"Come on, come on,

put your hands into the fire,

explain, explain

as I turn and meet the power,

pull up, pull up,

from one extreme to another."

Into the Fire- Thirteen Senses.

A/N- Rather annoyed about this chapter because I wrote so much more which I lost. (never rely on technology) Had to rewrite and edit this a lot but I hope it's ok. Please let me know what you think. I love delving into Harvey's thoughts.

It seemed like only moments later that Harvey was rushing through hospital corridors, trying to find the ward that Rachel was on. His heart was pounding with the dread and he had to swallow the bile of panic that was building up in the back of his throat.

Back at the office, he had called Ray and had apologised but explained the emergency and the always loyal driver had arrived and got them to the hospital in record breaking time. He had felt awful leaving Jessica and Louis but knew that this was where he was supposed to be. They had both wanted to come with him but he had told them to stay put. There wasn't any point in them all going: none of them could help Rachel now.

As he strolled around, he realised that the hospital was so loud and busy, even at this hour, with people's lives on the balance everywhere. Round every corner, Harvey looked into the faces of forlorn family, awaiting news. This wasn't his 'd never spent much time in hospitals throughout his life. His Dad had been unwell but that was when he was only just toddling around and he had a brief memory of going to visit his father. Everything had seemed so much simpler back then.

When he was at Harvard, Harvey had spent time caring for Marcus who had come down sick, apparently pneumonia. Harvey had felt desperate then, his little brother laid up in a hospital bed. But he knew now that it wasn't anything compared to this.

In the hospital, everywhere he turned there seemed to be a crisis; Doctors running around, nurses carrying defibrillators, someone running into a room with a crash cart. It seemed to reflect Harvey's life at the moment. Round every corner, another one of his family were in danger. Over the past few years, he had risked losing Donna on more occasions than bearable. He'd had to defend Mike countless times. Both Jessica and Louis were at a huge threat in Mike's case. The only person Harvey hadn't needed to worry about was Rachel. After all this loss and regret, he couldn't cope with losing Rachel. They all couldn't lose Rachel.

As these thoughts rushed to the forefront of his mind, he could feel the dread in his stomach rising, indicating another attack. But he forced his mind to focus, to push it back down and keep it there. He needed to be strong now, to keep control of his feelings and not break down. Whatever happened, he needed to keep himself together. If only for Mike, Rachel, Jessica and Louis.

And Donna. He turned to his right and felt himself calm instantly, seeing her at his side. Back at the office, she had broken down briefly, sobbing at the fate of her best friend. He had wanted her to stay, to help out Jessica and Louis and because he wasn't sure if she could handle seeing Rachel. Or maybe he didn't think he could handle it. But Harvey had known she would be stubborn and that it wasn't worth arguing with her. So here she was, right where she was supposed to be.

They always took on challenges together. Side by side, with his suit as his battle armour. It would have been strange if she wasn't there. Like if his right arm wasn't there. People survived without a limb but they had to adjust everything, to change their whole lifestyle and all that took time. That's what he felt like with Donna. He could live without her, with time to come to terms with the situation. But he didn't want to.

She obviously sensed his eyes on her because she turned and offered an encouraging smile and placed her pinky finger around his. They were breaking the untold rule a lot tonight. Both of them had done everything they could to not touch each other since the other time.. But everything had changed tonight. Everything really had changed tonight.

Harvey didn't want to think about his feelings for Donna. It was too complicated at this difficult time when his emotions were all over the place. He felt something, he knew that. And he would give just about anything to explore that feeling with the knowledge now that she felt the same. But right now he needed her. He needed her in his life to keep him sane in this messed up world.

He was in awe at how quickly she had composed herself back at the office. She had run off to the bathrooms briefly, Jessica following to ensure she was ok. And moments later she had returned, the strong and fierce Donna, ready to take on the world. She never failed to amaze him. Harvey didn't have much choice but to sober up pretty quickly and rush out with her. But, he was glad that she had come, he wasn't sure if he could do this alone.

He forced himself to focus now, to shake off the thoughts. Back in the car, they had rung ahead to try to find more news about Rachel. She had been bought in by ambulance and taken straight to the ER but they had instantly moved her to ICU where she was awaiting surgery. Harvey tried to stop thinking about what this meant. Considering they weren't family, Harvey had used every trick in the book to find out more about her situation but only just managed to get a room number.

