Chapter 6
Edward, Alice, Rosalie, Jasper, and Emmet were standing outside when I got back. Apparently Alice saw me coming.

As soon as I was off my bike and had put my helmet away Edward and the rest had enveloped me in a huge group hug. Ugg like I really needed this right now, to be welcomed home like the prodigal son after killing that man.

"Bella its ok," Alice told me, much to my own dismay, "we understand why you had to do it." When she said that I started sobbing (of course no tears would come). Everyone but Edward let go of me and gave us some space.

"Shh, its ok love." He told me, trying to comfort me.

"No its not Edward." I cried into his chest, "Do you even know what I did?" I was pleading for him to understand, for him to hate me as much as I hated myself.

"We all know, Bella, Alice told us what you did in order to save them." He said, not helping a bit.

"Yeah?" I said pushing him away. "And did she also tell you that when I killed that man that I didn't even think twice about it? Did she tell you that I just walked in and killed him with out a second glance at his kids sleeping on the bed? And did she tell you how I didn't even regret killing him, that all I could think when I was finished was that I wanted more?" by the time I was done I was screaming at him. I sank to my knees sobbing harder than I had before.

Edward tried to put his arms around me but I pushed him away again. I pushed Alice and Emmet away too. When Jasper came over though I leaned into. He was the only one I would let touch me because I knew that he had had a hard time controlling himself when I was a human. I didn't know if he still did, but it helped knowing that I wasn't the only one that had done things like this.

Ten minutes later Jasper was still holding me and my sobs were slowing when Carlisle and Esme got back from hunting. Esme immediately came over and hugged me the second she saw me. Jasper let go if me and went to stand next to Alice. I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her back.

"Its ok Bella, we've all done it at times." She told me. "And when we did it, it was for much, much less honorable causes."

"I'm alright now." I told them as I pulled away from Esme and went to Edwards waiting arms.

A few months later the memory of killing that man still tortured me. I killed him for a good reason I kept telling myself, as did everyone else. And I didn't do it just because Kevin was holding the Cullen family prisoners till I did kill him, but also because the man had found out about vampires and was planning on exposing us (a/n hope that's a good explanation for you guys).

In case you were wondering, Kevin is a member of the Volturi, he was there before I left. Aro told me he was supposed to be taking my place when I left. And apparently he had, not that I doubted he would. It's just that he drinks from humans. Which has been against their morals for over 100 years. I figured they were planning on having him change his diet. Which was more likely than them changing theirs back. They understood that it was wrong to use humans like that. Also because since becoming vegetarians, human blood was poisonous to them, if they drank human blood they would die. I made sure of that.

I was so wrapped up in my thoughts that I nearly jumped out of my skin when I felt someone wrap their arms around my waist.

"Did I scare you?" Edward asked, already knowing the answer. I lied anyway.

"I'm never scared." I told him.

"Oh really? Then why did you jump ten feet in the air when I hugged you?"

"I was busy thinking about something." I explained, "You surprised me that's all."

"I see," he had a thoughtful look on his face, " and what were you thinking about that took you attention away so fully?"

"Oh this and that." I replied evasively. "I wasn't done thinking about it either." I said, pretending to be mad.

"Do you think your thoughts could wait a bit?" He asked me mischievously.

"Why?" I asked back.

"It's a surprise." I groaned. I hated surprises. Always had, even when I was human. Well especially when I was human cause I couldn't read peoples minds to find out what it was and if I'd like it.

"Come on," he said grabbing my hand and pulling me out the door and to the car. "You'll love this one, I promise."

"Fine." I said and let him put me into the passenger seat in his Lamborghini. He drove us out to where the highway ends and we ran threw the forest to the meadow, our meadow. My jaw dropped when I saw what had been done to it. There were white and blue Christmas lights in all the trees and in the very middle was a romantic table with two chairs.

"Edward its beautiful!" I exclaimed. I looked up at him for an explanation as to why it was all decked out like this. He just smiled, wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me to the table.

For dinner there was raw meet covered in blood. I chuckled when I saw this, we could only drink blood, but at least we could do it with style.

As we ate there was romantic music playing in the background. I wanted to know how that was possible since we were in the middle of the forest with no electricity at all. I didn't ask though, I didn't want to ruin the moment.

"Bella will you dance with me?" Edward asked me as the music changed.

"Ok" I told him, stood up and took the hand he was offering. He led me a little ways away from the table then stopped and put his arms around my waist. I placed my head against his chest as we swayed to the music.

When the song was over he pulled back and bent down on one knee. My mouth popped open but I didn't say anything.

"Isabella Marie Swan" he said taking my hand. "Will you marry me?"

A/N hope this chapter helped out with the confusion of the last one. Sorry about that guys. And sorry for the cliffy.

And since i forgot to do this the last five chapters

Disclamer: i do not own twilight or new moon or any of the characters in them. they belong to Stepanie Meyer