Of cause, I don't own the Divergent story or the characters I just love to write about it
I feel my body swaying as I begin to open my eyes. I see Uriah face as he looks down at me with a smile.
"We've got this Tris, go on and do what you do best." He says
"And what would that be?" I manage to croak out before shutting my eyes again
"Passing out and leaving me to clean your mess up" I hear him say as he lets a laugh leave his lips freely as I let myself go again.
When I wake again I can see the moon sitting high in the night sky. I let out a groan as I roll over.
"Beatrice" I hear the soft voice of my mother.
"Mum" I could barely hear my own voice as I spoke, I clear it and am about to try again, but my mother has her arms around my neck hugging me tightly.
"I'm so sorry for leaving you in there Beatrice" She says, as she try's to hold her sobs in.
"Like you had any choice, Patton would have killed you if you didn't go with her that day" I said as i pull her up so I could see her face.
"I love you mum," I say as the door opens and my farther walks in.
"Beatrice! You're awake!" His voice holds so much emotion in it, but he makes sure it doesn't reach his eyes.
"Dad" I whisper and we embrace in a hug as he sits down on the bed besides me.
"How are you feeling darling?" My mother asks me as she touches my leg.
"I feel good, actually I can't feel anything from the waist down on my right side." I say to them as I lift to blanket to check my legs are still there. My parent's laugh, and my father open's his mouth to speak.
"At least we know the pain medicine works," My father says. I'm unsure if it's to my mother or me, but either way I smile and lean my head on his shoulders as I drift back to sleep.
The next time my eyes open, the first person I see is Uriah. I pull myself up.
"Haven't I seen enough of you over the past two years?" I say as I roll my eyes at him.
"Hey, I came to break the bad news to you" He begins in a very serious voice. My heartbeat jumps as I think of the thousand of things that could have happened over night.
Erudite solders breaking through the fence coming to drag us back.
"Yo Tris, seriously! All your attention has to be on me, you need to know what has happened" Uriah says as he takes a breath in. "The cake here, its not as good as the one they made at Dauntless." His face has broken out into a massive smile and he is trying to hold in a laugh but its not working.
"I hate you Uriah." I yell as I pick my pillow up from behind my back and hit it over his head. He stanches the pillow from my hand and begins hitting me with it lightly, I put my heads up over my head to try to stop the blows but its not use my body is heavy with pain medicine and all I manage to do it laugh.
"Sometimes Tris, your facial expressions are what make my day" He squeezes out through his laughter.
"Stop it, I need to go to the bathroom." I say to him through laugh.
"I'll get the nurse" Uriah says as he drop the pillow on my head and gets up and exits the room.
I pull the pillow from my head, brush the hair from my face. Its the first time I think to look around the room. Everything it white and glossy. The floors, the furniture, window... there's a door on the fair end of the room, a long couch underneath the window, with a coffee table sitting in front of it.
Uriah and the nurse enter the room just as I throw the blankets back on the bed.
"Huh, still going to be stubborn and act alone are we?" The nurse says to me as she looks at the screens with me vitals on it. I've seen this women before, she has blonde hair, pinned into neat bun on the back of her neck, her hands claps in front of her and suddenly it hits me. Susan!
"Susan!" Her names slips from my lips, I can feel a touch of a smile on the edges of my mouth.
She turns to me, a smile spread wide across her face.
"Tris, I can't believe it." She says to me as she wipes tears from her eyes. "I've never been so happy to see someone rise from the dead in my life." Her tone in high, trying to hide the emotions in her voice. I notice she carriers herself in the same manner she did in Abnegation, but her personality has changed. She is acknowledging her emotions, not just mine.
"Uriah tells me you need to use the bathroom?" She questions me.
"Ah.. yeah" I say, dropping my gaze slightly. I've gotten us to being watch at every moment of my life, but I held on hope that my time in the bathroom would be private.
"I'm sorry but I'll be going in there with you, you cant be weight baring on that leg yet and I know you like to push your limits" Susan replies.
