Worldwide
This is going to be the longest chapter in the series...Lots of Drama involved
Chapter 4
"KENDALL WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" Logan screeched as he saw Kendall standing on the ledge of the hotel roof.
"Logie…What on earth are you doing here?" Kendall asked.
"I was looking for you god damnit!" Logan yelled. "And I find you up here trying to kill yourself? Kendall what exactly are you thinking?" Logan asked.
"No one wants me here…So why on earth should I be here?" Kendall asked.
"Kendall! Think about what you are doing for a minute here! I mean you really want to throw your life away?" Logan asked.
"I told you…There is no point in living…" Kendall yelled. "You don't love me…My boyfriend cheated on me with my ex-girlfriend, and now James is out of the picture! Who's next? My mom, Katie, you? I can't take this anymore…" Kendall sobbed. "People will continue to come in and out of my life just like my childhood…" Kendall sobbed.
"Kenny…you know your mom and Katie will never leave you…They love you…" Logan said.
"But you…Your going to be leaving…With that scholarship and everything…Logie I can't handle this anymore…I need to leave.." Kendall placed one foot off the ledge but Logan held him tightly.
"I can't let you do this to yourself…" Logan sobbed. "I can't let my bestest friend in the whole wide world fall 10 feet to his death. I just won't let you…" Logan sobbed.
"Logan I have to go…" Kendall sobbed even more.
"Kendall! Listen to me! Carlos cares about you! Your mom cares about you! Katie cares about you! Don't you know how much it would hurt all of us if you were to commit suicide?" Logan demanded.
"Your just saying that to stop me from jumping off of here…" Kendall sobbed.
"How could you possibly think that?" Logan asked. "You're my number one best friend Kendall! Of course I would miss you if you were to jump off of this roof…" Logan sighed.
"Logie…Please this is better for all of you guys…I don't deserve to be living…I'm just a waste of space…" Kendall said.
"Kendall please!" Logan said as he had tears going down his cheeks. "You don't have to do this…I swear to God you're a wonderful person… And trust me when I say this…You will be missed Kendall Knight…I mean you're the glue that holds the glue together…And with that glue, we all fall to pieces…Don't you understand Kendall? We need you…Please…You don't have to end your life…" Logan said wiping the tears off of his cheek.
"Logie…I'm sorry…" Kendall sobbed. "I'm so sorry…" Kendall sobbed as he slid down the brick wall.
"Kendall… What are you sorry for? You didn't do anything wrong…" Logan said as he hugged Kendall tightly.
"Logie…I promised you when we were kids that we would be the bestest friends ever…" Kendall sobbed. "And here I am letting you down…" Kendall sighed.
"You are not letting me down…" Logan hugged Kendal. "You were depressed…and you needed someone there to catch you when you fall…" Logan said.
"And it always turns out to be you…" Kendall laughed.
"Oh come on…I am not always the one who helps you when you are in a state like this…" Logan laughed.
"Logan…you're the only one who knows how to calm me down when I'm in this state…" Kendall said.
"Seriously?" Logan asked.
"You remember the time my dad died when we were five? I tore the entire house apart. And I only stopped when you told me how you felt when your daddy died when you were four…Logie…You're the only one who could calm me down in this state…" Kendall smiled.
"I guess your right…Oh well…Oh Kenny…What's gonna happen if I get that scholarship in Paris? Surely you can't stay depressed when I'm gone…" Logan smiled.
"I don't know…But like I told you earlier today…Our friendship will never die Logie…I mean we've been friends since we were in our diapers…Why end it now? Because your going to be abroad? I don't think so…" Kendall laughed.
"You are so optimistic Kendall…I wish I had that kind of confidence…" Logan sighed.
"You will…" Kendall said. "I believe your going to do such amazing things Logie…I swear…" Kendall smiled.
Logan walked into the apartment with Kendall after the roof fiasco. He noticed that Carlos was no longer in bed. Meaning that he had gone to sleep. It was close to midnight, so he didn't blame Carlos for not going to sleep. Kendall gave Logan a hug as he slowly trudged off. Logan was about to head off to sleep when he heard someone knocking on the door.
"Camille? What are you doing here it's almost midnight…" Logan smiled.
"I needed someone to talk to…" Camille sighed.
"Is there something wrong sweetie?"Logan asked as he took a hold of her and led her to the couch.
"No..Just with Jo gone and everything…I kind of lost my midnight chat buddy…So I thought that you were the next best thing…" Camille explained.
"Well…Since I'm not quite sleepy yet…I guess we can talk for a while…" Logan smiled.
"Thanks…So any word from the prep school in Paris?" Camille asked. As if on cue, Logan's phone began to ring.
