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Chapter Warning: Slightly graffic adult content.

Chapter 4: Beast

"I'm not Beast Boy."

Raven struggled as Beast Boy's hands gripped her wrists tightly beside her head and he looked down at her with those dark eyes.

"...who are you then?" Raven asked breathing erratically.

He laughed darkly as his weight crushed her body beneath him.

"Isn't it obvious who I am?" He growled gripping her wrists harder.

Raven winced in pain but tried to maintain a focus on his face and tried not to panic.

"...the beast," she breathed in a hoarse voice.

The beast grinned, "Well aren't you a smart one?"

" ...how.." Raven's words were cut off as he began biting and kissing into her neck roughly. She pushed at him but his legs had hers locked to the ground and the more she moved, the closer their bodies were. She could feel the outline of something hard bulging against her hips. Here she realized how strong Beast Boy had gotten as he pinned her down and she struggled.

"St-stop! Beast Boy..I know you're in there..stop this...," she grunted as the beast pushed her legs open forcingly and began biting on the inner parts of her thighs. Her stomach burned in feelings of heat and in terror at the foreign feeling of a his lips and teeth close to her most intimate of places.

"...Don't-dont make me hurt you Beast Boy," Raven warned in fear as her hand glowed black with power. When his mouth neared the edge of her underwear her eyes turned black with power and she blasted him off of her with a shout of Azarathmetrionzinthos. He managed to scratch her cheek and tear her leotard a bit as he fell a few feet away to the ground knocked out.

Raven touched her face where she had three claw marks oozing slightly with blood, her heart exploding as she scooted away from Beast Boy's limp body. Raven felt like she was in one of Beast Boy's dreams again but she knew this was all too real.

What had just happened?!

It was a few moments before Beast Boy came back around. He moaned in pain and sat up slowly grabbing first his head, then his abdomen in piercing pain. His eyes flashed to Raven's and she knew this was Beast Boy because his eyes were his same bright emerald green eyes. He looked at Raven in confusion and took the sight of her in.

Her leotard was torn, she had bruises all over her neck and wrists...and thighs...her face scratched...He paled.

"Tell me...I didn't do that to you," he begged tears threatening to burst out of his eyes.

Raven trembled not even knowing what to say, "...Beast Boy..."

"How far did I go?" He growled in anger at himself, gripping the side of his stomach.

Raven took deep breaths, "Beast Boy, listen to me-"

"Just tell me how far I went! Tell me what I did to you!"

"I stopped you. You didn't get far. I'm fine. Look I hurt you when I blasted you," Raven approached him shakily but he scooted away in pain, "Beast Boy let me-let me heal you I hit you hard."

"Stay. Away from me! I hurt you," he whispered harshly.

Raven sighed deeply and concentrated, "I'm fine. You didn't get far...I just have a scratch..that is already healing. Now I will heal you because I'm the one who really hurt you."

Against his will she placed her hands outlined in black mist on his bleeding abdomen and let her powers heal him slowly. He was really angry at himself. How could he let himself do that?! He looked at Raven her neck covered in bruises and bite marks. His...his mouth had done that...his mouth had touched Raven's skin. He let his gaze drop to between her thighs and his stomach turned at the bruises and bite marks there.

His mouth had done that to.. He couldn't even begin to imagine himself doing that...he couldn't ever dare to...to touch her like that...

But the beast did that. And he wanted to do that again.

But...was it...just the beast that wanted that...or...was it himself to...?

Raven looked at him deep in thought, "Hey. Are you feeling okay?"

Beast Boy glared at her, "You are asking me that after I attacked you?!"

Raven began to talk but Beast Boy cut her off, "I want you to tie me up, chain me, whatever it takes to keep me from hurting you and call the team and tell them the beast is back."

Beast Boy sat in the chair he sat in when the beast had first appeared and Robin had first bond him. Raven sat across from him in a chair and they sat in silence.

"Call. The team," Beast Boy said roughly not meeting Raven's eyes.

She had her arms crossed at her chest, "No. I'm not calling them. It will only worry them. This is a problem we've handled before, we can handle it again."

"It's not that simple Raven!" Beast Boy looked at her now, his blood pulsing. She was almost completely healed, the scratches on her cheek faint.

"I know you-"

"Get away from me Raven-just get away. Please," Beast Boy closed his eyes tiredly.

Raven's gaze softened but she listened.

That night he dreamed of her again. Raven's heart pounded and she knew...she just knew. They were in the living room in this dream and she was in her sleeping clothes and he was in his. She tried to get away but he gripped her wrist quickly.

"No use in running off. The predator always catches his prey..no?" The Beast laughed darkly. This time he didn't rush in touching her, he just watched her shake and look at him in fear.

"You're afraid," he said simply.

"No I'm not," Raven lied and furrowed her brows at him.

He smirked, "What a brave girl." He reached a hand over to her hair, pushing a strand behind her ear before cupping her face. "For a half demon you sure are innocent to sexual desires." She pushed his hand away as her face burned in red.

