I don't sleep much at all that night. I toss and turn. I can't get him out of my head. I try to make myself stop thinking about him, filling my head with thoughts of Ronald, after all we kind of had something starting before I left, but it is not enough, what was happening with Ron felt nothing like what I am going through now. It's not fair. Who does he think he is, going on dates with girls and then kissing me. I am not stupid, I know he is just playing with me. The man I remember was brave and true, and this version of him, this teenage version of him, is a pratt and a ladies man, trading on the fact that all the girls want him. The fact that I want him. I keep wondering what game he is playing with me, I mean he can't actually be interested in me, not when so many gorgeous girls are falling over his feet, but when we kiss. It feels so real, so amazing and it makes me want more. It makes me want what I can't have.

The other girls start moving in my dorm and I realise that it is morning. I get up and go through to the bathroom. When I look in the mirror I see that I have big black circles round my eyes, no matter what Sirius insinuates I am definitely not beautiful today.

'Don't worry, we can fix those' I startle when I hear those word come from behind me, turning around I realise that Alice has came into the room.

'Didn't sleep that well' I tell her in a light voice, but don't expand on the why, she just shrugs and casts a charm on my face, I look back in the mirror and I look bright as a button.

'Though you might need coffee to make sure you don't fall asleep in class' she glibly remarks.

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'Lily, maybe it's time you give him a chance' Alice tells her.

'He is so immature'

'I think the word you were looking for was sweet'

Lily just glares at Alice

'It was sweet, Lils. Don't you think so Herms.'

'I thought we agreed to not call me that.' I say while buttering a slice of toast.

We are sat in the great hall, and James has just produced a bunch of flowers out of thin air, got down on one knee and asked Lily to go to Hogsmede with him at the weekend. To which Lily rolled her eyes and walked away.

'But your name is soooo long, I can't be expected to say it all at this time of the day.'

I just shake my head and take a bite of my toast.

'And it was sweet, wasn't it' She looks at me and I nod my head.

'No it wasn't, it was childish and humiliating'

'For him, not for you. And it wouldn't have been if you had said yes'

'Yea well I didn't so enough said' Lily told her with finality in her voice. Then she changed the conversation and we made small talk whilst finishing breakfast.

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'Good evening Miss Granger, thank you for coming' Professor Dumbledore said to me when I entered his office.

'Anytime Professor'

He gestures for me to take a seat and I do.

'I suppose you are wondering why I called you here.'

'Yes Sir' hoping that he has found a way to send me back to my own time.

'I am afraid I am about to disappoint you, but I have not been able to find a way to return you to your own time yet, my dear.'

'Oh'

'No I am sorry. I have called you here to see if you have any more information with which to guide me'

'I don't think so, I believe I have told you everything.'

'You say that when you grabbed hold of an object you felt something akin to a portkey?'

'Yes Sir, it was small and oval, smooth.'

'And you have not been able to find it since?'

'No I have looked and looked, but I haven't been able to find it.'

'Do you have any idea why you were brought to this time specifically?'

'No Sir'

'Do you remember what you were thinking when you touched it'

I think back, 'my leg was sore, I had just tripped over a bag or something, so I was thinking, ow, I guess'

'I believe that it is safe to say that that thought had no bearing on how you ended up here'

'What exactly is the thinking behind these questions Professor?'

'I am trying to determine whether the item that brought you here was pre-programmed like an actual portkey or thought activated. Please Miss Granger, think carefully, was there at any point in the run up to you touching this object were you thinking of a particular time frame or period?'

'mmmm,' I think hard, and something comes back to me. 'Actually I do remember thinking about how I wished I was in a different time, something terrible had happened and I, just for a second, wished I was back in a time when things were simpler, when death eaters weren't the great threat they were in my time'

'Ah'

'Do you think that's something Sir, I mean I only thought the thought for a second, and it doesn't really refer to this time period, the death eaters are dangerous, and they are out there killing.'

'Exactly Miss Granger, they are out there, the threat is not so imminent'

'But, they are still a threat'

'Still, this has indeed given me food for thought, though I will need time to think this through.'

'Yes Sir'

'I believe it is getting quite late Miss Granger, and perhaps tonight, more than usual you need your bed, hmm'

I look at him and suddenly feel very exposed, like his piercing blue eyes see right through me.

'Sir?'

'Ah to be a teenager again. Never forget Miss Granger, these years don't last forever, now is the time for impulsiveness and making mistakes.'

'I am a time traveller Sir, I need to be careful in all that I do.'

'Maybe not everything, just enough'

'Sir?'

'Night Miss Granger.'

'Night Sir'