WARNING! CHILD ABUSE AND CHILD RAPE are in this chapter! skip if this will overly upset you! If you or someone you know is being abused or raped call your local authorities and get them out! it is never okay for this to happen to anyone!

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or ballet

Chapter 4

When I came to I was in a cement room lying on a cot, well I say lying but it was more as if I had been thrown on it. The door banged against the wall making me jump slightly before a familiar smell from another life hit me, alcohol. This guy who had supposedly just adopted me was drunk and really really ticked off from what I could see. "Trying to help the demon is she, traitor to the leaf. That's what she is, I'll teach her how we treat traitors!" I readied my warmth to cushion any punches or kicks that he may throw at me when I felt my face turn white, he had a whip. He was going to whip a 3 year old! How did this guy get past the screening process?! Then I realized, the Matron had waited for a guy like this, she had wanted this as I had been an adoption candidate for many different families and she had always told them no.

As the guy strung me up by my wrists I stared blankly as he cut my shirt off, I tried to cushion the blows with my warmth when I heard, "No cheating with your chakra!" Then he slapped something on me that locked up my warmth, apparently called chakra, causing me to start struggling in panic, I didn't know it could be taken away! It was mine! I needed it! "Stop struggling you demon slut! You don't deserve chakra! You're just lucky I don't know how to permanently seal it away otherwise you would never be able to use it again!"

I slumped and deliberately didn't tense up as I knew that tensing up would cause any and all strikes to hurt worse, so when the first strike hit I cried out as a whip struck me for the first time in my new body. Things escalated from there. It was whips one day then beatings the next until I was five years old when the, touching started. It always starts with touching then it moves to biting and heavy 'petting', then fingers where they shouldn't be and then the full on violation and rape. It was my worst nightmare all over again. I couldn't believe it, I leave behind one world where I am used and abused by the people I should be able to trust just to be put into a new world where the same exact thing happens all over again, just, worse. My former stepfather had raped me but he had never forced his cock into my mouth, nor had he stuck any fucking nipple clamps or sold me to disgusting men who wanted to join in on the 'fun'. I was utterly and completely humiliated day after day. I lived for the days where he went on missions for days on end. I was thankful that he at least didn't tell these depraved men my name and always kept my face covered up with a dark cloth bag.

He always hated that I never made a sound after that first time and would tell whoever he brought that I was drugged to sleep for the whole time so that they could do whatever they wanted to me. Which meant anything and everything was done to me. Everyday he would get bored and let me down and my chakra would be released from the seal that would lose it's potency as soon as he walked out of the room. So I continued to dance and stretch and use my chakra even though I could feel myself breaking, when he wasn't there or he was out on a mission or wherever else he went. I was let out in the house and so I learned how to pick the lock to his study and I read every book and scroll he had including the stack of unopened ones on sealing. I learned how to do my own seals and quickly drew up some healing ones so that I wouldn't be in total agony all of the time, and one to protect any and all of my organs so he couldn't ruin my chances of maybe later having my own family like in my other life. I worked on making the seal he put on me on a daily basis into a situation release one where it would only work if there was danger to the person it was put onto causing it to seal their chakra for a full 3 minutes.

I couldn't quite figure out how to get it to work, but then he surprised me by enrolling me into the academy when I was 7, saying I might as well serve the village as he was going to be going on more missions saying something about lowered amount of forces because the Uchiha went and got themselves slaughtered two years ago and now that he was finally getting considered for a promotion they were taking advantage of him. So I went and I learned and I was quickly bumped up a grade as I quickly found out my IQ was now at 210 in this new body and I had a photographic memory. And not just any photographic memory, I could recall a memory and then analyze each and every detail a month later if I wanted to. So learning all of the taijustu moves and the perfect ways to throw a kunai and shuriken, as well as everything else they taught I picked it all up very quickly.

The Academy had half year enrollments meaning in my year there was my class the youngest, or newest class and then there was the half a year older class that had started 6 months before us, thus further along in the curriculum. I went up a total of 5 classes in 2 years I would have graduated with the 12 year olds when I was 9 if it hadn't been for Kaido, my new captor, coming back from a mission and completely screwing me up, I was beaten bloody and raped repeatedly as he let out his frustration at failing his mission. He had gotten this new seal as well that let him keep my chakra sealed for up to a week as payment from some guy who wanted a round with 'his' slut.

