Summary:
- This was the hardest chapter to date for me to write. Please forgive if sometimes I got a little bit too much melancholically!
- The chapter is in its entirety about the 'talk' between Jacob, Bella and Edward after Bella caught Jacob spying on them
- It is this time from Bella's POV and you'll soon understand why
- Cough… cough A few reviews wouldn't hurt either! Grin, Huge

Her Love For Her Everything (BPOV)

'Jacob, what are you doing here? What the hell were you thinking in this empty head of yours?', I was so angry that I thought I could explode any moment right now, but I was still whispering.

He didn't answer me. He didn't even look at me. I realized then that I was still naked – that both Edward and I were still naked. When I looked at Edward, though, I was completely surprised. He stood on my right side, arms crossed in front of his chest and with the most devilish grin I had ever witnessed on his face he was staring down at Jacob. Without having his talent I could see that he was enjoying this… a lot.

Edward, obviously, wasn't at all ashamed that he was naked in the middle of the forest. And why would he be? The sunrise was starting to creep up on the horizon and parts of his shoulders began shining. He looked like a god! How on earth was he able to dazzle me so much? I was supposed to be angry with him right now, 'cause his grin was my proof that he knew about our eavesdropper from the beginning.

Of course I wasn't going to be angry with him. I could never be angry at him… or at least stay angry at him for more than a couple of hours. He came to cradle me in his chest so that I wasn't exposed entirely to the dog… ahem Jacob, I mean.

When it looked like nobody was going to react, Edward said smugly into my neck:

'Love, I think our… performance got the dog speechless! My visual performance and your good sound effects definitely earned us a true fan!', he sucked on my neck while saying this. God, was he smart! He knew that his provocative speech was going to make me mad and Edward was dazzling me now, letting me speechless myself.

'Edward, stop it! He had been listening… and watching throughout the whole time while we were…', while I tried to found the right words Jacob curled into a ball. He still refused to look at us. But was he so stupid to think that we wouldn't catch him sneaking? That we wouldn't smell him? Why was he sneaking on us in the first place?

'No, I don't know. What do you mean, love? While we what?'

I couldn't believe that Edward was so comfortable with this awkward situation. I wanted to be mad. I should be mad… at both of them. But I couldn't be mad at Edward when he was biting on my ear, his breaths making me crazy and I couldn't unleash my fury on Jacob – at least for the moment – because he was cradled into a ball like a child who was caught stealing candy at the local store.

Was he trembling now? The sight of him made me sigh in exasperation. He was not a child and his actions were not childish either. He couldn't possibly expect me to forgive him for this just because he felt uncomfortable and probably regretted what he had done after he'd done it… right?

'Edward, stop teasing me! You know what I meant and I know that you knew about this whole situation. Why didn't you say something to me?', I looked at him, but quickly looked away. I didn't want to give Jacob another round and Edward's mouth so close to mine could definitely trigger me.

'Love, I want to be a good husband. You begging me back there… so loudly… so persuasively … only pushed me into doing the… right thing. Besides, I didn't want to frustrate Jacob thoughts. I even thought about doing it to you doggy style…

Just when I realized what Edward was doing, that all his talk was actually meant for the stupid eavesdropper, the trembling baby stood up. His eyes were wet and big.

'You, parasite, thinking that you can do whatever you want to do to with her just because she married you! How dare you treat her like this? She could just as easily divorce you, you know? How dare you treat her like a…

'What, mongrel? Were you about to say 'dog'? I thought you considered it a compliment when somebody was treated like one, given the inevitable fact that you are a dog yourself. But judging on what happened I have to correct myself – you are nothing but a pup waiting for his bitch to come and comfort you. Well, I don't see anyone here so you may as well leave us alone and look for her elsewhere while peeing on… ah marking your territory.'

Edward was definitely in the know about what Jacob planned to do, because as soon as I felt the earth trembling and a 'boom' sound echoed through the forest, Edward had already crept up from behind me and stood in attack mode. All his muscles were tensed, awaiting the collision.

The shaggy wolf jumped at Edward. What they both weren't prepared for was my reaction. Seeing the wolf's fangs ready to snap at Edward, I, without any second guessing, launched myself at him. I couldn't do nothing when my everything, my only, true love's existence was in danger. It was physically impossible for me.

