So sorry for the big wait but I´ve had a lot on recently including flying home for Easter holidays. Also this Chapter posed a lot of problems including challenging my self restraint and I had to rewrite at least half of it. On the upside it is good and long so I hope you all enjoy :-)
Just a little note, there is underage drinking in this Chapter that was needed for the purpose of the story but that does not mean I condone it in real life in any way at all. Also remember that I´m from the UK so Bella is legal to drink where I´m from and well, Jacob he´s a man :-)
Rated M for a reason guys! MATURE content ahead.
Jakes POV
With Bellas help the form was completed in a mere half an hour and it was completed well. Like an obedient student I wrote down everything she called out to me. It was amazing how she made my small skills sound so good. Afterwards Bella made a quick lunch which I mainly scoffed as she plagued me with questions about the weekend.
The weekend plan had in fact only come together a few days earlier. Emily had a cousin Abigail who lived in Florence, Oregon but she was coming to La Push to spend the summer with her. Abigails´ family owned a cabin in Packwood which was about half way between Florence and Forks and she had brought some friends with her to stay for a weekend before they parted ways. Her Father had suggested that she invite some people from Forks down too so that we could all get to know one another before she accompanied us back home and she had leapt at the idea.
Emily had politely refused claiming that she felt a little too old for a 'teenage party' but had suggested a few of the pack and Bella go down to meet Abigail. Abigail and Emily had always been close due to Abigail's often absent parents and as a result she knew about the wolves. However she had only visited a few times and it had been many years since I saw her, in those days I was decidedly wolf free. I wondered how Abigail would have changed, as a young girl she had been eccentric and carefree despite her poor upbringing. I hoped she had kept those qualities.
I had decided to keep the trip a secret from Bella but I had already talked to Charlie and he had been surprisingly lenient about the whole thing. He did warn me however that if anything happened to Bella he would have no choice but to use his gun on me. I tried to look appropriately frightened at this and saw him smirk in satisfaction. I explained that I wanted the trip to be a surprise for Bella and he agreed on the stipulation that I got Bella to call him when we arrived.
'So'said Bella as she finished washing the dishes.
'What kind of clothes to I have to bring for this weekend?'
I pondered this, after all I wasn't exactly an expert in girls' clothing.
'Em just regular clothes and maybe some hiking clothes and eh em a swimsuit?' Why did I have to blush as I said that? I mean it wasn't a big deal. There was a hot tub at the cabin so obviously she'd need some sort of swimming gear.
'Eh right ok, well I'll go pack then' she made her way out of the kitchen and as I watched her she turned to me.
'Come on'.
I leapt up from the table delighted that packing wasn't girls territory that I wasn't allowed into. I loved Bella's room mainly because it was well just so Bella. Everything was soft and light and smelt like her and he bed was so comfortable. But I really didn't need to think about that anymore. I sat on the bed and lent against the headboard as I watched her haul a bag out from the bottom of her cupboard and start to fill it. I really tried not to look when she began packing underwear and I tried not to wonder what colour her swimwear would be. It took a lot of concentration not to imagine her in the shower when she added a towel and shampoo and shower gel. I thought packing was meant to be the difficult part, not watching someone pack. This was impossible. I tried to distract myself by telling her that I had already cleared her departure with Charlie and by telling her who was coming with us and that the journey would take about four and half hours.
By the time we got into the Rabbit Bella was bouncing with excitement and some nerves too I could tell. Thankfully we had enough cars so that I didn't have to take any of the boys. It would just be me and Bella for the next couple of hours. I smiled at her as we pulled out of her driveway and squeezed her leg in excitement, I was so looking forward to this weekend purely because I got to spend all of it with Bella.
The hours passed quickly in the car, we played music and sang a long and told stories about our childhood and the journey came to an end before I knew it. Directions had never been my forte and I was glad therefore that I only had to follow Quil who was driving in front of me. In all it was Bella, myself, Quil, Embry, Jared and Leah who had come for the weekend but I was unsure of how many of Abigails friends would be there or what the sleeping arrangements would be. There was no way that Bella and Leah would be pairing up in a room anyway.
Bella gasped aloud as we pulled up in front of the cabin and I couldn't blame her, it was a pretty fantastic sight. We were in the clearing of a forest and in front was a large, tall cabin with huge windows and it was surrounded on all sides by a wide wooden decking. Over the treetops there were impressive views of a nearby mountain and when we stepped out of the car I could hear the rush of water which signaled that there was a river close by. This was going to be an amazing weekend.
We had barely time to look awkwardly at each other when Abigail came rushing down the steps. She had grown up a lot since we had last left and there was no doubt that she had become very attractive. I could almost feel the competitiveness from the other boys and they were far from happy when it was I who she greeted first.
'Jake is that you? I can´t believe it, I barely recognized you!' she hugged me eagerly and I laughed and assured her that it was indeed me. She then moved back to greet the other boys her honey blonde hair gleaming in the setting sun. Abigail was the opposite of Bella in almost every way. She was willowy and graceful and had long blonde hair and bright blue eyes and I was happy to see that she seemed to have retained her carefree, open personality. She hugged Bella as if she were a long lost sister and before they had even exchanged two words she had announced that they were going to be the best of friends. Perhaps this was one of the reasons that Leah didn't look overly pleased to be embraced by her but then again Leah was hard to figure out.
'Come in, come in' Abigail urged and we followed her up the steps after quickly retrieving our bags from the cars.