I had just finished the new seal and had decided I would not keep my sanity if this continued on so as soon as a week had passed and he had come in from the bar passing out in his room from all of the alcohol he consumed I drew the seal directly onto his back, pulsing my chakra into the seal causing it to swirl into a tiny dot. Now I only had to wait. I wouldn't know if it would work until he either didn't return from a mission or he came back absolutely pissed off.

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When I showed up at the Academy a week later after all of my wounds had healed except the deep cat o nine tails gouges in my back which were refusing to heal as he had put acid on the tips of the whips. I was instructed to go into a new class with an Iruka-sensei. I merely nodded and made my way to the class with blank eyes and graceful movements, slipping past anyone who would have accidentally brushed me. Knocking quickly I slid the door open and stepped inside to the now hushed room. Bowing slightly to the teacher I set the new room assignment onto his desk instead of into his outstretched hand.

Receiving a slightly astonished look at my supposed rudeness I just stared blankly with my violet eyes not caring if it unnerved him, when he just sighed and then read the paper I was pleasantly surprised as most of my former sensei would get grumpy with me and tell me to just go sit down. Iruka-sensei nodded before giving me a slight smile, "You can sit wherever you wish Umi-chan, I'm glad you are feeling better now."

That's another thing, whenever Kaido would get to overzealous in his beatings he would say I was sick so I couldn't go to the academy for however long. Whatever, he would get his. Nodding quickly I scanned the room quickly and noticed the very back right corner table was free of anyone so I swiftly made my way up to the top, lightly stepping over an outstretched foot from a purple long haired girl with a wicked smirk not even sparing her a glance, making her smirk turn into a scowl.

I noticed I was in the clan heir class now, I had heard of them they were supposedly the best class reported to be the next elite. Oh well, it didn't matter much to me I was just going to try my hardest to graduate even if Kaido tried to keep me from doing so again.

The morning was mostly just lecture with some question and answer quiz time. Then at lunch I went and sat under one of the trees in the academy training ground to eat my bento box I had brought. I ate quickly then stood up lightly dusting myself off and headed back to the classroom only to get stopped by the purple haired girl from earlier and her group of friends.

"My name is Ami, you should be begging my forgiveness for trying to make a fool of me earlier." Her snide voice was vaguely annoying but nothing new as bullies always tried this at first.

I slid my eyes to hers and saw her wince in shock at the utter dead look in them before she tried to recover and reached out to push me, I slid around her and let her fall by herself as she had put all of her weight into the shove, and when she found nothing to shove she tripped forward. I didn't even bother to wait for her to get up before continuing on into the classroom I took up my seat again and worked on the chakra storage seal I was trying to perfect.

As everyone took their seat we all heard a loud voice saying, "Awww come on Iruka-sensei! The guy had it coming! Why do I have to get in trouble for something he had coming anyway?"

What I heard next made my world stop for a second, "Because Naruto, you can't just prank someone because they accidentally sloshed their bucket of water on you!" My world came back into focus as Iruka-sensei dragged in a protesting Naruto, my best friend from what seemed like forever ago, and made him sit down in a chair. The rest of the day went by quickly, and seeing as I had already learned everything they were teaching I was bored out of my mind.

The rest of the week past in this fashion Naruto not being there in the morning then having to be dragged in after lunch. During all of this time Naruto never once noticed me sitting at the very back of the class, as he was too busy sulking to look around the room. That Saturday Kaido left on another mission, and I waited for any news. Come Monday there had still been nobody to drag me off so I assumed it was just a simple mission like an escort or something. Monday is also when I noticed the gouges in my back were getting infected, but I hadn't finished the seal that would act as an antibiotic yet so I had to just deal with it for now.

So when Wednesday afternoon came and an Anbu came into the room to talk to Iruka-sensei I felt a flutter of hope in my chest before I squashed it. Iruka-sensei turned sad eyes to me and said, "Umi-chan the Hokage needs to see you." I had to stop myself from shouting 'is he dead?!' But I managed just in time to remain silent and just nod.

Right before I was whisked out by the Anbu I heard I small voice say, "Umi-chan?"

I glanced back over my shoulder to see wide hopeful blue eyes staring after me, I quirked a small smile and waved before the door shut and leaves fell around me then a jerking sensation as the Anbu used the shunshin to get us to the door of the Hokages office.

After the Anbu knocked we heard a voice say, "Enter." When we walked in I noticed the Hokage as well as a large man with a bandana over his bald head and sharp piercing eyes staring towards me. "Ah, yes please come in and take a seat, Umi-san. I'm afraid I have some bad news about your father."

