It was rather odd fighting Shego while thinking of her as something else than an enemy. Instead of constantly thinking of how to gain an advantage over her I took more of my time to keep our chat (or rather banter, it had always been that) going. I even noticed how gracefully she moved while blocking and countering my own actions. She has something about her, something almost catlike, a dangerous elegance. But I did not feel intimidated by that, but rather drawn towards it, like a moth towards the light. Play with the fire and you get burned. I did not feel like I had burned something, I felt, for lack of a better description, alive. The odd thing was that all the watching and talking did not stop me from doing my best, I fought better than ever before. I actually managed to win, but she wound out of my grip and got away. Let's face it. I should have known better than to let my guard go enough for her to get away. To be completely honest I did know.
Why did I let her escape? I do not know. It was something about this mysterious feeling. What is it to begin with? Worst thing is I cannot even wait until I get to meet her again. I should definitely not look forward to meeting a villain, harmless or not. The moment I see her again she most likely has just committed a crime. I do not care. Why? And why did Ron shoot me such an odd look when we got back to our ride? It seemed almost as if he suspected me to somewhat side with Shego or something else on the lines of that.
It is all so confusing. I do not understand me, I do not understand Ron, and I definitely do not understand Shego. I do not even understand my mother. She asked whether I had a new crush when I came back home. Whatever got her that idea I do not know, but she seemed to be so sure she was really surprised when I told her I have not. She gave me exactly the same odd look Ron already gave me. I got the feeling that if he would have gone on, he would have asked just the same question as her.
I got to sleep on this. Honestly, I am in no state to face all those questions after an exhausting fight and at already one in the night. Maybe later I will figure at least some of them out.