"Ditching once in a while is healthy" I mumbled as I walked to my truck.

Why do people have to try to help me in the first place? I prefer to suffer in silence. Nobody will ever understand anyways. How does he expect for my life to go on? He took my life with him when he left.

I started the truck and pulled on to the rode. I drove and drove. When I finally got to my destination, I realized it was not as I pictured it. I drove through the serpent like drive way up to the big white house on the river.

My nightmares would be worse tonight than any other ones I could have possibly ever had. I turned my truck off and got out. I stared up at the empty house. I carefully walked up the steps to the front door. I twisted the knob and the door opened. I stole one last look at my truck before I closed the door behind me. I took a deep breath then turned around. Everything was just as they left it. Exactly like they left it. I held onto my sides as I slowly walked up the staircase, to the second floor. I walked into Carlisle's office and there was a piece of paper. It read 'At Tanya's come when you decide to come home. We all miss you.'

Someone isn't with them? Why would Carlisle leave a note? Why didn't he just tell them? Who isn't with them?

I walked back out of the office and noticed that there was something missing. Carlisle's father's cross. I looked through one of the many windows in the hallway. The place we never have to hide. I held my sides as I fell to the ground. I cried and cried and cried. When I finally found my lungs and took a breath. I got up from the ground and went into the room which I believed to be Esme's office. I found a pad of paper.

I know you guys don't want me in your life but all of you will always be a part of mine. You are probably wondering why I am in your house in the first place but it is because I need to know you guys are still alive, somewhere. As for how I got in, the door was unlocked. I hope at sometime, when you come back to Forks ,you won't forget me. Please don't forget me.

- Bella

I left the piece of paper on the table. I hope at sometime one of them will find it. It will probably be to late, I will probably already be dead but I hope they do find it and know that till the day I die I will always love all of them. Maybe they will come and find me.

No.

I can't hope for what I know will never happen. If I want something done, maybe and probably not right, I have to do it myself.