I sat down in the chair and stared at the Hokage with a blank face making sure to keep track of the large man who was standing next to the Hokage in case he decided to move. "I don't have a father, Hokage-sama."

There was a slight pause as he took a puff of his pipe then he said, "Did Kaido-san not adopt you when you were, ah here it is 3 years old?" I just shrugged, then nodded. "Okay then, I have some bad news about your caretaker, Kaido-san. He was KIA on his last mission because of a seal we found placed on him that must have been placed at least a week before his mission started. I was wondering if you knew of anyone he could have come in contact with that would have wanted him dead?"

I tilted my head into a nod and said clearly, "I did."

The Hokage and the large man tensed not having expected me to confess like that, "You mean to tell me that you wanted Kaido-san dead and that you placed a seal on him that would leave him defenseless and without chakra for 3 whole minutes?"

"Yes, I put in a situational trigger, so that it would only happen when he was in danger," my voice seemed to ring out in the dead silence of the room, before the Hokage deliberately set his pipe down with a frown.

"Why would you want to leave him without chakra in such a situation?" The Hokage's voice was quite but no less demanding.

"I did nothing less than he has done to me for the past 6 years, Hokage-sama." By this time my hands were curled into fists as the large man had moved beside me and had put a hand on the back of my chair, making my porcelain skin turn gray as I tried not to panic at his close proximity.

The Hokage stared at me for a second before glancing at the man beside me, "Ibiki?"

The rumbling voice I heard made my eyes dialate so that my eyes practically looked black and my body froze as I had flashbacks of all the different men Kaido had brought that had deep voices, "She's telling the truth."

"Hmmm, now Um...Umi-san? Are you alright?" I could only faintly hear the Hokage's questioning voice as I once again retreated from the conscious world trying to make myself as small as possible bringing my chakra as tightly into myself as I could so I wouldn't feel the pain.

"Hokage-sama, if I may? She seems to be going into what we call survival mode in the T&I department. But this only usually happens after years of torture," Hearing the man talk more I realized I hadn't ever heard his specific calm deep rumbling voice as the voices were rarely ever calm, and so when I felt a hand on my head even though my body went through the motions I had long since learned, and went down to my knees with my hands behind my back and knees spread, I still didn't fully retreat into my mind as I was confused why they hadn't already forced me yet.

Two fingers made me look into piercing eyes that had a tint of pity in them as well as an analyzing look, I kept my head in the position he stuck it in as I had learned if my captor took the time to place me a certain way I had better stay that way. So my completely dead eyes looked into the piercing ones of the large man Ibiki and then the Hokage's as he took Ibiki's place in front of me. I took note that his eyes were sad as well as a deep anger that was well hidden but I was used to looking for, though this time it wasn't aimed at me, thankfully.

When he sighed and asked, "Ibiki, retrieve my personal medic-nin will you? She should be only two doors down." With a quick nod the large man swiftly left the room leaving me with the Hokage who sighed again and motioned towards my former seat, "Retake your seat Umi-san." I gracefully if a bit confused got to my feet before taking my seat with all the poise of a ballerina. I saw the Hokage pause before taking his seat as he stared at me as if trying to remember where he had seen me before.

When his eyes widened and then a deep sorrow entered them I couldn't stop a slightly still monotone question come out, "Are you alright Hokage-sama?"

At my words he put his face in his hands and just sat there for a minute, when he looked at me again they were slightly red from where he had shed a few tears, "I apologize Umi-chan, I did not recognize you at first. You have grown so much in these last 6 years." He paused here before telling Ibiki to reenter and then said, "It is you right? You are the Umi-chan that was Naruto's friend all those years ago?"

As his words registered in my head my mask broke as my deep pain at having been forced to leave my best friend behind had caused me showed up on my face for a split second. Which caused the Hokage to abruptly rise and walk out of the room, I turned to watch him as he left only to take note that Ibiki was back and was watching me closely and that the older woman next to him was walking towards me.

Focusing on the med-nin I nodded as she asked me to move to the couch and to remove my shirt and pants leaving only my underwear. I was quick about it as though it hurt at least it wouldn't be a completely long drawn out painful process, causing the seeping infected wounds to tear back open. I felt Ibiki's and the med-nin's chakra still in utter shock before steeling as the med-nin got to work with a diagnosis, I heard a slight keening sound come from the med-nin and turned to ask when I saw her running from the room, Ibiki moving aside to let her pass with a grim look. I saw him glance down my front and pause on my scarred nipples and bite marked chest and saw his jaw tighten with pure unadulterated anger.