"Wow Susan" I laugh as I shake my head, "You sure have changed since the last time we spoke"
Susan gives me a small smile, but there is sadness in her eyes, "A lot change in such a short amount of time, my attitude change, I think it was away to help me accept and move on from that chapter of my life." Susan speaks to me softly.
I don't know what to say, I look down at my hands in my lap, entwining my fingers. Moved on? I repeat the words over and over in my mind, beginning to feel unsettled.
"Ok, lets get you off to the bathroom Tris" Uriah breaks through the silence. "How about I just carrier her and then you can help her in the bathroom Susan?" Uriah says as he walks to the right side of the bed, opposite Susan.
"Hmm, that seems like a good idea actually" Susan says to Uriah. "Just left her legs slowly and when you place her down, please be gently and don't let her weight go until I tell you to, ok?" Susan tells Uriah. who just stares back, with a small smirk on his face.
"Stern, I like it" He says back to her, as he slide one arm under my knees and the other across my shoulders.
Uriah lifts me slowly, I wrap my arms around his neck, trying to hold some of my weight. We head towards the bathroom, Susan opens the door, allowing us is.
The bathroom has a shower in one corner and a toilet across from it, along with a sink positioned next to the toilet. There is a small window, spread long under the room, letting in a large amount of light.. or maybe its a normal amount, but I haven't been around natural elements for so long.
"You alright?" Uriah asks as he stops in front of the toilet and begins to lower me down.
"Yeah fine, a little dizzy though" I say as i reach out a hand towards the wall, but Susan grabs my hand and allows me to put all my weight onto her. I give her a small smile, I'm not use to this... allow others to do things for me.
"Ok Uriah, place her feet down slowly, but don't let all of her weight go back yet, try to keep your hands on her waist and ill support her top half while we get her positioned correctly and then you can leave" Susan says sternly again. Her lips are pressed into a straight line and her eyebrows pulled in close together.
I feel my face getting hotter as Uriah's hands slide down my body and press tightly around my waist. We are close, but we've never touch or held each other life this before.
"Ok Tris, I need you to turn slightly towards the shower so that your back is facing the toileting completely, be sure to only place the ball of your right foot on the ground, I don't know how much weight you will be able to handle right now." Susan speaks again, never taking her eyes from my body.
I do has she says, leaning into her as I press the ball of my right foot into the ground. I wince at the pain that shoots through my leg, pulling away slightly.
"You're doing well, just a few more inches and we will be in the right position." Susan speaks again.
Sweat beings to build in my hands and on the back on my neck. I've barely done anything but my body feels weak already.
Finally, I'm in the right position and Uriah lets me go. He leave the room quickly, saying he will wait outside for us when we are ready.
I peak up at Susan, she is still watching every moment I make, but this time she offers me a small smile.
"I know this is going to make you uncomfortable but I'm going to have to help you throughout the entire process, ill help you sit down and stay while you finish and then assist with helping you freshen up." Susan says in her stern tone again.
I cant help but laugh once again before saying "You know, your nurse tone is amazing, its makes me forget about how awkward I feel about needing help with my private acts and also that we grew up together and know each other well" I say the last part slowly, I feel as though I should have said knew, instead of know.
Susan gives me a smile before linking her arm underneath my right and helping me lean back slowly onto the toilet. I let out a sigh on relief as all my weight in taken from my legs and I feel as though I can breath again.
Susan turns around, allowing me a little bit of privacy as I use the toilet. As i finish, i reach for the toilet paper. Susan must hear the ripping of the paper as she peaks over her shoulder before saying "Are you sure you don't need me to help?"
I feel my face go bright red... I think I can handle this one myself. "No no, I think I can manage this one myself, I'll let you know if I need you though" I reply.
"Ok, could you help me stand now?" I ask to Susan.
Susan walks towards me, slipping her arm under mine again, and on three we slowly stand.
Susan calls out to Uriah, who opens the right away. Clearly he's been listening to the conversation through the door to make sure everything's ok.
"Bladders all empty Tris?" Uriah says with a big grin.
I roll my eyes at him, "Just give me your hand" I say flatly as I put out my left hand and prepare myself to walk.
"We will turn slowly and head for the sink, I think we should wait for the doctors to give us the all clear before you have a warm shower." Susan says.
