The first thing she heard was the sound of the machines, then she felt the smell, and finally she opened her eyes. She was at the hospital, but why? When the answer came up to her mind, she felt a weight on her chest and started crying. "Emily, Emily you need to calm down, slow your breath, slow your breath" he kept saying it but she couldn't hear him. She kept seeing Derek's face, and than Hotch saying those words "Derek is dead, Derek is dead, Derek is dead". That dream she had made had been like a cold shower. The machines started to make a loud noise, a doctor stepped in the room, but she didn't see or hear anything. At some point, she felt a warmth and closed her eyes.—
They had moved to Rossi's place "How did Emily take it?" the oldest member of the team asked Hotch "Actually, she is at the hospital, she passed out right after I told her." His phone rang. "Oh, it's Clyde Easter, he's with her." He answered the phone. Everyone now was looking at him with apprehension for their friend "Hotchner, how is she?" They all kept their eyes on him, trying to understand what was going on "Alright, thank you" he said, before hanging up the phone. Spencer, whose face was all red because of the tears, asked "So, is she alright?" He couldn't think of Emily alone in London facing that terrible news all alone, he hoped she could reach them as soon as possible, so they could face it together. "They took her to the hospital and after a couple of hour she woke up, but when she did she started to panic and couldn't breath, so they sedated her. As soon as she wakes up they'll try to make her calm down and she'll be able to come here". Spencer had expected it, Rossi made a look like if what Hotch just said had hit him in the stomach, and JJ just whispered "Oh my god", while Will embraced her. Penelope just started crying louder, she hadn't stopped since they told her that Derek was gone. She just couldn't. She was starting to wonder if she would have ever been able to.—
She started to move in the bed before opening her eyes, and when Clyde noticed it he was prepared "Emily, it's Clyde, can you hear me?" She nodded. She felt something was wrong, she felt her whole body heavier than usual and her head hurt, but she didn't remember why. "Why am I here? What happened?" "I'll tell you, but you must stay calm when I do, understood?" Now she was looking at him. She was so fragile, he couldn't believe that she had to find out what happened again, and most important he wasn't sure he could be the one to tell her. "It's about Derek. He... he died last night".
Here she was. Everything started to come back to her mind, Hotch's call, the doctor who sedated her, everything was clear. "No, no, no, no..." she started whispering "Emily, stay with me, listen to me" she didn't seem to hear him, but he knew she did, she just didn't want to listen "You know you should be in Washington right now, and if you calm down you'll be out of here in half an hour and than right on a plane, I promise you, but you need to calm down." After those last words she stopped talking. She looked at him for a couple of seconds, to process what he just said. After that, she was getting up and saying "What are you waiting for, you want to stay in here while I change my clothes?" There was only Washington. She couldn't let the grief win while all of her friends were on the other side of the ocean. She would've cried when she was there, she had already messed up things enough.