Emma looked in the mirror, wearing a white tank top and still owning jean shorts with her long tanned legs. She turned, and went out the door. She had a carnival to go to today.

"Em, you want a ride?" called Spike as Emma jogged down the stairs.

"No." was all Emma said and fled out. Spike sat at the dining table and shared a curious look with Snake.

((((******))))))

Sean waited for Manny and Jay at the side of the park before entering the carnival. His eyes darted around as he tried to keep watch for her. He looked down, feeling his hands shake then clenched his jaw when his eyes fell onto his wedding ring. He shouldn't let her see him still wearing it. . he painfully and slowly slipped it off.

"Emma do you take this man, Sean Cameron, to be your husband?"

"I certainly do."

"Sean, do you take-"

"Hell yes."

"SEAN!" Sean jumped out of his flashback that haunted his memory and looked around, wondering where that came from and then ahead, a famous redhead was walking over to him from the Snack bar stand and she carried two slushies.

Sean put his ring into his pocket and greeted, "Hey El." he found his eyes dashing around though still for another more, surprising visit from another girl.

Ellie wore a black tank top and jean skirt. She smiled, "Thanks for inviting me." she passed him a slushi. He rose his eyebrows but took it.

Sean ran a hand through his hair. He didn't know why he did this. It was starting to be a sad excuse to make Emma jealous. He hadn't been with any other girls since, well not dating at least and barely sleeping with any either. It never went anywhere. He always felt like it was cheating too, though Emma was gone. But it just didn't feel right.

"No problem. I'm just waiting for the usual gang members." he joked, looking around rather impatiently. He put his hands into his jean pockets and felt the ring in his pocket and clenched it in his hand tightly.

Meanwhile, Manny and Jay were with Spinner and Holly J and were walking towards them. Manny scoffed seeing Ellie with Sean. "What?" Jay asked and noticed too. He wasn't a fan of Ellie either, but anything to keep Sean happy. "So what?"

"So she's a soul sucker." taunted Manny. She wished she could just tell Jay about what Emma thought she saw years ago. Then he'd understand.

"If he wants to date other girls, than so be it." Jay didn't think there was anything wrong, "Greenpeace is engaged to someone else now for fucking sake."

Manny just bit her tongue. She wasn't sure anymore.

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Emma Nelson walked through the busy crowd on the other side of the park, wondering how even kids could enjoy a place so packed. How the hell was she going to find anyone here?

"Step right up! Get your..." Emma jumped, too close to an entertainer who screamed in her ear. God sometimes she hated the Carnival, it's freaky clowns, loud noises. The rollar coaster above was roaring as it spun in circles and rounded the carnival . Kids were walking with their familys, screaming and laughing.

Then, Emma saw the familiar group of friends down at least 10 feet away. She'd never forget the face of Sean Cameron, or his biceps. Oh god. Oh my god. It's like everything stopped, even the noise, and Emma's feet couldn't move from where she stood. Her eyes painfully looked him over and how good he looked. Healthy too. He carried a cup with a straw in it, seemed like a slushi. Beside him, carrying one like it was the one and only Ellie Nash.

Her best friend, Manny, or what was supposed to be her best friend, now walked with them ever so happily with her fiance, Jay..

Emma felt torn. She felt like a ghost now.

Emma glanced a bit sadly once more at Ellie. It ripped Emma apart as she watched Sean looking pretty focused on whatever the husband stealing tramp was saying. Emma shook her head, frowning deeply, that wasn't fair of her to say. She then panicked, seeing them get closer and she turned as quick as she could, shoving through the crowd.

Today wasn't the day. She couldn't face him. Her heart was thumping out of her chest it even hurt and she felt the tears working back up. Flashes were hitting her hard, memories of her and Sean even just laughing or cuddling...

Now they were strangers.

((*))

Meanwhile, with the other group..

"Wanna stop for lunch?" Jay asked them.

Manny laughed to Spinners stomach growling, "I think that's a good idea" she nodded.

They looked to Ellie and Sean, but they were too wrapped up in a conversation.. or at least, Ellie wouldn't shut up about her work.

"But I really want this raise you know.." Ellie went on, and Sean found himself going in and out of the conversation as his ears tried to listen, but his mind was going on and on itself about something else.