They both help me turn and head towards the sink, I wince at every movement I make. My body aches everywhere, not just my injured leg.
Susan grabs a cloth and throws it in the sink as Uriah turns on the water. I remove my hand from Uriah and Susan and place them on the sink.
I let the water warm up before I slip my hands in and under the water, it feels nice against my skin. I cup my hands, bending at the waist and throwing the water over my face, a sigh slips from my lips as i throw another handful of water over my face.
I grab the washer and begin to wash my face, neck and hands.
Uriah's hands have slipped back to my waist, holding me steady. I smile at him softly in the mirror. I notice Susan's eye darting between us both, I quickly drop my gaze back to the water in the sink and squeeze out the washer. The water turn a light brown before circling the drain.
I look back to the mirror, avoiding Uriah's eye this time. I stare intently at myself, my hair has grown, it is almost the length it was when I left Abnegation, it hands heavy on both sides of my face. I run my fingers through it as I try to get some of the knots out of it, but it doesn't work.
"I think we better get you back to your bed Tris, I'm sure the doctor will be coming to see you anytime now and we can get you into the shower and have a proper wash this afternoon" Susan breaks the silence that has fallen over us.
"Ill head down and get you something to eat." Uriah says as he places me back onto my bed.
"Thanks" I say as I pull my gown back and inspect my wound. My skin is a dark purple around it, but there's a white bandage over the top of where the bullet must have entered my skin.
"They removed the bullet easily last night, you don't have any nerve or tissue damage, but it will take some time the heal if you don't take it slow Tris" susan answers the questions I haven't even thought of asking yet.
"Thanks" I say, as I brush my fingers over the bandage.
"You have some people who would like to see you, but I will only let them in if I believe you are up for it, its going to be very emotional and physically draining for you to go through this" Susan speaks again. She's matured so much, her understanding of human needs has me in awe.
"Who..." the word slips from my mouth before i ready for it to, my voice comes out high pitched and I barley hear myself speak.
"Your family for one, but your friends have been outside in the waiting room since you and Uriah arrived." Susan answers my question, but withholds the name for some reason.
My mouth goes dry, I'm not sure I'm ready for this... I didn't allow myself to think about this moment, I didn't believe we'd ever make it back.
"It's been a big shock, to everyone" Susan speaks suddenly, as she sits on the end of my bed, reaching out a hand, and placing on top of mine. "It may take some time for everyone to get use to the idea that everything we were told over the past 2 and so years was somewhat of a lie, your parents are alive, as are you and Uriah... it seems that divergent's are still being tracked down and killed and well Tris... the war looks to be starting over again" Susan says with a heavy sigh.
I'm about to reply when I hear a deep laugh outside my door and without knocking, in walks Uriah, two muffins in one hand and bottle of water the other. He stops at the doorway, half of his body blocked by the door, his eyes are serious but there's a grin spread across his face.
"Tris, there's a few people out here wanting to see you, you think you're ready?" Uriah says, his grin still big across his face but his eyes are still hard, set on me like stone.
I give a weak smile, "I think i am manage" I say softly. I have no idea who is waiting for me... but I know I may break if Tobias isn't one of them.
Uriah steps out of the way of the door, walking towards my bed and placing the muffin and water on my bedside table.
Christina walks in first, then Zeeke, and lastly Cara. As much as I am pleased to see my old friends, I cant help but feel a stab of pain as I realise Tobias isn't with them.
"You really need to stop this whole almost dying thing Beatrice" Christina speaks first. She has a smile spread so wide across her face that I almost don't notice the tears streaming down her face. She rushes towards me, throwing her arms around my neck, almost landing in my lap.
A small laugh comes out of my mouth, "Trust me, I tried so hard to come back... but I wasn't strong enough." I whisper into her hair, it smells of fresh soap and rain. I feel a tear run down my face.
"We've missed you Tris." She says with so much emotion I feel she would break down completely right there.
"I missed you all too," I say as I up at the others, "You have no idea how bad its been other having Uriah for company the past few years" I say with a laugh as I throw a smile in his direction.