The cabin was amazing, it may have been in the middle of the woods but it was far from basic. The entrance hall was vast and on the left of it there was a wooden staircase leading up to a landing which we could see. There were doors and windows in every direction and already the sound of laughter could be heard.
'Come and meet the rest of the guys' Abigail smiled as she led us into a room on the right of the cabin. This was evidently the living room; it had lots of plush sofas and an amazing floor to ceiling stone fireplace. The views out of the many windows were incredible. There were three girls and two guys in the room and they all came forward with broad smiles and hugs and back slaps. Abigail introduced us to them quickly but it would be a while before all their names sunk in, none the less they seemed like a fun group of people.
'Let me show you to the rooms upstairs so you can dump your bags and decide who is sleeping where'.
I felt Bella draw closer to me as she said these words and I tried hard not to think what this meant. We followed Abigail up the wide staircase and along the landing upstairs where she stopped and gave us our options.
'Ok we have a full house so there is one double bed left, a room with a single and there is a room with four bunk beds in it. She pushed open the doors of each room as she spoke of it. Josh hasn't picked a room yet which is annoying but don't worry about him, just sort yourselves out and he'll sleep anywhere he´s told. I'll see you all downstairs in a while' she left us with a grin and we all turned to look at one another.
'Well the obvious choice is to let Leah and Bella share the double bed and we'll all sleep in the bunk beds and then Josh can have the single' piped Jared.
Bella looked horrified at the very thought but Leah quickly ruled out that idea.
'That's not happening and quite frankly I don't want to share a bed or a room with you lot or anyone else so I'm taking the single. See you soon' she smiled a triumphant smile and exited, making her way toward the single.
'She's actually a bitch. Why the fuck did she have to come?' moaned Quil.
'Coz Sam said it would be good to have more girls go to meet Abigail' Jared responded glumly.
'Yeah but she isn't a girl, she's a fucking monster and coming from someone like me that's saying something' exclaimed Quil angrily.
'Let's just forget about her ok, what are we gonna do about these rooms?´ asked Jake.
'I suppose two of us could share the double bed' suggested Embry gesturing between the boys with a disgusted look on his face.
'I don´t really think Bella wants to stay in a room with three guys though' stated Jake.
'So she'll take the double, we all stay in here and Josh can sleep on the sofa. You heard Abigail, he'll sleep anywhere' Quil presented this as though it had been already decided but Bella finally spoke.
'We can't do that! That's really rude!'
She did have a point so I had a solution.
'Ok Josh can stay in here with you three, Bella can stay in the double and I'll sleep on the sofa' this seemed like the best way forward and besides I was already fed up talking about it.
'Am I poisonous or something? You can sleep beside me in the bed Jake I promise you won't catch anything' with these words Bella left the landing quickly and went into the double room her cheeks furiously red.
The boys looked at me with raised eyebrows but I was still too taken back by this rapidly decided plan to anything more than blink blankly at them. In the end we parted ways to freshen up a bit after the journey. It felt very strange to be entering a room that Bella and I would be sharing.
Our room.
Although I knew that none of the pack would believe me I genuinely had not had anything like this in mind when I invited Bella along this weekend. I wanted her here purely because I loved her company and because I thought she deserved a break after all the studying she had been doing amongst other stressful events. It was something Charlie had agreed with me on. I tried not to imagine his face if he knew that Bella and I were sharing a bed. He would flat out kill me. On the upside at least this way I knew she was safe although I was beginning to wonder who the predator was.
Did I count as one? If Charlie could read my mind I would say he would definitely count me as one.
Bella was sitting cross legged on the double bed with her phone at her ear. I could tell that she was talking with Charlie and reassuring him that everything was fine. I paused awkwardly at the foot of the bed and then sat down as I waited for her to finish the conversation. Finally silence blanketed us and quickly I began to speak with my back still turned to her;
'I'm really sorry that you have to share with me Bella, I really didn't know that this was the way things would work out. I honestly don't mind sleeping on the sofa so if you want me to just say the word'.
I was rambling terribly. I paused, took a deep breath and then managed to say what I was really trying to.
'I didn't plan this Bella. I promise you I didn't' I couldn't help but turn and look at her as I said this. I wanted her to know that I was being honest, that I hadn't lured her under false pretences.
'I know you didn't silly. Stop stressing out it's fine. Besides if I let you sleep on the sofa I am quite sure that I would never have heard the end of it' she smiled and suddenly everything was alright again.
I stood up eager to have a look around our new room now that the important issue had been cleared up. The enormous double bed was in the centre of the room and behind it there was a large window that ran the length of the bed. The view was incredible. There was a full length mirror, a chest of drawers, a desk and a cupboard. A door on the left hand side led into a generous sized en suite with a large shower and snow white towels which matched the bed sheets. It was undoubtedly a beautiful room and it made me keen to properly start enjoying myself.
I knew that Bella was a little nervous, parties and new people weren't really her scene but I was convinced that she would enjoy the weekend. She needed to try new experiences and Abigail and all of her friends seemed lovely. When I finished my tour I turned to find her sitting in the same position on the bed smiling serenely at me.
'What are you smiling at?'
'Nothing in particular I'm just very happy. Thank you for taking me here Jake, it's an amazing place and Abigail seems really nice'.
I grinned at her words as they alleviated the worry I had harbored in the back of my mind. I had been right; Bella needed to be taken out and shown to the world not hid away as that leech had done. She was beautiful and the rest of the world needed to see that and she deserved to see and experience the rest of the world. This weekend was just the beginning.
