So hey guys my first fanfiction ever it started as a passion and I hope it continues that way english isn't my first language so please execuse my grammatical mistakes and help ! leave comments and I'll love to keep writing for you
he was embraced with a worm fuzzy hug he desperately needed and he didn't mind to crash down to the floor letting the tears willingly get soacked in his father t chirt he couldn't believe this his biggest worries vanished in the air and he could finally relax knowing he was safe and sound the hug lasted forever and then they were leaning on the impala with john trying to assess his son's wounds sam had a million question in his mind but they can wait .half an hour later sam started shaking getting extremely nervous sewat all over his face, is features were changing from different emotions john couldn't know why until he turned around and found his three friends walking out of that forest two of them badely bruised and the other intact sam was had tears running down his cheeks now he couldn't believe what was happening to him maybe he should have killed them there but how could he they weren't monsters so he spoke trying to get his father attention back to him " dad we need to get away from here they they are dangeorous people " his voice came out like a bare whisper and his dad wasn't listening each moment they were getting closer and closer sam has to do something "dad they tried to kill me we have to go " now that caught john's ears " what no sam they weren't going to kill you I made that pretty clear to them " sam was shoked his brain couldn't understand this everything froze in his place in his eyes even his dad he didn't now what to do what to believe was he hallucinating maybe he was dreaming about all this but it is so vivid it cant be " a strong boy you've got there john you taught him well " sam woke from his troubled state of mind and there he was the man he threated with a gun and run away talking to his father with a smile on his face "well he busted my nose twice " sam noticed another guy and a third " he cut my hand with a knife add to that a broken jaw and a smashed head " what the hell was going sam thaught to himself he wasn't able to figure anything out " wait out guys and stop complaining like fucking girls " sam looked at his father and he never saw the man like this in his life he looked what was the word ammm proud that was it oh no he was definetly hallucinating , john gruffy voice got him back to earth "I take he made it " now sam got it " yes he did , and pretty good too I didn't believe …" he stopped and glanced at Sammy who was now getting away from them "you didn't tell him did you ?" now he was addressing john with angry eyes as sam backed ferther and ferther he couldn't hear his dad's response .
sam now understood that this what he had to endure from both physical and mental hurt and suffering was one of his dad's tests he didn't want to believe that his father will do such thing but he managed to say in a broken voice " da..ad you didn't I mean you couldn't , would you " john finally looked at his son the boy needed some vitamins in his body for sure he was skinny and pale he was going to calm him but someone tried before him it was a practiced hunter and a fellow friend who after a long persuasion agreed to do this for him it was something important in their lives and it was first assingned by men of letters ,a test to make sure someone is good enough to enter the business and start hunting he himself went through it also dean and now it was Sammy's turn even bobby couldn't refuse the idea although he didn't like it but it gave privilege that they can't refuse in their line of work " son I didn't know, I thought your dad might have mentioned it "he glared at john uneasily but sam yelled not giving a rat's ass about the gentle tone " don't you dare call me son , I am not anybody's son " he paused than continuing in a lowere tone "not after tonight anyway" now he had tears running freely on his face he couldn't stop the feeling of guilt after saying those words an hour ago all he wanted was to have his father back now he wasn't so sure about it anmore , but he was angry and betrayed by a close person by his father for goodness sake he didn't know why the man did this to him but he didn't know if he can forgive him or no , "you know I had to do it this way "john was now addressing the man not looking at Sammy anymore but saying "Sam get in the car" sam didn't even bother himself anymore with the talking he wanted to run to get away as much as he can but he was still frozen in his place he hasn't made his mind yet .
