I'd lost track of time of how long that I'd actually been in the hospital for let alone this uncomfortable bed. My bed at the apartment was a hell of a lot more comfortable and it didn't have this gross smell that hospitals specialize in. I looked down at the tray of hospital food that I was given and immediately went for the chocolate pudding.
It was the most delicious tasting thing that I had tasted and it was the one thing right now that had made me even slightly happy. I closed my eyes to think about the events that had brought me to the hospital and also Henry's reaction to it.
After I finished my pudding, I put it back on the tray, and pushed it away from me without causing it to hit anything. I wasn't one to express my emotions let alone verbalize them, but this was just too much.
I remembered the look on Henry's face when he found me. It had caused my heart to rip in two due to the scar that Henry would have to carry in his heart knowing that I was willing to leave him behind. What kind of mom was I if I was willing to selfishly abandon my son once again.
I sat up, hugged my knees close to my chest, and rested my chin on top of my knees. I felt tears stinging my eyes and I shut them to silently wish away this feeling. This was an emotion that I had not felt since Neil had left me and it was a memory that I kept buried deep in order not to feel it again.
As much as I despised the idea of leaving Henry behind and allowing Regina to abuse her power by having me make a speech in front of the entire town, she was right. I knew that she also loved Henry just as much as I loved him. Maybe Regina and I should raise Henry together instead of constantly fighting about who Henry will be better off living with.
Regina could be cold hearted and it made it possible to understand why people feared her, but she was also a woman who loved her son with her whole heart. I saw the way she looked at Henry and how she did truly love him when she said it. I knew that she did a wonderful job of raising Henry all on her own and I couldn't possibly believe what I would've done in her position.
I care about Henry just as much as she does and I want him to be happy. Maybe Henry would be a lot happier with Regina in the end. After all, even if he is my son, I barely know him. I hadn't been in his life for ten years and he still welcomed me into his life.
The more I thought about Regina, the more I had admired her as a person. Even if she did hate my guts right now, I felt deep down inside that she had to have a small amount of trust within me to let me spend time with Henry.
She would say when she got the chance how much she loved Henry and how she was all that she was all that he needed in life.
I felt the utmost respect for her and it felt like that admiration was becoming something a lot more. Could it be that I was actually gaining feelings for a woman who could easily rip my head off? I wasn't sure if I wanted to know the answer.