'You're welcome. I'm just going to change my top and stuff and then will we head back downstairs? We need to find food because I am starving and there is a high chance I will collapse if I don't eat within the next 15 minutes'.
Bellas POV
I laughed at Jakes proclamation, the boy really could eat and I suppose it had been quite a while, even I was feeling hungry.
I still couldn't believe that we were here. This place was beautiful and the scenery was breathtaking. I had been impossibly nervous when Jake had finally explained what was going on as we had pulled in front of the cabin. However despite having only spent 10 minutes in her company there was something I instinctively liked about Abigail, she seemed so breezy and open and friendliness radiated from her. Her friends had been equally welcoming and as I knew all of the people I had arrived with pretty well I didn´t feel as intimidated as I usually would have done in this circumstance.
I could see why Charlie would have agreed to this plan, he was always urging me to go out more and socialize and so was Jake. It was only now that I could see their point; I had been so caught up in Edward and his world that I had forgotten all about the world I belonged in. It was natural for me to enjoy others company and whilst I would never be a mad party person this situation seemed like a fun and relaxed way to really start to socalise a little more.
The room situation was awkward and although I would never have wanted to share with Leah her abrupt decision did nothing to help the situation. There was no way I was going to let Jake sleep on the sofa when there was a space beside me, we were friends. Friends shared beds. There was nothing else to it.
I tried not to think of what I had felt the last time we shared a bed but it was difficult when I looked up to find Jacob peeling his t-shirt off and spraying deodorant. I gulped as I watched his muscular physique, there was something so incredible about his body and I couldn't help but look. Why was it that he could not keep his clothes on in front of me? Please tell me he wasn't doing this on purpose again? However he was talking to me whilst he pulled out a new top and I got the impression that he was so used to being topless that this was natural for him.
Now that I was trying to lead a more normal life or at least pretend to I had become a little more sociable in school even though the majority of this consisted of complaining with my peers about graduation. Jessica had, as always been keen to see 'normal' Bella return and despite the previous disastrous attempt at an outing she had invited me shopping. Partly to prove to Jess that I wasn´t a complete nutjob and that I did actually enjoy how forgiving she had been with me I had been more forthcoming on the shopping trip.
However I couldn't deny that when Jess insisted on 'making me over' and made me try on more sexy clothes than usual I felt distinctly uncomfortable. Then looking in the mirror I had thought of Jake and how incredible he always managed to look. Before I knew what was happening and much to Jessica's delight I was going crazy buying clothes and underwear I would never have dreamt of wearing.
I had brought some of those clothes with me this weekend and although I was a little nervous about wearing them I was also keen to see Jakes reaction. Would he leer at me as I had done at him? Friends could feel attracted to one another couldn't they? That didn't necessarily mean anything was ever going to happen even if they were sharing the same bed for the weekend. I made for the bathroom to change and I knew that I was trying to convince myself as I pulled my jeans off and instead took out my new khaki trousers.
They were tight, skinny trousers in a dark green colour with strategic pockets on the outside. The hugged every inch of me and despite my nervousness I felt good in them, they were surprisingly comfortable. I paired them with a fitted v neck white t shit that hinted at a bit of cleavage. I felt sticky and gross after the car journey so I sprayed myself with deodorant and perfume, fluffed my hair and applied more make-up than I usually would. Trying to act as if this is what I normally dressed like I left the bathroom.
Jakes POV
I knew in my head that I was being utterly ridiculous but something about that bed made me want to jump on it. It was a past time I had enjoyed thoroughly in my youth but my werewolf transformation had meant that such actions were cut (in my opinion) dramatically short. I now had to exercise great caution around furniture unless I wanted to reduce it to a pile of sticks.
However this bed looked decidedly sturdy, I checked underneath and the planks were of thick wood and none of them were broken.
Should I? Shouldn´t I?
I teetered on the edge of indecision, afraid of breaking the bed but then I just thought fuck it. If it broke I could deny all knowledge or probably fix it. I bounded on to the bed and began jumping with vigor delighted that there were no ominous sounds.
It was like this that Bella found me when she left the bathroom. I had been having too much fun to listen out for her leaving and now she found me jumping up and down on a bed like a moron.
Not cool.
To my immense relief however she laughed and before I knew it she had joined me on the bed jumping like crazy. All of a sudden I was flung back to the past when Bella and I had just been kids, when we had enjoyed each other's company without all the complications the world threw at us. It was a touching moment, a moment where things were how they used to be. Where there was no confusion or hurt.
But it was over too soon. The bed began to creak and panting we realized we had to stop before we broke it entirely or to be more accurate before I broke it entirely. As we stepped down off the bed I looked at Bella and noticed her clothes for the first time. They reminded me that we were definitely not children any more, they were tight and they showed off Bella's slim figure incredibly. The trousers clung to her legs and bum and the top just enticed me to look down at it.
My cock twitched.
No we were definitely not children any more.
The thoughts that were running though my head right now were not childlike.
Fuck I have never in my life wanted to rip nice clothes to shreds like I did right now.
This in turn reminded me of how confusing things remained and I wondered if there would ever be a day when I could undress Bella Swan.
I needed to get out of this room, I needed food and I needed a strong drink.
'Let's go and see what the story is with food, I'd say my brothers are starving too'.
She smiled broadly as I said that and I asked her why, it had been such a benign comment after all.
