Beca knocked on the door. "Stace!" She waited but got no response. She took the key she'd gotten from Fat Amy and opened the door. Stacie was on the bed on top of the covers, her head buried under the pillows. "Stacie." She shook Stacie's shoulder. "Come on, there's no moping in Denmark."
"Leave me alone." Stacie's voice was muffled by the pillows.
"Stace, come on, you can't spend the whole trip hiding in the hotel." Beca shook her again. "Did you know that the oldest functioning observatory in Europe is in Copenhagen?" Stacie peeked at her from under the pillows with a raised eyebrow. "What? I can google. Come on, you can geek out and learn about Danish astronomers."
Stacie half smiled. "Fine, I'll go."
Stacie got up and followed Beca outside. They took a cab, thankfully the drivers around the hotel spoke English and Beca was able to explain where they wanted to go. They got out in front of the tall, round tower. Beca and Stacie stood outside for a moment, gaping at the building. Stacie smiled and looked at Beca before grabbing her arm and pulling her inside to buy their tickets.
They started walking up while Stacie read from the guide they got with their tickets. "The Run… de… taarn," Stacie struggled with the Danish name. "or Round Tower, was commissioned in the 17th century by Christian IV. Instead of stairs, a 7.5-turn spiral ramp forms the only access way to the towertop observatory as well as the Library Hall and the Bell-Ringer's Loft."
"Awesome, no stairs!" Beca cheered. Stacie rolled her eyes.
"Oooh did you know that Hans Christian Andersen used to visit the library in the tower and even mentioned it in a couple of his stories?" Stacie said excitedly.
"I did not." Beca smiled at her, she knew getting her out of the hotel would cheer her up.
They got up to the observation deck and looked around at the city. Stacie felt the wind on her face and smiled. "This is awesome." She looked down at Beca and bumped her shoulder. "Thanks for making me come, Becs."
"Well Chloe abandoned me so it was dragging you out or doing something potentially illegal with Lilly and Fat Amy." Beca chuckled.
"Well thanks anyway." Stacie knew Beca didn't just do it because of that but it would make her uncomfortable if she pointed it out. "Where is Chloe, anyway?"
"Umm she went out with Aubrey."
"Oh." Stacie hadn't talked to Aubrey since the incident with Alice. She had struggled with her feelings about that a lot. She wasn't sure if Aubrey did it because she still had feelings for her or because it was Alice who was flirting with her. Their almost kiss made her more inclined to think it was because she cared, but she didn't dare hope. Especially when the probability of Aubrey actually making a move was close to zero even if she did care. She was exhausted of thinking about Aubrey and wondering if they still had a future.
"Stace…" Beca placed a hand on her arm.
"I'm okay." She smiled sadly. "I'm just tired."
Beca knew she wasn't talking about being physically tired. "She'll come around."
Stacie nodded. "I don't know if I can keep waiting."
Beca hugged her arm and rested her head on her shoulder. "You'll be okay, Stace. I'm here whatever happens."
Stacie chuckled. "What am I going to do when you're in LA and I'm in Boston?"
"We'll skype and you can come visit me. You can do you PhD in Caltech."
Stacie snorted. "Maybe."
"It won't be so bad." Beca squeezed her arm. "And CR will be close enough to keep an eye on you for me."
They stayed there for a while until Beca started to fidget. She let go of Stacie and patted her back. "Okay, enough sap for now. I'm starving."
Aubrey dropped her bags on a chair and sat exhaustedly. "I don't think we've walked and shopped this much in one day since that time we performed at the Mall of America."
"Except you had a lot less money back then. Thanks for the shoes!" Chloe hugged a bag with a shoe box smiling widely.
"You're welcome." Aubrey chuckled. "I missed this, us, hanging out."
"Me too." Chloe smiled. "You have to come visit me in LA."
"Ugh do you really have to go live with the hobbit?" She took Chloe's hand. "Run away with me."