We all sit in silence for a while, everyone's gathered around my bed, exchanged hugs and a few awkward smiles towards each other... unable to find the right words to speak. Truthfully, I'm grateful for it because I honestly haven't thought about the things I would say to everyone once we got back, just like i never allowed myself to think Uriah and I would ever get here.
Christina finally breaks the silence again, her hands clamped together in her lap.
"Tobias wasn't here when you and Uriah were brought in, he has been helping out with training the under kids in combat skills…" she says as she avoids eye contact.
"Ahh." Is all I manage to get out.
So he doesn't even know I am here, that I am alive. He doesn't know Uriah and I have been kept against our will at Erudite and that we have been tortured everyday for two and a half years and my parents, oh god.
''Whose going to tell him?" I whisper to words as I look out the window.
"His mother, we all thought she would be the best person to break this news to him" She says softly as she turns her head to face mine.
"How much do you know?" I turn and ask her.
"Not much, I mean we all know that your parents are alive, you and Uriah never actually died when we thought you did… but we are still trying to work out how it actually happened" Her eyebrows pull together and she pushes her lips into a straight and hard line.
"We only found out about your parents two days ago, but they didn't say anything about you and Uriah" Zeeke speaks for the first time.
I don't mention the idea I have about how Patton manage to get us to come across as dead, it don't want to talk about my death. It's all I've been living for far to long. Thankfully I no longer need to try and change the subject because the door swings opened and I see my parents walk in who are closely followed by Evelyn.
"We're very sorry everyone but we need to speak to Tris and Uriah privately" My father spoke, so gently and soft I almost have to ask him to repeat his words.
"Can Zeeke stay? He is my family after all" Uriah states sternly, arms crossed over his chest. Something in the way he looks at Evelyn makes me feel unsettled, like he already knows something bad is going to happen.
"Why yes, of cause he can stay Uriah" My mother answers him with a sweet smile.
"Ok, I'll see you later Tris." Christina says gives me another hug and walks out the door.
I sit up straighter and put down my muffin as I look up to all three of them. I feel like a child who has done the wrong thing and has been sent to the principal's office at school.
"Tris," I hear Evelyn speak my name and step forward. "Your parents have tried to fill in as much of the gaps as needed but well it may not surprise you that we are still very confused and also concerned with how this could have happened to you all."
"So you are here to find out our side of the story?" I say sternly, I didn't mean for the words to come out the way they did but even the idea of explain what has happened to me makes my hear race.
"Well, yes," Evelyn begins with a heavy sigh. "But we need you and Uriah to both do it under the truth serum." My head snaps up at her.
"You want us to do what!" I yell at her suddenly. Uriah gives snort and walks towards the window.
"Beatrice, don't raise your voice." My father speaks to me in a disapproval tone, I guess his Abnegation rules still runs within him. My mother steps in front of Evelyn and sinks down to my eye level.
"Beatrice, honey." She said slowly. I've never heard my mother call me honey before. "Your father and I did it when we first got here, the questions are difficult to answer but you can do this." Your voice is full of strength when she finishes; she thinks I can do this. She thinks because I got through the last 2 years that I can get through answer questions honestly without breaking, but I cant.
"You and Uriah will be asked to do it in 2 days, we all decided it would be best you both begin to feel comfortable before putting you under the influence of it."
Evelyn says as she steps to the right so I can see her.
"How thoughtful of you all." I say emotionless. "Is that all?" I ask finally looking at Evelyn.
"Well, no." she says as she crosses her arms across her chest. "My son, Tobias is back from training the younger children and I informed him in on the actions that have occurred within the last few weeks." Her voice is low and concerning but her eyes hold strong as she looks at me.
"Oh." Is all I say to her.
"He is waiting outside, if you wish for him to come in when we leave." I can't even answer, I can't think straight.
He knows I'm alive... he is waiting outside my door, waiting to see me? My heart begins to race and I can feel sweat building all over my body. I feel my mother kiss my forehead as they turn to exist the room. I hear my mother speak to someone as she closes the door.
"Be gentle, she's in as much shock as you" and with that I see Tobia walk into the room.