'I just love it the way you call them your brothers, that's all' she replied. The comment stumped me. I knew that they weren't directly my brothers but in my wolf form they were and my wolf form was half of who I was.
There was only one real answer to the comment 'They're my family' I shrugged and she smiled again. We did'´t mention the fact that Leah hadn't been addressed, Leah was of course my sister but my relationship with her was strained to say the very least. I, like my brothers wished she hadn't come this weekend although I felt bad in admitting it even to myself. After all she was family too.
I hoped this weekend would assure Bella that the pack was ok with having her back in my life. She knew not to expect a welcome from Leah but this would at least prove to her that Quil and Embry were fine with her and that Jared was coming to accept the idea too. I had spoken with the pack and whilst Leah had merely glared and thought irritating things the rest seemed to accept that I had a weak point with Bella and they would do better to accept it than fight me on it. I could tell that some of them were not happy about it, afraid that Bella would mess me up again or worse, send me away again but they were doing as I asked and I appreciated that. If Leah put one toe out of line this weekend I was going to bite it off the next time we phased and that was a fact. She had been warned.
We made our way through the house to where the noise was coming from, thankfully it was the kitchen. I was so hungry. I really hoped food was on the agenda. Thankfully Quil was exclaiming his hunger in a loud voice and claiming that he refused to do any sort of partying until he was fed. I added my voice to his and soon attention turned to where we could get food from.
Abigail walked to a notice board and came back with a handful of take away menus in her hand.
'Here let's have a look but we need to decide quickly because a lot of them stop delivering soon and we are a bit out of the way'.
I voted for pizza and a Chinese and this was agreed by most of the group, Abigail placed the order and we all moved to the living room to wait.
'So did you all sort out the rooms ok?' asked Abigail as we flicked the tv on. We told her we had and explained the situation to her.
'Excellent so I'm with the boys then?' smiled Josh and the boys laughed in agreement.
'How long have you two been together then?' asked one of the girls called Rose who was dating the remaining boy, Michael. The question flustered me and I could feel Bella beaming beside me. I tried to sound nonchalant as I responded.
'Oh we're not together, we're just good friends'. I could feel the skepticism in the room not helped by my brothers' smirks. This was all Leah´s fucking fault, if she had only been more co-operative. Then Josh spoke to Bella and I honestly nearly phased on the spot.
'So you're single then Bella?' he asked with a jaunty grin.
'Oh eh, yeah, I suppose I am' she replied after a pause.
Who the fuck did this guy think he was? Who just asks a girl that? Never mind Bella.
My Bella.
But her answer and the stabbing feeling in my gut reminded me that she wasn't mine, she never had been and she might never be. The thought made me want to bury my head in my hands and cry.
I didn´t know how long I could keep doing this.
I lapsed into silence as the rest of the group talked and finally the food arrived. Thankfully my depressing thoughts had not lessened my appetite and I devoured the food. It nearly turned into a fight with my brothers and the two other boys all diving at the food at the same time as me; I swear I nearly growled at Jared when he took the last slice of pizza. I was sort of full but I could have ate more and I was pissed that Jared had gotten the last slice, I didn't know if this was my wolf side coming out or if this was normal man behavior. The lines got a little blurry sometimes.
As I watched him eat the slice gloatingly in front of me and resisted the urge to punch him in the face and take it from him Bella nudged me in the side. It was kind of a miracle that I had even felt it as I had been so busy hating Jared.
'Here' she handed me her plate where there was the biggest slice of pizza I had ever seen. It seemed that it was meant to be two slices but the people had forgotten to cut it in two. It looked amazing but I couldn´t take food from Bella.
'No, it's fine, you eat it. It's yours. I'm ok'. It was embarrassing to think Bella had seen me glower over a bit of pizza, I really needed to grow up.
'I took it for you Jake' she smiled at me as she continued to offer me the plate.
'For me?' I asked her in disbelief.
She laughed 'Yeah I've seen you guys eat together before you know so I thought I'd pretend it was for me but save it for you. No one was going to steal it off me after all and it is a huge slice'.
I'm not joking but I could have kissed her there and then. She was the most thoughtful creature in the world. The fact that she had been thinking off me made me heart soar. What was I worrying about Josh for? She loved me, I knew that at least and she definitely didn't love him.
As for Jared. Well I couldn't help but wave the pizza in his face before I took the biggest bite. He looked like I had hit him.
This was going to be a good weekend.
How could it not be with Bella by my side?
Bellas POV
Ok I know that technically four out of the assembled men can turn into animals but really did that excuse them for eating like them whilst human? You would have thought this was the only food we were going to see for the weekend the way they dived at the food and at one point I thought the pack were going to kill each other. The other boys didn't really have much of a chance.
When it had been my turn to pick my food I took a big piece of pizza for Jake, it didn't look like I had taken any extra as my appetite is still very small so no one commented. I knew how much he liked his food and I didn't think we had ordered enough. Sure enough when Jared grabbed the last slice of pizza Jake looked furious, it was all I could do not to laugh as he glowered at him eating. The look of appreciation on his face when I had presented him with the slice I had taken from him was priceless. Honestly I would do anything for Jake if it meant I got to be the recipient of such adoration.
Finally the food was finished and the cartons removed and as Abigail exclaimed we could 'get the party started'. This particular part concerned me a little, I hadn't really been to any parties so I wasn't sure what the plan was. It turned out that we had to turn off pretty much every light in the house apart from the low lamps and those in the kitchen and we had to turn some music up pretty high. Then we all traipsed to the kitchen to prepare some drinks.
