Do I Wanna Know?—Arctic Monkeys

Notes: GUUUUUYS I am soooo sorry for waiting to update. IM A MONSTER. So I made this chapter without a cliffhanger bc ilysfm youre welcome anyways may the angst commence!

Everything was a mess for Kageyama.

It was Sunday and he really wished he could just go into a little corner and implode. The main reason was because of Hinata, he just couldn't get him out of his head. All he thought about was his hair, his eyes, his nose… his lips.

Kageyama didn't know if he was gay or not. He was never really intimate with the same sex or opposite sex outside of his immediate family. He also didn't know who to talk to for this sort of thing. He could address his parents but how would they feel? Would they push him away for even suggesting he might be homosexual?

"This whole teen angst thing sucks." Kageyama muttered to himself.

He sat on his bed thinking it over when he thought of a way that he may be able to tell if he was gay or not. He'd just watch porn. He got his laptop, locked door and found a website then put his headphones in. The first one he watched was with a man and a woman. When the clip was over he did have a definite tent in his pants. Putting gay off the table, Kageyama guessed that he could be bisexual. Though he'd have to watch a gay porno to find out.

He clicked on the first video he saw and waited for it to load. When he finished the video he didn't feel anything. His erection even went down a little. He was so confused. He knew that he was attracted to Hinata sexually but the gay porn was doing nothing for him. He was back to square one.

He decided that google may be able to help his predicament. In the search box he typed 'what does it mean if you're sexually attracted to a man but you know you're straight?'

The first website that popped up was 'how to know if you're gay'. Well he knew he wasn't gay so he kept scrolling and at the bottom of the page there was a website that said 'Are you Pansexual?' This was new. The raven never heard of pansexuality before so he decided to click on the link.

It seemed to be an article explaining pansexuality and how it differs from bisexuality and homosexuality. It all started making sense; pansexuality meant that you can fall in love with anybody. That you love them for who they are not what they are.

Kageyama felt… relieved for the first time in a long time. So he was pansexual, he could live with that. Then another sudden realization hit him. What if Hinata didn't return the feelings? How would that affect volleyball? Or even worse, what if he did return the feelings? Kageyama was absolutely dreading tomorrow.

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Tobio hated Monday's. The haze of the weekend still fresh in your system; forgetting to do your math homework and rushing to do it in homeroom. Monday's suck, a lot. But this Monday the onyx felt particularly horrible. He couldn't sleep last night, he forgot he had a history quiz today so he didn't study, and he'd have to face Hinata. Right now Kageyama was just going through the motions. Classes were terrible, lunch was terrible, and the rest of the school day was terrible. Volleyball was really when everything started going downhill.

It had been awkward for the dynamic duo during practice—more so for Kageyama than Hinata. An hour later practice was over and Kageyama was in locker room alone. He hated changing in front of other people when he heard the locker room door open. He turned quickly but it was only Tsukishima.

"What're you looking at?" The blonde asked.

"Your shitty face." Kageyama retorted.

The teen laughed and approached the raven, "That's the best you could come up with?"

"That's all I cared to come up with." Kageyama said without flinching as Tsukishima stepped closer to him.

"I just came to pick something up." Tsukishima said ignoring his comment.

"And what is tha-"Kageyama was caught off with the bespectacled boy trying to shove his tongue down the onyx's throat. Kageyama could safely say that it was the most revolting thing that has ever happened to him. He could not push Tsukishima away fast enough.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" Tobio coughed and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.

"It was a bet." The blonde said turning away heading towards the door while the setter stood there with a dumbfounded expression written across his face. He didn't know how to react to the situation. Should he vomit? Should punch him in the face? The latter sounded more pleasing, but Kageyama decided to brush it off. He would wait for karma to work its magic. He grabbed his bag and made his way out of the locker room.

He looked around the gym for Hinata; usually he stayed about ten minutes after practice to put in a couple more throws but couldn't find him anywhere. Well this was just prolonging the inevitable. He walked out of the gym when he heard sniffling coming from the far wall outside the gym. Kageyama decided to investigate. He quietly walked over and slowly stuck his head around the corner.

It was Hinata. It also looked like he was… crying? "Hey, Hinata-"

"Go away!"

Kageyama kneeled beside him, actually concerned for the teen, "Hey Hinata what's wrong?"

"You wouldn't understand."

The onyx was growing pissed, "How do you know I wouldn't understand?"

"'Cause I know you." Hinata said looking into the taller teen's eyes.

"Just tell me."

"It's you! You make my stomach flip and my head feel all fuzzy. But- god I feel so stupid- when I saw you with Tsukishima… I don't know. Just leave me alone."

"Hinata." Kageyama said softly.

"Go away." The carrot top said quietly.

"I do understand." Kageyama paused before continuing, "I understand completely. When I'm with you… when I'm with you I feel comfortable, like I'm at home. And I like it when you walk into the room it's like bringing a light into the darkness. And I like how you can put your trust so easily in people. I like your smile. I like your eyes." Kageyama paused again, "I really like you."

Before the setter could say anything else he felt Hinata's tear stained lips against his chapped ones. It was an amazing feeling for Kageyama; it started in his toes and traveled through his body.

This is the best thing that he could've wished for.

Notes:

Wow. That happened. Really long chapter too. Yay. Any questions or ideas feel free to ask also you can follow me on tumblr at justcallme-ryn dot tumblr dot com. You get the gist. Like, favorite, comment, and review; until next time bae's stay beautiful!