"What do you want from me?" She growled.

"I only want what my host wants." He smiled darkly and leaned over hotly to her, "And he. Wants. You."

"You shouldn't let me go yet," Beast Boy protested as Raven helped him up from the chair. He kept his distance and they awkwardly stood a few feet away from each other.

"I don't trust myself yet..." Beast Boy admitted quietly, "So...we should stay apart for awhile."

He didn't let Raven respond before he left her standing there.

Raven stood before the bookcase in her room, the one Cyborg made her, her fingers skipping over books as she searched in alphabetical order. She had probably had a hundred ancients books on spells, legends, the human mind, auras, Azarath way of life and more existential information as that.

Something. She had to have something to help her figure out what was going on with herself. And...something perhaps to help Beast Boy as well. Although...she didn't want to admit it...she knew there was really only one thing that could help him...

She shook her head, focus Raven. Focus on yourself right now.

She held a pile of books to her chest then sat on the ground letting the books fall around her and began meditating.

"Azarath...metrion...zinthos..."

There was a spark of a connection but it cut off as quickly as it started. Raven sighed and rubbed her eyes roughly. She would have to get on to reading then. She picked a random book in front of her and divulged in it, searching for answers she couldn't seem to find.

Beast Boy was in the training room morphing into all of the feline creatures he could manifest into. From a lion to a jaguar to a leopard and when he accidentally morphed into an large ape he cursed at himself, "Idiot!" He knocked over a row of matts Starfire and Robin used for hand to hand combat.

He saw Raven's reflection from the large window in front of him and he morphed back into himself looking down. She stood in the doorway with two steaming cups in her hands.

"I made jasmine tea. Nothing like lemon herb but it helps to relax," she stated simply.

"Thanks," he replied but didn't make a move to get the cup from her.

She sighed and approached him but he flinched away, "I told you to stay away from me Raven it's not safe for you."

"Beast Boy I already told you-"

"No, I already told you that it was better we kept our distance. You of all people should understand this better than anyone. Why won't you listen?" He growled and pushed past her out of the room.

Raven shook in anger and threw a tea cup at the wall beside him, crushing the cup with a loud crack.

"Go get out then! I won't bother you anymore you animal!" She shouted in a fit of rage.

He stopped as if he got shocked and he turned to her a look of hurt on his eyes and she instantly regretted what she said. He just laughed bitterly, "I'd rather be an animal than a soulless freak." He spat out harshly cutting into her heart like no one ever has before.

Raven looked at her clock that ticked loudly beside her bed. It was late but she couldn't seem to fall asleep. She turned and stared up at the ceiling. A thousands thoughts were playing before her.

She couldn't turn her mind off, her thoughts were like static that wouldn't shut down.

Above them all was a Beast Boy.

Just Beast Boy.

He invaded every thought that came to mind.

She wasn't mad...she was just frustrated and confused and...

She honestly didn't even know at this point.

She got up from her bed and walked over to her door stepping out in only an oversized white t-shirt and her black underwear shorts. She was just going to get some orange juice really quick. Beast Boy was asleep he wouldn't see her...

She walked down the hall and flicked on the kitchen light. She pulled out the orange juice and tied her hair half up and half down, her shirt riding up slightly as she tied some of her long hair

She tensed as she felt someone watching her and she slowly turned around, Beast Boy standing by the wall, halfway in shadow.

He walked forward and smirked, his eyes dark.

The Beast.

Raven stumbled back but hit the back of the cold sink counter.

"You sure pissed him off today. Not your smartest move." He said slowly as he walked over to her. She scrambled away from him running behind the counter but he was faster than her and he grabbed her from behind. Raven kicked and shouted but the beast just laughed and pressed behind her making sure she felt that hardness forming.

"Do you feel that? You do know what that is right? Or are you so naive?" He laughed.

"No!" Raven shouted as he turned her around and forced her to sit on the counter.

"It's what you do to him. It's what you make him feel...you do this to his body. But he's not man enough to just take you as his...but I am."

He kissed on her neck and she slapped him hard. He winced and rubbed his cheek, "You're feisty aren't you. I like that." He continued to kiss her neck and put his hands on her bottom under her shirt and pulled her hips to his over the counter and she winced at the contact.

She felt a strange warmth in her stomach and feared she would throw up.

He pulled away and reached into the front of his sweat pants and Raven shut her eyes as he pulled the waistband off the sweats down.

"Open your eyes I know you've never seen one before.." He growled and pulled her hair.

"Gar!" She screamed out in fear, her eyes still closed.

That seemed to break the spell as she was met with silence and the grip on her was loosened. She opened her eyes slowly, shaking. She looked directly into Beast Boys green eyes and he just winced.

He was in complete shock...he was mad at himself, afraid of hurting Raven, and extremely turned on at the moment. He looked down at his exposed member out in the open inches from Raven's thighs.

He swallowed dryly and pulled up his sweatpants before grabbing Raven's arm and leading her away from the kitchen.