"It's the prep school…" Logan whispered.
"You'll do just fine Logie…" Camille smiled.
"Hello…Yes this is Logan Mitchell…Yes…Uh huh…Yes I did apply…Last May…Uh huh…Are you serious? That's awesome! You are not going to regret this decision…Yes…Yes…Yes…Thank you so much Mrs. Foster…" Logan had a huge grin on his face.
"Something tells me that you got in?" Camille smiled.
"Not only did I get in…I got a full scholarship…" Logan said with a twinkle in his eye. "And the best news is…I don't have to leave until September…Since that's when orientation is…" Logan smiled.
"Wow…I get to keep you for the whole entire summer…That is going to be amazing..." Camille smiled. "I'm sure Kendall and Carlos will be psyched as well…"
"Yeah…" Logan shivered.
"What's the matter?" Camille inquired.
"It's so weird not saying James' name in that list…It makes it seem so official…" Logan sighed.
"I'm sorry Logan…I know you and James were best friends in pre-school…I kind of know what your going through…I went through the same thing…" Camille explained.
"Huh?" Logan asked.
"I left one of my best friends back home in New York City when I moved out here to Los Angeles…But I got used to it…" Camille explained. "Although it doesn't mean that I forgot about him…The same applies to your friendship with the guys…Even though half of the gang will be in different parts of the world, you guys will still be best friends…" Camille said.
"I guess your right…" Logan commented.
"Your still unsure about Kendall huh?" Camille asked.
"Yeah…I can't help it Cam…I mean the two of us have never been apart before…I mean we've been friends since we were in diapers…" Logan laughed.
"I know…You tell me that story every time…" Camille laughed.
"I just don't know if I would be the same person if Kendall wasn't in my life…I mean growing up he was the ultimate role model for me. He was popular, good at sports, and was able to get as many girls as he wanted since he was the captain of the hockey team…" Logan explained.
"And you wanted to be like him? Logie…You're your own person…I mean sure you're a nerd…But that's one of the things that I love you for…And I'm sure if you weren't friends with the guys, they would have been in the hospital a countless number of times…" Camille laughed.
"That is so true…" Logan smiled.
"You are a great person Logie…I hope you never forget that…" Camille smiled.
"I won't…Thanks Cam…For helping me with the separation dilemma…" Logan smiled.
"Heck…I know you would do the exact same thing for me if I were in your position…" Camille smiled.
"You know I would…" Logan smiled as Camille brought him in for a breathtaking kiss.
As James shut the door to the taxi, he looked around at his surroundings. He was really doing this… He was going to leave Los Angeles and pursue his dream. James took a deep breath. He opened his phone to see if he had any new messages. But his display picture came up instead. It was a picture of James and Carlos as James was giving Carlos a piggy back ride through the beach. James shook his head. Carlos had a girlfriend now. He had absolutely no right to think about him. James made his way through the sliding doors and sighed.
"Your going to be famous James Diamond…Fight…" James said.
As James walked towards the check-in counter, he noticed that many travelers were heading out. He noticed one gay couple though. The two men were in a passionate lip lock. It looked like the smaller one was going off to fight in the war. James made his way closer to see what was happening.
"I swear to God…If you don't write… I will fly over to Iraq and drag your ass back home…" The taller man ordered.
"Steven…I'll be just fine…I'll be back in six months and then we can focus on what really matters…me becoming Mr. Kevin Porter…" The shorter one said as he kissed him again.
"I'll miss you…" Steven began to say.
"I'll miss you more…" Kevin said as he walked towards security.
James began to feel tears rolling down his cheeks. He couldn't help but feel sorry for this couple. Because this was how he imagined saying goodbye to Carlos would be like. Carlos would accompany him to the airport and the two would promise each other that they would get married when he returned from the movie. It was what James' ultimate plan was. He knew in his heart that Carlos was still the only one for him.
James sat in one of the uncomfortable airport seats. The huge airplane in the window was now pulling up to his gate. James sighed. He opened his phone one last time to see if he had gotten anything from the love of his life. But once again his hopes were drowned.
"Attention all passengers on board American Airlines flight 830 bound to Paris France. Your flight is now boarding…" The woman at the front desk announced.
James slowly got out of his seat and made his way to the gate. He turned back one last time to see if Carlos was anywhere around the airport. James shook his head as a tear made his way down his face.
"Sir? Ate you getting on board the plane?" The kind woman asked.
James nodded as he handed the boarding pass to the woman. As James walked through the doors he knew it was all going to be a new beginning for him. In about 8 hours, his life was going to be changed. And he knew it.