Rolling over in her small bed, Bella thought of the previous days events. 10 weeks...I'm ten weeks pregnant...Late april...its june now...how could...Rubbing her hands over her face, deep in thought. What am I going to do? Sitting up and swinging her legs over the side of the bed, she surveyed the tiny room she was in. She sat on the bed in the middle of the room, a small chair butted up against the window and a tv sat on the small dresser across from her. It wasnt anything fancy, but it would do while she was thinking. After traveling for two days she had come back, but she couldnt go to him. She had taken the train out of state and came back, she knew it wasnt right to keep the baby to herself, that even if he said no she couldn't keep the knowledge that the baby was his and it was wrong to keep it from its grandfather, from the others. She felt every emotion sweep over her, angry, frustration, loneliness...all the emotions she put on herself. She couldnt even imagine how Jacob was feeling. She abandoned him, she was pretty sure she had broken him, when he had been the one to fix her all she could do was turn around and break him. She felt the tears overflow from her eyes and drip down her cheeks. She knew she would have to face him, but didnt have the courage to do it right then...soon though...
Jacob sat back on bella's bed, rubbing his eyes with the palm of his hands. He was tired...very tired but he wouldnt stop looking for her. He glanced down at the papers he had spread out on the bed, credit card receipts, phone records, emails...anything...anything from the last week, anything to give him an idea of where she was. Quil had given him the idea, they shared so many things together, cell phones...banking...everything...why he hadn't thought to track her down before he had no clue...Probably cause I was so out of it...Will she forgive me? How could I have been so blind?!
She hadn't used her phone since the day she left, only to call embry to get him to pick the infamous note. He couldnt imagine how embry felt, he had been the one to give him the note and he had no clue the damage that piece of paper would hold in its contents. Embry had apologized over and over till Sam had to tell him knock it off, it started to grate on everyones nerves.
Glancing through the paperwork jacob took special notice of the use of the card they shared, it was for emergencies only but it had been used to buy a train ticket out of town but after that nothing else showed up. Clever Bella...touche...where are you headed...Jacob just kept reading. After the ticket there was very little to help him since she had only bought a few things with it, the rest was taken out of her account and used in cash...cash withdrawals...the only way to throw him off the trail.
-1 new message- Blinked on Jacob's phone, cocking an eyebrow up he reached for his phone to scroll through the messages, he had alerts on everything he and Bella shared, he had to find her, somehow he would...
Bella slid her bank card to pay for the room for the rest of the week...she'd need it. She looked at her cell phone, which had been turned off for about a week. I really should check my messages...I should tell them...No! They dont have to know everything until I'm ready. She picked up her back pack and headed to her room.
Placing the bag on the ground she pulled out a notebook, tape, colorful pens and all of her paperwork from her past appointment. While she didnt want to face Jacob, yet, she couldnt stay selfish about the baby. Sitting on the bed she began to write. She told him about the appointment, the blood work, the urine samples, all the questions she asked, everything, every detail was written as if she wanted him to be able to see everything happening. In different colors she wrote her weight, the babys information and any important details she felt he'd like to know. Picking up the picture she taped it to the page; "I know there isnt much to see...but I begged for this sonogram, I needed to see the proof...something...anything to prove that...well...we made life...I dont know...maybe I sound stupid..." The explanation ended there and she held up the book, reread everything, closed it and put it back in her bag.