Jacob was so confused that it was me who reacted first, that he lost his concentration while processing my quick decision.

When I leapt forward, just about to attack him, a slender but muscular posture pushed me aside. Clearly he could also not let me be in any kind of danger and took the powerful hit of the big wolf instead of me.

While I watched them fighting, I found myself into a sort of trance. I knew that they were fighting, I knew that I should stop them at the instant, but I couldn't move my body. Now their fast pacing bodies were merely in my eyes.

It all became clear to me. This was meant to happen… sooner or later. It was supposed to be like this. They… no, I mean we were always going to be enemies.

I could feel it now. I felt it right after I saw Jacob for the first time in more than 15 years. After seeing him all red and sweaty from embarrassment, embarrassment that he had been caught and not because he was spying, I felt angry and sad and betrayed. Yet these emotions didn't hurt me the way they used to when Jacob and I were in a fight years ago. I was totally indifferent to them and now I understood why.

The truth was that I was totally indifferent to him. He wasn't Jake anymore. He was Jacob Black, the werewolf. The werewolf who fought against my husband, my love...

This snapped me out of my trance.

I was instantly back to my present and all I could see was that a giant werewolf was battling Edward. I felt completely at ease for the first time when I was together with both of them. 'Cause I no longer had to cry and make myself choose.

I chose him the first time I laid my eyes on him. I died for him… and I would kill anyone for him. I couldn't believe how all this time my eyes had been closed. I wanted to cry for thinking that I loved somebody else. For making this somebody believe I loved him. But I couldn't cry anymore…

Instead I joined Edward and after doubling our forces we sent him onto the always too green turf. I sensed that Edward wanted to kill him and he prepared himself for the last, final conflict but I stopped him. No, not because of some feelings I thought I felt once for him, the werewolf. No.

'Edward, please.', my voice was calm, just like me.

'Bella… why?', Edward looked me in the eyes and all I could see was pain. Pain that I had caused some many years ago when I kissed Jacob Black. All I wanted was to stop this pain immediately. 'Why, do you always defend him? He is driving a wedge between us, Bella! Yes, yes I am jealous! Yes, I hate him! Please, Bella, for us, don't allow him to continue his quest! For us…'

'Edward, you're wrong…',

He cut me off, holding my face in his hands. His eyes were desperate, they were pleading with me. I hated what I was doing to him, what I had silently done during all those years. 'Bella, don't protect …', but now it was my turn to barge in.

'No, Edward listen to me. It wasn't him that was driving the wedge between us. It was me! But, love, forgive me, please… I've been so cruel to let him believe… that I loved him. Edward, the only person in this world that I have ever felt something for is…you! And I will stop this pain that I now see in your eyes right now.' I took his hands from my face and kissed them, before turning to Jacob, who was now just like us – naked.

He had blood streaming across his eyebrow and his mouth was thick and blue in its left corner.

'Jacob, I need to apologize… for being this vile and hypocritical person since the moment I met you… Since you revealed to me what Edward was. I… I don't know what to say. I guess this is the kind of situation where words are too limited to express the feelings…of sorrow. I am sorry. I am.', I heard Edward growl in Jacob's direction. I cautiously looked at him, but he wasn't trying to attack him again.

What Jacob told me, explained to me Edward's reaction. I guess I wasn't the only one that had changed. His voice was cold and as he spoke his eyes spit knives that tried to stab me. I realized that Jake was gone at the same moment I vowed to love Edward forever.

'You! Why am I not surprised? Letting me think, letting me hope that we… could be! You know what, Bella? Even giving the fact that you're a leech, a parasite that is going to live on the backs of others for the rest of eternity, even then you are crueler than cruel. You let me hope! You left me behind and your family and friends too for that matter… to do what? To take off with this while tricking me…'

'Jacob, I didn't …'

'…while tricking me to think that you loved me. You had me in your hands, Bella! And you knew that! Don't you even try to deny it! How on earth did you justify your actions every single day for doing so, huh? How? Did you tell yourself you left me for me? Just like your scum of a husband had made you believe and let you to me so that I could take care of you till he was back!', I growled low at his cruel words to describe my Edward. My voice had abandoned me and I didn't know what to do with myself.

