*I don't own…much to my dismay*
Kara sighed as she settled onto the jet's sofa, her eyes focused on Hotch as he talked to Derek. Shaking her head she pressed her hand to her temple as her head began to throb. I really shouldn't have done that, she thought to herself. Scooting back against the cushions of the sofa, she prepared herself for the trip to Venice, Italy. She chuckled when Derek flopped down onto the sofa's seat next to her, his face split into a huge grin.
"Hey Apple Head, how ya doin'?" he asked her his tone teasing and concerned simultaneously.
"Like a car fell on top of me," she grinned, her eyes following Hotch as he sat down across from Reid the two of them playing chess. Derek's eyes followed hers and he sighed when she noticed where she was looking.
"Why didn't you tell anyone Kara?" he asked softly.
Her lips trembling slightly, her voice shaking, Kara turned to him to answer, "Your mother knew, so did Sarah and Desiree and my parents. We'd contacted you and told you that I'd been in the hospital but you were busy with a case and then Hayley died…honestly, I didn't want to think about it after that. Aaron had already been through so much, I just…" She shook her head as she turned to look back at Aaron who was listening to the conversation with half an ear as he played chess against Reid.
"Why didn't you tell Hotch later?" Derek asked. Kara's eyes closed as she shook her head, tears streaming down her face.
"It was over, done with. We were happy. We'd found our way back to each other. I may not remember us getting married or fully remember our children but my heart does. It aches with yearning when I think about them. My heart breaks when I think about the child that I lost. I feel wracked with guilt because I know that it's my fault that I lost that baby-" she explained.
"No, Kara, it wasn't your fault," Derek interrupted, stopping when Kara shook her head.
"It was my fault Derek. The doctors told me that my job was too stressful and too physically demanding and that I should take it easy. I didn't. I was hurting and upset that Aaron had moved on so quickly, that our three weeks together had meant absolutely nothing to him, so I pushed harder rather than taking it easier. So when I lost the baby, I felt guilty, like there was a part of me that wanted to lose the baby," she sighed as she turned to look out of the window at the clouds, "From what I can remember and knowing myself, when we got back together I'd forgotten about the miscarriage and telling him, when we were so happy and when there was nothing to do to change it, would've seemed foolish. So I kept it to myself." Shaking her head again she stood up, lightly touched Derek on the shoulder, and walked to jet's kitchenette to get a drink.
She heard footsteps behind her, thinking that it was Derek she sighed, "Derek, I don't want to talk about it anymore."
"It was Jessica," she heard Hotch say behind her. Turning around swiftly to face him, she raised an eyebrow.
"What? Who was Jessica?" she asked in confusion.
"When you called. The woman who answered the phone, it was Jessica. I remember there was one night when I had Jack for the weekend and she told me that some woman had called for me. She was pretty angry about the whole thing, but she never told me who called or gave me a number so I forgot about it," Hotch stated, his voice low, his eyes glossy with unshed tears, his gaze watchful.
Kara bit her bottom lip and shyly looked down at the floor before looking back up at him, "I didn't leave a name or my number, when she answered the phone and I asked for you, she said you weren't there and then asked who the hell I was and why was I calling you. I thought that maybe you were really married and had lied to me about being divorced, so I apologized for calling and I hung up." She quickly wiped away the tears that fell from her eyes, "I'm so sorry Aaron. I know that will never make up for me keeping this secret from you, but I am so, so sorry for not telling you about the baby," her words caught on a sob, "and for not telling you that I lost the baby."
Hotch pulled her into his arms as she sobbed into his arms, before long she was clutching her head and shaking violently.
"Kara? Baby, are you okay?" Hotch asked as he lifted her in his arms and carried her over to the sofa, the rest of the team stood and looked down at her as she curled in on herself, her hands clutching the sides of her head as she moaned in pain.
After a while, she calmed down and her breathing, which had been quick and shallow, slowed down. She slowly opened her eyes and looked around at everyone as they stood looking down at her.
"Are you okay baby?" Hotch asked as he brushed back her hair from her face.
"Yeah," she panted out, taking a deep breath, "I just remembered Arthur Collins and the case and you all coming to Chicago to help me with the case." Inhaling deeply she let out her breath slowly and turned her face into Hotch's hand, her eyes looking up to stare into his. "I remember you. I remember falling back in love with you. I remember the two weeks we spent together in Chicago and me joining the BAU. I remember Jack and the triplets, I remember you proposing to me and me saying yes. It was such a beautiful proposal, Aaron," she sighed.
"Do you remember anything else?" Prentiss asked. Kara shook her head sadly.
"That's okay; at least you're getting there. That's all that matters," Rossi encouraged.
"Speaking of there…did you guys know that I once took a trip to Italy?" JJ stated from where she stood by Reid.