He tried to focus harder on what she was saying and kept nodding so it'd look like he was really into it and not fading out ever so rudely.

"Guys!" they heard and turned, "Lunch?" Manny raised an eyebrow.

Sean nodded and sighed, "Yea. Good idea." they went over to the all the food stands and benches to sit down at.

Meanwhile, as Emma went to exit, Toby Issacs was just coming in with a grown up Danny Van Zandt. Liberty was in New York, last Emma heard of. Doing very well. And Toby had gotten back together with Kendra in college and they had a kid. Along with Toby was the cute little girl herself. Probably around 4 years old, long brown hair and a Korean/Caucasian background. She was adorable, holding a balloon.

When she bumped into Toby, his eyes widened, "Emma! You're back?"

Emma's mouth hung and she tried to hide her tears, and bitterly laughed, "Yea. Sorry. Guess I'm just selfish and don't tell anybody anything anymore." Toby was confused, and Emma pushed it away when she noticed the little girl. She smiled sadly and bent down, "You must be Tatum."

"Kendra's clone." joked Toby, glad to see Emma back and already hitting it off with Tatum who usually shy'd away from people but smiled back at Emma.

"Is red your favorite color?" Emma asked her, since she held a red balloon. Tatum nodded and her other hand played with her dress. "Did Mommy pick that out for you?" Tatum nodded again. "Where is Kendra?" Emma asked.

"Working today."

"Which is fine." Danny spoke up, "I'm like the cool uncle and get to go on the rides with her since Toby here gets sick."

Emma laughed, recalling that. Toby glared at both of them, even Tatum giggled but held Emma's hand next. "Come." she demanded.

Emma bit her lip, but decided to follow. How could she say no?

((**))

When Tatum played a fishing game at a game stand, Emma and Toby finally had time to talk when Danny went to go get a snack.

"So," Toby asked, "Bad day?"

Emma looked away from Tatum trying to play the game. "What do you mean?"

"When we bumped into you, you were crying. Come on, Emma."

Emma knew she couldn't lie and just shrugged, "I wanted to leave. I saw.. .Sean, and everyone." she sucked in a shakey breath. "It's like life really does go on without me." she joked. She knew it was silly to feel like it shouldn't have.

Toby sadly watched her laugh, but saw the pain across her face. "Emma, it's been four years," he tried to make her feel better, but it wasn't working.

"I know." Emma agreed with a small nod. "Here I am wanting him to sign divorce papers, yet I can't get over the fact he can move on without me."

Toby didn't know what to say to that, he passed her a sympathetic look though.

She jumped when her phone in her pocket rang, "Be right back." she told Toby, walking to the left and she shut her eyes until she stopped by a tree and leaned on it. She took a deep breath and picked it up.

Emma: Hello?

Kelly: Hey sweetie.

Emma cried right there, but silently, and she shut her eyes. When she mustered the strength to try and sound alright, she spoke again..

Emma: I miss you..h-how are you?

Kelly didn't even seem to notice the stutter and sniffle that came out and went on about his day and Emma just stood there, letting the tears drop and her shoulders fell as she just leaned against the tree. She knew it'd be hard, but she didn't know it was going to take everything out of her.

She didn't know if she could do this.

When they were done talking, Emma gathered up the courage and went back to Toby and played the game with Tatum. She started to feel better and laughed when Tatum had trouble popping the balloons for the next game.

((((*)))))

Everyone at the table were mostly eating hot dogs, with Holly J eating three. "What?" she snapped at Manny's side laugh with Jay.

"Nothing." swore Manny.

Sean was finished and just sat on the bench with them until they were done. Jay couldn't help but click his tongue and from across, began to talk lowly for only Sean to hear.

"About the whole Emma thing," he said, and Ellie glanced over. Manny listened in too, since sitting next to Jay. "You going to sign the papers or what?"

Sean clenched his jaw, looking around and now seeing everyone looking at him. He hated looking like an idiot and just snapped, "She made my life a living hell for 4 years, I can do it for a week if that's all she came here for."

"So is that a yes...or a no?" Spinner asked dumbly. Holly J elbowed him.

"She's here?" Ellie's mouth fell. Emma Nelson? Emma was HERE?

"Hey guys!" a voice chirped in, Danny Van Zandt coming over. Everyone greeted but Sean, who glared down at his hands on the table bench. "Did you see Emma here?" he pointed behind him.