Chloe laughed and rubbed her thumb over Aubrey's hand. "You know I totes would if we weren't in love with other people." Aubrey looked down. "Bree, you're miserable without her, why won't you do something?"
"I think it might be too late for that." Aubrey let go of Chloe's hand and pressed her palms to her face. "Why am I so stupid?"
"You're not stupid, you're stubborn. And you thought you were doing the best thing for everyone." Aubrey's shoulders started to shake and Chloe stood up and kneeled next to her chair patting her leg. "You could still fix it."
Aubrey shook her head. "I don't know how." She let out a sob and wiped at her eyes. She cried for all the times she hadn't allowed herself to cry, for all the times she'd pushed it down and moved on. She couldn't be strong anymore, she was broken. "I miss her so much. Nothing makes sense without her. Everything I worked for, the lodge, I would trade it all for a chance to do it right."
Chloe's heart broke for her friend. "Then tell her."
"What if she doesn't want to talk to me? I've screwed up so much." Aubrey looked down at her.
Chloe had never seen her so vulnerable, so crushed. She pushed Aubrey's hair back and wiped her cheek. "She loves you, Bree. Just talk to her."
Aubrey nodded and sniffed. "I will... after the competition."
Aubrey waited for the party to wind down. The Bellas had won, not that she'd had any doubt about it, and they had moved to a club by the hotel to celebrate. Most of the former Bellas had left already, but they had invited some of the other teams so there were still some people on the dancefloor. She heard Stacie's laugh and felt her stomach drop. Maybe this wasn't a good idea, she looked happy. Stacie felt Aubrey's gaze and turned to look at her. She gave her a small smile and turned away to continue her conversation with CR and Jessica. Emily stumbled over to them. Her mom had left early and she was of legal drinking age here, which had resulted in her getting very drunk. She leaned on Stacie and slurred something at them. The three older girls looked at each other and nodded before getting up and walking out with Emily between Stacie and Jessica. Aubrey hurried behind them and excited the club. "Stacie!" The group turned to her making Aubrey feel self conscious. She wrapped her arms around herself. "Can I talk to you?"
CR moved to Emily's side and nodded at her. "It's okay, we've got her."
Stacie handed her Emily's arm and thanked them before turning around and facing Aubrey with an apprehensive look. She waited for the other girls to be out of earshot. "What do you want?"
Aubrey flinched and Stacie almost regretted sounding so harsh. "I want to apologize." Aubrey took a step closer to her. "I'm sorry I've been an idiot for going on two years now; I'm sorry about the Alice thing; I'm sorry about not kissing you when you were in my apartment; I'm sorry I turned you down at the lodge; I'm sorry I didn't stop you that day; and I'm sorry I took you for granted. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me, Stace, and I wish I could go back and make it right but I can't, all I can do is let you know how sorry I am."
Stacie took a step back and wiped the tears that were running down her face. "Why now?" Aubrey looked at her confused. "What changed? Why couldn't you apologize before? Why did you make me wait for so long?"
Aubrey looked down. "I realized I wasn't doing anyone any good by staying away." She reached out and put a hand on Stacie's forearm. "I thought I was protecting you but I only hurt you more. And I need you, I love you." She looked at Stacie's eyes. "You're the love of my life, Stace." Stacie looked away. "I know I don't deserve it, but I'm asking for another chance. Please."
Stacie looked up. She'd been waiting for this for so long, why was she hesitating? "You hurt me so much."
Aubrey cupped her cheeks. "I know. I'm so, so, so sorry. I'm an idiot." Stacie shook her head and Aubrey dropped her hands. "That's why I thought staying away was best for you."
Stacie snorted. "You are an idiot." She wiped her eyes and looked at Aubrey. "Maybe I'm an idiot too, for loving you." She took Aubrey's hand and laced their fingers, closing her eyes at the familiar feeling of warmth that enveloped her.
"Stace?" She opened her eyes and looked at Aubrey. "Does this mean…?"
