My first attempt at fan fic, please be kind. Rated M for future sexy times but right now it's pretty tame. I have only gotten 1 review so far. So please, tell me what you think. I need to know so I don't waste your time!

It's Senior Year at McKinley High. Rachel confronted Alex on his secret. What will he say? A lot of back-story/fluff. I don't own Glee but wish I did. It could be a lot more interesting.

Chapter 4

"Um Um Um" Alex stammered. "Where did you find that?" And he sat down on the edge of the bed and started shaking.

"Well for someone who is so smart, it really wasn't smart to keep the same name if you were going to just pretend to be someone else. All I did was Google you." Rachel said in a snotty tone. But then she saw tears fall down the boy's face. She sat down beside him and put her arm around his back. "Alex, don't cry. Please don't cry. I would never ever judge you. I just don't understand. I mean are you a boy? Are you a girl? If you are a girl, what was that I felt? Please Alex, just talk to me. Please explain to me what's going on because I am so confused." Rachel begged. She moved her hands to his face and wiped away his tears. She softly placed a kiss on his lips. "Please. Trust me."

Alex started to slow his breathing as he started to explain. "Well, I was born Alexandra Michelle Bloom. I have always been a tomboy and most of my friends are boys. I kissed by best friend, Mike, when I was 13 and it was just weird. I kissed a couple more boys and it was weird. But I was obsessed with them. I always hung out with boys. I was just one of the guys. I played football and liked cars and road dirt bikes and BMX and didn't care if I sweat. And when I was 15, this girl, her name was Andrea, she cornered me in the girls' locker room and she kissed me. My head spun around. My heart raced. And then she said, "If you were a boy, I would totally date you" and she walked off. So I realized, I liked girls. But I didn't feel gay. I just liked being with girls. So I came out as a lesbian because that was the only option I had. I dated a couple of girls. I played football. I wasn't picked on because I wasn't a dyke. My hair was long and I wore makeup. But I was still a tomboy. Baggie jeans, football jerseys and sneakers."

"Okay." Rachel interrupted. She noticed that the boy had stopped shaking and had gained some color back to his face. "So what happened? Why are you now Alex Bloom, the boy?"

Alex looked at her like he couldn't believe she was actually okay with all of this. He continued. "I knew everyone was cool with the fact that I was gay but I just didn't feel gay. I was flipping through channels one day and saw an interview with Chastity Bono, well now Chaz Bono. And it hit me. I am not a lesbian. I am a boy. So I sat down and talked with my moms. We decided that I would live one year as a boy before any major hormone therapy or surgeries. And after one year, if I felt the same way, they would pay to get everything started. But we knew I couldn't start my transition in Indy. I was known as the star girl football player with the lesbian moms. I didn't want them to be judged for my choice. So my mom applied for the job at Lima Memorial and my mother decided she wanted to go back to school anyways. So we moved here and I became Alex Michael Bloom." He put his head down like he was waiting for Rachel to ask him to leave.

"But your voice is deeper. You are an amazing tenor. Girls can't do that." Rachel exclaimed.

"I am on a minimal testosterone regimen. Basically it's just to adjust my voice and to stop my periods. If I stop taking it, my voice will go back to it's previous alto ways and I get PMS again" Alex chuckled. "Why doesn't this freak you out?" he asked.

Rachel smiled and she grabbed his hand with both of hers. "Well Alex, at first it did. But it was just because I was confused. But growing up with same sex parents, as I am sure you know, teaches you to not be judgmental and approach everything with an open mind. All I know is that I felt drawn to you and I think we hit it off and we sing great together. So can I still be your girlfriend?"

"It would be my honor, Miss Berry" and Alex kissed her. He loved her lip-gloss. "So, do you wear strawberry lip-gloss because you are Rachel Berry?" He asked.

"No silly boy. I wear it because boys like you like to kiss me more if I taste as sweet as my name" Rachel flirted. And she pushed him down on the bed again and straddled his waist. "So Alex, what is this thing poking me?"

"Well, it's the same thing any boy would have issues with if he had a beautiful girl on top of him trying to seduce him. It's my umm penis. Well it's my pack. Basically, it's like a strap on dildo but different in some ways. But I have a type that allows me to pee standing up as well so I can use the urinal at school" and he noticed Rachel's face turn red. "I am sorry. Was that too much info?"

"H-h-how do you have sex?" Rachel stuttered.

It was Alex's turn to blush. "Well, I hadn't planned on having sex during my transition. So I don't know. I know I can't with my pack. I really didn't plan on dating right away because it's such a hard thing to explain and I didn't want to freak anyone out. I can't believe you haven't screamed for me to get out. You really are amazing, Rachel Berry."

"Did you have sex with girls before in Indianapolis?" Rachel inquired.

"Yeah, a few. I hope that doesn't disappoint you. Did you and Finn or that Jesse guy do it? Or Puck? He seems like the resident ladies man." Alex asked.

"Oh no. Second base, that's it. Having sex, well that's not a part of my 10-year plan. My plan is to graduate, get into Julliard and be on Broadway before I can settle down and decide to give myself to my husband. Are you okay with that?" Rachel rambled.

"Rach, I would never do anything to disrespect you or push you into something you aren't comfortable with. Please know that. So I can trust that you will keep my secret right?" Alex asked.

"Of course, hun. I would never betray your trust" and Rachel leaned over and kissed him. And then she started giggling. "Umm, Alex. What happened to your boobs? You didn't cut them off did you?"

"Not yet! They are binded. Feel." And he put her hand on his chest. "They are binded with a big Ace Bandage type thing and then I have my tight Under Armor shirt on as well. It's takes them from a B to almost flat. "

"Wow. Umm, well I hope mine are enough for you. They are almost a B." Rachel suddenly felt insecure as her boyfriend had boobs bigger than hers.

"They are perfect. Just like you, Rachel Berry. Any other questions you have before I start kissing you again?" Alex asked he flipped her over onto her back and as started kissing her neck. He moved his lips up to her ear and nibbled on it. He lifted up the bottom of her shirt just to show a slight bit of her stomach and put his hand there. Rachel's eyes snapped open. "I trusted you. Now you trust me." And he rubbed his fingers softly over the warm skin of her stomach. "I will never disrespect you," he whispered as he drew her into a passionate kiss.

As Rachel laid on her bed kissing him, thoughts raced through her head. She was kissing a girl who was a boy who was a girl. And then she realized she didn't really care as she felt a fire burn inside of her panties. It didn't matter if Alex was a boy or a girl because Rachel knew it just felt right.

But Rachel wasn't the only one with racing thoughts. As Alex kissed his dark haired girlfriend, he realized he was a boy who was a girl who was a boy and was kissing a girl, an amazing girl. And it felt right.

Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity. And you won't bring me down!

"Dammit, that's my phone." Rachel said as she got up. "Hi daddy! Ummm, I am just reading some stuff online. Five minutes? Ok. Chinese sounds great. Bye daddy!"

"I guess that's my cue to leave." Alex said as he smiled.

"Unfortunately, but we will always have tomorrow!"

They walked down the stairs and out into the backyard and shared another kiss. Just as the boy jumped the fence, Rachel heard her front door open.

"Hey hunny. I am home. Look who I found getting ready to knock on the door. He said he needed to talk to you." Rachel's dad said as he stepped aside and she saw Finn standing in the doorway.