one voice from his father was enough to shut all his idea and throw them in the sea "Samuel I said get your ass in the car now don't make me repeat my words" sam didn't even need to think about it this was an order and orders are meant to follow sam learned this the hard way and with major consequences if he choses not to follow so he went to the car in spite all of his anger and he even shut the door with a loud smack that you can hear it a mile away .he saw his father and his attacker which he still doesn't know his name still talking maybe if he wasn't such a drama queen he would've been able to hear them. the man whose name was rick said to john in a gruffy voice "seems that you role your family with iron fists " john replied shrugging "if that meant saving their lives " the man wasn't questioning like others "I know what you mean I have a son too he's maybe older than yours and it is hard to make him complain these days " now john was surprised he hadn't seen kids been raised like his and he was thinking about getting to know the guy further they kept talking for a while getting to know each other and he was invited to the men's house any time he wanted . they shook hands and then everyone went in his own way john was now in the impala driving while sam was long long sleep seems that the kid didn't get enough rest in a couple of days .they arrived at the house and john was looking at his son every five minutes with guilt squirming in his chest but there was no other way he was so proud of the kid he honestly didn't think he'll survive this long and cause that damage he practicely was able to defend himself against three trained hunters actually two but still he was only 16 now all he has to do is to fix his son's injuries and forget all of this . but that was easier said than done .
sam woke up in a strange place he was lying down on a sofa he felt threatened and was in defense mode in instant he grabbed a gun from the counter right beside him and was next to the door waiting for the kidnapper to arrive he was trying to remember what happened when someone walked in "raise your hands !"john was surprised at the effect of these nights on his son he didnt know if he should be worry or glad " sam it is me son you can relax" sam laid down his weapon and a mix of emotions were riding his face he should be happy he was safe but his father was the one who caused him the harm in the first place why should he trust the man now "relax " he stopped midsentence than continued "you want me to relax funny because the last time I did that I got hunted by three men in a forest " john wasn't about to hear crap from his son they need to get this behind them and move on "watch it boy I had to do what I had to do and that's it this experience is made to toughen you up just like it did with your brother, so suck it up "john knew that was hard harder then he intend it to be but if he was going to protect his kids he needs them strong and that's what that experience did even if he was forced to do it , john couldn't handle the hurt look on his son's face it was killing him showing all the mistakes he did but the words that come out of the boy's mouth hurted more "I thought about killing them dad" and sam broke into tiny little peaces john held him in his arms whispering words of comfort " son but you didn't and that what matters you shouldn't feel guilty at all you defended yourself and I don't doubt that you were able to finish them all but you made the right decision and you showed them mercy now things weren't supposed to happen this way but you survived and I am proud of you" john never said a speech this long but he needed to help his son go through this it was different with dean the hunters community wasn't that strict he was able to train dean without their supervision but now they had his son in their custody the week sam was being tested and if he interfeared things were meant to get ugly so ugly and he couldn't risk that .
sam felt relieved after that he allowed his father to do his stitches and the broken bones "sam report " now back to business as always with the winchesteres " yes sir " sam scanned himself sensing where he has the most pain and the worse injuries than he spoke " dislocated risght a broken hand two broken robs severe cuts all over my body two on my head an infection in my leg a terrible headache a slight concussion that what I can identifie now "he said taking moving areas of his body whimping every time pain stroke him john was stunned at the amount of injuries his son was suffering from he needs hospital but they can't afford the attention so sam has to make with his father medical expertise and from past experience it was going to be a long painful night " okay take off your clothes and lay down on the sofa for me " sam complaid instantly galde to remove everything bloody of him .john started with the broken and dislocated bones it took him nearly two hours to finish with a lot of screams and moans even with the alchohol in his system sam felt the pain they had to move on to the broken ribs sam wasn't able to breath properly during all the operation he didn't even had the chance to relax ,john was trying to be as gentle as possible because these ribs hurts like a bitch he himself knows that but he can't give the kid a break at least not now there is still a lot to fix "dad please stop " sam was trying to move from his dad's touchethat caused him more pain he was out of breath begging his father to show mercy " sam come on we need to finish this " sam was shaking his head he cant take anymore but nevertheless he obeyed getting in position again closing his eyes taking more shots of whiskey as his father continued , john took care of all the broken ribs and now there was still the cuts he stitched them all with a lot of resisting from sam but he finshed the job as clean as he could be he gave his son some antibiotics for the infection and then he watched as he went in sleep looking so peaceful so innocent except he wasn't , not anymore.
