I am so sorry I haven't updated in a while but my GCSEs are in a month and I have been so busy! I promise once I finish them in may I will post almost everyday to make it up to you. Anyway thank you to all who read, follow, favourite and review this story, it really makes my day.

"So Nick you see I never would have done it but I was drunk and mad at you. It was a wrong place, wrong time situation."

"Being drunk doesn't make it acceptable Jess," Nick yelled.

"I know but if I wasn't drunk it never would have happened," Jess argued.

"Did you know Jess just after we had been going out for a month I was in a similar situation?" Nick asked.

"What you cheated on me?" Jess gasped.

"No that's the point, I didn't. Shane lured me down to the basement of the bar on the pretence of business. She got me drunk and then came onto me and I rejected her. I thought: 'no I have a girlfriend who I care about.' I guess you didn't think that when you slept with Sam. I didn't even love you then and I was faithful to you. What does that say about you Jess?"

Jess just stared back, her bottom lip quivering.

"I guess it says that I'm a cruel heartless bitch," she managed at last.

Nick softened at her referring to herself in that way and tried to calm himself down so he was preaching to her onto a more emotional rather than an angry level.

"Jess your not a bitch but you have caused a lot of damage," he said softy.

"Don't you think I know that!" She suddenly cried at him. "I've had to live with the guilt and remorse for what I did to you everyday for two years. Of course I realise I've caused a lot of damage!"

"Jess I'm not trying to be mean to you and taunt you about what you did, I'm just trying to explain how I feel about it all to you. It hurts so much the idea that you kissed and touched and slept with another man while I was at home, waiting for you to come back so I could apologise and tell you how much I loved you. Imagine if that was you Jess."

He saw her face crumble and her start to sob uncontrollably.

"See, it's not a nice image to have stuck in your head is it Jess?" He asked, trying to stop himself from crumpling into a sobbing wreck like she was.

"When you left, it killed me inside. Now I see what I felt before was only a minor injury compared to this."

"Jess please let me explain myself," Nick begged down the line.

"Go away Nick, I'm still mad at you," Nick heard Jess hiss. "I'm out with Cece and I'm going to go and have a good time, goodbye!" She said before hanging up.

"Damn it," Nick grunted slamming the phone down on the table in front of him. He hated it when she was mad at him it. The only positive thing from this nightmare of a day was at least he was finishing early as the bar had to be closed for maintenance. Not that a free night off would be much useful if there was no one to go home to.

He tried calling her once more but she rejected the call so he sent a text instead hoping she would at least read it. Playing with his phone in his hands, he anxiously waited for her to reply and tell him words he had wished for weeks she would say to him instead of the harsh angry ones she usually shouted at him.

Things with Jess has become a little strained lately, he had been working double shifts as they were short staffed and she was going through a stressful time at work so they found themselves arguing a lot more than normal. Usually it was only over silly little things and they would make up by the end of the day, but recently it was full blown screaming rows which ended with them both pouting like teenagers. However they both knew that it was just a phase as they were both tired and stressed all the time and it was coming up to their one year anniversary which brought them as a couple a lot of pressure. He just hoped that everything was going to be better very soon and everything would work out for them like it usually did.

Nick slowly breathed in and out, taking deep gulps to steady his anger that had suddenly rushed to the surface as he was explaining his pain to her. He knew if he didn't calm himself down he would either punch her wall or hunt Sam down and beat him up.

"Did it happen any more times?" He asked calmly, the thought suddenly occurring in his mind.

"What? No of course not!" Jess replied looking disgusted and surprised by his sudden change of mood. "Do you really think I'm that kind of girl?"

"Well I didn't think you were the kind of bitch to cheat in her boyfriend in the first place, but look how that turned out," Nick spat.

Jess sharply inhaled and took a step back from him, her face crumpling again.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean that," Nick apologised, he knew that was a low thing to say to her. "I'm overwhelmed and just struggling to understand this that's all."

"Nick I was drunk out of my mind and I didn't know what I was doing and I would do anything to change it Nick, you have to believe me," Jess suddenly gabbled desperately. "It was so hard losing you the first time, I can't lose you again."

"You think it was hard for you?" Nick asked looking shocked.
"I was the one you left behind when you broke up with me and moved out. You chose to lose me, I had no choice in the matter. In fact I was the one who was asked you to spend the rest of your life with me if I remember and you rejected me because you couldn't face up to what you did. You didn't even make up a reason so I had no idea why you broke up with me. I thought it was my fault all this time and tried to make myself better because of it when in fact it was you. You left me a broken man with half of my heart missing and you act like you're the one who's had the hard time!" He ranted.
"And now when I've only just managed to get myself back on track and I become stupid enough to let you in again, you break me." He finished, tears starting to run down his own face now.

Jess hadn't said anything during Nick's speech, just listened and cried silently as she realised the extent of what she had done.

"I've lost you forever now haven't I?" She whispered miserably.

"I guess you have," Nick replied shakily before walking out the door once more.