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I was walking quickly down the hall. Trying to hold back my stomach's contents till I could reach outside. Lucky I turned down a hall and almost walked into an open window. I quickly leaned out and threw up. I just sat there for a second But I heard someone coming down the hall. I quickly leaned back in and whirled only to run into a Massive chest.
Oh! I'm extremely sorry! I said with a bow.
"Are not the mate to My Lord?" A deep voice asked.
I looked up into the face of a very handsome Inu-Youki
He had black hair and Stony blue eyes. He was at least as big as Sesshomaru. If not bigger!
Yes I am. Please call me Chinmoku. I said with a sweet smile. He arched a brow.
"I was told to come look after a bratty fourteen year old Heiress. You cannot possibly be said person." The man said with a bow.
I bowed back. Unfortunately I am. I fear that I have displeased My Lord in some way. I plan to fix this though. I said smiling. He gave me a funny look.
"My name is Akuma. I am to be your guard." He said softly.
I smiled. Hello. But you do not need to follow me around if you do not wish. I was just wanting to go for a walk to be alone. I said looking up. It seamed I had to look up to everyone.
"I was told to be your guard by My Lord. If you wish I could make it seam like I am not there." He said gently grabbing my arm and he started to pull me back toward the way I came.
No. No. It's quight alright. I guess I'll Just get Mokoto and find something quiet to do. I must work on my manners. Maybe a library of some sort?" I questioned Akuma.
"Your Human is currently learning to draw. He'll be a few hours. And if it is a Library you seek then follow me." Akuma stayed.
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I almost laughed because he still had a gentle grip on my forearm. He lead me past Sesshmorus chamber and to a massive set of doors. He released me and pushed open the doors...
Half an hour later...
I was curled up next to a window with the best book. It was about A young woman who had her every desire. She was wealthy and smart. But best of all She had many suitors. All who adored her. I wonder how that feels. I sighed. I was sitting on a window seat and Akuma was leaning against it. His shoulder touching my calves. It seamed he always wanted to touch me. And I didn't really mind. It was like me wanting to keep Mokoto close. I admired Akuma because he took his job very seriously. But suddenly Akuma was standing and quickened footsteps were coming toward us. The doors burst open to reveal the ugly little toad demon. Jaken.
"My Lord demands your presents in his privet chambers at once My Lady." His shrill voice rung through the silent room. I closed my book with a sigh and stood. Akuma glared at the little toad as we walked out.
"Do you wish me to stay My lady?" Akuma asked softly as I came to stop in front of the Lords chamber. No. And please. Call me Chinmoku. Oh and would you go and make sure Mokoto is OK? I asked smiling up at him. He gave a curt nod and walked brusquely away. I rapped twice on the door and waited.
"Enter" Came a few seconds later.
I slid the door open and stepped in. My eyes on the floor to show respect. I was told you needed me My Lord. It was silent for a while.
"What do you want?" His deep voice was very near.
I arched a brow at the floor. My Lord... I was under the impression that you wanted me for something. It was silent again.
"What do you want from life?" He asked again.
My ears twitched as I thought. From Life? What kind of question was that? But as I thought about it more... The more I didn't really know.
"Well? What do you want in life? Jules? Riches? What?" He asked coldly.
Someone who loves me un conditionally. I blurted. I quickly covered my mouth.
"A... A what?" He was a lot closer this time.
I could see his feet. Nothing My Lord. It is a silly child's fantasy. Was there anything else you wanted? I asked looking up. His face was set in a cold expression. But emotion filled his eyes. I couldn't tell exactly what emotion though.
"Why are you not throwing a fit? How come you are so unconditionally nice?" He asked gently grabbing my hand.
He pulled me toward a large comfy looking couch. I gave him a skeptical look. I don't want to be a burden. I really must be getting back to Mokoto... I trailed off.
"No. Your Human is fine. Your Guard is looking after him. Now tell me. Why are you not throwing a fit? Why are you so nice? Where did you live before?" He fired off questions.