Abigail pulled me from Jakes side and whispered conspiratorially in my ear 'Let's make some cocktails, I can't stand the taste of beer'. I agreed readily mostly because I hated the bitter taste of beer too but also because it sounded fun. Together we emptied the fridge of all interesting drinks and then Abigail or Abi as she insisted on being called produced two cocktail shakers.
'Eh Abi I don't know what any of this stuff tastes like on its own never mind together' I confessed feeling embarrassed by my lack of knowledge but she merely shrugged.
'Yeah I don't know what half of it is so we'll just have to taste it all before we decide to add it'. This sounded like the most sensible of ideas and so we set to work.
Cocktail making is so much fun.
We sipped at everything before we decided to add it and I was attacked with a world of flavors I didn't even know existed. Somehow, probably due to my ability to cook I was able to mix well and came up with some sweet tasting cocktails. Abi's on the other hand were lethal and bitter but we laughingly drank them anyway. Soon Abi's other two friends came to join us and a divide came between the boys and the girls although we didn't mind it. Abi's friends were as sweet as she was and they were quick to pull Leah into our fold. To start with I tensed at this but either the alcohol or my general happiness pushed this to back of my mind and for once I wasn't searching for her dirty looks. In fact I couldn't have cared less if she had been giving me them.
Miraculously Leah seemed to relax a bit and soon I was convinced that she was actually having fun. True she avoided looking or communicating with me at all but she smiled and laughed along with the others and I couldn't help but wonder whether we all judged her too hard. She had a rough time of it being the only female in the pack and that was without the Sam, Emily triangle being thrown into it. It seemed to me that outside of the poisonous environment she was trapped in that she flourished a little.
Soon however thoughts such as these became beyond my capabilities and for the first time in my life I was laughing with a group of girls and none of it was fake. I was genuinely enjoying myself and the cocktails were disappearing quicker than before. Soon we got fed up making different concoctions and decided on one that I had created. I tried to remember all the ingredients as I filled the shakers and then tipped their contents into an enormous jug. Once this was filled I took my glass and followed the others from the kitchen into the living room where we were met by some of the boys sprawled across the sofas and the ground laughing like hyenas.
Abi placed the jug of cocktail down on a table in the middle with a concentrated effort then flopped at the bottom of the table. We joined her and soon the boys present were questioning the pink drink we coveted so dearly. Abi explained that I had created it and that it was a secret recipe. She did however allow each of the boys a small sip and I was pleased when they all proclaimed that it was great.
I was aware that this was far more alcohol than I had ever consumed but I felt ok, if a little giggly. I was having fun and enjoying the carefree feeling that coursed through my veins. Everything felt relaxed and funny and the conversation was light. I looked across the room and saw that Rose was cuddled up to her boyfriend Michael and it made me want Jake. It had been too long since I last saw him, since I felt him.
I felt no inhibitions as I crawled over to him where he was seated on the floor his back against a sofa. I leant in against him and his warmth encircled me at once, how had I ever managed to drag myself away from him.
'Hey Bells, are you having fun?' he asked and I nodded. This was a lot more fun than I imagined parties could be.
'Are you?' I asked and he agreed that he too was having a fantastic night.
Abi broke our brief conversation by announcing that we should all play a game. I felt a little wary at this proclamation but the alcohol in my veins stopped me from retreating altogether. I think I was a little tipsy.
Abigails friends Katie and Harley volunteered to go and find the rest of the boys so we could begin this elusive game. I settled against Jake and waited for them to return.
Quills POV
This was a good party, even Leah seemed to be lightening up a little. I was outside with Josh leaning against the balcony with a cold beer in my hand. It was one of many but I felt very little, part and parcel of being so big and also having werewolf jeans. We could hear a lot of noise from the living room and so I suggested to Josh that we move back inside to where the party seemed to be. He agreed but as we moved toward the door he stopped me.
'So Bella and Jake are just friends then?' he questioned and I nodded hesitantly. This was dangerous territory and there was nothing I could say that would sound right.
Josh was nodding too now, looking pleased.
'Alright then, well if that's all there is between them I think I might make a move sometime this weekend' he winked at me and headed through the door and into the kitchen.
Fuck.
What the hell was I supposed to do now?
It was true that Bella and Jake were just friends but that didn't really cover whatever strange relationship they had going on.
The fact remained that whether they were meant to be 'just friends' or not if Jake saw Josh making a move on Bella he would rip him to pieces and he wouldn't even have to be in wolf form to do it.
I needed to talk to Embry.
Jakes POV
Abigails two friends returned surprisingly quick having found Quil and Josh in the kitchen. Abigail whooped in delight and announced that we were going to play a game called Never Have I Ever. I didn't know how I felt about this and I felt Bella stiffen beside me.
'The rules' Abigail continued 'are simple. Everyone has a full drink and we each take it in turns saying something. For example I might say Never Have I Ever ate a pizza, if I have in fact done this and I am lying I take a drink from my glass. If someone in the group has also done it they drink too. So it's kind of a truth game'.
The game itself sounded good but it was the statements I was worried about, somehow I did not think they would be about pizza. This wasn't a truth game it was a revealing game and there were some things I wasn't sure I wanted to know. It didn't look as though I had any choice though as everyone else nodded enthusiastically and moved to sit in a circle on the floor. I felt Bella move a little away from me and saw her fill her glass as ordered. Abigail cleared her throat, announced that she was going first and that we would be taking turns in a clockwise direction.