He cursed himself for his lack of medical knowledge. He had never been interested in becoming a Doctor, the long hours and crazy, stressful workplace. He knew people would laugh if he told them this, considering his job. But Harvey had never considered being a lawyer a job. He had always felt comfortable doing what he did with the confidence that he would get the right outcome one way or another.

He had seen the same confidence in Rachel when he first worked with her. As a paralegal she was 5 times better than most of the stupid associates. And, when she had negotiated that deal with Jessica to pay her tuition, he had seen a little bit of himself in that smile and confidence. For a long time now, he considered Rachel like his sister in law. She wouldn't have been his first pick as a friend but he knew Mike loved her and Donna also and now he was glad to have them as his little family.

His thoughts, as they so often had this evening, turned to Mike. He was kinda glad that Mike wasn't here, knowing that the kid would be overwhelmed with worry. He'd probably be reciting some novel where someone died as a result of a car accident. But Harvey knew Mike would give anything to be here right now. And Mike should be here. Harvey was still raging at the thought that he was being punished for what they had done. They really hadn't done anything wrong. Harvey knew it had been the right decision to hire Mike all those years ago. He had deserved the opportunity more than anyone and was a fantastic lawyer.

He wondered if Mike had lived his life, and he had lived Mike's whether they would still be in the same position now. But, given Mike's cards in life, Harvey would probably be in a lot worse position than prison. Mike had been through so much in his still young life, and Harvey was dreading having to inform him off this. Would he ever forgive him? Harvey had to hope so.

They were approaching the right room and Harvey could feel Donna tense next to him. He grabbed her hand now, in need of the comfort just as much as her. They interlocked fingers again and after a pause, Harvey pushed open the door and Donna followed him inside.

Harvey felt his entire insides turn cold as he observed the room in front of him. He heard Donna gasp as she followed him in and he held her tighter, needing something to keep him grounded. The room was completely empty except a few machines still plugged in. For a moment, Harvey thought of the worst. The had arrived quickly, in less than an hour. But he was aware of how many complications could arise in that time.

He turned quickly and rushed towards the manned desk with Donna following suit. He had his lawyer mode on now, desperate to get information in any way possible. The lady working the night shift was typing away when she obviously noticed their shadows over her. She looked up and Harvey noticed her warm and comforting eyes didn't match her bleak and cold expression. She was the complete opposite of Donna, with dead straight blonde hair, brilliant blue eyes and a darker complexion. He was instantly concerned when she asked if she could help.

"Rachel Zane, room 104?" Harvey asked, the tension rising with every passing moment as he thought of the many bad scenarios.

"Are you family? Husband?" It seemed like forever that Harvey was waiting for the Women to reply as she typed on the computer.

"I'm her-" but Harvey was left struggling to respond. What did he say? Brother in law? Surrogate Husband? Just a friend? Distant Cousin?

But Donna saved the day, "we're her very concerned work colleagues. Her Father is on the way."

She smiled sweetly at the Women and time ticked by slowly as the younger Women considered them both, studying their concerned expressions and then started typing through the computer and moving files around. Harvey could hear the thuds of his heart and the heat beginning to rise as he thought of the worse. Donna looked as calm as ever but Harvey could tell from her eyes that she was panicking too.

"Rachel Zane has just been moved back to the ER, but she is about to go down for emergency surgery. Head down towards the OR and you will probably catch them on the way," the lady gave them one last cold look and returned to her work.

And Harvey barely had time to take a breath before he was racing back through corridors again, Donna in pursuit. He ran down 2 flights of stairs, instinctively knowing that this was the way to go, and decided to check the ER. They dodged Doctors, nurses, patients and other people of which watched them in awe before continuing with their journey.

Finally, he found Rachel in transit, lied on a bed, surrounded by Doctors and other medical personnel. What scared the shit out of Harvey was how lifeless she looked, her skin lacking the golden glow it often exuberated, smearings of blood covering her head and her hair tangled together.

As he approached, Harvey heard a younger looking Doctor read through her file. She looked worried and her brow was creased in concern.

"Young female, late twenties, involved in a car accident. Was confused and light-headed at the scene, vomiting blood. Abdomen is distended, she has tachycardia and is hypotensive."