I sighed. I seamed to be doing that lately. My stomach was going crazy. And I was starting to get a slight head ache. Ok. I'll tell you about myself. Ever since I was a child. I had these ears. I said reaching up and touching my ears. My Mother and Father... I like to think they cared for me. I think that's why they made me hide my ears. I knew there was a faraway look in my eyes. But I didn't care.
I grew up... Thinking myself a monster. To atone for my ears, quickened movements, and senses. I tried to please everyone I knew. I learned a lot helping everyone in my village. That it is better to be seen and not heard. From my parents. To always try to smile. From the younger children. And to always be polite. From the High Priestess.
All while i was doing the tasks no one wanted to do. I can shoe a horse in a snap. And rebuild a house in three days. But... It seams... No matter what I do...
I looked back at the Lords face and saw pity in his eyes. I didn't like it. I shook my head. Sorry My Lord. I was rambling. It won't happen again. I said softly.
His brows nit together. "Tell me why you had to steal food." He commanded.
And when a Lord commanded you to do something. You did it. I sighed placing a hand over my stomach. Trying to get it to calm down. I was going to throw up again. I knew this.
I had to steel food because if I didn't. I would have starved to death. I used to sneak into the largest huts and listen to the teachers teach the children that lived there. Then I would sneak into the pantry and steel a loaf of bread. I would always try to leave money. Even if it wasn't much. I mumbled.
"So you would sneak into huts and steel teaching. Then steel there food. And leave money?"
I pinned my ears. He was angry again. I should be going now. I mumbled. Sorry for being a burden. I said standing. I bowed and quickly walked out.
Akuma was waiting for me. "You look pail Chinmoku. How do you feel? He asked softly.
I smiled. I'm fine. Just a little warm. That's all. I lied easily.
"You do not look fine. Perhaps some fresh air will help you feel well again?" He suggested gently grabbing my hand.
I shook my head no. I think a cold bath would do. I mumbled. I tried to pull my hand from his but Akuma held fast.
"It is normal for a Lady and her guard to be touching. No one will think anything of it." He said pulling me down the hall a little and opened a door. I was back in the room I awoke in.
Appuruburanchi Was cleaning the room. "My Lady feel's ill. She want's a cool bath." Akuma demanded.
The Twig jumped slightly at the noise of Akumas deep voice. "Oh! Of cores! Right away!" She chirped.
I was again stripped and thrown into a colder bath. I sighed. Akuma was sitting behind Mokoto's curtain.
I let the almost freezing water cool my burning skin. I sunk further in the water. Just under my nose. I unpinned my hair and let if float about me.
"Why are you ill?" Akuma asked.
I took a minute before answering. Well... I've never handled stress well. And I've never really... had people talk to me. Most have only demanded things from me. I feel if I say something wrong... Or... Sound stupid... I will displease someone. And I have tried my whole life to please others. I mumbled.
It was quiet again. "You have never complained before?"Akumas voice made me jump.
No. I strive to please others. Complaining is just a waist of time. No one pays attention anyway. I shrugged.
I Pinned my ears and went under the water. I could hold my breath for a really long time. I liked to be in water. In my free time back at the village, I would always be in a creek of some sort. I opened my eyes and looked up. A white blurry figure stood above my bath. I arched a brow. Who in the hell would be watching ME bathe?
I stood up quickly. Blinking as the ice cold water flooded into my eyes. What I saw made me shriek and blush in frustration. Sesshmoru stood over my bath. A cold smirk on his lips.
Akuma Tore from behind the curtain and froze. Not knowing what to do in this kind of situation. He knew His Lord was not very fond of his Lady. And If His Lord were to try to hurt Chinmoku. He would give his life to defend her. And not only that! But his extremely beautiful Lady was standing in knee deep water. Completely naked!
