See I didn't keep you waiting too long for the letter. This chapter will mostly be about the letter and her thoughts about it. Thank you all who have read and please leave a review if you are enjoying the story or have any tips for me. Thank you all.

Chapter 4: Mrs. Bensons Letter

Dear Sam,

I remembered to call you Sam… I wanted to reach out to you so many times… but I didn't know how to get you. Frankly I don't think I was ready to reach out to you yet. I know how you were with reading so I am going to make this brief. Well as brief as can be. I want you to know that I have tried to write this letter for the last 6 months. I would sit at my table just staring at the paper. Most of the time I tried it ended the same way with tears and regret.

Sam, I am sorry for not trying harder to be there for you when I know you needed someone. I know that it was you that night on the fire escape. I wanted to go out to you but I was still grieving myself for Fredward. I thought you would still be there in the morning but, you weren't. One of my biggest regrets through all of this was not being there for you. Over the years together I thought of you as a daughter and it was selfish of me to ignore your pain.

I hope that you are still reading because there is a reason that I was able to write the letter after so many months, the laptop. It sat in the same spot in my house for the last several years and 3 weeks ago I opened it up and decided to take a look at what there was on it. I must say that you 3 were really funny and you my dear are extraordinarily gifted. I enjoyed going back and watching those episodes of ICARLY. Makes me wish I watched them when they were live.

I know that when you go through you will eventually come to a section that says DO NOT OPEN. For a few days I couldn't figure out the password. I don't know why but I desperately needed to see what was there! So I went to Computer pro's and they helped me. I went though it and I think that it was actually meant for you some day.

So Sam, I know that my Frediebear loved you. And I know that you loved him. I know that we were not best friends all of the time. But a strange part of me wants us to have a relationship. The one we were supposed to have all those years ago. I can understand if you don't want to and I wouldn't blame you. But if you need to talk I will always be there... and I am not as bad as Freddie made me out to be I was protective but I have a fun side too.

Marissa Benson

PS. The password is 492015 I don't really know what that number is but maybe you know.

I looked at the password and thought about it and knew exactly what that was for. I didn't really think about it I entered it and the file unlocked. I really wanted to know what was on it but I lay back on the bed as it was almost sunrise and thought about what Mrs. Benson wrote me. I never really thought she was so evil she made him the man I loved. Crazy yes overprotective….ABSOLUTLY, but I guess that is what got her through the day. We actually had a few things in common. She loved dominos and no one really knew how to play but I did and we used to have heated battles while Freddie worked on things for ICARLY or a project we needed to turn in…well anyway I tuned back to the laptop and hit the 1st file.

"HA HA PUCKETT! I knew you wouldn't be able to resist, but since you are here let me let you in on a secret… For years I have kept Video Blogs of things I felt were important. And no this isn't a video DIARY. Stop laughing it's NOT!" I actually was laughing he knows me all too well. "Ok I never told you this but I always did this and put the files here on this laptop at my mom's house because I knew if you found it you would probably call me a Nub and beat me up or something. But you know I would have let you win… stop smirking you know I have gotten stronger. I don't think I need to remind you of some of the things you tell me when we are… well…. Ahhh and now you are blushing." God he really did know me too well "Remember this … You will always be my Princess. You can watch if you want to at this point I can't stop you and the recordings go in date order even though this one was 1st it is my most recent entry. Love you Princess."

With that I couldn't watch any of them I just cried. How did he know I would watch this one day? Well he knew me that well I guess he figured one day he would get caught and just made something to show he knew me that well. I leaned deeper into the pillow and closed my eyes, drifting into sleep.

"Please be ok Princess. I need you to be"

I jump out of bed startled I swear I had heard his voice say that, and I don't remember any dream either. What the hell was that? I look at my phone and I have a new email I check it and Nate came through that man is good. When Carly and Elaina get here I need to convince them to go with us… I know that Gibby will be down and Spencer will go.

Flashback

"Man I love the food here" I say. "Sam… you love the food anywhere." Freddie says as he looks at me. Spencer looks at both of us "I have a speech… To ICARLY for years you all have tortured me locked me up, made me eat weird things…. But that's nothing compared to what you guys had done to Gibby, and for that I am grateful. Carly you're the best little sister ever thank you for letting your big bro be involved. Fredman, we had some good times and I am glad you see you have finally got something that you had been looking for, for years. AND SURPRISE ITS NOT CARLY… SAM….Sam ,Sam, Sam… I am glad that I don't have to feed you anymore…. and try not to kill Freddie! TO ICARLY.

We all look at him he was kinda sluring a bit so that little speech must have been the alcohol talking. We all raised our glasses though and toasted. It was after that I made the promise. "Guys 1st one of us to hit it big will take everyone on a cruise. Agreed?" I say and everyone looks at me. "that's not fair you are just hoping for a free trip" Gibby Says. "No I am not I have plans I want to do things with my life." I respond. "So is it a deal 1st one of us to do something big and make it takes everyone on a cruise I mean we always wanted to go somewhere together right?" Everyone looks at each other… "DEAL" they all say

End Flashback

I guess since I am the 1st to make it big I have to be the one to fulfill the deal. Momma always keeps her promises.

"Hey Sam they are here" Mel says from down stairs. "Coming" I responded.

I walked down the stairs and all I can think is

WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT I HEARD EARLIER!

End chapter 4

Sorry it's not the greatest but its leading to things…. Does anyone see what's going on yet….I bet you don't know… I had to have lots of building to get to this point and now is when things really start getting good. Please read and review and I hope you will enjoy where the story is going.