The older, more professional Doctor nodded as he checked Rachel's vitals and a number of machines. He pulled up the bottom of her shirt and Harvey heard Donna gasp next to him. He pulled her into a one armed hug, needing the comfort just as much as she did. Rachel's stomach area was bulging, it was twice the size.

The Doctor tenderly pressed on the area and Rachel suddenly sprung to life as her eyes opened and she groaned in pain. "She's bleeding internally, Dr Stevens?"

The younger Doctor nodded. "Stay with her and prep for surgery, then you can scrub in with me."

That got Harvey's attention and he snapped out of the daze. Stepping forwards he asked the Doctor, "Surgery? Is it bad? Is she going to be okay?"

The Doctor turned in his tracks, finally noticing Donna and Harvey standing behind them. He gave them both a polite smile. "I'll do everything I can, do you want to talk to her quickly before we go down?"

Harvey hesitated. He wanted to talk to Rachel and apologise but knew that he wasn't the right person. He turned to Donna but she was like a statue, staring straight ahead, obviously not listening to anything they were saying. Harvey could see her starting to crumble and put his hands on either side of her face.

"Donna- Donna listen to me, Rachel is going down for general surgery but this Doctor is really good and he's going to fix her up." He felt like he was talking to a young child but was ever terrified that she was going to run and leave him to deal with this. He couldn't do this alone. He needed Donna.

"But you need to talk to her, let her know we're here and aren't going anyway."

Finally, Donna seemed to snap out of her trance. She looked at Harvey and nodded firmly and he finally felt okay to let go of her, hoping that she wouldn't fall over when he did. They both stood at either side of Rachel's bed and the nurses now prepping her body gave them the room. Harvey could feel the distance between him and Donna and wanted nothing more than to go back to earlier that evening, when she was in his arms and they were both happy.

"Hey Rachel, its me Donna. I'm here with Harvey." Harvey gripped hold of Rachel's hand to let her know of his presence and then took Donna's hand across from him. For the millionth time tonight, he wished Mike was here. It should be him doing this. Rachel needed him.

"You're just going down for surgery but we'll see you again in a few hours when you are patched up and as soon as you're back on your feet, we'll go back out with Harvey's corporate card as Harriet Specter and Michelle Ross." Harvey heard her voice begin to crack and she took a second to compose herself. He squeezed her hand, urging her to continue. But even he could feel the lump in the back of his throat.

"You'll be fine, you have to be because we need you back at the firm, okay?" A lone tear escaped and Harvey looked up to see that Donna was crying now. Rachel seemed to still be relatively conscious, groaning slightly and shifting as much as she could in the head and neck brace.

He pulled Donna next to him now, knowing there wasn't much more to say. He called the nurses back in who dragged the bed out of the room. It left just him and Donna, still stood in the same position, unable to move.

Every time Harvey had been in a hospital, it had been loud with the clatter of people getting on with endless tasks. However, in this small room it was eerily silent. It was like they were separated from the world. They were both too shocked to speak so Harvey embraced Donna who started freely crying.

He brushed her hair out of her face and held her in his arms again. He was conscious of the fact that she was crying into his favourite suit. She pulled away from him, breathing steadily again but small, desolate tears still slid steadily down her cheeks. Seeing her in such a state, finally pushed Harvey over the edge. Despite biting his tongue, he couldn't stop the tears threatening to leave.

Donna watched as a single tear escaped his warm eyes, followed quickly by two more, until a steady stream begins to fall down his pale cheeks and he released the sadness and sorrow that has been building up throughout this devastating day. They both embrace each other again, allowing themselves to fall apart for a moment and Donna is beyond glad that Harvey was here with her. Anyone else and she wouldn't have been able to cope.

Dr Stevens came back in the room and tried to reassure the couple. She tells them that her attending, Dr Harking, is the best in his field and they suspect the surgery will just be a removal of Rachel's spleen but she will update them if anything changes. She takes them back to Rachel's ward room where there is a sofa they can sit and wait with privacy. Harvey has pulled himself together now and he thanks the younger Women.

After she leaves, they sit and wait in silence, watching the time tick by steadily. They both still dont talk but communicate from brief eye contact and occasional movement. They end up back in each others arms as Harvey can't bare to see the sadness in Donna's eyes. As they cuddle and shift, he tells her that everything will be okay and he can feel the tension leave her body.