"It would seam your senses were not at full Akuma. What if I were someone trying to kill my lovely Mate? You would have been to late." Sesshmoru said in a cold monotone
I rushed to cover myself as his eyes never lifted from my body as he said this.
Akuma bowed. "You are correct My Lord. I was careless." He stayed respectfully.
Appuruburanchi walked into the room and froze. "My Lord... I'm sorry to say... But you can not be in here." She stayed with a bow.
I looked on wide eyed. Akuma looked straight into my eyes. His face pleading for forgiveness. I smiled gently at him.
"Oh really? And why am I. Lord of this castle. Not aloud in my Mates bathing chamber?" He asked glaring at the branch.
"Because My Lord. She has not aloud you to enter her private chambers. I'm sorry to inform you My Lord. But once she was carried into the Lady's Chamber. She earned the right to deny you entrance." Appuruburanchi said.
My stomach heaved. I grimaced and closed my eyes. Please excuse me My Lord. But I am bathing. You may sit in my sleeping chambers. I mumbled.
I had to keep my stomachs contents down. Just till Sesshomaru left. I could feel His cold eyes on me. I stood perfectly still.
"Fine. But if I'm kept waiting. I will be very displeased." He stayed. His voice filled with disdain,
With a whoosh of air He was gone and the door was closed. I took a deep breath and collapsed into the pool. This time the water didn't help. I shot out of the water and to a window. I threw it open and threw up. Again. Someone held my hair.
"Do you usually do this Chinmoku?" Akuma asked releasing my hair
I whipped my mouth with my hand. Yes. When I'm under stress. Which is usually always. I mumbled.
"Well I have some bad news for you My Lady. Word had been going around that you are still pure. They are beginning to spread rumor that Our Lord is incapable." Apple stayed.
I stood. Not caring about my nakedness. Pure? What do you mean? And where is My Mokoto? I asked stepping into the robe Apple held for me.
Akuma cleared his thought. "Your Human has taken a liking to cooking. He told me that he enjoyed doing things with his hand. And to tell you not to worry."
I smiled. Happy Mokoto found something that he enjoyed.
"And as to Pure... My Lady... You have yet to be... Taken." Apple concluded. A slight blush covering her cheeks.
Taken? I pinned my ears. Taken where? Akuma chuckled.
"Perhaps I shall explain. You and My Lord are soul mates. He is not really mad at you so much as He's mad at your Mother and Father. His Blood calls for yours and he truly loves you very much. When he found you... He was happy. And When a Lord. Finally meets his Mate. They... Procreate... And that is as soon as they can." Akuma explained.
Procreate... Where have I heard that before? I racked my brain.
"Procreate. To have sexual intercourse to create children" The deep voice of one of the teachers from the village boomed through my head.
I felt my cheeks heat up. Akuma laughed. "She understands now." He stayed.
I shook my head no. I knew I was the wrong person. Look. Your Lord hates me. I have only known him for a day! And I have displeased him more than once. In no way shape or form does his blood call to mine! I started to panic. Apple laughed.
"Can I share something with you Chinmoku?" She asked pulling me toward a table in the corner with lots of different colored items on it.
I took a deep breath. Yes go ahead Apple. I mumbled pinching the bridge of my nose.
"My Lord is still Pure as well." She whispered in my ear.
I let that absorb into my mind. She set me on a bench.
What? I finally asked. She nodded. I looked at Akuma. He winked and nodded.
Him? That man? In my room? Right now? I asked pointing.
They both nodded. "You can tell by smell. Smell me then smell Akuma." Apple commanded.
I leaned over and smelled Apple. She smelled like apples and something sweeter. Like honey. Then leaned over and smelled Akuma. He smell like outside. And a deeper muskier sent. It was quight nice. But I like the way Apple smelled better.
"Tell the difference?" Akuma asked grabbing a comb. He started running it through my hair
Yes. And I wont do it. I don't care how much it displeases him. My keeping my innocence is the last thing that I have to call my own. I refuse to give that up. I stayed softly. It got deadly silent.