Again my face grayed out as my only sign of my panic though this time he seemed to notice as his face went completely blank causing my heart to settle back down. I slowly moved my eyes from him to the med-nin who had reentered the room pale as a sheet but steady once more. Turning back around I let her finish her diagnosis, before she said quietly, "I wil need to open these back up Umi-san, but I cannot put you under as I need to be able to keep you awake so that your chakra can help push out the poison. Have they taught you how to do so in the Academy yet?" I nodded shortly and moved to lay on my front when she made the first cut and the foul smell from my wounds permeated the air my vision went white briefly before I let out a breath and nodded focusing inwards on my warm chakra and circulating it in the way we had been taught in order to encourage the poison to be ejected from my system.

I kept doing it until she breathed out in relief and she said, " That's all of it Umi-san you may stop. I'm going to seal them up now."

At that I said, "Don't waste your chakra." And lifted myself into a sitting position ignoring her protests that it needed to be healed. I dug into my side pouch that was attached to my pants on the floor and drew out my sealing paper and my ink and brush and quickly drawing my seal for healing wounds such as these and placed it on my back and soon the wounds had all healed though they were still slightly puckered as were the rest of my scars as I hadn't been able to get rid of that side affect yet.

Hearing the startled gasp from the med-nin then Ibiki's footsteps as he swiftly made his way over to see if it had worked, I turned as he asked, "If you could heal it this whole time why did you let it get infected?"

I turned to look at him not bothering to cover myself as there was no point I had lost every sense of modesty a long time ago, "Because his seal didn't allow me to have my chakra back for a full week. And by the time I could power my seal it was already infected. The seal that could draw out a poison or to act as an antibiotic is not currently within my realm of understanding. So I was working on figuring it out since I got my chakra back and then I was summoned here."

At this his eyes seemed to sharpen even more, "You seem to know a lot about seals, and the one you are talking about is not available to chunin let alone academy students."

I simply stared at him for a second then said, "Have you not searched his house yet? His whole study has stuff he's not supposed to have access to in it."

With that I moved to put my shirt and pants back on but was stopped as the med-nin said, "I am sorry Umi-san, but I need to do a full exam as my diagnostic jutsu was, quite worrisome."

Tense doesn't even begin to describe me as I slowly sat back up, and then simply finished undressing the rest of the way going back into my half aware state and moving to lay onto my back, letting my head fall to the side so that my hair could cover my face I let my legs limply fall open, and just retreated. I didn't let myself feel the gloved fingers of the medic-nin gently penetrating me with the green healing chakra didn't let myself react when she healed the nerve damage done to my vaginal walls but when I heard her say, "I..I'm sorry Umi-san but, this, this will feel...oddly pleasant, it's nothing bad it's just...just when I heal this portion it'll...it'll cause you to...to orgasm." My entire body stiffened as I heard that. Kaido had a technique that forced even my young body to orgasm and it was the worst humiliation that he had ever made me endure. I struggled to sit back up when I felt humongous hands close around my shoulders to keep me still, I turned wild frantic terrified eyes up into Ibiki's grim ones before he nodded at the medic to continue, "If I don't...If I don't heal this it could eventually cause you to, to become infertile, as well, as well as have a high risk of an aneurism. You would not pass the medical to become a ninja with this risk. As having a health risk of aneurisms could get not only you, but your future teammates killed on the field. I'm sorry but I have to do this if you want to be a ninja."

My hands moved up and gripped Ibiki's sleeves as the first tears in such a long time started dripping from my wide eyes, I clenched my teeth and nodded. The medic nodded and said, "You will feel a pinch at first okay?"

The tears didn't stop flowing from my wide violet eyes as I stared sightlessly into Ibiki's grim face. My body jerked as I felt the pinch and then the most intense orgasm I had ever felt in either of my lives washed over me causing my hands to tighten and a whimper to force its way from my throat. As soon as she had pulled away from me I let go of Ibiki and curled onto my side digging my face into the back of the couch too ashamed at what had happened to do anything but curl tighter into a ball and let me tell you with how flexible I am I could just about disappear into the couch.

The medic whispered, "I am so sorry Umi-san," before I felt her chakra signature waver as if she was unsure of what to do then she left after getting some kind of signal from Ibiki-san. I stayed curled up not caring that I was still naked until something that felt like a gigantic trench coat was placed over me hiding me from any prying eyes. I retreated into my mind and just lay there for what felt like hours.