"Beast..Boy..." Raven replied quietly but he didn't respond as he took her to her room and shut the door morphing into a gorilla and slamming into it hard, meshing the metal so she couldn't get out.

He looked at her door as a few tears bubbled in his eyes, "I won't hurt you."

He ran off, he had to get out of the tower he felt like he was suffocating.

"Beast Boy!" Raven shouted and pounded on her door.

She hit the door for several minutes until she calmed down and looked around her room, trying to concentrate.

She was still shaking from their encounter but she knew it wasn't Beast Boy's fault.

And he needed to know that to.

She reached for the oversized jacket he had let her borrow a few nights ago and slipped it on along with combat boots and jumped out of her window into the night.

When she couldn't find him she wanted to call the team and reached for her communicator but thought twice and decided not to.

She walked down town past restaurants and shops to the more shady side where there were less people and more night clubs. She was searching blindly now.

Where could he be?

"Looking for your boyfriend?" A voice said behind her. Raven turned swiftly and met with the mysterious boy she encountered with Beast Boy. He was dressed in a dark edgy way with a dark green jacket and black combat boots. He flashed her a smooth grin, his sapphire eyes glinting.

"...boyfriend? I don't have one...?" She replied in confusion and she tugged Beast Boy's jacket closer to herself.

"Your boyfriend. The one I had to help kick some ass with the other day. You know? Green?" He spoke slowly his voice as decadent as rich as chocolate.

"...he's not my boyfriend...why would you..why do you ask?" She snapped, curious at him.

"Well I thought since you're out here half dressed, clearly looking for someone and I saw him head to The Dive with some blonde. Not that you'd care since he isn't your boyfriend like you said," He stated blandly.

Raven's eyes widened, "I have to go!" She stopped and turned to him, "...wait...who are you..?"

"...you can call me Saf." He told her before turning and walking off in the opposite direction getting lost in the mass of people down town.

When Raven neared the Dive she nearly passed them. They were in the end of an ally, pressed up together against the wall of The Dive. The weekend was playing again on this occasion, this time Feel it coming was playing.

How ironic.

They were making out against the wall, Beast Boy's hand going up the girl's short skirt.

Raven boiled with anger and when the girl saw Raven between a kiss her overly painted eyes widened and she scrambled away.

Raven glared at Beast Boy's back looking ready to fight. Beast Boy turned to Raven slowly, his cheeks red with embarrassment and a mixture of feelings.

"...Running off and finding some some girl to ravage isn't the way to handle things!" Raven shouted at him in anger, "Can you be such an idiot?!"

"I'd rather it be some girl than you!" He shouted back.

She stared hard not understanding his words.

He sighed roughly, "I'd rather suppress the Beast by using just some girl...not you. I actually care about you."

Raven's cheeks turned pink. This wasn't a love confession right...no he cared about her as a friend...right?

As if on cue the song rang out ~you've been scared of love and what it did to you...~

"I couldn't live with myself if I hurt you." He told her softly.

Raven unclenched her fists and relaxed slightly. "You're an idiot. You wouldn't and you didn't and you won't. That's the beast. But not you."

"But I can't stop him..."

"Yes you can. You've managed to do it so far...look when the beast first appeared remember he saved me from Adonis? If he did that it means he doesn't want to exactly hurt me..."

"But...he wants to hurt you..another way," Beast Boy trailed off.

Raven blushed and swallowed, "Lets...let's not think of that..

...you'll fight it. You have before and you can do it again. We will get through this together. We both have our issues going on right now but we will work through them like we always do. But we need to start acting more like a team because that's what we are. We are a team. A family. " She told him and wondered why she said such...sentimental words.

She hated feelings.

Raven walked up to him and punched him clean in the face.

"Ow!" Beast a Boy groaned and rubbed his cheek, "What was that for?! We were just having a moment!"

"That's for calling me a soulless freak! And for running off with some girl." She growled but then smiled slightly and hugged him tightly before letting him go, "And that is for calling you an animal...I'm sorry. You may be a half beast but you're not an animal."

Beast Boy smiled trying to ignore the feeling of Raven's body through the shirt when they hugged , "And you may be a half demon but you're not a soulless freak...I'm sorry to..for everything that's happened between us..."

Raven nodded, "Enough apologies. We are past that."

Beast Boy sighed tiredly, "..this week has been...hard..."

"I agree...we have a week left...we should do something?"

"...you mean...together?" Beast Boy asked in surprise.

Raven rolled her eyes, "Well there's no one else."

"Just you and me?" Beast boy asked as they walked out of the alley.

"Don't make me punch you again."

Hi guys thank you so much for reading and thank you for sharing your thoughts with me and know I read your reviews and I hear loud and clear. Sorry if there isn't much of Robin and Starfire and Cyborg but there will be trust me. It's just right now I want it to be focused on Beast Boy and Raven to build their relationship and the team is gone. When the team comes back you will see way more of them and their relationships with the team.

Thank you guys for having my back and giving me advice I appreciate and I just hope you enjoy because I love writing and just thank you!