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Chapter 3
The rest of this day in the hospital wing went over pretty quiet, as Madame Pomphrey, after the debacle with Ginny the day before, did not allow any visitors for Harry at all. After all, he was still recovering.
Though, Harry wasn't really sad about having time for himself. He prefered it right now, because with being left alone all day, he was actually able to think about how Ginny acted the day before, and also, how to actually react to the new Severus Snape.
Having the choice between Ginny's abmyssal behaviour the day before and Severus Snapes strang behaviour the very same morning, Harry decided to start with the easier one first.
‚Alright, easiest would be to kind of pluck her sentences out one after the other and analyze them like that.'
A word and a blow.
‚Okay. Her first question, after the obligatory ones, was, if I would come live at The Burrow with the Weasley family. No way. If it weren't only for me to finally wanting my own place to call home, I most certainly wouldn't want to be mothered by Mrs. Weasley. Because, for all that I love her, I definitely don't need this right now. After all, after my whole childhood having to deal with problems and negative experiences by myself, I dont want anyone to help me. And, no matter what everyone says, in the end, I am not part of their family. As I have seen once the battle was over. Everyone was hovering around the pressumed dead Fred, no one, at all, was even looking in my direction to see if I was actually still standing… Not even Ron, who calls himself my best friend.' Harry actually still felt quite bitter about this. That no one cared if he actually was alright. It almost seemed, that, now that he did his so-called duty, killed Voldemort, no one was interessted in his well-being anymore. The only ones of whom Harry felt were really concerned about how he was doing, were Remus and Teddy Lupin, though the toddler didn't really understand what was going on exactly, Madame Pomfrey, and, surprisingly, Severus Snape. Other then those, everyone seemed to be busy otherwise.
‚"But, what about us? If I want to come over to surprise visit you? After all, we can now get back together. Now, that the war is won and the danger is over. And it really would be so much easier if you'd just come to live at The Burrow until Hogwarts is back open again so we can finish our education. And once we got our N.E.W.T.s, we can go and look for our house together. Doesn't that sound much better than you now having to search for a house and getting it warded and everything, only to leave it stand there unoccupied for a whole year of school? Plus, The Burrow already has some of the strongest wards around it." This is so NOT going to happen! And what exactly does she plan to do to and/or with me that she wants to come over for surprise visits…?! I mean, seriously? Does she think I, who lived with a death threat over my head for seven years now, would actually allow anyone free, 24/7 access to my home?!
And does she really believe that I will come back here for a whole year of school, here, to this place where so much bad happened? While yes, there were some good things happening here as well, the majority was bad. I mean: In my first year, I had to fight a troll, on my parent's death day, no less, my broom got cursed during a Quidditch match, I looked into the Mirror of Erised, which, while kind of a good experience with seeing my parents was bad nonetheless, as it showed me just what it was I lost, and I had to fight Voldemort on the back of my teacher's head.
Then, in second year, I got shunned by almost the whole school, except for a few, for being a Parselmouth, my best friend got petrified, I got chased, together with Ron, by large acromantule that wanted to eat us, and, last but not least, I had to fight a sixty foot long basilisk. During this year, nothing really good happened, apart, maybe, from meeting Dobby.
In my third year were the dementors that attacked me more than just once. And I was almost attacked by Remus in werewolf form. But I finally learned the truth about what happened on the night I got orphaned. And I was able to produce a corporal patronus and also met my godfather for the first time.
The triwizard tournament was just horrible all during my forth year as whole. And Voldemort's resurrection involving my blood was just the final high light of the whole terrible year.
Fifth year was the year the ministry found it funny to interfere with the school… With Umbridge terrorizing most of the students and teachers, torturing those that didn't follow the ministry's thoughts on Voldemort's return, those that didn't follow all of her stupid decrees. And with the visions from Voldemort, especially the fake one that led to Sirius' death. This was the one death happening during all seven years that Harry regretted the most out of all of them. Because, he was the reason behind it. If he wouldn't have fallen for the fake vision, Sirius might still be around. Of course, it would not be a guarantee for him to still be around, but there would still be a chance for it to be so.
After getting over the slight depression that occurred whenever he thought of Sirius, he continued his analysis of his experiences at Hogwarts.
During his sixth year, there were love potions, the potions book of the half blood prince which led to him injuring Draco Malfoy horribly, learning some things about Voldemort and Dumbledore being killed right in front of him.
During, what would be his seventh year, he spent most of the time on the run with Hermione and, if he wasn't a coward and false friend, Ron, and only arrived at Hogwarts for the battle itself. This was terrible. After all, he fucking died in the forest and no one even knew about it, as everyone only was concerned that he would off Voldemort.
Harry, now actually thinking about all of his time at Hogwarts, the supposedly safest place in wizarding Britain, after Gringotts, got quite disillusioned about the wizarding world in a whole. Because, seriously, if that many bad things happened in the supposed second safest place, and, on top of that, the place where all the young people were, and no one seemed to care about what all happened, then how was he supposed to actually feel safe here, ever…?! After all, everyone that was involved in even one single experience of his never got to see a mind healer to get over what happened.
Plus, all those adult wizards actually hid behind a child to safe them. A single child! And Harry was sure, that some of the things happening to him wouldn't happened to someone with parents to fight for them, like, for example, the whole slandering of his person in 'The Daily Prophet' during his fifth year.
'Okay, enough of this. The next thing Ginny mentioned was, getting married right out of Hogwarts. Just who does she think I am? I, who, while wanting a family, also wanted to see the world now that I would actually be able to travel? No matter if it would be by myself or with someone else. Well, this is also not going to happen. Because I have to live for once so I will actually know what it feels like…!
Okay, next point was, that, according to her, I promised her, that we would get back together once the thread of Voldemort was gone. But, as far as I remember, I told her, that I wanted to separate so she wouldn't be targeted especially for being my girlfriend. And, that we, once the war was over, might eventually get back together. I never promised anything. It really is unbelievable how fixated Ginny is with me. I mean, seriously, we are still at school. And she is only sixteen. This is not usually the age where one already plans ones own marriage and living arrangement and future children! This is supposed to be the age where you date different people to find the right person. To actually find out what one wants in a lasting relationship. Well, as I can't change how her mind works, I might just try to stay clear of her and hope that Ron or any other of the Weasley family won't take it too harsh with me not wanting to become an 'official' member of their family. Maybe, I should ask Madame Pomfrey to forbid Ginny from visiting me while I am still here…'
Finally having found a solution for at least one of his problems, Harry laid back in his bed and tried to get some sleep. He would think about Snape's strange behaviour after having taken a nap.