This was really happening then.
It started of simple enough. Abigail stated that she had never kissed a boy, all the girls drank from their glasses confirming that they had all kissed a boy. Thankfully none of the boys in the group drank too. Quil followed by stating that he had never kissed a girl, myself and all of the boys drank at this and to my utter surprise Katie and Harley did too. This got some wolf whistles from the group. The game progressed with both funny and sexual statements from skinny dipping to pranks and I began to felt myself relax. Maybe this wouldn´t be so bad after all. It was Josh´s turn next and we all looked at him as he spoke;
'Never Have I Ever had sex'
The laughter stopped and everyone started looking at one another to see who would drink. I was looking at no one but Bella, I knew that I should at least attempt to conceal my interest but I couldn't. My heart was racing and my palms were sweaty, here was the question that I was too afraid to ask, the question whose answer I was sure would break my heart.
Her glass remained on the floor and she looked me resolutely in the eyes before her gaze dropped to my own glass which was in my hand. I kept it there, it was where it belonged.
Finally it began to register with me that Bella had not slept with the leech, she was virgin. I smiled broadly at her, elation filling me like a balloon and she gave a small, embarrassed smile in return, her cheeks going red. I was not going to fool myself into thinking that they had done nothing but kiss but the rest I could deal with. She hadn't slept with him that was all that mattered to me.
I turned to find that a lot of the group were giving us strange looks, I suppose our reactions weren't exactly normal. I didn't see who else had drank or not but I didn't care and besides Quil would fill me in later no doubt. The game moved on but the tone had changed now that the biggest question of all had been breached, the questions now were all of a sexual nature and I was finding it hard to keep my cool. It was Jareds turn next
'Never Have I Ever eh played with myself' he stated with a roguish smile.
Oh hell.
Well I had to drink to that one, I barely left myself alone. I nearly spat the drink back out though when I saw every girl in the room take an embarrassed sip. Every girl included Bella. Holy shit, I was now given a million more images to help play with myself. This was becoming heated and I was dreading the next question.
'Never Have I Ever felt a girls boobs'.
I drank to that, aware of Bella's piercing gaze.
I refused to meet her eyes.
'Never Have I Ever given a blowjob'.
I tried not to choke and not to stare at Bella but I could barely help it. I did not like the thought of that. It seemed I was going to find out every detail of what Bella had and had not done.
Her glass remained in her hand.
I could sing. Literally give me a big enough audience and I could sing.
'Never Have I Ever gone down on a girl'.
My glass stayed on the ground, that was something I had definitely not done although I was surprised so many of the group had.
'Never Have I Ever eh played with a guy'.
Shit.
I needn't have worried, once again Bellas glass did not move. I of course was delighted with all of this but she was getting some strange looks from the group, especially the pack who knew about her relationship with Edward. Bella was surprisingly innocent for her age. I was pleased obviously but curious as to why she had never experienced anything with Edward, they had been together a long time. I knew that sex was dangerous but what about other stuff. Couldn't they touch one another at all without risking her life? Maybe he had touched her but refused the return. I didn't want to think of that.
I knew what was coming next and I was dreading it but I couldn't lie. She had been honest with me.
'Never Have I Ever played with a girl'.
I drank under her watchful gaze and then met her eyes but they had a look in them that I couldn't quite fathom.
The next question came from Josh and in my view it was purposely vindictive. He knew that Bella was the only person who wouldn't drink at it.
'Never Have I Ever seen a man's penis'.
When everyone finished drinking at this except Bella the game continued but died somewhat. All the interesting questions had been asked and soon after the game ended. People fell into smaller groups chatting and drinking but I felt how distant and quiet Bella was. It wasn't long until she said that she was going to bed, I nodded and watched her leave the room. I wanted to go with her but I thought that my departure with her would look very obvious, besides she might want some time alone.
In minutes however she had returned to my side and whispered in my ear;
'I forgot my pajamas'.
'Ok I'll get you a t-shirt, come on'.
Glad to have an excuse to leave I followed Bella up the stairs and into our room. I wasn't tired but I had no desire to go back downstairs again.
'We seem to have a slight problem' I announced after rifling through my bag.
'What?' she asked in strange voice from where she sat on the bed.
'I only brought a t-shirt for tonight and tomorrow and I obviously didn't think I´d be staying with you so I didn't bring any pajamas either. We could just both go naked?' I suggested and was rewarded with a laugh.
'Just give me the t-shirt you're wearing, that will do fine' she said.
I took the t-shirt off and threw it to her hoping it didn't smell bad. She lifted it and made her way to the bathroom to change.
'Hey' I called after her 'we didn't figure out what I'm meant to wear for pajamas?' this was a serious enquiry but she didn't turn to face me. Instead she merely said
'What you wore last time Jake' before shutting the door in my dumbstruck face.
Ok so what I wore last time wasn't exactly a lot. It was usually what I wore to bed but didn't things change when I was sharing a bed with a girl? Last time with Bella hadn't exactly been planned so that was different. I suppose this time wasn't planned either though and with no other options I stripped my jeans off and waited for her to leave the bathroom so I could brush my teeth. It occurred to me as I sat there that I probably should have kept the jeans on until after I had brushed my teeth but I wasn't putting them back on again.
Bella exited the bathroom shortly and I felt my stomach hit the floor.
The sight of her dressed only in my t-shirt was enough to make my heart crumble. She looked so beautiful but what got to me most of all was that she looked like mine.