Sean's head turned quick, looking over Danny to the games section. There Emma was, looking her best, and playing with Toby Issac's kid. Sean painfully watched Tatum hug Emma's leg as one of the men behind the stands tried giving her the prize. Emma laughed and took it for her.

Sean heart clenched.

"What does she want?" Ellie spoke up, quite interested. Even Jay paused and gave her a wierd look. Was that a jealous tone he detected? Maybe he was for Sean moving on, but he still wasn't a fan of Ellie and Emma was still married to Sean. Ellie had nothing to do with this nor was it her business.

"Probably something marriage related if it's about 'papers'." Jay winked at Ellie, she narrowed her eyes but shrugged it off.

"Well that's good I guess, right?" Ellie insisted happily, and also noticed Sean not wearing his wedding ring and beamed, "So it's going to be all over soon?"

Sean just kept staring down at his hands until he took a sharp breath in and stood up, "I'm going to go find a bathroom." was all he said, and left the table.

Ellie stared after him and Manny and Jay shared a look. Jay watched Manny turn to look at Emma too, standing with Toby. "Manny." Jay warned. He sighed knowing what she was thinking.

"I have to." she admitted. He'd never understand, but she loved Emma. They were best friends, no matter what.

He scoffed, but thought about it. "Fine." he muttered. He tried to ignore how she wouldn't let Emma go, but he did kind of get it. The two grew up together, and when there was Emma, there was always Manny around. They were good friends, he even thought it was amusing always when they were together. He just hated Emma so much for what she did to Sean, right when Jay was getting warmed up to her too. If he remember, him and Emma had even maybe been friends before everything went down.

She smiled and kissed him as she then got up, "pick me up later round 9?" he nodded, and watched her go.

Meanwhile, when Sean walked around the carnival, he bumped into Snake and Spike with Baby Jack.

"Sean!" Jack even swung more happily in his mothers hand as Snake nodded as a hello to Sean. They saw him too, so it wasn't like Sean could walk away before being seen.

Snake noticed Sean looking a little bothered, and he knew why. Spike even passed a small smile and looked down to Jack before back up at him and Snake. "We're going to go on the ferris wheel. He's been begging all afternoon." she joked.

Sean chuckled and nodded, and Snake held up his familys popcorn, "I'll hold the fort." he said Spike nodded, and took Jack to a ride.

She smiled softly once more at Sean, "Bye Sean."

"Bye Mrs S." still, and always, Mrs S. She had to chuckle as she left. Meanwhile, Snake held back with Sean and had to ask.

"You okay?"

Sean roughly nodded.

"Did you see her yet?" Snake asked again and they connected eyes. Sean nodded with a shrug.

"I saw her. She didn't see me."

Snake patted him on the back, "You're a strong guy, Sean."

Sean hated to admit that he wasn't, not when it came to Emma. She was his weak spot.

"Thanks." he said thought, smirking a little for at least the support.

"Hey." Snake called before Sean turned to walk away, "My cars acting up again. Making the noise Ch, ch, shhh."

Sean snickered at him and insisted, "Just bring it in as usual." he rolled his eyes, "I don't know why you won't get a new car."

"Why when I got a mechanic as a son in law?!" Snake laughed for his smile to fade when he noticed Sean cringe a bit and then walk off after nodding. Snake sighed and shook his head.

((((((*****)))))))

"That's the mens washroom, Tatum." teased Emma, pulling her little dress back to stop the girl from running in there and pointed at the girls side. She came with her since Toby couldn't but it seemed Tatum wanted to go in the mens bathroom anyways.

Tatum giggled and ran into the girls. Emma laughed and turned to bump hard into another person on his way to the men's. "Opps, sorry-" when she moved her hair back, her mouth hung, standing in front of Sean who looked as well like a deer caught in the headlights.

"Sean." her heart pounded.

He finally snapped out of it and she watched his jaw tighten and eyes darken. "Heard you were back in town." his voice was deep, husky.

Emma's mouth hung open, not knowing what to say. What now?

Author note: Stopping here until I get reviews. What do you guys think of some of the changes? I also want to move more into the Janny wedding so don't worry guys, more of that soon too! But EEek, Semma finally ran into another. Sorry it took so long, I needed it to be built up.