"It means we can try to work things out. I need you to convince me that you're all in."
Aubrey nodded. "Okay. Do you want to start now? We can go back to my room, get room service, talk?"
"I'd like that." Stacie smiled.
They walked back to the hotel. Stacie hadn't let go of her hand and Aubrey kept looking at her, afraid that her brain would catch up to reality and she would realize this wasn't actually happening. They got into the elevator and Stacie cupped her cheek. "I'm not going anywhere." Aubrey leaned into her hand and smiled at how well Stacie knew her.
They got to her door and she had to let go of Stacie's hand to look for her key and open the door. "I'm sorry for the mess, I went shopping with Chloe yesterday and haven't had time to pack everything."
Stacie chuckled at the fact that 'the mess' was just a few shopping bags on the floor next to her suitcase. She sat on the edge of Aubrey's bed. Aubrey went to the phone and grabbed the room service menu. "Waffles and fries?" Stacie looked up smiling and nodded.
Aubrey placed their order and sat next to Stacie not looking at her. Stacie grabbed her hand and pulled her closer when she turned to face her. She pressed her forehead to Aubrey's and ran the fingers of her free hand down her jaw. "I've missed you so much."
Aubrey nodded. "Me too." Aubrey closed the gap between their lips and kissed her softly. "I love you."
Stacie smiled and kissed her a couple of times before pulling back. "I love you too."
The food arrived and they ate on the bed while Stacie told her about the places she'd visited with Beca. They finished eating and Stacie watched as Aubrey put the plates back on the tray. When Aubrey came back she realized there was a sad look on her face. She took Stacie's hand and squeezed it. "Hey, what's wrong?"
"I'm moving to Boston." Aubrey moved closer to her and rubbed her arm.
"I know, we'll figure it out. My lease for the place where the lodge is ends in October, I could move it anywhere."
Stacie looked up, her mouth hanging open. "Really? You'd do that?"
Aubrey nodded. "It's not the craziest idea. There are a lot of companies headquartered in the north east, I'd have enough clients. And the move wouldn't be that much of a problem, I'd just need to find a place big enough nearby." She pushed Stacie's hair back behind her ear. "We could live together."
Stacie gasped. "Are you asking me to move in with you on our first date?"
Aubrey smiled "Too soon?"
Stacie shook her head and kissed her, pulling her down on the bed. They kissed for a while, Stacie's hands on the back of Aubrey's neck and Aubrey's on her back. Neither of them tried to take it further, content with just kissing for the time being. Finally, Stacie pushed Aubrey's shoulder lightly and pulled back. "I should go to my room."
Aubrey scooted closer. "Stay. Just to sleep. I miss waking up next to you."
Stacie bit her lip. She didn't want to rush things, she knew that they still had a lot of things to work through for this to work, but she didn't think she could leave Aubrey's arms right now. She nodded. "Okay."
Aubrey started to stirr. She felt something under her arm and she opened her eyes. Stacie was sleeping next to her on her back, Aubrey's arm was draped over her waist. She looked at Stacie's face: her perfect nose, her full, delicious lips. She didn't think she'd ever get to kiss those lips again. She smiled, trying not to think about all the time she'd wasted punishing herself. She was with Stacie now and that was all that mattered. She wouldn't waste this opportunity. She pulled herself closer and nuzzled her cheek. Stacie groaned softly and turned, throwing her leg on top of Aubrey's and running her hand up Aubrey's arm. She mumbled something unintelligible making Aubrey laugh. She kissed Stacie's nose and rubbed her back. "Good morning, gorgeous."
Stacie buried her face in her neck and kissed her softly. "Gimme 5 minutes, Bree."
Aubrey sighed and rested her head on top of Stacie's. "You can have the rest of my life."
A/N: There's going to be a brief epilogue after this. I hoped you liked this story. I wasn't really sure about the angst but I think it turned out okay.