"You... You refuse?" Apple gasped.
Yes... Please... Please don't make me... I let some of my inner turmoil show. He scares me... I whispered.
I was truly terrified. I had over heard some of the girls my age in the village talking. The talked about how bad it hurt and how scared they were. This thinking just made it worse.
"But... You must!... My Lady... He's really not all that bad. He's really very... Sweet." Apple protested.
Something inside me decided to except my fate. I set my face in a plain expression. And reeled in my emotions.
Your right. I was foolish to try to put it off. Please make me look pretty Apple. I said smiling gently. They looked at each other. But Apple silently started to put powders and creams on my face. Akuma still gently brushing my hair.
I silently prepared for my fate. I was to be Lady of the West. And Mate to Lord of the west. I could handle this. If I just got this over with... It would hopefully please the Lord enough and I would never have to do it again. As long as everyone was happy... I was as well...
I let my mind wander. Mokoto was extremely happy. He loved art type things. I had to ask him of his past. I distantly knew I was pulled up and lead into my sleeping chamber. Some words were exchanged and it was silent again.
I came back to my senses as I felt someone move behind me. I jumped as Sesshomaru put his hand on my left shoulder.
"I have treated you unfairly" His deep voice rumbled.
I felt my ears twitch. No you haven't My Lord. I have seen no problem in the way you have treated me. I said bowing.
"Please. Call me Sesshmoru." He said gently.
I almost went ridged. But smiled and bowed. Yes Sesshomaru.
"I want you to forget about earlier. I treated you horribly." He whispered placing another hand on my other shoulder.
I forced myself to be calm. I do not mind. Really My- Sesshomaru. I have grown used to it. But... If at all possible...
He nipped at my ear.
"What do you wish?" He whispered huskily.
Could you... We possibly... Not do this? I whispered. He froze for half a second.
"You do not wish to do this?" He asked pulling away slightly.
I really do not mean to offend Sesshomaru... But... My innocence... Is really... All I have... I trailed off.
It was like he snapped. He whirled me around and crashed his lips to mine. I was done for. His eyes were blood red and the purple marks o his cheeks more prominent.
I tried pushing him away. But he started to push me backwards till I fell on the bed. He landed on top of me. He finally released my mouth and went to my neck. His hand ripping at the robe I was wearing.
Please... I begged. Please don't. He wasn't listening. Growls rumbled from his thought. I was now completely bare underneath him. He started on his own clothes and my fear grew.
The cloth around his waist was stuck. He was monumentally distracted. I scrabbled out from under him. Turning and my hands and knees and trying to get across the bed. But I was only a foot or so away when he grabbed my ankle. I was pinned face down on the bed. Growls coming from the now bare body above me.
He ran his tong over my neck as he positioned me between his thy's. He pulled me back making me arch my back. He set his teeth on the left side of my neck and thrust into me. He bit down at the same time. I went ridged and clenched the blanket in a fist.
It hurt. Really bad. And he didn't give me time to adjust. Just kept going and going and going. This carried on for twenty minutes or so. But why was he biting my neck? He suddenly bit down extremely hard and went ridged And for the first time... I think in my entire life... Tears split from my eyes. Only one or two but It was enough to snap him back to normal. He was gone for half a second. Then I was flipped over. A wide eyed Sesshomaru looking down at me. Blood rolled off my neck. I let my body go limp and didn't dare look at him.
"I... I didn't..." He stammered.
Please... Go. I whispered.
He was silent for a second. "I did not mean to harm you Chinmoku... I lost control of my Youki!" He pleaded
I shakily sat up. As long as you are happy... I am as well. Please leave My Lord. I whispered.
He looked at my neck. "Just let me..." He had reached out to touch me. But I flinched away. He drew back emeatitly and was gone in a flash. I stood and ran into my bath. I quickly got in.
