Chapter 4: So alone again

"In situations like this-" Xion quietly adds, "I like to shop..." pause, "Lift."

"But you don't understand!" Namine complained yawning, "I-I have- I have...have..." She starts running her head in very slow circles as her head bobbed down and she staretd to drown into sleep.

"Whatever might you mean?" I ask in an fake oblivious tone.

I was following Sora in the halls, after school had ended and after everyone was gone, Sora finally dared to be seen with me, well, no one was really there, so you get it. I had a stupid session right after school which irritated me, for not being able to finish my homework.

Sora glared down on me, "You don't get it. You're some kind of alien." He grunts.

"You would know, you are one..." I retort, opening the door to the asylum that was usualy closed off during school for set up. "Hi Zexion!" I immeadiatly wave at him, and he smiles.

I could hear Sora mutter something un-intelligent behind me but I tried to ignore it for right now. I sat down in the corner where the couch was. The annoying brunette sat before me.

"So, " He sighed shuffeling through his stack of papers, "What are we talking about today?"

"Despite you humiliating me and making me look like an complete idiot to ruin my reputation because you're a beast, I'm fine....that's all." I smiled tilting my head.

"If you were less insecure then you would know, then you could deal with it all." He nods.

"You're the problem though! Okay?" I was ready to jump on him and shake him by the collar.

"So? This is my job, I ask questions and I get paid." He simply shrugs.

Snapping like this is what I usually do, do not gasp at what I'm about to do.

"HEY! GET THE HELL OFF OF ME! NOW!" Sora screams underneath me as I do, shake him by his collar, up down, up, down, searious workout here.

"Outside of this stupid 'job' of yours! You're the problem! You're the one! I don't have to explain myself to you now! Your fault!" I shout in his face until someone managed to drag me off.

Sora just looked at me, holding his head, "You freak..." He quietly adds.

My eyes pierce up with rage."Let me at him! He deserves it! That bastard!" I scream as I was held back, kicking my legs up.

"You need to calm down." Zexion's voice whispered in my ear.

I switly turn around to face him. "You know what he does to me! You heard it! Seen it! Why are people so stupid?! Can't they see that he is the one doing this to me? Do you think I want to cope with that over there?!" I point down towards Sora, who was getting up, standing still, taller than I was.

"I would prefer having some hotter girl to interview anyways, I don't want you to come to me for your problems." Sora glanced back at me.

"Well I don't want you either!" I stomp down my foot and cross my chest, turning my back towards him.

What an idiot.

"Prepare to..." I say quietly and turn around, "to...DIE!" I scream and was about to wrestle him to the ground when someone held me back once more.

"She did WHAT now?" Aerith shouts worrying and looking me over again and again. "Why did you do that, hon?" She asked, placing a hand on my shoulder.

"I am in no condition to talk to him about my problem, if he is the one causing them! I hate him! I don't want to have anything to do with him!"

Aerith frowned, "But you two were such good friends before everything, don't you remember?"

"Well, that was before he turned out to be an complete idiot and jerk! He's evil!" I scream more and sink down into my chair.

"We just don't know what to do with you anymore." Aerith burried her face into her hands, preparing to sob.

"Don't worry, we have someone who is interested in caring for Kairi Sana." The director said, I hated it when people used my last name. It doesn't make them mature or anything.

I listened to them talking, balancing a pencil on my finger, they were annoying, everyone was so annoying.

He used to understand, but now he just doesn't know me like that anymore at all. He turned into such a jerk. I used to be able to talk to him with ease. But not anymore.

"Honestly, Miss little Sana here, obviously doesn't know how to keep her cool anymore." Sora interrupted, leaning against the frame of the door.

"Can you explain to me, what happened between you two that made Kairi flip everytime she see's you?" The director asked.

Sora sighed and fell to the floor, proping his elbow on his knee he slowly spoke.

"We were friends. I guess we just drifted apart. That happens you know, you meet a person, you talk to them, they're your best friend, and all of a sudden, something as simple as a little phrase can break that apart. 3 words changed it. And I accepted the change."

"But I never did." I say between my teeth.

"Why? You're the one who said those 3 words!" Sora exclaims, jumping up.

"You made me say them!" I burst out in shrill noises.

"I didn't make you do anything!" He yells back at me.

"You know what you did!"

"What the hell are you talking about? You don't know, do you? Explains what kind of nutcase you are!" Sora yells at me with rage.

I stopped in place, head down towards the floor. Fists balled up on my sides, and my legs shaking. I had to say it.

"I HATE YOU!"

A knock on my door, brought my head to shoot up.

But the voice made me dig back into my sheets again.

"Kairi, come on, get out of that room already. You're going to miss dinner." She tried convincing me.

"Leave me alone." I groaned softly into my pillow.

I could tell that she was struggeling to knock on my door, but she soon gave up and left my door to walk downstairs.

Can't theye tell that I am broken, that I'm in a woken dream.

I guess it's just another night alone.