I looked at my feet, desperately trying to explain to him that I myself thought I loved him. But I knew he wouldn't believe me. I searched for Edward, who had a blank expression on his face. He had removed himself a few feet away from us, giving us the chance to talk. A last chance to talk.

It was rapidly becoming clear that this was going to be my last civilized and somewhat 'peaceful' encounter with Jacob Black. I needed to get out every single misinterpretation from the past years.

When my eyes finally found Edward's I saw surprise and relief and unconditional love in them. I understood that he had been scared that I was going to leave him once I got here in Forks.

All his reluctance about this short trip was now comprehendible to me. I smiled, because I knew that as from today he would never feel unsure about me, because now I was sure about myself.

'What are you laughing at? At me, for giving you the chance to control me like a puppet or at the fact that 20 years after I am still the same fool you left behind?', If his eyes could kill, then I'd be dead now.

'Jacob, I am sorry! I don't know how to tell me how much I am sorry. I hurt you – yes! But I hurt Edward too, my husband! I wasn't being fair to him either.' I shoved my hands through the air, irritated that I could never find the words to describe to him how sorry I was.

'Oh, is that correct? And how, if I may ask have you hurt him? By denying him to fuck you the way he wants – that was what you were moaning back there right?' His face tightened at remembering Edward and I being together as husband and wife.

Sadness made place for fury. This dog was crossing my boundaries.

'Yes, that is correct! By why do you ask me? You were there the whole time! If there's somebody who'd know that than that'd be you, dog!'

His face went from gray to pale to white and then to crimson. This was the first time I had ever insulted him. Edward growled once more and came to my side – the filthy dog was probably intending on attacking me.

I had to close this chapter of my life once and for all. I didn't want my husband to get his hands dirty by killing Jacob Black.

'I'm sorry, Jacob… for everything I should be sorry for. Goodbye!' I looked for the last time into his eyes and just when I grabbed Edward's hand to go home he spoke through his teeth.

'You two are going against nature itself! You shouldn't even exist! That's why I'll make it my personal life goal to do mother nature a favor and sent you to hell – where undoubtedly your place is!'

We were almost home by the time he spoke his threat.

Now that the day broke, I was comfortable lounging on Edward's lap. He was sitting on his black leather sofa and I'd put my head onto his lap. Edward's hands were playing with my hair. He was breathing slowly in and out. I wondered what went on in his complex mind.

Since our final encounter with the bastard we had made love while taking a shower and after that we had just laid like this – or better said I had laid like this.

'Edward?', I spoke while staring at his immense CD collection.

'Yes, love?' he whispered in my hair. I could never get enough of his silky, smooth voice.

'What are you thinking right now?', he started chuckling so hard that I almost fell off him.

I straightened myself beside him. He cuddled me into his chest, allowing me to inhale his wonderful, mouthwatering scent. It pained me to realize now in how much pain he had been because of me. He had never said anything about it, worried that he might hurt my feelings. For the first time all I was worried about was him and him only. I wanted to heal him and let him feel safe just like he made me feel – like he had always made me feel.

'Why are you laughing, love?', I asked, his eyes were now bright and playful.

'Bella, my only love, in the past 20, 22 years that we've been together now it's been me and me only that has ever asked this particular question. What do you want to know, love?'

'Well, I was just wondering… What is it this time Edward?', he was laughing once more.

'Well, your wondering was just what got you into trouble, remember? Back in Forks High?', he was very enthusiastic now. Whether because of my wondering or of the distant memories I couldn't tell.

'I remember. But I can't recall anything about 'trouble' though', I said this slowly, trying to remember what kind of trouble he was referring to. At the time I met him, I was having trouble on a daily basis.

'You really can't remember? Come on, Bella!', he was really enjoying this conversation now. His eyes penetrated mine with love.

'No, I can't! Just tell me, Edward!'

He kissed me without warning, making me melt into his chest. When he ended the kiss after what seemed forever he gave me his answer.

'Me, my silly Bella! When you began wondering about me and my hero-like state. Radioactive spiders…' I burst into laughter and soon he followed too.

I loved him so much that it made my heart pump again.