The next morning, JJ awoke feeling amazing, she was lying with her head on Hotch's broad chest with his arms snaked around her small waist holding her tightly. She gently shook hotch in an attempt to wake him up. "Hotch. Hotch we gotta get up for work." JJ whispered. "w-what? Im up, im up" came hotch's sleepy response. This caused JJ to giggle as she watched one of his eyes pop open and his small grin. "you laughin' at me, Agent jareau?" hotch asked mock seriously. "no sir. Most defiantly not." JJ giggled again. "right, that's it" hotch said laughing. He shot up in bed, grabbed JJs hips and pinned her down on the bed. He started tickling her stomach and he couldn't stop smiling at her cute giggles. "hotch! Hotch stop!" JJ laughed, suddenly hotch stopped and looked down at JJs semi-naked body. He grabbed her small wrist and let his fingers trace recent scars. "Jennifer? What are these" Hotch asked angrily. He looked down to see jj with tears strolling down her face. "ummm we really need to start getting ready for work agent Hotchner." JJ said coldly and she crawled from under him and slammed the bathroom door behind her. sHe struggled to control her breathing as she slid down the bathroom door, sobbing. She heard her apartment door slam and she knew she was finally alone. She grabbed her razor and stared cutting perfectly straight lines into her delicate pale wrists. She watched as the blood started pouring out of them as she sat there and cried. She jumped in the shower, got dressed, skipped breakfast and left for work.
Once she got to the office Morgan was waiting for her outside her door, "you're late Jareau. Hotch has a case for us." Morgan said coldly. JJ followed morgan to the round table room and sat down next to Emily, she nervously pulled her sleeve down as she noticed hotch burning a hole in wrist.
Later on the jet, she sat close to the back so no one would notice her, not that they usually do anyway, and opened a book she always pretends to read. For the first time today she noticed the ache and soreness between her legs, she looked up to see hotch carefully watching her, studying her.
When they landed it was just past 11pm. Hotch told them they would sleep and start fresh tomorrow. When they got to the hotel, hotch went to check them in but only came back with 3 sets of keys. "the hotel got our reservations mixed up, looks like we've gotta share" JJ watched as everyone seemed to double off instantly. She had a panicked look on her face, who was she going to share with. "okay JJ looks like you're with me" as they all walked off to their rooms hotch placed a hand on the small of JJs back and led her into the room. "which bed do you want?" hotch asked quietly. JJ shrugged back, and went and put her bag down on the bed furthest from the door. "you didn't eat today" Hotch said softly. JJ shrugged again as she grabbed her PJ's from her go bag and went to change in the bathroom. Hotch noticed she was limping a little. Did her hurt her last night? When she came back he was already in a t-shirt and some boxers. he watched as she climbed in bed silently and turned away from him. "JJ?" He said softly. He saw her nod a little and then continued "does it hurt? From last night" JJ nodded and whimpered a little. "im sorry sweetheart. Im sorry for walking out as well but we gotta talk. After this case me and you are gonna talk about you not taking care of your body. You have cuts all over your wrists and you weight nothing. Its not healthy jj" Hotch said softly. "night" was the quiet response he got back. He made sure to leave the light on as they both drifted off to sleep.
It was 4am, Hotch was awakened by a whimpering sound. He looked over at jj who was tossing around in bed covered in sweat. He rushed over and just as he was about to sit down she awoke with a high pitch scream and a sob. She tried to catch her breath again, she felt hotch bring her down to the bed holding her and rocking her gently. They both fell back into a restless slumber.