I began to scrub at my skin. I scrubbed and scrubbed. I scrubbed till my skin was raw and red. I continued to scrub till the bath water was red with blood from my neck. It still wasn't done bleeding. And I still wasn't done scrubbing. But suddenly Arms wrapped around me. I went ridged and cried out. I began to thrash around.
"Shh. Chinmoku! It's Mokoto" Mokoto's gentle voice soothed me. I stopped moving.
Mokoto? I questioned.
"Yes it's me... What are you doing? Why are you hurting yourself?" He slowly turned me. Eyes probing my red and raw skin. Concern filled his eyes.
I... I can't get it off... I feel dirty... I whispered.
"You can't get what off sweet heart?" He asked gently.
Him... I can't get him off... It was then that Akuma walked in.
"What the hell? What happened?" He bellowed as he wrenched me from Mokoto.
"I don't know! I came in here and found her scrubbing her own skin off! Saying something about not being able to get him off!" Mokoto yelled.
Akuma looked down at me. "Why isn't she crying?" He asked Mokoto.
"Because she was taught that crying helps nothing. No one cared. Now What the hell is going on? And what is up with her neck?" Mokoto yelled.
My heart clenched. I couldn't let anyone worry about me. Akuma was about to answer but I answered first.
I was just taking a nap and had a nightmare. I had, had my hand at my neck at the time and I hurt my self. I drempt of my Father. Just a silly overreaction. Why don't you two go and find something to do? I'm going to nap again. I said detaching myself from Akuma.
They looked at me funny but left. I got out of the water and looked outside. It was almost dark now. I was slightly relived. I would go star watching tonight. It was perfectly clear. I looked around the bath room. Grabbing what I was looking for. A light traveling kimono. It was black with a white Obi. I put it on and tied to obi. I slipped silently out the window. Careful not to touch my vomit.
I was in a little garden. A small creek running into a pond in the left corner. Trickling lightly. A large U~irō (meaning willow) tree in the middle. Taking up all the space. There was an extremely tall wooden wall surrounding the garden.
I took all this in in seconds. I turned and jumped up to the High roof. It was long, wide, and flat. And was made of some type of metal. I sat next to the edge and dangled my feet over the edge.
It was like my mind was turned off. The only things it would register was my surroundings. And the pain from my sore skin and aching body. My neck was a dull aching pain. It wouldn't go away. I was rubbing my neck.
Suddenly the air filled with Sesshomaru's sent. I went Ridged.
"I... I raped her... Jaken..." His deep voice floated to me from below. I must have been sitting over his chambers!
"She is your mate. It was not rape My Lord." I almost growled at the toad demons shrill voice
"You didn't see the look in her eyes. She begged me to stop... Asked me not to take her..." Sesshomaru said in a voice filled with emotion.
To me he sounded weird. Like he wasn't used to talking about how he felt.
"She is just a child My Lord. She will forget about this by tomorrow and move on to the next shiny toy." The imp promised.
"No she wont. She wouldn't let me heal her neck. And she's not like all of the other females in the castle... She told me today... That she had to steal food just to survive... " He sounded sad.
This made me strain to listen.
"She was lying My Lord. Probably looking for attention. Arekkusu said he saw her hanging out a window in the gardens today! She is the same as the rest of them!" The Imp yelled.
I had heard enough. I jumped off the roof and back through the windows. Akuma was leaning against the wall.
"How were the stars Chinmoku?" He asked gently.
They were bright tonight. Why does that Toad demon not like me? I asked him.
He shrugged off the wall. "Because he feels threatened by you. Jaken doesn't like anyone being to close to Our Lord. Why don't you and Mokoto get some sleep? It's getting late." He suggested.
Ok. I mumbled. He grabbed my hand and pulled me into my sleeping chamber. The blankets had been changed. And Mokoto was currently snoring loudly. I crawled into bed. Akuma sat on the floor next to my head. The candals all around the room all flickered out and I fell asleep instantly.