"No!" everyone chorused in shock. JJ nodded with a smile.
"Yep, I sure did. It was the summer right before college. A friend and I decided to backpack through Europe for the summer. We got to Italy and I decided not to leave," she said with a smile.
Hotch squeezed Kara gently in his arms and kissed her forehead, his eyes trained on JJ as she shared her story.
"Anything interesting happen in Italy?" Derek asked with a grin.
"Wweeeellll," JJ hedged, her facing turning a delicate shade of pink, "Maybe."
The team laughed and applauded, making noises in support of the communications liaison. JJ curtsied before turning away.
"Hey! Hey now! You gotta tell us what happened when you were in Italy!" Prentiss stated.
"Yeah, c'mon JJ, it's only fair," Kara agreed from her place in Hotch's arms. Her husband determined to never let her go, especially now that she'd remembered her love for him, and his love for her.
"Okay, I met this EXTREMELY handsome Italian man and his girlfriend; they invited me to stay with them. So I did. I spent the days of that summer, working in their café with them. And I spent the nights drinking, dancing and…" JJ paused with a grin.
"Oh my gosh!" Kara laughed, her eyes getting wide.
"What? What? What'd I miss?" Derek asked looking from JJ to Kara and back again.
"You didn't!" Prentiss exclaimed with a smile. JJ merely nodded her head.
"Way to go JJ, I didn't think you had it in you," Rossi commented with a nod of approval.
"The things you learn about people when you take an overseas flight with them," Hotch said with a smile, amusement twinkling in his eyes.
"Didn't think she had what in her? What did she do? What did we learn? C'mon JJ, spill the beans!" Derek cried in exasperation.
"Morgan, come on man. You're way more experienced than I am and I've already deduced what they're talking about. I never would've thought you'd have done that JJ," Reid said turning to look at the young mother with a grin.
JJ shrugged, "I was young, unattached, and carefree, and they were really attractive."
Derek's eyes widened, "Wait a minute! Are you telling me that you, YOU Miss Super mom-Ultra-Proper-FBI agent had a threesome with this Italian guy and his girlfriend?" he asked, finally catching on.
With a wicked grin JJ nodded, "It was more than once, more than twice. It was the entire summer." She turned to wink at Kara and Prentiss, the women just smiling at her in return.
"Wow," Derek breathed as he flopped down in a chair, his eyes wide and unfocused. "Who'da'thunk it?"
"You never know the true nature of a person until you put them in a certain situation," JJ pointed out.
"So true," Kara agreed with a nod. Smiling at Hotch when he kissed her.
"Attention agents, please take your seats and buckle your seatbelts, we will be landing in Italy in just a moment," the pilot came over the intercom and stated.
Kara laughed as she watched Derek follow JJ and sit down next to her, "So JJ, can I get details?" Derek asked with a lecherous grin.
"Derek!" Kara exclaimed at the same time that Prentiss, Reid, JJ, and Hotch said, "Morgan!" Rossi merely grinned.
"What?" Derek asked with a shrug. "I'm married, but I ain't dead…yet."
The team merely shook their collective heads, all of them smiling as the plane finally touched down at the Italian airport. They all quickly grabbed their bags and departed the plane, their eyes scanning the area for their contact, Senor Cantalioni.
"There!" Kara pointed when she saw the man standing in front of bullet-proof vehicle.
"Senora! Senora Morgan! Buon giorno!" the man greeted Kara as they approached him, kissing both of Kara's cheeks. Kara laughed in surprise.
"How did you know who I was?" she asked after the friendly Italian man had greeted everyone.
"Your Richard, your lover, your husband? Tu amore? He send me picture of you years ago. He says that you may come to see me one day. For information? Si? I have papers for you, but we must no longer talk out here, is not safe. Come! Come! All of you, quickly, we must go, before they discover that you are here!" Senor Cantalioni said as he ushered the agents into the limo and not a moment too soon. For as soon as the limo pulled quickly away from the airport, driving through a private vineyard that bordered the airport, the airport parking lot and runway was filled with SUVs, trucks, and limos, men filed out, guns in their hands, looking around quickly, looking for the agents.
"We have no jurisdiction here, we can only get information that will help us arrest those in America," Rossi stated.
"Damn," Prentiss stated.
"My sentiments exactly," Kara responded, before placing her head on Hotch's shoulder as they lost sight of the airport and the men who were looking for them.
The interior of the limo was quiet for some time before Derek turned to look at JJ, "So….Italy…."
*That damn Derek! I had no idea that JJ was going to be the one with the big secret. I actually toyed with it being Reid, but in honor of A.J. Cook who is AMAZING on the show, I decided to give her a little bit of a wild side in this chapter. I hope you enjoyed! I'll be posting Chap. 7 soon! Please R &R! I'd appreciate it!*