I tried to shake these thoughts from my mind and we passed one another as I made for the bathroom, each of us trying so hard not to stare. I suppose it made sense why she looked at me so much. I had never thought about it much before but by the sounds of it she didn´t see any of Edward.
Not that she would want to.
Skinny little fucker.
I smiled at my reflection and left the room. Sadly Bella was already in bed so her legs were tucked out of sight. I got into the bed beside her and turned off the lamp. We may have been sharing a bed but the gulf between us was immeasurable. I knew she wasn't sleeping. I had to talk to her, to try and explain, to try and work out what she was thinking.
'Bella tonight, with the game, well I'm sorry. I should have made some excuse and we could have done something different'.
Her silence seemed to last an eternity but then I felt her turn to face me although the bed was so big this didn't mean she was anywhere close to me. I could just make out her features from the moonlight coming through the window above us.
'Don't be sorry, it wasn't your fault'.
The silence descended on us once more but I didn't break it, I felt that Bella was building herself up to say something.
'We know a lot more about one another after that game. Don't you want to ask why? I won't be mad if you do.
'Bella I'm not asking anything, you already have been made to answer questions you didn't want to tonight. It is up to you what you want me to know'.
Silence again.
'I do want you to know but it's something I can't quite understand and well, I'm embarrassed Jake'.
'Bella you have nothing to be embarrassed about…' I began but she cut me off.
'Yes I do, I had a boyfriend who didn't want to touch me, who didn't want to do anything! What does that say?' she cried in despair.
'It says that he was a fucking idiot Bella, that's what it says. Besides things were different for you, sex would have been so dangerous, he could have killed you'.
'That's what he used to say, but he wouldn't even try and what about other stuff Jake? He always had an excuse why not and I was throwing myself at him like some desperate freak'.
Ok I was getting even more pissed off with Edward now and I hadn't thought that was possible. Bella thought he wouldn't go near her because she wasn't desirable.
'Bells you weren't desperate, it's normal to feel they way you did about stuff like that. Honestly Edward was an asshole and you can't exactly say he was normal'.
'Even besides Edward I've done nothing or seen nothing! And I want to Jake! I'm curious and I'm sick of being so innocent! But there has to be a reason that I am innocent, no one fancies me Jake and I don't blame them, I'm not exactly hot stuff. Even my own boyfriend didn't fancy me'.
She was kidding right? She had got to be taking the piss?
'Bella are you blind? No one fancies you? I have to stop myself from dragging you into a bed every time I see you. Don't you see the way I look at you?'
'No Jake you´re like Edward, you love me but you don´t think about me that way'.
'Don´t think of you that way? Bella every time I play with myself I think about doing you!' I was so frustrated that she didn't see how hot she was.
There was a silence after my last words and I realised that in my haste to assure her that she was attractive I might have revealed a little too much information.
Smooth Black.
'Ok eh so that might have been a eh little graphic, sorry'.
'Was it true?' she countered quickly and I mumbled a 'Yeah'.
Quietness descended once more and in it I berated myself for my appalling choice of words even if she didn't seem mad at them.
'But you've done stuff?' her quiet voice rose from the blankets.
I knew this was going to come up. There was no way of avoiding it.
'Eh yeah but it wasn't with anyone important I was just well young and well…'
I tailed off, not thinking that horny would be the best word to mention now.
'Curious' she concluded for me.
'Are you mad?' I asked fearful of her answer.
'No, how could I be?' she paused.
'I'm jealous Jake'.
Her words took me by surprise. I didn´t realise she felt so strongly about this, that she felt so shunned by Edward. Could she really be jealous of my fumble on the beach?
And I thought I was the only horny one.
I felt her draw closer and I stiffened. I was in a bed with Bella Swan, the girl of my dreams talking about sex and sexual things or her lack of to be more precise. This was all very strange. However when she came close she merely laid her head on my chest and curled up beside me.
Her hand was on my stomach but it wasn't still, it was tracing patterns up and down my abs. I could tell that she was thinking, lost in a world of her own but all I could focus on was the way her hand trailed up and down my abs sending goose bumps up and down my spine. This continued for a while and when I closed my eyes I couldn't help but imagine her hand slipping down, her hand was so soft, I could just imagine it wrapped around my cock. I had to stop. She wasn't even aware what she was doing.
I clamped my hand down on hers.
'Bella, stop. You have to stop' I gasped out, trying to control my breathing. This was not a good situation to be in so soon after such a tenuous conversation. Why did I get horny so quickly?
'Why?' she exclaimed in surprise, no doubt concerned about my breathing.
'Because, because' I started and failed trying to think of a viable excuse.
'Jake?' she probed and I caved.
'Damn Bella you're making me hard'.
Great excuse Black, really great.
I heard a sharp intake of breath from her.
'This makes you hard?' she asked in disbelief. Please no. Her curiosity should not be exercised on me, I was not normal. If we were going to make a list of all the things that made me hard we would be here for a long time.
'Yeah' I breathed, incapable of any more speech.
'But how? Why? I´m not doing anything sexual?'
Ah no she wanted to go into this with me, I was terrible at explaining myself at the best of times and I didn't think I'd be any better at this. I supposed that I had to try for her part though.
'It's just the feel of your hand rubbing, it, it eh makes me imagine you rubbing somewhere else and I can feel your boobs pressed against me. Quite frankly Bells you're driving me insane right now'.
