A/n: Thanks for all the comments guys, even though some of you don't like me now. I really appreciate the feedback. Sorry these have been taking so long to write. I have been really busy and I've honestly lost a lot of my creativity lately. I didn't want to write if I couldn't do it justice.
I couldn't breath. The sensation of pleasure took over my body. I felt his lips part as his breath emptied into my throat. For a second, I felt strangely alone. I realized it was because I was alone. This disappearing act was getting old. I fought with the passion inside of my body, as he was gone. I realized he would not have left unless… my thoughts trailed off and my imagination ran away with itself. Suddenly, I felt guilty for everything I did. I felt like I should be shot or something. Why was it I was constantly hurting the closest people, well err vampires, to me? What else could I do to make Edward unhappy?
There was a quite sound from my window pain. My mind knew exactly who it was before I felt his cool hand around. Still naked and guilty, I lie there pretending to be asleep. I pretended to stir as he realized I wasn't wearing anything. Quietly, I faked a yawn and rolled into the curve of his body. I felt his lips press to my head and I opened my eyes, "Edward," I whispered quietly, "how was hunting?"
I opened my eyes only to find him staring at me. It took me a minute to comprehend why. I pulled the blanket over me to cover as much as possible, my face hot with embarrassment. I looked up at his ocher eyes to see his reaction.
"Bella, love, why are you naked?" he whispered unable to take his eyes off my chest. I pulled his chin up and glared at him a little for letting his male hormones rage. However, technically, he didn't have hormones.
"Eyes up here," I said pointing to my face. "Why do you ask? You don't like it?" His gaze tightened and I smiled jokingly. I could tell not even he could compose his face. His reaction made me smile. I really did love him. Maybe, if I were lucky, Shane would never come back. But, somehow, I did not want that at all. God this whole indecision, a war that I was fighting with myself, was so confusing. He still continued to stare at me, eyeing my body. Next to him, I always felt a little out of place but now I just felt put to shame. His beauty made me more self-conscious. Pulling the covers up over my body, I walked to put my clothes back on. "Were you really that worried about me you had to come back right away?" I asked him. I knew the obvious answer was "yes" but I was just trying to get him to talk to me, the staring was awkward.
"Bella, there is something seriously wrong. I can't hear him. Alice can't see him. Do you know how dangerous that could be for you?" Edward said the urgency in his voice apparent. "I can't even get a scent off of him." Hmm, being blind obviously bothered him more than I expected. Well, now he knew how we humans felt. Then a sudden tightening of his eyes alerted me to the visitor sitting on my windowsill, it was none other than Shane. Finally, the two were in the same room. I felt strangely queasy. I could not deal with this now. Edward had obviously heard the quickened pace of my heart and was aware of my nervousness. He tightened his grip around me, shielding me, protecting me. He took my heart rate as fear not nervousness. Ugh, always protecting me. How could he? How could he want to protect someone as despicable as me? "I disagree, Edward, I'm not dangerous for her. My gift works to my advantage," he cooed. His voice was calm and reassuring but Edward was not having that. His tightened his hard grip on me but Shane only moved off my sill closer. He was not afraid. He obviously knew what he was dealing with. "I may even be better for her then you," he said casually. Let him say what he wanted but I prayed he would not rat on me. I would rather tell Edward myself and beg for forgiveness then have Shane spill the beans. I bit the bottom of my lip. I was so selfish. Why could not I just do what is best for everyone? Why did I constantly hurt everyone? I groaned and got closer to Edward.
"Bella, don't you think it's time you told him?" he said bringing my fears to life. Stupid, beautiful vampire. Why? I could feel Edward's eyes on me now, but I could not meet them for the life of me. I felt the tears well up and the hot blood rushed to my face. The tears spilled over and then it was just Edward and me alone in my room, with more to talk about then ever. What was Shane? Why was he here, ruining the perfect future I had ahead of me.