Author's Note: Sorry for the long wait. I've been sick and not feeling well enough to actually sit down and write. But here it is finally. Enjoy!

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I skipped school the next day. I told my mother I wasn't feeling good, which was a lie. I didn't know how to face Roxas. I have never been this depressed about anything this much. It was just something about Roxas even touching another person made my heart drop.

I had never been in love before. I had read a lot of books about a girl falling in love with a boy. There was always jealousy between them. But I didn't ever hear of one of them kissing someone else. Maybe it didn't apply since we were both male?

Maybe I should just forget about everything with Roxas? Go back to my original self and not be in love with Roxas. But I didn't think it would work out as well as I planned. Roxas was pretty stubborn and if he did have a few feelings for me I don't think he would just let me go. He did jump me for my first kiss.

I was so tired of thinking of all this stuff. It was already past two o'clock and I was still in bed. I had only got up a few times to go to the bathroom. I just didn't seem to have the energy to do anything else.

I blame Roxas if I die from starvation. But it wouldn't be the end of the world. If I died then maybe I could finally get Roxas out of my mind. I was being tortured with only thinking of that one boy. It was all kinds of thoughts too.

I had woken up crying this morning. I had already guessed it was because of Roxas even though I didn't remember what I had dreamed about. I was kinda glad that I didn't know my dream. If it was enough to make me cry in my sleep it much have been horrible.

I sighed and shoved my head back in to my pillow. "Why must you torture me!?" I screamed in to my pillow to let out my frustration.

Suddenly my body stiffened. The brushing of the pillow to my lips reminded me of Roxas's. I couldn't help but groan from remembering Roxas's soft lips against my own.

I could feel the heat start to build up in my groin area. I tried to release some of the throbbing pressure by rubbing against my bed. I groaned again as I rocked my body harder.

My hand found its way in to my boxers and around my erection. I slowly started to pump up and down along my fully grown member. My hips couldn't stop from thrusting forward in to my hand.

"A-Ahh… Roxas…" My imagination quickly jumped to the conclusion of Roxas beside me, his own hand inside my pants. His hand went fast along with my moans.

I could feel myself already close to climaxing. Now that I think back, I don't think I had become this close this fast. And I knew that it was because of picturing Roxas doing this to me.

"I-'m coming!" My body arched as I reached my climax.

I pulled my hand out to find it covered in white paste. I was half expecting my hand to be clean and see Roxas drawing his hand out. But of course I wasn't that lucky.

I tried to calm my breathing and heart beat. Picturing Roxas there made my heart beat even faster. I couldn't help but let my tears roll down my cheeks.

Roxas had probably already done this with Axel. And here I was pretending it would happen. I could only curse at myself for falling for such a person that was so out of my league. It would never work between us.

I suddenly heard the door bell ring. Did my mother forget her key? I got up and walked in to the bathroom. I washed my hands, straightened out my night clothes and hair, then made my way to the front door.

"Did you forget your key ag—" I cut off my words when I opened the door. I felt myself blush right away. Roxas.

"It would be wonderful if I had a key." Roxas smiled at his joke but I only turned even redder.

"W-What are you doing here?" I stuttered to have such a pretty boy standing outside my door.

"You were sick today so I came to give you the handouts." He thrust forward the couple papers he had in his hand. They probably weren't important but I still took them.

"Th-Thanks." We stood there awkwardly for a moment before Roxas stoke up again.

"A-About yesterday… with Axel…" He paused. I could feel my heart start to quicken even more when I heard him bring up the incident. "It was a big misunderstanding. Axel is nothing more but a friend. He was just… trying to help me." He didn't make eye contact him me.

"Help you?" Somehow I didn't believe him. No one ever gave me the option of a kiss if I needed help.

"If you let me come in I'll explain the whole thing." I sighed from defeat and motioned him inside. My mother shouldn't be home for awhile hopefully.

Roxas stepped in and took a seat on the couch in our living room. Our house was really really small compared to his but he didn't seem to mind.

"Can I get you something to drink or anything?" I had guessed that he came right from school and my house isn't exactly close. I did kinda feel guilty for making him come all the way over here, but even if he didn't have any papers to give me I had a feeling he would have come anyways.

"No, I'm okay." I nodded and took a seat next to him. I shouldn't have to explain why I didn't sit across from him.

I sat patiently for him to gather his words to explain it to me. Since he already saw that I'm not a really good listener to excuses he really only had once chance at this.

"About the thing with Axel. I had recently told him that I like someone. But then I told him that I was afraid that I wasn't really good with kissing. But I didn't ask him to help me! He just sort of jumped me after school at the wrong time." A slight blush shown across Roxas's face.

"But you aren't!" I blurted it out without thinking. And I immediately regret it when I heard what I said myself. It wasn't a lie or anything. He was a really good kisser in my book.

"What?" He looked over at me. I could already feel my face burning up.

"Uhhh… I mean… that… Ummm…" I didn't really have an excuse. And I couldn't even keep myself calm anymore. My body had that urge to just tackle him and it took everything I had to stop myself.

I tried to think of something to say to him. I was embarrassed to death from what I just said to him. I looked back up again and jumped slightly at him close he had gotten.

My breath hitched in my throat. Oh God I could almost feel the heat of his body from how close he was. And he was still leaning in. Before I noticed anything, I myself was starting to lean in to him.

"Roxas… Wait…" He ignored me and pressed our lips together. Not that I wanted him to do what I said. It just sort of came out.

Holy crap, yes he was a good kisser. My mind became foggy of what he was doing to me. But before I knew it his tongue was already roaming in my mouth.

I grabbed on to his shoulders to help stabilize myself. I felt like fainting from having Roxas kiss me like this. The first one had been far too quick and we didn't progress much. But this kiss was way more satisfying.

We broke with a smack for air. Something that I needed badly. "Ahh… Rox—" I couldn't even finish his name before he was kissing me again.

I could feel his passion and need through the kiss. It was sloppy, with our tongues sometimes getting bitten by the other. I could feel my member start to ache and it came to life.

I knew we had to stop. I was burning with desire and I knew Roxas was too. I broke our kiss quickly to try and talk to him. "Wait Roxas…" But he didn't let me say anything else before his lips captured mine again.

I tried to push him off of me but I seemed to keep pulling him closer. This was so bad. I liked Roxas a lot. But having any kind of sex before we even told each other our feelings not to mention that we haven't even been on a date yet was going way too fast for someone like me.

I freed my lips once again. "Roxas… Please stop… We're going to… fast." He finally realized what I was saying and pulled back.

"I-I'm sorry Zexion." He looked away. I could see that the need in his pants was just as bad as mine. And immediately the thought of earlier when I jacked off to him came to my mind.

"Uhhh Roxas I have something I want to tell you…" I stopped when I heard the click of the front door before my mother walked in to the house.

"I'm back Zexion! Oh, you're here. And your friend is here. Well I'll be going to my room so take your time." She smiled at the two of us.

Roxas stood up. "I think it's about time I go home anyway. I was just checking up on Zexion." He looked at me. "Hopefully I'll see you tomorrow." He walked to the door, trying to hide his erection the best he could from my mother.

He whispered a soft apology from intruding to my mother before exiting my house. My mother looked back at me. "Is that the student you tutor? He's really cute." I rolled my eyes before standing up and heading to my room.

I closed and locked my door behind me, before sliding down to the ground. I was so close to confessing to him. I had finally got the courage and my mother just had to come home.

Now there was nothing else to do but relieve myself of my little problem.