She seemed to mull my words over and I was alarmed when I felt her continue her exploration of my abs. This was not happening to me. I was losing control of this situation way too quickly and I was losing control over myself too.
Her hand was getting lower. This was not in my imagination anymore, her hand was definitely getting lower. I felt it brush along the edge of my boxers and my damn of self restraint broke. I took her swiftly and flipped her until she was lying on her back and then I was on top of her, between her legs and before I knew what was happening I was kissing her like there was no tomorrow.
Bellas POV
We were kissing.
It was so like the last time and yet so different. The heat was there, his soft lips were there but this kiss was not cautious like the last one we shared. He was nipping at my lip seeking access to my tongue and when he did I felt a fire light along the length of my body. We kissed furiously and roughly and I groaned involuntarily. I felt him respond, his cock, rock hard now pushing further against me. Only the thin layer of our underwear separated us. A barrier so flimsy I wondered why it was there at all.
He drew my tongue between his teeth and bit it gently causing another moan to leave me and I returned his pressure below, my hips out of control as they longed for more of him. He left my mouth and began to leave kisses and bites along my neck. My hand were in his hair and then on his back clawing at the perfect russet skin. I was out of control, there was a fire inside that I knew only he could quench. I wanted more, I wanted to feel more and yet I knew somewhere deep down that we should stop before we both lost complete control.
His hands found the bottom of the t-shirt and he pulled it up revealing my breasts, I barely had time to register his faint growl as he lowered his mouth on to my nipple. He licked and flicked the soft bud with his tongue until it stood alert and then he nipped it and I groaned before he moved on to the other. His hand trailed up my sides as he worked and I wondered dimly why I had ever thought his being two years younger than me meant he knew less. There was no doubt that he knew what he was doing now.
'Jake' I groaned and he lifted his head to kiss me again. As he did so I felt all of him pressing against me once more. He was huge and he was so very hard. My hips bucked against him again and he growled into my mouth. He seemed feral, his wolf appearing in his display of raw desire. As he resumed licking at my breasts I felt his hand move to my underwear, to begin to edge them away.
'Jake' I gasped 'No'. I hoped he knew what I meant for I didn't think I could string more words together. These were not the circumstances for me to lose my virginity as much as I craved to.
He lifted his head to me again, his eyes wild with lust in the moonlight. 'I know, I just want to touch you, please let me touch you Bells' his eyes were begging his hands pulling at my underwear. I wanted to say no but I couldn't, the thought of his hands down there was too much to resist and I nodded before I knew what I was doing. I saw him bare his teeth in pleasure as he ripped the underwear off me and began to trail his hand down my body.
Jakes POV
She had nodded, she was giving me permission to do things I had only dreamed off. I ripped her underwear from her and began my descent down her body. I felt possessed, I had never known want like this in my life. I knew that we couldn´t have sex, that we shouldn't but I wanted to be in her so bad. I wanted to claim her as my own. My wolf was making a show here, now that I was so raw. I felt myself bare my teeth in pleasure and I was biting her a lot. She moaned at the biting though, she enjoyed my wolf then. The wolf that was demanding I claim her but I was fighting him.
I followed the thin trail of hair as I kissed her desperately. Then I felt her wetness and I growled again. She was so ready for me. But no. I had only my hand this time to explore her. I found the little nub I was looking for and began to stroke, leaning away so I could take in her face as she moaned my name. I slipped my other hand down my boxers and brought my cock out; I wanted to pull at myself as I brought her to an orgasm. I continued rubbing with my thumb and exploring further with my fingers, teasing the entrance I so badly wanted to penetrate. I was close to coming. I let go off my cock as I bent down to bite at her erect nipples and heard her panting breaths. My fingers were slipping smoothly between her wet folds, my thumb rubbing the little nub quicker and quicker.
'Jake' she moaned.
'Jake please' she begged. I knew what she wanted but she was going to have to ask. I wanted to hear the words come from her mouth.
'What?'
She moved her hand down on top of mine and began pushing at my fingers which rested just at her entrance.
'In, please' she pleaded.
My cock twitched again and I wrapped my hand around it and began to pump furiously as I made her confirm her wish.
'Do you want my fingers inside you Bella?' I asked and she moaned.
'Yes. Please'.
Slowly I brought one finger in and I could feel her tightness all around me, she was so wet and so small. It was all I could do not to come right there. I moved the finger in and out as she groaned and then put another in. She gasped aloud at the sensation and I began to pump my fingers in quicker and harder and deeper. I hooked them and felt her whimper at the place I'd hit. I'd found my goal. I concentrated on hitting the same spot with my hooked fingers and then when I thought she was close I began to massage her clit again with my other hand.
She was holding back, I could tell by her face. She was trying to stop herself, to last longer.
I snarled in frustration and pumped my fingers harder in her.
'Let go' I growled and she looked at me with her wide eyes.
'Let go' I repeated as I looked her straight in the eye and hit her g spot hard again. She tensed and I could feel her muscles tighten around my fingers and then she crumbled and I could feel her come. Her eyes were closed, her face flushed and her mouth moaned my name loudly as she reached her climax. I pumped furiously at my cock and soon I too was in ecstasy.
We lay panting side by side for some time until I cleaned up the mess I had made with my boxers and then flung them from the bed. Bella had pulled her top down and she turned to me;
'Jake' she began but I hushed her.
'Let's just leave all that to the morning' I said and I pulled her to lie against my chest once more.
'Ok' she agreed and we fell asleep.
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