John gave sam some time to heal luckily he didn't have a broken bone but structured one so it didn't take long before it healed completely, john was planning now on taking sam to hunts with him not major ones but enough for his son to learn how things go on , sam had a little experience but clearly this was whole new level his job before was to keep guard and watch his brother and father's backs but now he might have to kill evil with his own hands and he has to keep his father alive it was a big burden and he knew the consequences for his slacking no more dean to save the day no more I'll do better next time he is responsible for lives and he has to be up for this responsibility he's going to have a huge weight on his shoulder it is not fair but that's a Winchester life and he's to accept it no matter how much it hurts and how much it costs .he was now searching a hunt nearby strange murders were happening all victims were past abused kids who are now living in new families this case was vairy important and dangeorous two it was definetly a ghost and they managed to locate it ." old man who used to beat his grandchildren after their parents died in a crash , he died two years ago and the kids are now in new homes two of them were dead and there is only one ,I think he's targeting him" john was amazed at his son's skills sam would do research better than anyone he even helped bobby many time he gave the kid a smile and said in his casual voice "good job Sammy, now we need to find the body it might be in the town's gravery ,we'll be heading late tonight , I want you to set everything and get some rest " he then fixed sam with astern look he needed the boy to be in his top shape he then left the room .
Sam prepared everything as his dad ordered him to do ,he didn't like to think about what happened in the forest he pushed the experience from his head as mich as he ccould but in times like these when he was alone he would start to panic to shake violently and tears would strike dowwnw his sheeks it wasn't the injuries that pained him most it was the trauma thinking about his father as a dead man an then finding out that he was alive and he actually allowed some guys to track him down like a wild animal and they were about to kill him he couldn't understand his father motives nor he asks him anything he just assumed that his father was planning on toughening him up and if he wasn't worth it well …. Sweat was forming on his forehead his hands were shaking he was hugging himself again pulling his knees and rocking back and forth until he finally gave up to sleep sitting uncomfortably in the corner of the room . john came later about an hour later watching his son's condition he appeared so wracked and broken , john lifted him and placed him in his bed ,he then sat beside him watching him closely finding comfort in his breathes and sensing a rhythm in the ups and downs of his chest it gave him some peace in his messy life it is been a while since john actually stopped and took a look at his son who now looked terrible with black circles under his eyes , pale skin, marks of cuts all over his face and neck , and most of all he was constantly moving his head ovecely pushing the night mares away he wasn't doing well though "sam son you need to wake up come on let me help you" the moment john's hand made contact with sam's body he woke jerking away from the touch skanning warely his sorroundings searching for any signes of danger or threat , a knife in his hand the other going under the pillow to grab the gun "son you need to calm down it is me you're safe " john couldn't help but to think in spite of his worry over the boy how much sam changed he was more vigilant more like a soldier a hunter sam eased a little after his father words but stood nevertheless eyeing the man suspiciousely he didnt trust him anymore but he complaid obeyed did what he was supposed to do in fear of his father leaving him keeping him away from his brother he hadn't talked or dared to talk to him for 2 months he could accaisionely hear his voice when his father called him but that was it " I am never safe not even with you,…. sir "john didn't know what to rely at that he knew the kid would take some time before he could build the trust again sam wasn't arguing anymore or challenging his authority which worried john the most sam was afraid of him it wasn't due of respect and love for him no it was something deffrent something intense and deap only sam knew but for now they have a mission, lives to save .
Sam spoke first "I prepared everything for the hunt we should go now "john was relieved the odd conversation ended just fine "okay let's go" the hunt went as ordinary as it could possibly go they burned the corpse sam digged the grave with his father they cleaned the traces and went back home sam was drained of every will and force he went straight to the bathroom seems that his dad didn't min waiting twenty minutes but he was wrong "next time sam the older one gets in first " sam smiled at that his father seemed rationalizing like kids in his eyes " yes sir " said sheerfully ," amm dad I was asking if you'll let me speak with dean just for once " john knew the first moment sam called him dad that he was asking for this he didn't have it in his heart to say no but that doesn't mean sam is getting what he asked the easy way "when we complete 2 other hunts "sam wasn't that happy about it he needs to talk to his brother hear his voice his jokes and nasty comments he missed them a lot " k " he didn't have the energy to say more he was disappointed "execuse me !"sam didn't mistaken that tone " I mean yee…..es sir "he said it the most lazy sound he could ever make and that definetly pushed his father ferther "young man front and center "sam jumped at the excess force behind the words so he straightened his back and stood in attention "it seems that you forgot who you're dealing with I am your father" sam wanted to comment at that and a big time he wanted to yell and let everything out he wanted to scream his lungs out but he wont he's too tired to do so "damn it answer me boy " john was furious sam could tell so he said "what do you want me to tell you dad " he was pleading eyes now wishing he kept his mouth shut earlier and accepted what his dad offered him " okay how about 100 pushaps and sit ups , cleaning the guns , writing down some well shosen words of you since you have a lot these days and let's add to that reciting the standard exorcisem 15 times to think about what you want to tell me , I am heading the shower now you can begin" sam couldn't even believe how things went down dratastically in seconds"da..d!" he said uncertainly but his dad was already by the bathroom he was stunned shocked he mumbeled something under his breath while doing his punishement .
He was all sweaty by the time he finished the puhshups and sit ups but he still have a lot to finish he has to write something for his father and it should be good or he'll do it again 100 time his dad came out of the shower when he was beginning the writing john didn't even bother looking at his son he knew the kid must be looking terrible the hunt was weary enough add to that his punishement this night was going to be long , sam gave the paper to his dad who looked satisfaid enough it took him an hour to finish and his father said easily " now rip them apart one after the other " " !" he looked at john expactnatly like he was waiting a confirmation but all he got was a stare daring him to question more to go harder on him so he did as was told and each paper he ripped hurted him for some reason he spent a lot of times wrting thme now his dad was making him to tare them apart with his own hands exhaustion and pain were willing tears up in his eyes but he pushed them keeping a hard mask on his face not to show any emotion "now put them in the fire and go clean the guns " sam watched as the paper burned then his dad allowed him to continue to the guns it took him two hours and a half to finish all of them the way his dad liked and insisted on .now there was still one thing to do and it is the easiest thing or so he thought.
he quikely got dressed in a sweaty and a t shirt and went to his room. He sat there and recited the exorcisim 15 times flawlessely from memory he was just in bed when john walked in " what are you doing I tolde you to do the exorcisim 15 times."
"I did sam insisted""yeah right no one could do it that I doubt you did perfectly"
"but dad I did you weren't here to tell "
"don't argue with me sam you already showed me disrespect once tonight you want to do it again"john barked
Sam flinshed at his father words he didn't want to cause his father any ore dissapointement "exorcisamus te.."
"exorCIsamus te " john corrected
Sam ground his teeth .his mouth felt toungue tied from saying the same words over and over again 15 times already so he cleared his throught and started again "exorcisamus te omnis imoondus spiri.."
"immundus sam"john shook his head "yeah" he scoffed "you did it 15 times already
Sam started to shake he didn't know was but he was "exorCIsamus te omnis immunus spiritus ,omnis incursi"
" you forfot omnis satanica potestas , do you need a copy to look at" john asked clearly annoyed
"no " sam groweled, he took a deap breath and started again not to miss anything" exorcisamus te omnis imoondus spiritus omnis incursi omnis satanica potestas omnis incoursiouinfernaliss adversialy omnis legio omnis congergatio et sacta biolitica …." Sam continued no errors and smiled when he finished he looked at his father
"great " he said sarcastically "it only took you 4 tries"
" I had already done it once …" sam pointed it out
John sighed "yeah! Right "there was acouple of seconds of silence before he shouted "what are you waiting for ! 14 times to go! "
By the time sam was done it was 1 in the morning he was swaying on his feets and he felt like death warmed up
"you can go to bed now " john didn't look tired at all " I want you ready at 5 to continue training
Sam Stared at his father rediciously " dad..!"
" for goodness sake sam . what !" sam stood there for a second, his vision blurry from the exhaustion his feets swelling and his body aching from the days events and from standing still at his father attention for two glared at his son begging him to give him a reason to go harder and harder.
Sam sagged and said" nothing"
John shragged and left the room no good night or good job son nothing sam fell to his bed a single tear fell down his face before he fell instant asleep…